All By Myself, All On My Own, chapter 10
When I woke up the next morning the room was empty but the smell of bacon still lingered in the air. I got out of bed pulling my sweatshirt on over my nightshirt and walked through the room trying to find any sign of where they were. I gave up and slipped on my sneakers and walked down to the lobby. They sat at one of the breakfast tables with Green Day talking. Jake was still munching on a muffin by the door. When they saw me they invited me to sit down. "By how tired you were last night I wasn't expecting you to get up for another hour or so." James said as I took a seat next to him. "How long has everyone been up it's only nine." I said looking amongst the crowd for an answer. "About an hour maybe around 45 minutes." Kilana said looking at her so who was making faces at some guy with his wife eating on the other side of the lobby. He noticed and started making faces back and when his wife looked to see what was going on Jake just sat there quietly eating. We watched as she smacked the man across the face. "How dare you be so rude to an innocent little boy!" We heard her shout at him. "Little yes but innocent probably not." Mike said laughing at the sight. When Jake was finished tormenting the guy he came back over to us. "I'm bored!" He said yanking on Kilana's shirt. "Hold on Jake and we'll go back upstairs but we're talking right now. Go find something to occupy yourself." She said pushing him away so he would let go not to be mean though. "Come on Jake we'll go upstairs." James said grabbing him under the arms and lifting him into his arms to carry him upstairs. "So who is his dad again?" Billie Joe asked watching the two boys go upstairs. Kilana didn't answer his question she seemed to depressed saying his name around people after what had happened. "Um... Mark... a couple years ago he... left her... " I said quietly. "Who'd leave a chick like you?" Tre said trying to cheer her up. Mike smacked him lightly on the back of the head just hard enough to tell him to shut up. He didn't say anything until Billie Joe changed the subject. "So is he there?" He asked. Another scary subject don't they have anything good to talk about? "No he isn't." I said. "I haven't seen him since yesterday at the park and really I didn't see him Tre did." I said looking at my fingers my nails needed to be cut they were broken and ripped on some and needed a new coat of nail polish. "So what are we doing today?" I said trying to change the subject again. "We need to restock on supplies." Kilana said remembering we were nearly out of food. "Okay then so the store and... ?" I said trying to think of what else we could do today to keep our minds off of the guy who seemed to be following us... our stalker... "let's see umm... hmm... beach?... nah... golfing?... Jake hates to play golf... movies?...already did it... park?... went yesterday... " Billie Joe got up and went over to the buffet that was set up for breakfast and grabbed a cupcake. Tre did the same but Mike just sat there a glass of water in his hand.
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Around noon I had locked myself in the bathroom the smell of nail polish and remover filled the room. I sat on the counter three small glass bottles sat in the sink. I dipped my brush back into the black paint and put some on my thumb nail then blew on it to help it dry and went on to the next one. After that I took some green polish and wrote the word Green on my right hand and Day on my left on my three middle fingers. So when I put my hands up it will be read as Green Day. I dipped my brush into the last bottle and put a no chip coat of clear polish on over all my nails so the paint would stay on at least a day or two longer. I was just finishing up and was starting to put away my stuff when there was a hard banging on the door. "Hurry up Kiki I gots to go potty!" Jake screamed from the other side. "Go next door and use James's you may not want to be in here until the smell goes away." "No I need to go now!" "Jake you don't wanna come in here the smell of nail polish is toxic! It will kill you!" I shouted at him. The knocking stopped and footsteps could be heard and then a door shut. Gone. This wasn't exactly true but hey it made him leave me alone. I turned on the fan which would help get rid of the suffocating fume and then walked out into the main room showing off my shiny new nails. So it wasn't that big a deal especially compared to when I painted blue flames on them and wrote my name on my toe nails oh well it said Green Day so it was good and deserved to be seen by my best friend who technically speaking couldn't paint her nails if her life depended on it. I always had to do it for her. Jake came back a little over a minute later. "James didn't let me in he said he was busy watching the news!" He complained taking a seat on the floor and pulling a puzzle which he had stored the pieces in his suitcase scattered. It took him about five minutes just to find all 100 pieces and putting it together seemed to take a lifetime for him. A puzzle I could finish in a minute or two took him three hours not counting the brakes he took. I made him a sandwich for lunch. As for me I had a bowl of spaghetti O's and meatballs. I never bothered to check on the man that was standing in the parking lot. Mike, Tre and Billie Joe seemed to be doing a good job of that since I told them about him.
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I sat on the couch again with Jake and Kilana around 7:00 that afternoon watching TV. I hadn't seen any signs of the mysterious stalker or James since breakfast actually. I got up and walked out the door. I pulled out my key for his room and unlocked the door. All the lights were off the TV off absolutely no signs of life. I flicked on the light switch. The room well most of it seemed normal but the bed was a mess the sheets ripped off and thrown to the floor hi suitcase open clothes scattered around the room. The chair was tipped over the lamp knocked off the table and the curtains ripped in places. I didn't know what to think except he was out of his mind. I walked through to the balcony looking at all the things in the room stepping carefully trying not to trip on anything and a note caught my eye. It sat on the bed where the pillow had been folded and slipped into and envelope not sealed. I went over and sat on the mattress and picked up the letter. It seemed to have been untouched. My name was written on the front. It wasn't ripped nor quickly written like it was placed after the massacre happened. I took out the letter and unfolded it. I read slowly down the note and I felt my heart and stomach switch places. I put my fingers to my lips and tried to force back my tears. I threw down the letter and ran out of the room. I didn't want to go back to my room not now I just wanted to be alone. Running down the hall I pushed someone out of my way not really caring who it was at this point. I ran down the stairs and through the lobby and behind the first set of double doors to the parking lot. I hid between the doors and hugged my knees letting the tears flow down my cheeks. I can't tell how I really felt. The best I can really explain it is that I felt like my heart had been ripped out by my best friend and was thrown into the fire. I heard footsteps come my way but just expected it was some other stupid person staying at this hotel who wouldn't care a thing about my life about my feelings. I felt a hand touch my shoulder but I didn't look up. "Kiki what's wrong?" a voice by now I had come to love. I looked up and through the blur of my tears I could see Tre's worried and sympathetic face. "He... He's gone." I choked out through sobs. He understood me. I felt warm arms wrap around me. "It's okay Ki, it'll be alright you don't need him." He said trying to make me feel better but this just made me sadder. We were just becoming so happy again our happy family coming back together and he leaves me. How... why would he do this? I hugged Tre back squeezing him tightly trying to calm myself down but I just couldn't get over the fact I would never see him again. I felt myself settle after a few more minutes. "Kiki you'll be okay. You'll find someone new easily. I know you will. Now settle down." He whispered to me. My eyes felt red and sore but the tears were starting to clear up. I loosened my grip on him and he loosened his. I wiped away my tears on my sleeve and looked at him. "You wanna stay here or you want me to walk you back to your room?" He asked smiling calmly at me. "Stay." I spoke through a stuffed nose. "I don't think I want Jake or Kilana seeing me like this." I said resting my head on his chest trying to clear my mind of the thoughts of this. I hated to cry but I couldn't help it. "I understand 'cause you know how bad you look right now?" he laughed not at me just trying to cheer me up. I managed to break a smile for a second. "Thanks Tre." I whispered back wiping my eyes again as a couple more tears fell.
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I got back to my hotel room about 30 minutes after I found out that James was leaving me. I still felt torn up inside like a whirlwind had been going and I lost everything I held sear to me. I told Kilana about the note. She didn't believe me at first. "Why the hell would he do that he loves you." She said but when I didn't respond she realized it was true. He really was gone and only a week since my birthday. She hugged me tightly not trying to settle my feelings but hers as well. She seemed just as sad. Well maybe not as horrible as I did but pretty bad. Jake was sleeping he fell asleep watching Teen Titans and Kilana tucked him in. "This is horrible Ki what are we going to do? If he's gone we don't have a car. I can't drive. I don't know how to even get home what are we going to do!?!" She said starting to cry under the stress. "There are only three people we know here that might be able to help us." I said lying on the bed. "What? We can't ask Green Day for help on getting home they are already helping us with him and the only reason why they are is because they need someone to hang out with for a month while they are here!" She shouted and collapsed onto the couch. I didn't know how to answer this and I fell asleep through long fits of tears my a puddle formed on my pillow before I could sleep but managed to eventually fall of to sleep only to awake again in the middle of the night to have another fit and once again cried myself to sleep.
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Around noon I had locked myself in the bathroom the smell of nail polish and remover filled the room. I sat on the counter three small glass bottles sat in the sink. I dipped my brush back into the black paint and put some on my thumb nail then blew on it to help it dry and went on to the next one. After that I took some green polish and wrote the word Green on my right hand and Day on my left on my three middle fingers. So when I put my hands up it will be read as Green Day. I dipped my brush into the last bottle and put a no chip coat of clear polish on over all my nails so the paint would stay on at least a day or two longer. I was just finishing up and was starting to put away my stuff when there was a hard banging on the door. "Hurry up Kiki I gots to go potty!" Jake screamed from the other side. "Go next door and use James's you may not want to be in here until the smell goes away." "No I need to go now!" "Jake you don't wanna come in here the smell of nail polish is toxic! It will kill you!" I shouted at him. The knocking stopped and footsteps could be heard and then a door shut. Gone. This wasn't exactly true but hey it made him leave me alone. I turned on the fan which would help get rid of the suffocating fume and then walked out into the main room showing off my shiny new nails. So it wasn't that big a deal especially compared to when I painted blue flames on them and wrote my name on my toe nails oh well it said Green Day so it was good and deserved to be seen by my best friend who technically speaking couldn't paint her nails if her life depended on it. I always had to do it for her. Jake came back a little over a minute later. "James didn't let me in he said he was busy watching the news!" He complained taking a seat on the floor and pulling a puzzle which he had stored the pieces in his suitcase scattered. It took him about five minutes just to find all 100 pieces and putting it together seemed to take a lifetime for him. A puzzle I could finish in a minute or two took him three hours not counting the brakes he took. I made him a sandwich for lunch. As for me I had a bowl of spaghetti O's and meatballs. I never bothered to check on the man that was standing in the parking lot. Mike, Tre and Billie Joe seemed to be doing a good job of that since I told them about him.
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I sat on the couch again with Jake and Kilana around 7:00 that afternoon watching TV. I hadn't seen any signs of the mysterious stalker or James since breakfast actually. I got up and walked out the door. I pulled out my key for his room and unlocked the door. All the lights were off the TV off absolutely no signs of life. I flicked on the light switch. The room well most of it seemed normal but the bed was a mess the sheets ripped off and thrown to the floor hi suitcase open clothes scattered around the room. The chair was tipped over the lamp knocked off the table and the curtains ripped in places. I didn't know what to think except he was out of his mind. I walked through to the balcony looking at all the things in the room stepping carefully trying not to trip on anything and a note caught my eye. It sat on the bed where the pillow had been folded and slipped into and envelope not sealed. I went over and sat on the mattress and picked up the letter. It seemed to have been untouched. My name was written on the front. It wasn't ripped nor quickly written like it was placed after the massacre happened. I took out the letter and unfolded it. I read slowly down the note and I felt my heart and stomach switch places. I put my fingers to my lips and tried to force back my tears. I threw down the letter and ran out of the room. I didn't want to go back to my room not now I just wanted to be alone. Running down the hall I pushed someone out of my way not really caring who it was at this point. I ran down the stairs and through the lobby and behind the first set of double doors to the parking lot. I hid between the doors and hugged my knees letting the tears flow down my cheeks. I can't tell how I really felt. The best I can really explain it is that I felt like my heart had been ripped out by my best friend and was thrown into the fire. I heard footsteps come my way but just expected it was some other stupid person staying at this hotel who wouldn't care a thing about my life about my feelings. I felt a hand touch my shoulder but I didn't look up. "Kiki what's wrong?" a voice by now I had come to love. I looked up and through the blur of my tears I could see Tre's worried and sympathetic face. "He... He's gone." I choked out through sobs. He understood me. I felt warm arms wrap around me. "It's okay Ki, it'll be alright you don't need him." He said trying to make me feel better but this just made me sadder. We were just becoming so happy again our happy family coming back together and he leaves me. How... why would he do this? I hugged Tre back squeezing him tightly trying to calm myself down but I just couldn't get over the fact I would never see him again. I felt myself settle after a few more minutes. "Kiki you'll be okay. You'll find someone new easily. I know you will. Now settle down." He whispered to me. My eyes felt red and sore but the tears were starting to clear up. I loosened my grip on him and he loosened his. I wiped away my tears on my sleeve and looked at him. "You wanna stay here or you want me to walk you back to your room?" He asked smiling calmly at me. "Stay." I spoke through a stuffed nose. "I don't think I want Jake or Kilana seeing me like this." I said resting my head on his chest trying to clear my mind of the thoughts of this. I hated to cry but I couldn't help it. "I understand 'cause you know how bad you look right now?" he laughed not at me just trying to cheer me up. I managed to break a smile for a second. "Thanks Tre." I whispered back wiping my eyes again as a couple more tears fell.
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I got back to my hotel room about 30 minutes after I found out that James was leaving me. I still felt torn up inside like a whirlwind had been going and I lost everything I held sear to me. I told Kilana about the note. She didn't believe me at first. "Why the hell would he do that he loves you." She said but when I didn't respond she realized it was true. He really was gone and only a week since my birthday. She hugged me tightly not trying to settle my feelings but hers as well. She seemed just as sad. Well maybe not as horrible as I did but pretty bad. Jake was sleeping he fell asleep watching Teen Titans and Kilana tucked him in. "This is horrible Ki what are we going to do? If he's gone we don't have a car. I can't drive. I don't know how to even get home what are we going to do!?!" She said starting to cry under the stress. "There are only three people we know here that might be able to help us." I said lying on the bed. "What? We can't ask Green Day for help on getting home they are already helping us with him and the only reason why they are is because they need someone to hang out with for a month while they are here!" She shouted and collapsed onto the couch. I didn't know how to answer this and I fell asleep through long fits of tears my a puddle formed on my pillow before I could sleep but managed to eventually fall of to sleep only to awake again in the middle of the night to have another fit and once again cried myself to sleep.
