All By Myself, All On My Own, chapter 13
I woke up the next morning to sun in my eyes a new day had begun and what was in store I couldn't wait to find out. That past night was weird. I could still remember parts of my dream how real it seemed until I woke up with Kilana shaking me worried about me. It wasn't a normal dream for me. I had never had to woken from a dream by a friend I always woke myself up. I closed my eyes and rolled over so the sun was to my back and pulled the covers up to my ears blocking out all the light coming in the window. "Kiki get up." I heard Kilana say footsteps following her words. "Kiki up we have company." She said sitting on the bed next to me and shaking my shoulders. "Aw... "I groaned, "Go away." I mumbled still half asleep and pulling the covers up over my head and curling into a ball. "Kiki we have company get up!" I said harshly only so I would wake up. "It's too early." I said rolling over so my back was to her. "Green Day is here Kiki don't you want to see them?" "I'll see em later." "Kiki it's almost 11:00 it's time to wake up." She said giving up and standing. "Fine I'm up." I said grumpily. Sure Green Day was here but I didn't want to get out of bed. I sat up and pulled the covers off of my head my hair frizzed out and messy. I grabbed my brush off of the floor and started to comb through the knots in my hair. I completely opened my eyes the guys were sitting on the couch waiting and Jake was with them watching TV like most mornings. I rolled out of bed my long nightshirt pulled up over my hip showing my underwear but who cared. I straightened out my shirt and walked over to the couch itching the sleep from my eyes. It was too early for them to be here. I always look like crap in the mornings especially when I am woken up. I didn't want them to see me like this. "Morning." I yawned walking into the bathroom and closing the door. "Morning." All three said back to me as I shut the door. I turned on the shower and got in letting the hot water take away my sleepiness. I climbed out and dried off putting on my concert outfit that I had made specifically for this vacation. I put my hair up into a tight ponytail and walked out of the room. "Hey I remember those clothes." Tre said studying my outfit. "Yeah I wore them to the signings. " I said taking a seat next to him on the couch and closing my eyes just a little sleepy still. "Hey wake up." He said pushing on my side. "Huh? Sorry had trouble sleeping again last night." I said snapping awake and looking at him. "I can't wake up as quickly as you guys can." Tre looked at me up and down still observing my clothes. "Where'd you get those?" He asked. "Made em." I said a little embarrassed to say. "Cool." Is all he said in response. Jake turned his attention from the TV to me. "Hey you wearing the clothes again from before and stuff." He said jumping up and down on his bottom. "Yeah." I said seeing his reaction to this. My belly shirt showed my tattoo that said Billie Joe my short sleeves showed Mike and with no real collar the signature of Tre Cool was visible. Kilana sat on the opposite end of the couch more on the arm though. The couch didn't fit all six of us. I had nearly gotten over the fact of James leaving me though there was still an empty feeling in my heart but I managed to cover it up so I wouldn't look like I was falling apart from inside out to my friends. I didn't want them to be any more worried for me than they already were. I started falling asleep again but managed to wake up before I had the chance to really let my mind wander. Tried my best to keep myself awake. We were forced to sit through three TV shows that Jake liked before we were actually able to leave for breakfast. For once we were eating out for breakfast. We got into the car and parked on the side of the road.
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For breakfast we ate at McDonalds. Me, Tre and Billie Joe had pancakes but Mike, Jake and Kilana just stuck with eating all of our hash browns. The food was good for breakfast I don't think I've eaten breakfast from this place since I was fifteen. When we were done we all went back to the hotel and sat in the lobby. Don't ask why, it was away from our hotel rooms so we stayed here for a while talking and terrorizing some of the new comers. Staying here for so long eventually got extremely boring. It's fun at first being in a new place but then it just makes you wanna go home where it is more fun. We all sat at one of the breakfast tables talking about our past you know really getting to know each other better than when we first met when all they knew about us was our names and ages. We told stories and all that other junk I don't wanna bother to tell you about so...
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At 5:00 we were all upstairs in my hotel room listening to music basically having a party. Jake danced poorly to the music. We sat on the bed eating chips and drinking soda, watching Jake try to impress us with his dancing. It was so much fun. I grabbed a handful of chips out of the bag and put them in my mouth then handed the bag off to Billie Joe who gave it to Kilana. "What Billie Joe don't want any?" I asked him wondering why he wasn't eating anything. He grabbed the bag, which now was in the hands of Tre. "Hey I was eating those!" Tre shouted happily enjoying himself too much to get angry. "Yeah but come here I got something we can do." He said walking out onto the balcony. Me, Mike and Tre followed. Kilana went into the bathroom. We all stood on the balcony and watched as Billie Joe took aim with his hand and then threw the handful of potato chips over the rail and bombed the man below who just seemed to ignore the falling chips that were bouncing off of him like he couldn't feel or see it. "What the hell is wrong with him?" Mike asked observing the man's reaction. Billie Joe took another handful and tossed them. They once again rained on the man's head and once again our so-called stalker took no notice of it. "Let me try." I said pushing in front of Tre. I reached into the bag and grabbed a handful. I threw them with force at the stupid person who had been following us wherever we went. The chips bombed him again bouncing off of him breaking in half as they hit any surface. I felt the man's eyes on me though his head didn't face me he could see me. "Yeah you! Leave us alone!" I shouted too out of my mind to stop myself. The man turned his head our way. I threw another handful at him but he didn't move. "Kiki calm down. It's not like he's really paying any attention to you." Tre said laughing now that I had gotten the man's attention. "Here Tre your turn." I said shoving the bag into his arms. He reached his hand in and threw it over the edge missing the man but smashing into the car. Kilana came out onto the balcony with us. "What are you doing?" She asked trying to see. "Throwing chips at the jerk who's been following you." Mike said. "Oh okay then continue." She said walking inside acting like this is the worst thing you could possibly do but not wanting to try and stop all of us. I came in with her leaving the three to continue. "What's wrong don't you like the fact that we are trying to annoy our stalker dude?" I asked taking a seat on the bed next to her. Jake had stopped dancing and lay on the floor too tired to move listening to the music. "No I like the fact that you're doing that I'm just not so sure it's a good idea to do that. Something could happen to us." She said falling onto her back looking up at the ceiling where my posters hung. Why is it that whenever someone went to lay on a bed it was always mine never hers? The guys came in and lied down next to us for some reason. "What are we doing?" Mike said looking up at the ceiling like us. There was no room left so Tre and Billie Joe went onto the other bed. "No idea what we're looking at ask Kilana." I said pushing myself over to make room and keep Mike from falling off the edge of the bed. This was weird why were we all doing this? Who cared at the time it was relaxing. I closed my eyes and rested but as soon as I did Mike shouted. "Oh no you don't wake up!" He didn't exactly shout he just said it in a loud tone. You get me? I opened my eyes and looked at him. "Fine I'm awake." I said looking back up at the ceiling and closing my eyes again. I felt someone's finger poke into my side and I squirmed away in laughter. "Hey!" I laughed pushing up against Kilana to make her move over so I could get away from Mike who was tickling me to keep me awake. "Fine I'll wake up!" I laughed nearly knocking Kilana off the other side of the bed. He pulled away and I clutched my side still able to feel where he had placed his finger. "We should probably be getting down to our room." Billie Joe said sitting up on the other bed. He got up and headed for the door. Jake got up and chased after him grabbing the bottom of his shirt and tugging trying to make him stay. "Why?" He shouted pulling as hard as he could but not going anywhere." "See you tomorrow." Mike said getting up and then Tre got up and they all walked out the door without saying why they were leaving so soon but who cared today was so much fun and maybe I would finally get some sleep tonight.
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That night I was lying in bed when I heard shouting from one of the near rooms. I couldn't tell what was being said, it was muted by the walls. I got out of bed and walked out onto the balcony where I could hear it better. "Tre you asshole what the hell do you think you were doing! Get the fuck out of this room!" That's all I heard of Billie Joe. What did Tre do? I missed most of the fight and now there was silence. Footsteps could be heard from someone passing my door then another person passed running to keep up. I went inside and opened the door to see Tre head down the stairs at the end of the hall Mike following shouting trying to keep him from going. It was nearly midnight why now? I looked the other way Billie Joe stood by the door angry then after waving to me slammed the door shut. I ran down the hall and down the stairs as fast as I could. I met up with them at the lobby. Tre stormed through the double doors and into the cold air. I grabbed Mike by the arm as I ran to catch up. "Mike what's going on?" I asked desperately trying to find out. "Billie Joe and Tre are pissed and now Tre's run off again." Is all he said which to me didn't make much sense. I ran ahead and stopped on the bottom step. I didn't want to go any farther. I didn't have any shoes on and that man the stalker was only a few yards away. "Tre! Don't go!" I screamed to him. He turned and gave me an odd look. Almost sad but more anger. He kept walking out onto the street until he was out of view. "What just happened?" I asked trying to fight back the few tears that were coming why is any of this happening. First James now Tre is leaving me? "It's okay he just needs some time alone. He'll be back in a day or two. The longest he's ever stayed is three days he usually gets lonely and hungry before anything really happens." Mike said reassuring me his safe return. He set his hand on my shoulder and pulled me back inside. "What happened though? Why did he run away in the first place why is Billie Joe so pissed at him?" I asked as we started up the stairs. "You don't really wanna know right now. Maybe when things calm down a little I'll tell you. Until then get some sleep we'll deal with things in the morning." He said stopping at my door and giving ma a quick hug to calm my feelings down then he headed for his own room. "What happened?" Kilana said sitting up in bed looking scared. "I'm guessing you heard the shouting too." I said laying back in bed. "That and the fact you ran out of the room this late coming back nearly crying into Mike's arms." She said calming down and laying back into her bed next to her little boy who was now twisted and tangled in the blankets squirming in his sleep to get free. "Billie Joe is angry and now Tre ran away. That's all I know." I said closing my eyes and letting myself fall asleep.
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Nearly a week later well about five days later there was no sign of Tre. I was really getting worried. "Mike I thought he was never gone more than three days?" I asked him sitting at the table eating a pop tart. "He doesn't normally stay this long I wonder where he is." "Maybe something happened to him Billie Joe you think we should go out and look for him?" I asked starting to feel scared. Billie Joe stood by the window looking down into the parking lot. "I don't think we should he'll probably turn up soon but have you noticed that after James disappeared that man did for a few days and now Tre's left and hasn't come back and that man isn't here and hasn't been since our fight?" He asked looking out into the streets. "No I haven't you think he has something to do with all this?" I asked starting to feel even worse. "I'm not sure but it is odd that this would happen." He said taking a seat next to me and Mike. Kilana and Jake were down in town getting restocked on our food supply. "If he doesn't come back by tonight I'll take the car around town looking for him." Mike said slumping down in his chair trying his best to keep in as a part in this conversation. "Alright." I said finishing my breakfast and after folding the paper plate into quarters I threw it into the trashcan. "What you suddenly have a thing for him?" Billie Joe asked trying to knock some truth out of me though everything I was telling him was true but he thought otherwise. "No I'd go looking for any of you if you suddenly turned up missing. You guys have been my ultimate favorite band since I was little and wouldn't want any of you to disappear besides you guys are my best friends at the moment and you were there for me when James left me." I started to feel tears rolling down my cheeks. Mike wrapped his arms around me nearly pulling me out of my chair. These people were my best friends and I wasn't gonna let anything happen to them, not now.
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For breakfast we ate at McDonalds. Me, Tre and Billie Joe had pancakes but Mike, Jake and Kilana just stuck with eating all of our hash browns. The food was good for breakfast I don't think I've eaten breakfast from this place since I was fifteen. When we were done we all went back to the hotel and sat in the lobby. Don't ask why, it was away from our hotel rooms so we stayed here for a while talking and terrorizing some of the new comers. Staying here for so long eventually got extremely boring. It's fun at first being in a new place but then it just makes you wanna go home where it is more fun. We all sat at one of the breakfast tables talking about our past you know really getting to know each other better than when we first met when all they knew about us was our names and ages. We told stories and all that other junk I don't wanna bother to tell you about so...
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At 5:00 we were all upstairs in my hotel room listening to music basically having a party. Jake danced poorly to the music. We sat on the bed eating chips and drinking soda, watching Jake try to impress us with his dancing. It was so much fun. I grabbed a handful of chips out of the bag and put them in my mouth then handed the bag off to Billie Joe who gave it to Kilana. "What Billie Joe don't want any?" I asked him wondering why he wasn't eating anything. He grabbed the bag, which now was in the hands of Tre. "Hey I was eating those!" Tre shouted happily enjoying himself too much to get angry. "Yeah but come here I got something we can do." He said walking out onto the balcony. Me, Mike and Tre followed. Kilana went into the bathroom. We all stood on the balcony and watched as Billie Joe took aim with his hand and then threw the handful of potato chips over the rail and bombed the man below who just seemed to ignore the falling chips that were bouncing off of him like he couldn't feel or see it. "What the hell is wrong with him?" Mike asked observing the man's reaction. Billie Joe took another handful and tossed them. They once again rained on the man's head and once again our so-called stalker took no notice of it. "Let me try." I said pushing in front of Tre. I reached into the bag and grabbed a handful. I threw them with force at the stupid person who had been following us wherever we went. The chips bombed him again bouncing off of him breaking in half as they hit any surface. I felt the man's eyes on me though his head didn't face me he could see me. "Yeah you! Leave us alone!" I shouted too out of my mind to stop myself. The man turned his head our way. I threw another handful at him but he didn't move. "Kiki calm down. It's not like he's really paying any attention to you." Tre said laughing now that I had gotten the man's attention. "Here Tre your turn." I said shoving the bag into his arms. He reached his hand in and threw it over the edge missing the man but smashing into the car. Kilana came out onto the balcony with us. "What are you doing?" She asked trying to see. "Throwing chips at the jerk who's been following you." Mike said. "Oh okay then continue." She said walking inside acting like this is the worst thing you could possibly do but not wanting to try and stop all of us. I came in with her leaving the three to continue. "What's wrong don't you like the fact that we are trying to annoy our stalker dude?" I asked taking a seat on the bed next to her. Jake had stopped dancing and lay on the floor too tired to move listening to the music. "No I like the fact that you're doing that I'm just not so sure it's a good idea to do that. Something could happen to us." She said falling onto her back looking up at the ceiling where my posters hung. Why is it that whenever someone went to lay on a bed it was always mine never hers? The guys came in and lied down next to us for some reason. "What are we doing?" Mike said looking up at the ceiling like us. There was no room left so Tre and Billie Joe went onto the other bed. "No idea what we're looking at ask Kilana." I said pushing myself over to make room and keep Mike from falling off the edge of the bed. This was weird why were we all doing this? Who cared at the time it was relaxing. I closed my eyes and rested but as soon as I did Mike shouted. "Oh no you don't wake up!" He didn't exactly shout he just said it in a loud tone. You get me? I opened my eyes and looked at him. "Fine I'm awake." I said looking back up at the ceiling and closing my eyes again. I felt someone's finger poke into my side and I squirmed away in laughter. "Hey!" I laughed pushing up against Kilana to make her move over so I could get away from Mike who was tickling me to keep me awake. "Fine I'll wake up!" I laughed nearly knocking Kilana off the other side of the bed. He pulled away and I clutched my side still able to feel where he had placed his finger. "We should probably be getting down to our room." Billie Joe said sitting up on the other bed. He got up and headed for the door. Jake got up and chased after him grabbing the bottom of his shirt and tugging trying to make him stay. "Why?" He shouted pulling as hard as he could but not going anywhere." "See you tomorrow." Mike said getting up and then Tre got up and they all walked out the door without saying why they were leaving so soon but who cared today was so much fun and maybe I would finally get some sleep tonight.
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That night I was lying in bed when I heard shouting from one of the near rooms. I couldn't tell what was being said, it was muted by the walls. I got out of bed and walked out onto the balcony where I could hear it better. "Tre you asshole what the hell do you think you were doing! Get the fuck out of this room!" That's all I heard of Billie Joe. What did Tre do? I missed most of the fight and now there was silence. Footsteps could be heard from someone passing my door then another person passed running to keep up. I went inside and opened the door to see Tre head down the stairs at the end of the hall Mike following shouting trying to keep him from going. It was nearly midnight why now? I looked the other way Billie Joe stood by the door angry then after waving to me slammed the door shut. I ran down the hall and down the stairs as fast as I could. I met up with them at the lobby. Tre stormed through the double doors and into the cold air. I grabbed Mike by the arm as I ran to catch up. "Mike what's going on?" I asked desperately trying to find out. "Billie Joe and Tre are pissed and now Tre's run off again." Is all he said which to me didn't make much sense. I ran ahead and stopped on the bottom step. I didn't want to go any farther. I didn't have any shoes on and that man the stalker was only a few yards away. "Tre! Don't go!" I screamed to him. He turned and gave me an odd look. Almost sad but more anger. He kept walking out onto the street until he was out of view. "What just happened?" I asked trying to fight back the few tears that were coming why is any of this happening. First James now Tre is leaving me? "It's okay he just needs some time alone. He'll be back in a day or two. The longest he's ever stayed is three days he usually gets lonely and hungry before anything really happens." Mike said reassuring me his safe return. He set his hand on my shoulder and pulled me back inside. "What happened though? Why did he run away in the first place why is Billie Joe so pissed at him?" I asked as we started up the stairs. "You don't really wanna know right now. Maybe when things calm down a little I'll tell you. Until then get some sleep we'll deal with things in the morning." He said stopping at my door and giving ma a quick hug to calm my feelings down then he headed for his own room. "What happened?" Kilana said sitting up in bed looking scared. "I'm guessing you heard the shouting too." I said laying back in bed. "That and the fact you ran out of the room this late coming back nearly crying into Mike's arms." She said calming down and laying back into her bed next to her little boy who was now twisted and tangled in the blankets squirming in his sleep to get free. "Billie Joe is angry and now Tre ran away. That's all I know." I said closing my eyes and letting myself fall asleep.
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Nearly a week later well about five days later there was no sign of Tre. I was really getting worried. "Mike I thought he was never gone more than three days?" I asked him sitting at the table eating a pop tart. "He doesn't normally stay this long I wonder where he is." "Maybe something happened to him Billie Joe you think we should go out and look for him?" I asked starting to feel scared. Billie Joe stood by the window looking down into the parking lot. "I don't think we should he'll probably turn up soon but have you noticed that after James disappeared that man did for a few days and now Tre's left and hasn't come back and that man isn't here and hasn't been since our fight?" He asked looking out into the streets. "No I haven't you think he has something to do with all this?" I asked starting to feel even worse. "I'm not sure but it is odd that this would happen." He said taking a seat next to me and Mike. Kilana and Jake were down in town getting restocked on our food supply. "If he doesn't come back by tonight I'll take the car around town looking for him." Mike said slumping down in his chair trying his best to keep in as a part in this conversation. "Alright." I said finishing my breakfast and after folding the paper plate into quarters I threw it into the trashcan. "What you suddenly have a thing for him?" Billie Joe asked trying to knock some truth out of me though everything I was telling him was true but he thought otherwise. "No I'd go looking for any of you if you suddenly turned up missing. You guys have been my ultimate favorite band since I was little and wouldn't want any of you to disappear besides you guys are my best friends at the moment and you were there for me when James left me." I started to feel tears rolling down my cheeks. Mike wrapped his arms around me nearly pulling me out of my chair. These people were my best friends and I wasn't gonna let anything happen to them, not now.
