Please Wake Me Up When September Ends or Let Me Here to Die!, chapter 13
Tré got up and came over to me. He had hurt in his eyes and you could tell he was going to do something to hurt us both.
"Tré what is it?" I asked, and you could hear hurt in my voice.
He kissed me and then pulled away. "Babe, I am so sorry for this."
"What? What is it?"
"I met this girl the other day, her name is Lisea."
"And?"
"Well she asked me out and I said yes."
"What are you saying?" tears rolling down my cheeks.
"Seth, it's over."
I looked at him and he walked out the door.
"Tré, please, come back," Just then the door opened to reveal Billie.
"Seth?! Holy shit. Are you ok??"
"No, Billie, I'm not because Tré broke up with me," I ran into his arms and hugged him tight. He hugged me back.
"Billie, what am I gonna do?"
"I don't know, babe, I don't know," It felt good for Billie to call me babe. I looked up at him and smiled.
"You look beautiful even though you are crying."
"Thanks Billie."
We just held onto one another for a while.
"Billie?"
"Yeah?"
"Not to be rude, but I want to be alone."
"Ok, just don't leave the house please?"
"Yeah."
And with that Billie left. I walked over and sat on the bed and looked out the window.
*A Few Hours Later*
I was still in my room when Ollie came in.
"Sweetie? You ok?"
"Yeah. I'm fine," Lie! I hate lying!
"If you want to talk about it, I'll be down stairs. Ok?"
"Yeah," She left and just after that Billie came in and sat beside me.
"You ok?"
"I think I will be. But what troubles me is why he broke up with right after..."
"Your mom died?" he asked. I nodded.
"Bill, I don't know what to do. Tré was my life. And now he is gone."
"Oh, wow."
"Yea. But I also realized something."
"What??"
"I still have feelings for him."
"Well..." he grabbed my arm and pulled me over to him.
"Well, what Bill?"
"You still have me."
I raised an eyebrow then asked, "What do you mean?"
He pulled me on top of him and looked into my green blue eyes. "I mean, I want you."
"Billie! You are so weird," I tried to get up but he pulled me back down. Then he pressed his lips to mine. What seemed like for ever lasted 1 minute. We pulled apart then look at one another.
"Whoa, Billie, that was, whoa."
"I know."
"Billie, it felt right, but I don't think it is."
"What do you mean?"
"Just kidding!"
I put my lips to his again. An hour of making out turned into falling asleep.
*My Dream*
"Billie!"
"What?!"
"Where are you?!"
"In the living room," I walked in and sat on his lap.
"I missed you."
"Babe, I missed you too."
Everything went dark. I looked around and every thing was a white color with some flowers her and there. There were 2 beds. One occupied, the other, not. I then noticed I where I was, I was 6 again and in my father's hospital room. I ran over to the bed and there lay the body of my father.
"DADDY!!!"
"Seth get away from him!" my mom yelled.
I tried to climb up on the bed but my mom had my Aunt Tally take me out.
"NO! I WANT DADY!!" I yelled, starting to cry.
"Sweetie, calm down. It's going to be ok."
"NO!" I wiggled out her grasp and back into my dad's room. "Daddy?" I crawled on the bed and looked at him. He was barley awake.
"Steph?" My dad realized I should be called Steph and not Seth, he was the only one who did.
"Daddy, what's wrong?"
"Baby girl, daddy has to go."
"Go where daddy?"
"To Heaven where God needs me."
"Can't you stay with me?"
"I wish I could."
"Daddy, I love you."
"I love you too, baby girl," his eyes closed and the heart monitor started acting up.
"Daddy?? Please come back to me," the doctors rushed in and my mom carried me out.
*End Of My Dream*
I woke up crying.
"Seth? What's wrong?"
"I saw it. Billie I saw him."
"Saw who??"
"My dad. I saw him pass away," he pulled me into a hug.
"Billie, I want to see my dad and say a proper good bye to him. And my mom."
"Seth, it's ok. Calm down."
"Billie, I want my dad, I miss him, and I need him," I said getting up and walking out of the room and down the stairs. It was 2:30a.m and I had to go to my dad's grave. Billie came running after me.
"You are not going alone."
"Billie, I'm going to see my dad's grave."
"I'll come with you," I just nodded. We walked out the door and down the drive way.
"Hey, Seth, I have a question."
"Ok. What is it?"
"Will...you be my ggg-girlfriend?"
"Billie, yes."
"Sweet!" he put his hand in mine and we walked to my father's grave. We finally got there and walked to his grave.
"Are you sure you want to be here?"
"Yeah, I am," I just sat by his grave. "Dad, it's been a little. I know I said I would come everyday, but when mom married Tom he kept me in my room. I never liked him and never will. Dad, I wish I could have one last day with you, but that might never happen. Dad, I love you, I also miss you," I stared at the grave until Billie tapped my shoulder.
"Hey, babe, we gotta get back before my mom wakes up," I nodded and got up.
We walked back hand in hand in silence. Right before we were about to go up his driveway Billie pulled me into his arms.
"Are you ok?"
"I know how you feel, babe. I lost my dad when I was 10."
"Oh, my, Billie I am so sorry."
"It's ok. I still wake up wishing he was in my mom's room with her instead of Brad."
"I know how you feel about your mom not telling you. My mom was cheating on my dad when I was 5. But they never split."
"Whoa."
"Yeah."
"Billie, I think we better get in there."
"Yeah..." We walked in the house. I laid down on the couch and Billie lied on top of me. Just then Ollie came down the stairs and stared at us.
"Seth? I thought you were with Tré."
"He broke up with me."
"Oh, I am sorry for asking."
"It's ok," She walked into the kitchen and back up to her room.
"Billie, can I ask you something??"
"Yeah."
"What if it turned out that Adie was pregnant with your kid?" he was about to say something when there was a knock at the door. He groaned but got up and answered it.
*Billie's P.O.V*
"Yeah?"
"Hi, Bill."
"Tré what do you want at 5 o' clock in the morning??"
"I need advice."
"For what?"
"I got Lisea pregnant."
"How am I supposed to help you with that?"
"I thought you could help."
"Come on in," He walked in and sat on the couch. Seth looked at him and immediately ran out of the room.
"Hold on," He nodded and I ran out to where Seth was.
"Babe, what's wrong?"
"I can't look at him. He really hurt me."
"It's ok, well you guys are friends right?"
"Billie, I don't know. I just don't know," I put my arms around her waist and kissed her softly. She kissed back and then pulled away.
"Get your cute little ass in there before he gets suspicious," I laughed at that and then got up pulling her up too. She grabbed my hand and then walked in with me.
"So, Tré what did you need??"
"Billie, what am I gonna do?"
"Thanks for saying hi to me."
"Oh, sorry Seth. Hi."
"Hi to you too."
"So what am I gonna do?"
"Man, to tell you the truth I don't know."
"Gah! I should have gone to Mikey. In fact I will," he got up and walked out.
*Seth's P.O.V*
"What was that about?"
"He got Lisea pregnant," My face fell a little. He got some girl pregnant.
"Hey babe?"
"Yeah?"
"You want to go to bed?"
"Yeah sure," He took me up stairs and we got into bed. I had my head resting on his chest and he had his arms wrapped around me.
"Are you ok? You haven't been your self since Tré got here."
"Yeah, I'm fine."
"If you say so," It was all ready 6:30 a.m. and I didn't fall asleep, but Billie did.
Just then the door flew open and in walked a man.
"Who the fuck are you?" he asked.
"Billie's girlfriend."
"Where is the little bastard?"
"What do you need him for, and please don't call him a bastard."
"Where is he?" Billie grunted and woke up. He looked over at the man and got up, causing me to get up too.
"Brad?"
"Billie get your ass down in the living room, NOW."
"Ok. Seth stay here," I just nodded.
*Billie's P.O.V*
I got up and walked down the stairs. Brad came over to me and slapped my face.
"What was that for?"
"You were out at 2 when you should have been in bed!"
"And your hitting me for that?!"
"SHUT YOUR MOUTH!!"
"Why?"
He kicked me in the shin which took me down and then started kicking my stomach.
*Seth's P.O.V*
I heard a loud thud so I got up and ran out to the stairs.
"BILLIE!" I yelled which caused him and that guy named Brad to look up.
"Seth, get...my...mom," I ran to Ollie's bedroom and knocked.
"Yes?"
I walked in, "Ollie, Brad is beating Billie up."
She got up and ran down the stairs. I followed. We got in the living room and Brad and Billie were sitting on the couch.
"Brad? Did you hurt Billie?"
"What? I am offended by that."
Ollie walked over and Billie got up, she sat where Billie was sitting. He came over to me and pulled me back up stairs.
"Billie are you ok?" I asked when we got in the room.
"Yeah, I think so."
I ran into his arms. He hugged me tight, "I didn't want you to see that."
"I know...but I...heard...the thud and...and...," I started crying uncontrollably.
"It's ok," I held on to him like there was no tomorrow. I didn't want him to go through this.
"Billie I don't want you to go through this."
"I know you don't, but who does?"
"Billie Joe haters maybe," he chuckled. We just stayed in each other's arms when there was a knock at the door.
"Come in."
Mike walked in and looked at us. "Is there something going on between you two?"
"Maybe. Why are you here?"
"We have practice today."
"Oh, ok. I'll be down in a bit," Mike left and Billie looked down at me.
"You wanna watch?"
"Yeah, sure," He grabbed my hand and we walked down to the basement.
"Bill, regular set?" Tré asked.
"Yeah."
They played a couple of songs and then stopped and looked at me.
"Ok. This one is Dry Ice."
Late Last Night I Had A Dream
And She Was In It Again
She And I Were In The Sky
Flying Hand In Hand
I Woke Up In A Cold Sweat
Wishing She Was By My Side
Praying That She'll Dry The Tears
Left On My Face I've Cried
Oh I Love Her
Keep Dreaming Of Her
Will I Understand
If She Wants To Be My Friend
I'll Send A Letter To That Girl
Asking Her To By My Own
But My Pen Is Writing Wrong
So I'll Say It In A Song
Oh I Love You More Right Now
More Than I've Ever Loved Before
Hear Those Words Straight From These Lips
I'll Need You Forever More
Oh I Love Her
Keep Dreaming Of Her
Will I Understand
If She Wants To Be My Friend
Oh I Love Her
Keep Dreaming Of Her
Will I Understand
If She Wants To Be My Friend
The Means Of Pain That's In My Heart...
The Means Of Pain That's In My Heart...
The Means Of Pain That's In My Heart...
The Means Of Pain That's In My Heart...
Late Last Night I Had A Dream
And She Was In It Again
She And I Were In The Sky
Flying Hand In Hand
I Woke Up In A Cold Sweat
Wishing She Was By My Side
Praying That She'll Dry The Tears
Left On My Face I've Cried
Oh I Love Her
Keep Dreaming Of Her
Will I Understand
If She Wants To Be My Friend
Oh I Love Her
Keep Dreaming Of Her
Will I Understand
If She Wants To Be My Friend
The Means Of Pain That's In My Heart...
The Means Of Pain That's In My Heart...
The Means Of Pain That's In My Heart...
The Means Of Pain That's In My Heart...
They finished playing and we all went up to Billie and my room.
"So, Billie, who was that song Dry Ice for?"
"You."
"Awww."
He kissed my cheek.
"Um Bill, is there something between you two?"
"Why do you guys keep asking?"
"Because we want to know," Tré nodded.
"Fine. Yes, we are going out," I blushed. Then looked over at Tré.
He was looking down.
"Does he still love me?" I asked myself. I then felt a tap on my shoulder.
"Huh? Oh, sorry I tuned out."
"It's ok."
"So. Tré, truth or dare?" Mike asked.
"Truth."
"Do you still love Seth?"
"Tré what is it?" I asked, and you could hear hurt in my voice.
He kissed me and then pulled away. "Babe, I am so sorry for this."
"What? What is it?"
"I met this girl the other day, her name is Lisea."
"And?"
"Well she asked me out and I said yes."
"What are you saying?" tears rolling down my cheeks.
"Seth, it's over."
I looked at him and he walked out the door.
"Tré, please, come back," Just then the door opened to reveal Billie.
"Seth?! Holy shit. Are you ok??"
"No, Billie, I'm not because Tré broke up with me," I ran into his arms and hugged him tight. He hugged me back.
"Billie, what am I gonna do?"
"I don't know, babe, I don't know," It felt good for Billie to call me babe. I looked up at him and smiled.
"You look beautiful even though you are crying."
"Thanks Billie."
We just held onto one another for a while.
"Billie?"
"Yeah?"
"Not to be rude, but I want to be alone."
"Ok, just don't leave the house please?"
"Yeah."
And with that Billie left. I walked over and sat on the bed and looked out the window.
*A Few Hours Later*
I was still in my room when Ollie came in.
"Sweetie? You ok?"
"Yeah. I'm fine," Lie! I hate lying!
"If you want to talk about it, I'll be down stairs. Ok?"
"Yeah," She left and just after that Billie came in and sat beside me.
"You ok?"
"I think I will be. But what troubles me is why he broke up with right after..."
"Your mom died?" he asked. I nodded.
"Bill, I don't know what to do. Tré was my life. And now he is gone."
"Oh, wow."
"Yea. But I also realized something."
"What??"
"I still have feelings for him."
"Well..." he grabbed my arm and pulled me over to him.
"Well, what Bill?"
"You still have me."
I raised an eyebrow then asked, "What do you mean?"
He pulled me on top of him and looked into my green blue eyes. "I mean, I want you."
"Billie! You are so weird," I tried to get up but he pulled me back down. Then he pressed his lips to mine. What seemed like for ever lasted 1 minute. We pulled apart then look at one another.
"Whoa, Billie, that was, whoa."
"I know."
"Billie, it felt right, but I don't think it is."
"What do you mean?"
"Just kidding!"
I put my lips to his again. An hour of making out turned into falling asleep.
*My Dream*
"Billie!"
"What?!"
"Where are you?!"
"In the living room," I walked in and sat on his lap.
"I missed you."
"Babe, I missed you too."
Everything went dark. I looked around and every thing was a white color with some flowers her and there. There were 2 beds. One occupied, the other, not. I then noticed I where I was, I was 6 again and in my father's hospital room. I ran over to the bed and there lay the body of my father.
"DADDY!!!"
"Seth get away from him!" my mom yelled.
I tried to climb up on the bed but my mom had my Aunt Tally take me out.
"NO! I WANT DADY!!" I yelled, starting to cry.
"Sweetie, calm down. It's going to be ok."
"NO!" I wiggled out her grasp and back into my dad's room. "Daddy?" I crawled on the bed and looked at him. He was barley awake.
"Steph?" My dad realized I should be called Steph and not Seth, he was the only one who did.
"Daddy, what's wrong?"
"Baby girl, daddy has to go."
"Go where daddy?"
"To Heaven where God needs me."
"Can't you stay with me?"
"I wish I could."
"Daddy, I love you."
"I love you too, baby girl," his eyes closed and the heart monitor started acting up.
"Daddy?? Please come back to me," the doctors rushed in and my mom carried me out.
*End Of My Dream*
I woke up crying.
"Seth? What's wrong?"
"I saw it. Billie I saw him."
"Saw who??"
"My dad. I saw him pass away," he pulled me into a hug.
"Billie, I want to see my dad and say a proper good bye to him. And my mom."
"Seth, it's ok. Calm down."
"Billie, I want my dad, I miss him, and I need him," I said getting up and walking out of the room and down the stairs. It was 2:30a.m and I had to go to my dad's grave. Billie came running after me.
"You are not going alone."
"Billie, I'm going to see my dad's grave."
"I'll come with you," I just nodded. We walked out the door and down the drive way.
"Hey, Seth, I have a question."
"Ok. What is it?"
"Will...you be my ggg-girlfriend?"
"Billie, yes."
"Sweet!" he put his hand in mine and we walked to my father's grave. We finally got there and walked to his grave.
"Are you sure you want to be here?"
"Yeah, I am," I just sat by his grave. "Dad, it's been a little. I know I said I would come everyday, but when mom married Tom he kept me in my room. I never liked him and never will. Dad, I wish I could have one last day with you, but that might never happen. Dad, I love you, I also miss you," I stared at the grave until Billie tapped my shoulder.
"Hey, babe, we gotta get back before my mom wakes up," I nodded and got up.
We walked back hand in hand in silence. Right before we were about to go up his driveway Billie pulled me into his arms.
"Are you ok?"
"I know how you feel, babe. I lost my dad when I was 10."
"Oh, my, Billie I am so sorry."
"It's ok. I still wake up wishing he was in my mom's room with her instead of Brad."
"I know how you feel about your mom not telling you. My mom was cheating on my dad when I was 5. But they never split."
"Whoa."
"Yeah."
"Billie, I think we better get in there."
"Yeah..." We walked in the house. I laid down on the couch and Billie lied on top of me. Just then Ollie came down the stairs and stared at us.
"Seth? I thought you were with Tré."
"He broke up with me."
"Oh, I am sorry for asking."
"It's ok," She walked into the kitchen and back up to her room.
"Billie, can I ask you something??"
"Yeah."
"What if it turned out that Adie was pregnant with your kid?" he was about to say something when there was a knock at the door. He groaned but got up and answered it.
*Billie's P.O.V*
"Yeah?"
"Hi, Bill."
"Tré what do you want at 5 o' clock in the morning??"
"I need advice."
"For what?"
"I got Lisea pregnant."
"How am I supposed to help you with that?"
"I thought you could help."
"Come on in," He walked in and sat on the couch. Seth looked at him and immediately ran out of the room.
"Hold on," He nodded and I ran out to where Seth was.
"Babe, what's wrong?"
"I can't look at him. He really hurt me."
"It's ok, well you guys are friends right?"
"Billie, I don't know. I just don't know," I put my arms around her waist and kissed her softly. She kissed back and then pulled away.
"Get your cute little ass in there before he gets suspicious," I laughed at that and then got up pulling her up too. She grabbed my hand and then walked in with me.
"So, Tré what did you need??"
"Billie, what am I gonna do?"
"Thanks for saying hi to me."
"Oh, sorry Seth. Hi."
"Hi to you too."
"So what am I gonna do?"
"Man, to tell you the truth I don't know."
"Gah! I should have gone to Mikey. In fact I will," he got up and walked out.
*Seth's P.O.V*
"What was that about?"
"He got Lisea pregnant," My face fell a little. He got some girl pregnant.
"Hey babe?"
"Yeah?"
"You want to go to bed?"
"Yeah sure," He took me up stairs and we got into bed. I had my head resting on his chest and he had his arms wrapped around me.
"Are you ok? You haven't been your self since Tré got here."
"Yeah, I'm fine."
"If you say so," It was all ready 6:30 a.m. and I didn't fall asleep, but Billie did.
Just then the door flew open and in walked a man.
"Who the fuck are you?" he asked.
"Billie's girlfriend."
"Where is the little bastard?"
"What do you need him for, and please don't call him a bastard."
"Where is he?" Billie grunted and woke up. He looked over at the man and got up, causing me to get up too.
"Brad?"
"Billie get your ass down in the living room, NOW."
"Ok. Seth stay here," I just nodded.
*Billie's P.O.V*
I got up and walked down the stairs. Brad came over to me and slapped my face.
"What was that for?"
"You were out at 2 when you should have been in bed!"
"And your hitting me for that?!"
"SHUT YOUR MOUTH!!"
"Why?"
He kicked me in the shin which took me down and then started kicking my stomach.
*Seth's P.O.V*
I heard a loud thud so I got up and ran out to the stairs.
"BILLIE!" I yelled which caused him and that guy named Brad to look up.
"Seth, get...my...mom," I ran to Ollie's bedroom and knocked.
"Yes?"
I walked in, "Ollie, Brad is beating Billie up."
She got up and ran down the stairs. I followed. We got in the living room and Brad and Billie were sitting on the couch.
"Brad? Did you hurt Billie?"
"What? I am offended by that."
Ollie walked over and Billie got up, she sat where Billie was sitting. He came over to me and pulled me back up stairs.
"Billie are you ok?" I asked when we got in the room.
"Yeah, I think so."
I ran into his arms. He hugged me tight, "I didn't want you to see that."
"I know...but I...heard...the thud and...and...," I started crying uncontrollably.
"It's ok," I held on to him like there was no tomorrow. I didn't want him to go through this.
"Billie I don't want you to go through this."
"I know you don't, but who does?"
"Billie Joe haters maybe," he chuckled. We just stayed in each other's arms when there was a knock at the door.
"Come in."
Mike walked in and looked at us. "Is there something going on between you two?"
"Maybe. Why are you here?"
"We have practice today."
"Oh, ok. I'll be down in a bit," Mike left and Billie looked down at me.
"You wanna watch?"
"Yeah, sure," He grabbed my hand and we walked down to the basement.
"Bill, regular set?" Tré asked.
"Yeah."
They played a couple of songs and then stopped and looked at me.
"Ok. This one is Dry Ice."
Late Last Night I Had A Dream
And She Was In It Again
She And I Were In The Sky
Flying Hand In Hand
I Woke Up In A Cold Sweat
Wishing She Was By My Side
Praying That She'll Dry The Tears
Left On My Face I've Cried
Oh I Love Her
Keep Dreaming Of Her
Will I Understand
If She Wants To Be My Friend
I'll Send A Letter To That Girl
Asking Her To By My Own
But My Pen Is Writing Wrong
So I'll Say It In A Song
Oh I Love You More Right Now
More Than I've Ever Loved Before
Hear Those Words Straight From These Lips
I'll Need You Forever More
Oh I Love Her
Keep Dreaming Of Her
Will I Understand
If She Wants To Be My Friend
Oh I Love Her
Keep Dreaming Of Her
Will I Understand
If She Wants To Be My Friend
The Means Of Pain That's In My Heart...
The Means Of Pain That's In My Heart...
The Means Of Pain That's In My Heart...
The Means Of Pain That's In My Heart...
Late Last Night I Had A Dream
And She Was In It Again
She And I Were In The Sky
Flying Hand In Hand
I Woke Up In A Cold Sweat
Wishing She Was By My Side
Praying That She'll Dry The Tears
Left On My Face I've Cried
Oh I Love Her
Keep Dreaming Of Her
Will I Understand
If She Wants To Be My Friend
Oh I Love Her
Keep Dreaming Of Her
Will I Understand
If She Wants To Be My Friend
The Means Of Pain That's In My Heart...
The Means Of Pain That's In My Heart...
The Means Of Pain That's In My Heart...
The Means Of Pain That's In My Heart...
They finished playing and we all went up to Billie and my room.
"So, Billie, who was that song Dry Ice for?"
"You."
"Awww."
He kissed my cheek.
"Um Bill, is there something between you two?"
"Why do you guys keep asking?"
"Because we want to know," Tré nodded.
"Fine. Yes, we are going out," I blushed. Then looked over at Tré.
He was looking down.
"Does he still love me?" I asked myself. I then felt a tap on my shoulder.
"Huh? Oh, sorry I tuned out."
"It's ok."
"So. Tré, truth or dare?" Mike asked.
"Truth."
"Do you still love Seth?"
