Please Wake Me Up When September Ends or Let Me Here to Die!, chapter 14
Tré looked around then at Mike.
"Can I do a dare?"
"No, you picked truth so you have to answer the question. Do you or don't you?"
"Um... "
I looked over at Billie who had his eyes locked on Tré.
"Tré? Do you or don't you." Tré then looked at me then looked down.
"Do you or don't you?" Mike asked getting annoyed.
"Fine, I do! Okay? Are you happy now?!"
I got up and ran out of the room and locked my self in the bathroom and cried.
I heard a knock at the door.
"Babe, you ok?"
"Billie? Is that...you?"
"Yeah, it's me." I got up and opened the door and pulled him in.
"You ok?"
"Billie, I thought he was over me, I thought that was the reason he broke up with me. What am I gonna do?" I started crying again so Billie pulled me into his arms.
"Shh. It's ok. Calm down." He kept trying to calm me down but it wasn't working.
"You know what?"
"Wha...what?"
"I think you need to see your family."
"Lik...like...Ry..Ryan?"
"Yeah." I nodded and he took his thumb and swiped away the extra tears that came falling down. I looked in the mirror and my horrible reflection looked back.
I didn't bother re-applying my makeup so I just went like I was.
Billie went in and told Mike and Tré that we would be back in a bit and grabbed his keys.
"Mom, I'll be back in a bit."
"Ok."
We got in his car and drove to my aunt's.
*At my Aunt's*
I walked in and looked around. Ryan was asleep on the couch so I went in and sat on him.
He immediately woke up and looked at me.
"Seth? Why are you crying?" I got off him and he sat up.
"Ry, Tré broke up with me then said he still loved me."
"Really? I am gonna kick his ass."I looked over at Billie who came over and sat by me with his arm around my waist.
"Look, I don't want any one to get hurt."
"But he hurt you."
"I know, but that doesn't mean you get to hurt people."
"Well, he hurt my sister. My twin in fact." I was silent.
"Well, what are we gonna do?" Billie asked. I looked at my brother.
He got up and got his car keys.
"Ryan, what are you doing?" Billie asked.
"My twin got hurt so I am going out."
"Ry, Please don't-" I was cut off by the door slamming.
"Damn it!" I yelled.
"Seth? Sweetie, language!" My aunt yelled from the kitchen.
"Sorry!" I yell back.
Billie got up and helped me up too and we walked to the door. Luckily Ryan hadn't left yet and let us get in. I was still silent because I didn't want to talk.
"So where are we going?" Billie asked.
"You'll see."
Me and Billie were in the back and I rested my head on his shoulder.
We turned a corner and I noticed we were on Billie's road. I nudged Billie and he looked out the window. We stopped in Billie's driveway and Ryan got out.
"Stay in here." He said to us.
As soon as he got to the door and knocked I quietly got out with Billie. Ollie answered and let him in.
"Bill, that's our cue."
We both got up and ran into the house and into the room Ryan and Tré were in. As soon as we got in there Ryan was hovering over Tré.
"Ryan David Watson!" I yelled he turned around. I was about to go an yell at him more gut Billie pulled me back.
"Billie Fucking Joe! If you don't let go, I am going to burst!"
"No." he said calmly.
"Ryan, if you hurt him, I'll mess you up!"
Just then Ollie came in. "What's with the yelling?"
"Ryan David Watson, Leave him the fuck alone!"
"Language!"
"Sorry Ollie." Ryan backed away and sat on the bed. Tré got up off the floor and came over to me.
"Tré are you ok?" Billie asked.
"Yeah." I kept my eyes locked on Ryan's.
Billie had finally let go of me and I ran over to Ryan.
"What were you going to do?" He looked down and didn't say anything.
"Ryan, what were going to do?" He stood up and hugged me. I hugged him back. We stayed like that for a while.
"I'm sorry Seth, will you forgive me?"
"Well, you are my twin and I love you...so yeah."
"Thanks," He let go and went over to Tré and did the same but with out my name and a hug.
Billie came over and pulled me into a passionate kiss. He pulled apart seconds later and looked at me with those beautiful green eyes of his. Tré looked over and then down.
"Tré, if you still love me...why did you hurt me?"
"I don't know."
"Billie, Ryan, Mike? Can you give us some time alone?"
They nodded and walked out and Tré came and sat on the bed with me.
"What about Lisea?"
"Well...I don't know...I thought I loved her...but I just don't know." I looked down.
"Seth, can I ask you something?"
"Yeah."
"Do you love me back?"
"Tré...I...I...don't...know...I love Billie." He looked down and stood up.I stood up too and wrapped my arms around him and gave him a hug. We let go of one another and walked out of the room. I walked down the stairs and over to Billie. Mike and Ryan left to give us some privacy. I started to cry.
"Hey, don't cry. Come on, babe cheer up."
I looked over at him and he pulled me into a hug.
"Billie...what...am...I...gonna...do?" I said in between sobs.
"I don't know babe, I don't know babe."
I kept crying when someone sat beside me and Billie on the couch. I couldn't tell who it was because of my blurry vision.
"Tré, why did you do that?" Billie asked. I cried harder. "Shhhh."
I got up and Billie followed. I ran up to our room and sat on the bed with Billie sitting beside me.
"Hey can I sing you something?" he asked. I nodded. He got out his guitar and started to play.
I Wish I Could Tell You
But The Words Would Come Out Wrong
Oh If You Only Knew
The Way I Felt For So Long
I Know That We're Worlds Apart
But I Just Don't Seem To Care
These Feelings In My Heart
Only With You I Want To Share
The First Time I Caught A Glimpse Of You
Then My Thoughts Were Only Of You
I Hope That When Time Goes By
You Will Think The Same About Me
Many Nights Awake I Lie
I Only Wish That You Could See
I Know That We're Only Friends
I Hope This Feeling Never Ends
If I Could Only Hold You
It's The Only Thing I Want To Do.
The First Time I Caught A Glimpse Of You
Then My Thoughts Were Only Of You
"Aw." Was all I managed to say. He came over and sat beside me.
"I'm glad you like it." I smiled.
"Billie, why does he still love me?"
"I don't know, baby girl, I don't know." We cuddled and fell asleep like that.
A Few Days Later
*Billie's P.O.V*
We were in the living room just hanging out. Seth was sitting on my lap when the phone rang. I groaned and looked at Mike.
"Mikey, please get the phone."
"Why me?"
"'Cause I have Sethy on my lappy," She giggled which made me smile.
"Fine," He said and went to the phone.
About 10 minutes later Mike came back with wide eyes and a huge grin.
"What?" I asked.
"We're going on tour!" he yelled.
"What?!"
He started doing a little dance which made me, Seth, and Tré laughed at.
Seth got up and I got up too. I looked at Seth who was looking down.
"Babe, what's wrong?"
"You guys are leaving which means I wont get to see you for how ever long." I pulled her into a hug.
"Hey, maybe we can ask if you can come."
She smiled her gorgeous smile and I winked. Tré came over and got in the hug too. We looked at him and he said, "I got lonely."
I looked at him weirdly and looked to Seth who had that same weird look.
"Ok... " we said in unison.
Tré walked over to Mike and began to talk. I kissed Seth and she kissed back. My sneaky tongue slipped into her mouth and explored.
"Free porn!" Tré yelled. We broke up apart and looked at him.
*Seth's P.O.V.*
"What do you mean by, "free porn"?" I asked.
"Well I thought you were going to get into it."
"Dude, you are so fucking horny."
"Yup."
I laughed and pulled Billie into another kiss. After we were done kissing we just held on to one another.
"Billie?"
"Hmm."
"I love you."
"I love you too."
I smiled and held Billie tighter. We finally let go and Billie went to call his manager. About 6 or 7 minutes Billie came back in with a wide grin. He walked over to me and placed both hands on my shoulders.
"You can come."
"Really?!"
"Yeah!"
I pulled him into another kiss and pulled away seconds later. I just smiled and he smiled back.
The Next Day
*Billie's P.O.V.*
I was sitting in the living room waiting for Seth to get out of the shower when there was a knock at the door. I got up and went to answer it. It was Adie.
"What do you want?"
"Billie, I have some good news for you."
"What?" I asked, noticing her stomach was a little bit bigger.
"Yesterday I went to the doctor's and got some tests done." I nodded and waited for her to continue.
"And... I found out... that the baby is mine and yours!" I went wide eyed and looked at her like she was crazy.
"Bill, are you happy?!" I stepped back and shut the door, right in her face. Just then Seth came down and hugged me from behind.
"Billie, are you ok?"
"Um, yeah, I think so." She let go and looked at me.
"Billie, what's wrong? Please tell me." I didn't speak I just looked in her eyes and saw, hurt and confusion.
"Billie, baby, please tell me. I wont get mad or anything."
"Ok, well, Adie just came and ya know how she was pregnant?"
"Yeah, what about it?"
"Well she went to the doctor's yesterday and got tests done... " She nodded and waited for me to continue.
"Well, she's pregnant with my kid."
Seth looked down and then turned around and ran up the stairs.
"Seth!"
*Seth's P.O.V*
I ran into me and Billie's room and locked the door. I ran over to the bed and jumped on it and cried.
'What if he leaves me to be with Adie and the baby?'
'What would happen to me if he did that?' I asked my self both of these questions over and over again.
There was a knock at the door taking me from my thoughts.
"What?"
"Babe?" the door opened. I looked up to see Billie.
"How the fuck did you get in?"
"You are forgetting that is my room, and I know how to get in when the door is locked."
"What the fuck do you want then?"
"I want to talk to you." He came over and sat on the bed and pulled me into a hug.
"Billie, are you gonna leave me to take care to be with Adie and the baby?"
"No, what gave you that idea? I am gonna help her take care of the baby."
"Billie, I don't know. It's just, I don't know." I started crying harder.
"Babe, calm down. I'm not leaving." About an hour of crying Billie and I fell asleep in each others arms.
"Can I do a dare?"
"No, you picked truth so you have to answer the question. Do you or don't you?"
"Um... "
I looked over at Billie who had his eyes locked on Tré.
"Tré? Do you or don't you." Tré then looked at me then looked down.
"Do you or don't you?" Mike asked getting annoyed.
"Fine, I do! Okay? Are you happy now?!"
I got up and ran out of the room and locked my self in the bathroom and cried.
I heard a knock at the door.
"Babe, you ok?"
"Billie? Is that...you?"
"Yeah, it's me." I got up and opened the door and pulled him in.
"You ok?"
"Billie, I thought he was over me, I thought that was the reason he broke up with me. What am I gonna do?" I started crying again so Billie pulled me into his arms.
"Shh. It's ok. Calm down." He kept trying to calm me down but it wasn't working.
"You know what?"
"Wha...what?"
"I think you need to see your family."
"Lik...like...Ry..Ryan?"
"Yeah." I nodded and he took his thumb and swiped away the extra tears that came falling down. I looked in the mirror and my horrible reflection looked back.
I didn't bother re-applying my makeup so I just went like I was.
Billie went in and told Mike and Tré that we would be back in a bit and grabbed his keys.
"Mom, I'll be back in a bit."
"Ok."
We got in his car and drove to my aunt's.
*At my Aunt's*
I walked in and looked around. Ryan was asleep on the couch so I went in and sat on him.
He immediately woke up and looked at me.
"Seth? Why are you crying?" I got off him and he sat up.
"Ry, Tré broke up with me then said he still loved me."
"Really? I am gonna kick his ass."I looked over at Billie who came over and sat by me with his arm around my waist.
"Look, I don't want any one to get hurt."
"But he hurt you."
"I know, but that doesn't mean you get to hurt people."
"Well, he hurt my sister. My twin in fact." I was silent.
"Well, what are we gonna do?" Billie asked. I looked at my brother.
He got up and got his car keys.
"Ryan, what are you doing?" Billie asked.
"My twin got hurt so I am going out."
"Ry, Please don't-" I was cut off by the door slamming.
"Damn it!" I yelled.
"Seth? Sweetie, language!" My aunt yelled from the kitchen.
"Sorry!" I yell back.
Billie got up and helped me up too and we walked to the door. Luckily Ryan hadn't left yet and let us get in. I was still silent because I didn't want to talk.
"So where are we going?" Billie asked.
"You'll see."
Me and Billie were in the back and I rested my head on his shoulder.
We turned a corner and I noticed we were on Billie's road. I nudged Billie and he looked out the window. We stopped in Billie's driveway and Ryan got out.
"Stay in here." He said to us.
As soon as he got to the door and knocked I quietly got out with Billie. Ollie answered and let him in.
"Bill, that's our cue."
We both got up and ran into the house and into the room Ryan and Tré were in. As soon as we got in there Ryan was hovering over Tré.
"Ryan David Watson!" I yelled he turned around. I was about to go an yell at him more gut Billie pulled me back.
"Billie Fucking Joe! If you don't let go, I am going to burst!"
"No." he said calmly.
"Ryan, if you hurt him, I'll mess you up!"
Just then Ollie came in. "What's with the yelling?"
"Ryan David Watson, Leave him the fuck alone!"
"Language!"
"Sorry Ollie." Ryan backed away and sat on the bed. Tré got up off the floor and came over to me.
"Tré are you ok?" Billie asked.
"Yeah." I kept my eyes locked on Ryan's.
Billie had finally let go of me and I ran over to Ryan.
"What were you going to do?" He looked down and didn't say anything.
"Ryan, what were going to do?" He stood up and hugged me. I hugged him back. We stayed like that for a while.
"I'm sorry Seth, will you forgive me?"
"Well, you are my twin and I love you...so yeah."
"Thanks," He let go and went over to Tré and did the same but with out my name and a hug.
Billie came over and pulled me into a passionate kiss. He pulled apart seconds later and looked at me with those beautiful green eyes of his. Tré looked over and then down.
"Tré, if you still love me...why did you hurt me?"
"I don't know."
"Billie, Ryan, Mike? Can you give us some time alone?"
They nodded and walked out and Tré came and sat on the bed with me.
"What about Lisea?"
"Well...I don't know...I thought I loved her...but I just don't know." I looked down.
"Seth, can I ask you something?"
"Yeah."
"Do you love me back?"
"Tré...I...I...don't...know...I love Billie." He looked down and stood up.I stood up too and wrapped my arms around him and gave him a hug. We let go of one another and walked out of the room. I walked down the stairs and over to Billie. Mike and Ryan left to give us some privacy. I started to cry.
"Hey, don't cry. Come on, babe cheer up."
I looked over at him and he pulled me into a hug.
"Billie...what...am...I...gonna...do?" I said in between sobs.
"I don't know babe, I don't know babe."
I kept crying when someone sat beside me and Billie on the couch. I couldn't tell who it was because of my blurry vision.
"Tré, why did you do that?" Billie asked. I cried harder. "Shhhh."
I got up and Billie followed. I ran up to our room and sat on the bed with Billie sitting beside me.
"Hey can I sing you something?" he asked. I nodded. He got out his guitar and started to play.
I Wish I Could Tell You
But The Words Would Come Out Wrong
Oh If You Only Knew
The Way I Felt For So Long
I Know That We're Worlds Apart
But I Just Don't Seem To Care
These Feelings In My Heart
Only With You I Want To Share
The First Time I Caught A Glimpse Of You
Then My Thoughts Were Only Of You
I Hope That When Time Goes By
You Will Think The Same About Me
Many Nights Awake I Lie
I Only Wish That You Could See
I Know That We're Only Friends
I Hope This Feeling Never Ends
If I Could Only Hold You
It's The Only Thing I Want To Do.
The First Time I Caught A Glimpse Of You
Then My Thoughts Were Only Of You
"Aw." Was all I managed to say. He came over and sat beside me.
"I'm glad you like it." I smiled.
"Billie, why does he still love me?"
"I don't know, baby girl, I don't know." We cuddled and fell asleep like that.
A Few Days Later
*Billie's P.O.V*
We were in the living room just hanging out. Seth was sitting on my lap when the phone rang. I groaned and looked at Mike.
"Mikey, please get the phone."
"Why me?"
"'Cause I have Sethy on my lappy," She giggled which made me smile.
"Fine," He said and went to the phone.
About 10 minutes later Mike came back with wide eyes and a huge grin.
"What?" I asked.
"We're going on tour!" he yelled.
"What?!"
He started doing a little dance which made me, Seth, and Tré laughed at.
Seth got up and I got up too. I looked at Seth who was looking down.
"Babe, what's wrong?"
"You guys are leaving which means I wont get to see you for how ever long." I pulled her into a hug.
"Hey, maybe we can ask if you can come."
She smiled her gorgeous smile and I winked. Tré came over and got in the hug too. We looked at him and he said, "I got lonely."
I looked at him weirdly and looked to Seth who had that same weird look.
"Ok... " we said in unison.
Tré walked over to Mike and began to talk. I kissed Seth and she kissed back. My sneaky tongue slipped into her mouth and explored.
"Free porn!" Tré yelled. We broke up apart and looked at him.
*Seth's P.O.V.*
"What do you mean by, "free porn"?" I asked.
"Well I thought you were going to get into it."
"Dude, you are so fucking horny."
"Yup."
I laughed and pulled Billie into another kiss. After we were done kissing we just held on to one another.
"Billie?"
"Hmm."
"I love you."
"I love you too."
I smiled and held Billie tighter. We finally let go and Billie went to call his manager. About 6 or 7 minutes Billie came back in with a wide grin. He walked over to me and placed both hands on my shoulders.
"You can come."
"Really?!"
"Yeah!"
I pulled him into another kiss and pulled away seconds later. I just smiled and he smiled back.
The Next Day
*Billie's P.O.V.*
I was sitting in the living room waiting for Seth to get out of the shower when there was a knock at the door. I got up and went to answer it. It was Adie.
"What do you want?"
"Billie, I have some good news for you."
"What?" I asked, noticing her stomach was a little bit bigger.
"Yesterday I went to the doctor's and got some tests done." I nodded and waited for her to continue.
"And... I found out... that the baby is mine and yours!" I went wide eyed and looked at her like she was crazy.
"Bill, are you happy?!" I stepped back and shut the door, right in her face. Just then Seth came down and hugged me from behind.
"Billie, are you ok?"
"Um, yeah, I think so." She let go and looked at me.
"Billie, what's wrong? Please tell me." I didn't speak I just looked in her eyes and saw, hurt and confusion.
"Billie, baby, please tell me. I wont get mad or anything."
"Ok, well, Adie just came and ya know how she was pregnant?"
"Yeah, what about it?"
"Well she went to the doctor's yesterday and got tests done... " She nodded and waited for me to continue.
"Well, she's pregnant with my kid."
Seth looked down and then turned around and ran up the stairs.
"Seth!"
*Seth's P.O.V*
I ran into me and Billie's room and locked the door. I ran over to the bed and jumped on it and cried.
'What if he leaves me to be with Adie and the baby?'
'What would happen to me if he did that?' I asked my self both of these questions over and over again.
There was a knock at the door taking me from my thoughts.
"What?"
"Babe?" the door opened. I looked up to see Billie.
"How the fuck did you get in?"
"You are forgetting that is my room, and I know how to get in when the door is locked."
"What the fuck do you want then?"
"I want to talk to you." He came over and sat on the bed and pulled me into a hug.
"Billie, are you gonna leave me to take care to be with Adie and the baby?"
"No, what gave you that idea? I am gonna help her take care of the baby."
"Billie, I don't know. It's just, I don't know." I started crying harder.
"Babe, calm down. I'm not leaving." About an hour of crying Billie and I fell asleep in each others arms.
