All By Myself, All On My Own, chapter 12
I woke up around four in the morning hardly tired at all. I got up and went over to the window he was still gone. I sat on the bed and stared up at the ceiling. It was way too early for Kilana and Jake to wake up. I grabbed my art pad and my pencil and started a new drawing. I sketched out the frame of a body and added eyes ears and a nose slowly stenciling in and shading the parts of the face until I had a drawing of James. I felt upset still, like crying but my eyes were dry and all out of tears. I added hair and some clothes until the body was finished. Behind him I drew me tears running down my face in the picture like before and all around us it was dark. In the corner of the paper I drew a candle that had been blown out smoke drifting off to the side. I finished about a half hour since I woke up and got a new piece of paper. By now I had at least fifty papers used in there and at least a hundred left. I drew in my second picture all I could see. The room from my bed so after all this was over I could always remember this place even if it isn't a place where you would wanna stay. I set down the book and stepping into my slippers which I rarely used I walked out onto the balcony in the cool morning air. My untidy hair blew in the breeze covering my face until I pushed it behind me. I leaned on the rail looking out into the city everything was still a few cars drove down the road and stopped at houses along the street. I just heard my name called from somewhere near. Distant almost. I looked around trying to find the source and thinking it was just me imagining things but then I say the gentle face of Mike looking back at me three balconies away. "What are you doing up so early?" I said the quietest I could but loud enough for him to hear. "Couldn't sleep good last night why are you up?" He asked back looking back out to the city like I had. "Woke up the other day I slept for what 18 hours?" I called back looking down to see two teenagers walk into the hotel below. "Why couldn't you sleep?" "Not sure just didn't get to sleep well last night." The sun was starting to raise in the sky a sliver of light gleamed over the distant hills. I walked back into the room pulling my robe closer around me in the chill of the morning breeze. He seemed to just stand out there only coming in after the sun was completely over the hills and started coming over the tall buildings. I sat on the couch and listened to my headset for an hour. I mouthed out the words to My Chemical Romance. My Green Day CD's were on the shelf on the underside of the coffee table with all the rest of my music, which wasn't much. I closed my eyes and started drifting off to sleep but opened my eyes immediately when I felt a large weight jump into my lap. Jake put his ear to mine trying to listen to the music. I took off my headset and put it on him. "I'm surprised you woke up this early." I said taking back the headphones when he was done listening. "I woked up from a scary dream." He said laying on the couch and pulling his blanket up over his shoulders and stared out into empty space. I scratched the back of my neck where the tag on my night shirt was bothering me then turned off my CD player and set it back on the table where it belonged at the moment.
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(Hmm... I'm running out of stuff to say because there is an exciting part coming up but I don't know how to get there. Any suggestions?... )
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Kilana woke up around 8:30 it's always her or me that wakes up first and she always sleeps in a little so sometimes she gets up before me. Did that make any sense? Anyway we spent a lot of the day in our room. I started a new sewing project to work on. A new outfit for the summer for me to wear. I sat on the bed sewing cloth together and cutting it apart working on a few designs that I sketched onto a piece of paper. Jake sat next to me sewing as well only this was just two small scraps of cloth so he could learn even if guys aren't normally the ones seen making clothing. Kilana was in the kitchen making cookies for Jake. "Kiki is you still mad at James?" Jake asked not paying attention and yelling when he poked his finger with a needle and stuck it in his mouth. "Yes I am still a little mad." I said though mad wasn't the word I was looking for. I finished for the day and folded the cloth and put it in a bag, which my last project had been in. Around noon there was a knock on the door. Jake jumped off the bed and opened the door where Billie Joe, Mike and Tre walked in taking a seat on the couch. "Hi guys." Kilana said bringing a plate of cookies out. Jake and me took two the others only took one. She gave the plate to Tre who with that took three more. I sat on the arm of the couch next to Mike on the end and Jake sat on the floor near Billie Joe's feet. "What's on the schedule today?" He said taking another cookie from Tre who had eaten nearly all that were left on the plate. "Not sure hadn't really planned anything for the rest of the week. I said starting to lose my balance than finally slipping off the edge of the couch onto the floor between the couch and chair. Jake broke out laughing. I reached my hand up and said "I'm okay." In a painful or stressful voice though I was fine. Mike looked over the arm to see me flat on my back laying on the floor. "Man do I feel stupid right now." I laughed sitting up. I decided not to go back on the arm of the couch and instead took a seat in the chair where it was safe. Everyone was still trying to get the laughs out. "Oh come on it wasn't that funny was it?" I complained laughing as well just because they were and I never am able to keep a straight face when someone else starts laughing. I straightened out my shirt by the way by now I am dressed. Tre was choking on another cookie from laughing at me and now was coughing serves him right. I leaned back in the chair until it started to tip off of it's front and I leaned forward to make it crash on the floor changing my mind on that. I didn't want another accident. I got out of the chair and took a seat next to Jake on the floor. Ha can't fall over now! I turned to face everyone. "So um... what are we doing today? Besides what we already spent most of our day doing. "Let's... um go to the beach on the other side of town." Tre broke out. "Sure I guess if that's okay with you guys." Kilana said looking at Billie Joe and Mike. "Okay then we'll go to the beach but don't expect me to be swimming." Billie Joe said thinking about how cold the water would be. "Let's go then!" Tre shouted standing up and running out the door to their room. Billie Joe and Mike followed. "Meet you in the lobby in five minutes." Billie Joe said popping back into the room.
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We went to the closet and pulled out our swimsuits and Jakes trunks. We put them on and I wore a white button down shirt and a long light purple skirt over it. Kilana put our towels in a bag and we walked down into the lobby in our sandals Jake trailing behind trying not to trip going down the stairs. They had their clothes in a bag and were ready to swim as well. "Hurry up Jake or we're leaving without you!" Tre shouted at the little boy just coming through the door from the stairs and flopping his way to us. We walked out into the parking lot and got in the car. There was more room this time with James not here but it was still a little crowded. We climbed out the car when we reached the beach. The weather was now warm and there was hardly a breeze at all and best of all it was empty and we would get some privacy. Jake ran out across the sand into the water then running right back out and pushing his feet into the hot sand. "Cold!" He screamed trying to warm up his feet. I walked over to the water and let the waves push water up past my feet. "It's no that cold Jake." I yelled to him. "Maybe not where you are but it's cold over here." He shouted from a few yards away. "Jake it's all the same." Kilana said coming down to him and putting her feet in the water then wading in a little farther until the water was to her knees and she stood there getting used to the coldness. Tre didn't waste anytime though and ran out into the water until the water was up to his shoulders and started swimming being pushed back to shore by the waves his lips starting to turn purple. Shivering I walked out farther until the water was just above my waist. Billie Joe sat on the beach near Jake watching us freeze our butts off. Mike put his hand into the water sitting on his feet and then put his hand into the sand making a ball and throwing the chunk of wet sand at Jake who filled his hands with the water and started chasing Mike around the beach trying to throw sand but missing each time finally getting tired of chasing the older and faster person. Kilana tipped over laughing going under the water. She screamed in coldness and ran out and lyed on the sand then sat up sand covered her back. We all laughed at this even Jake. Tre decided to get out since no one was coming in with him besides me but I wasn't swimming. I jumped into the water and swam under grabbing his ankle while he walked out. He seemed shocked and fell forward. I came up for my breath and just broke out laughing. That was like my favorite thing to do to people when I swam and they wanted to get out. Tre came up and splashed water at me but I went back under and swam past him until the water was too shallow. He chased me onto the beach where I took a seat next to Kilana and Billie Joe and Mike and Jake and there are just too many people whew! Tre collapsed onto the sand next to me his wet body getting covered in sand. "Can you help me make a castle?" Jake said tapping me on the back of the head. "Sure you guys wanna help?" I asked everyone else. "Okay." Pretty much everyone said. Kilana grabbed a shovel and pail, which Jake made her pack in the bag with our clothes. Tre took the bucket and filled it with water then dumped it on the sand to make it easier to pack. I took it from him and filled it with the wet sand and pushed it down in with my fist so when I turned it over it would make a good tower. We were working on the castle for a while until it was finished then Jake had fun destroying it running through it. By the end of our afternoon we had all gone in the water and swam and we were all freezing. I wrapped my towel around my shoulders not bothering to dry off I just needed warmth. Mike forgot to bring his towel and stood on the beach in the sunlight holding his arms to his chest shivering. I walked over to him and put one dry arm around his neck giving him some of my towel then when I was completely dry I gave it to him and sat in the warm sand to warm myself up. Jake and Kilana sat next to me. Jake nearly buried himself in the sand trying to get warm. The guys stood behind us. Mike didn't seem too pleased that I gave him my wet towel but it was still a towel and would help him get dry and warm. That's what happens when you forget your own. We all hiked up the beach back to the road where we climbed into the car. Jake sat on Kilana's lap again only this time their clothes were both wet which made them both cold again. Tre got to sit up front this time so Billie Joe sat in the back between me and Key.
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When we got back he was there in the parking lot where he always had been watching us get out of the car. I had my arm around Tre once again cold my towel tied around my waist. Kilana carried Jake and walked between Billie Joe and Mike trying not to be seen by him because she knew he was no good. The man just stood there watching us all the way like he always did before but something seemed different about him when I let my gaze fall on the car. He hadn't come alone. Someone was with him though I couldn't see who it was or where they were but there was defiantly someone with him somewhere. We got to the hotel where we all changed back into our clothes. At least there was no one down in the lobby when we arrived otherwise we may not have been able to enter the hotel because we were wet and only in our swimming clothes. Jake sat on the bed looking at the pictures I had drawn earlier that morning before they had woke up. I stood on the balcony with Billie Joe watching the man in the parking lot and trying to see if there was anyone else in the car or if they were hiding somewhere else. Kilana sat on the couch with Tre and Mike who were having some lunch that Kilana had made. "So how long are you guys gonna be here?" I asked Billie Joe turning my eyes from the car to his green eyes. "About a month I guess we are off for a while but we can't exactly go home because after this brake we have another concert not far from here and it would be a little pointless to fly back home and then come right back here. How long are you and Kilana staying?" He asked looking out to the horizon beyond all the tall buildings. "I'm not sure now that James is gone we don't exactly have a way to get home and even if we had the car Me nor Key can drive I mean I can but I don't have a license. Kilana never learned. We are pretty much stuck here." I said looking back down to the lot below. I felt a hand on my shoulder and I lifted my head in time to see Billie Joe smile and walk back inside. I followed and took a seat on the couch before Kilana had time to sit coming back from the kitchen with what looked like a plate of shrimp. I took one off the plate and put it in my mouth. "Yep shrimp." I said swallowing it and taking another. "I thought you hated shrimp Key." I said eating that one and taking another. "I guess I don't anymore." She said eating one making a face. "Guess not." I laughed at how she had eaten it and decided she didn't like it after all. She handed the plate to me. "You can have it." She said drinking her glass of Sprite, which sat on the table making another face. "Sprite and shrimp do not mix." She said setting her cup down and taking a seat in the chair. "Oh come on it's not that bad." I said eating another and another. Shrimp is like one of my favorite foods. I don't know why I just like it and other people don't. I like a lot of things others don't like pickles which people like but I can eat four jars of pickles in an hour and I can tell the difference between polish and kosher dill pickles with no problem. I even drink the juice sometimes, which is like drinking vinegar and salt for some. I loved seafood too. I leaned back in the cushion and handed the plate off to Tre who ate one then set it on the table. "Fine." I said pretending to sound offended that no one else would eat them. "More for me." I said taking another and putting it in my mouth.
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Jake fell asleep on the couch using Mike's lap as a pillow. Kilana scooped the little boy up and put his pajamas on hi then tucked him into bed. Mike seemed relieved he was off of him and could now move. The guys left not long after and me and Kilana sat up until midnight watching storytellers, which was on TV. Green Day! I wondered if they were watching themselves back in their room. Well they were doing the show so possibly not they already saw it first hand. Kilana fell asleep on then couch so I pulled a blanket from the closet and covered her up then I got into bed and fell asleep thinking about all that had happened and what was possibly to come. I couldn't wait for tomorrow and what the day would bring. I dreamed about that day at the beach only everything was twisted. Jake wasn't there and the water was warm and the sky was bright blue there was no road nearby and everything seemed perfect but right when the beach disappeared and turned into a flat asphalt I saw the man standing there the stalker. He pulled out a gun and took a shot cutting into me more like a knife than a bullet and I fell backwards and I opened my eyes Kilana shaking me trying to wake me up. "Are you okay Kiki?" She asked as I sat up in the middle of the night. "Yeah fine just had a weird dream." I said laying back down. "Okay then." She said climbing into her own bed. The clock said 2:30. I rolled over onto my side my heart beat fast like what I had dreamed was real I was scared. I managed to go back to sleep though and didn't wake up at all for the rest of the night. When was I ever gonna get a peaceful night of sleep in this place?
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(Hmm... I'm running out of stuff to say because there is an exciting part coming up but I don't know how to get there. Any suggestions?... )
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Kilana woke up around 8:30 it's always her or me that wakes up first and she always sleeps in a little so sometimes she gets up before me. Did that make any sense? Anyway we spent a lot of the day in our room. I started a new sewing project to work on. A new outfit for the summer for me to wear. I sat on the bed sewing cloth together and cutting it apart working on a few designs that I sketched onto a piece of paper. Jake sat next to me sewing as well only this was just two small scraps of cloth so he could learn even if guys aren't normally the ones seen making clothing. Kilana was in the kitchen making cookies for Jake. "Kiki is you still mad at James?" Jake asked not paying attention and yelling when he poked his finger with a needle and stuck it in his mouth. "Yes I am still a little mad." I said though mad wasn't the word I was looking for. I finished for the day and folded the cloth and put it in a bag, which my last project had been in. Around noon there was a knock on the door. Jake jumped off the bed and opened the door where Billie Joe, Mike and Tre walked in taking a seat on the couch. "Hi guys." Kilana said bringing a plate of cookies out. Jake and me took two the others only took one. She gave the plate to Tre who with that took three more. I sat on the arm of the couch next to Mike on the end and Jake sat on the floor near Billie Joe's feet. "What's on the schedule today?" He said taking another cookie from Tre who had eaten nearly all that were left on the plate. "Not sure hadn't really planned anything for the rest of the week. I said starting to lose my balance than finally slipping off the edge of the couch onto the floor between the couch and chair. Jake broke out laughing. I reached my hand up and said "I'm okay." In a painful or stressful voice though I was fine. Mike looked over the arm to see me flat on my back laying on the floor. "Man do I feel stupid right now." I laughed sitting up. I decided not to go back on the arm of the couch and instead took a seat in the chair where it was safe. Everyone was still trying to get the laughs out. "Oh come on it wasn't that funny was it?" I complained laughing as well just because they were and I never am able to keep a straight face when someone else starts laughing. I straightened out my shirt by the way by now I am dressed. Tre was choking on another cookie from laughing at me and now was coughing serves him right. I leaned back in the chair until it started to tip off of it's front and I leaned forward to make it crash on the floor changing my mind on that. I didn't want another accident. I got out of the chair and took a seat next to Jake on the floor. Ha can't fall over now! I turned to face everyone. "So um... what are we doing today? Besides what we already spent most of our day doing. "Let's... um go to the beach on the other side of town." Tre broke out. "Sure I guess if that's okay with you guys." Kilana said looking at Billie Joe and Mike. "Okay then we'll go to the beach but don't expect me to be swimming." Billie Joe said thinking about how cold the water would be. "Let's go then!" Tre shouted standing up and running out the door to their room. Billie Joe and Mike followed. "Meet you in the lobby in five minutes." Billie Joe said popping back into the room.
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We went to the closet and pulled out our swimsuits and Jakes trunks. We put them on and I wore a white button down shirt and a long light purple skirt over it. Kilana put our towels in a bag and we walked down into the lobby in our sandals Jake trailing behind trying not to trip going down the stairs. They had their clothes in a bag and were ready to swim as well. "Hurry up Jake or we're leaving without you!" Tre shouted at the little boy just coming through the door from the stairs and flopping his way to us. We walked out into the parking lot and got in the car. There was more room this time with James not here but it was still a little crowded. We climbed out the car when we reached the beach. The weather was now warm and there was hardly a breeze at all and best of all it was empty and we would get some privacy. Jake ran out across the sand into the water then running right back out and pushing his feet into the hot sand. "Cold!" He screamed trying to warm up his feet. I walked over to the water and let the waves push water up past my feet. "It's no that cold Jake." I yelled to him. "Maybe not where you are but it's cold over here." He shouted from a few yards away. "Jake it's all the same." Kilana said coming down to him and putting her feet in the water then wading in a little farther until the water was to her knees and she stood there getting used to the coldness. Tre didn't waste anytime though and ran out into the water until the water was up to his shoulders and started swimming being pushed back to shore by the waves his lips starting to turn purple. Shivering I walked out farther until the water was just above my waist. Billie Joe sat on the beach near Jake watching us freeze our butts off. Mike put his hand into the water sitting on his feet and then put his hand into the sand making a ball and throwing the chunk of wet sand at Jake who filled his hands with the water and started chasing Mike around the beach trying to throw sand but missing each time finally getting tired of chasing the older and faster person. Kilana tipped over laughing going under the water. She screamed in coldness and ran out and lyed on the sand then sat up sand covered her back. We all laughed at this even Jake. Tre decided to get out since no one was coming in with him besides me but I wasn't swimming. I jumped into the water and swam under grabbing his ankle while he walked out. He seemed shocked and fell forward. I came up for my breath and just broke out laughing. That was like my favorite thing to do to people when I swam and they wanted to get out. Tre came up and splashed water at me but I went back under and swam past him until the water was too shallow. He chased me onto the beach where I took a seat next to Kilana and Billie Joe and Mike and Jake and there are just too many people whew! Tre collapsed onto the sand next to me his wet body getting covered in sand. "Can you help me make a castle?" Jake said tapping me on the back of the head. "Sure you guys wanna help?" I asked everyone else. "Okay." Pretty much everyone said. Kilana grabbed a shovel and pail, which Jake made her pack in the bag with our clothes. Tre took the bucket and filled it with water then dumped it on the sand to make it easier to pack. I took it from him and filled it with the wet sand and pushed it down in with my fist so when I turned it over it would make a good tower. We were working on the castle for a while until it was finished then Jake had fun destroying it running through it. By the end of our afternoon we had all gone in the water and swam and we were all freezing. I wrapped my towel around my shoulders not bothering to dry off I just needed warmth. Mike forgot to bring his towel and stood on the beach in the sunlight holding his arms to his chest shivering. I walked over to him and put one dry arm around his neck giving him some of my towel then when I was completely dry I gave it to him and sat in the warm sand to warm myself up. Jake and Kilana sat next to me. Jake nearly buried himself in the sand trying to get warm. The guys stood behind us. Mike didn't seem too pleased that I gave him my wet towel but it was still a towel and would help him get dry and warm. That's what happens when you forget your own. We all hiked up the beach back to the road where we climbed into the car. Jake sat on Kilana's lap again only this time their clothes were both wet which made them both cold again. Tre got to sit up front this time so Billie Joe sat in the back between me and Key.
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When we got back he was there in the parking lot where he always had been watching us get out of the car. I had my arm around Tre once again cold my towel tied around my waist. Kilana carried Jake and walked between Billie Joe and Mike trying not to be seen by him because she knew he was no good. The man just stood there watching us all the way like he always did before but something seemed different about him when I let my gaze fall on the car. He hadn't come alone. Someone was with him though I couldn't see who it was or where they were but there was defiantly someone with him somewhere. We got to the hotel where we all changed back into our clothes. At least there was no one down in the lobby when we arrived otherwise we may not have been able to enter the hotel because we were wet and only in our swimming clothes. Jake sat on the bed looking at the pictures I had drawn earlier that morning before they had woke up. I stood on the balcony with Billie Joe watching the man in the parking lot and trying to see if there was anyone else in the car or if they were hiding somewhere else. Kilana sat on the couch with Tre and Mike who were having some lunch that Kilana had made. "So how long are you guys gonna be here?" I asked Billie Joe turning my eyes from the car to his green eyes. "About a month I guess we are off for a while but we can't exactly go home because after this brake we have another concert not far from here and it would be a little pointless to fly back home and then come right back here. How long are you and Kilana staying?" He asked looking out to the horizon beyond all the tall buildings. "I'm not sure now that James is gone we don't exactly have a way to get home and even if we had the car Me nor Key can drive I mean I can but I don't have a license. Kilana never learned. We are pretty much stuck here." I said looking back down to the lot below. I felt a hand on my shoulder and I lifted my head in time to see Billie Joe smile and walk back inside. I followed and took a seat on the couch before Kilana had time to sit coming back from the kitchen with what looked like a plate of shrimp. I took one off the plate and put it in my mouth. "Yep shrimp." I said swallowing it and taking another. "I thought you hated shrimp Key." I said eating that one and taking another. "I guess I don't anymore." She said eating one making a face. "Guess not." I laughed at how she had eaten it and decided she didn't like it after all. She handed the plate to me. "You can have it." She said drinking her glass of Sprite, which sat on the table making another face. "Sprite and shrimp do not mix." She said setting her cup down and taking a seat in the chair. "Oh come on it's not that bad." I said eating another and another. Shrimp is like one of my favorite foods. I don't know why I just like it and other people don't. I like a lot of things others don't like pickles which people like but I can eat four jars of pickles in an hour and I can tell the difference between polish and kosher dill pickles with no problem. I even drink the juice sometimes, which is like drinking vinegar and salt for some. I loved seafood too. I leaned back in the cushion and handed the plate off to Tre who ate one then set it on the table. "Fine." I said pretending to sound offended that no one else would eat them. "More for me." I said taking another and putting it in my mouth.
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Jake fell asleep on the couch using Mike's lap as a pillow. Kilana scooped the little boy up and put his pajamas on hi then tucked him into bed. Mike seemed relieved he was off of him and could now move. The guys left not long after and me and Kilana sat up until midnight watching storytellers, which was on TV. Green Day! I wondered if they were watching themselves back in their room. Well they were doing the show so possibly not they already saw it first hand. Kilana fell asleep on then couch so I pulled a blanket from the closet and covered her up then I got into bed and fell asleep thinking about all that had happened and what was possibly to come. I couldn't wait for tomorrow and what the day would bring. I dreamed about that day at the beach only everything was twisted. Jake wasn't there and the water was warm and the sky was bright blue there was no road nearby and everything seemed perfect but right when the beach disappeared and turned into a flat asphalt I saw the man standing there the stalker. He pulled out a gun and took a shot cutting into me more like a knife than a bullet and I fell backwards and I opened my eyes Kilana shaking me trying to wake me up. "Are you okay Kiki?" She asked as I sat up in the middle of the night. "Yeah fine just had a weird dream." I said laying back down. "Okay then." She said climbing into her own bed. The clock said 2:30. I rolled over onto my side my heart beat fast like what I had dreamed was real I was scared. I managed to go back to sleep though and didn't wake up at all for the rest of the night. When was I ever gonna get a peaceful night of sleep in this place?
