Devotion and Desire, chapter 2
We sat at these couches they had at the bar. Nikki just had a soda typical she never drank because of her anti depressants/ anxiety medications. I remember she almost died from mixing in alcohol and her meds. Fuck it she looked absolutely gorgeous tonight.
She was wearing a black and pink dress mainly black. Typical she always wore these colors even to prom. Her hair was straight and down not touched as usual. I just stared at her for minutes.
"So you still play bass?" I said.
She nodded her head. Then suddenly she started crying. Wiping a tear from her eye.
"What's the matter?" I said.
She looked up at me with sad eyes.
"I finally found you." She whispered "I looked for years, I tried to have my band play with yours. I found the other one I love Tré I really do he understands how I feel about you. But Mike I miss you! Here we are staring into each other's eyes but you're taken."
She put her hand on my knee suddenly the chills rushed through my body I knew something shitty would happen soon. I wished I could close my eyes and I'd kiss her. Her friends walked over at this point.
"NIKKI" One of her friends called "We have to get ready our performance is soon"
"Alright" She said "I'll talk to ya in a bit"
I nodded my head sadly, "Good luck!" I said.
"Thanks I absolutely need it."
I sat cringing in my seat I saw Brittney at the corner of my eye grab my hand. I clutched it lightly. Her grip became tighter around my hand it was painful.
"You know you are mine now." She whispered "And I have waited for years for you to love me! I don't mean to be a bitch but it was her mistake to fucking dump you for my goofball cousin!"
I looked down. She never made me feel better. She sometimes made me feel even worse about myself. Not that she was rude or anything. She was just so protective and said the wrong thing at the wrong time. I wonder how Nikki felt at the moment.
Nikki's POV:
I was tuning my bass sadly. I really wanted Mike back. To be quite honest Tré was the first guy I dated since Mike. It was that I knew Mike was the one. I did go to his two weddings but it wasn't the same. Now when I finally find him he is dating some trailer trash.
"Ugh Nikki." My friend Mara said while stroking my hair "It's ok, I know you like Mike but you have the drummer you always wanted."
I smiled slightly despite the fact they always so good to me since we all joined track in ninth grade I still felt sad.
"Oh Nikki stop it." Carly said. (she sometimes got really annoyed with everything) "Get over it he is dating a manly looking woman and he missed out!"
Suddenly Rachel the talkative one turned around.
"Actually you shouldn't be threatened she is probably a dominatrix anyway!" She said
Ali laughed, "Or a rapist."
I sighed, "I don't care she has Mike"
Suddenly Tré walked backstage. "Hey baby and hey ladies"
"Hi Tré" we said in unison.
"Nikki could I talk to you for a minute?"
I nodded my head and walked aside with him. He wrapped an arm around my shoulder. "She dosen't like me." I said.
"Who Brittney don't worry about her. Maybe Mike will come to realize she is ugly on the inside. But tonight worry about knocking them dead."
Tré always made me feel better.
"I love you."
He slowly kissed me. I shivered in delight.
"Knock 'em dead kid."
I walked over to the mic well it was my turn to sing the song tonight. I heard a loud thunderous applause. I looked around looking if I could catch Mike's eye. But Ali said.
"One Two One two three Four"
I started to play my bass and slowly and carefully I started to sing the song I wrote for him.
Hello nice to see you again
Do you remember me
I was your ex girlfriend
You know the kinky one
I have searched
Far and wide
To finally stare once again
In your eyes
I miss you babe
Yes I miss you babe
Do you even hear me
Call your name
Just stare in your eyes
And tell you this
Forever you will be
My one and only guy.
Remember times
You showed me your band
Yes I could say
I was your biggest fan
Oh baby listen
We were such good friends
But I didn't want
Such a good thing to end
I have searched
Far and wide
To finally stare once again
In your eyes
I miss you babe
Yes I miss you babe
Do you even hear me
Call your name
Just stare in your eyes
And tell you this
Forever you will be
My one and only guy
We did an instrumental break. I finally saw Mike staring at me with sad eyes. He did love me. But he seemed so scared. Finally the music slowed down a little.
I have searched
Far and wide
To finally stare once again
In your eyes
The music went to it's normal pace and I sang at the top of my lungs:
I miss you babe
Yes I miss you babe
Do you even hear me
Call your name
Just stare in your eyes
And tell you this
Forever you will be
My one and only guy
The music finally stopped I turned my head to the side and shed a tear during the thunderous applause. I looked down and slowly whispered, "I miss you Mike."
She was wearing a black and pink dress mainly black. Typical she always wore these colors even to prom. Her hair was straight and down not touched as usual. I just stared at her for minutes.
"So you still play bass?" I said.
She nodded her head. Then suddenly she started crying. Wiping a tear from her eye.
"What's the matter?" I said.
She looked up at me with sad eyes.
"I finally found you." She whispered "I looked for years, I tried to have my band play with yours. I found the other one I love Tré I really do he understands how I feel about you. But Mike I miss you! Here we are staring into each other's eyes but you're taken."
She put her hand on my knee suddenly the chills rushed through my body I knew something shitty would happen soon. I wished I could close my eyes and I'd kiss her. Her friends walked over at this point.
"NIKKI" One of her friends called "We have to get ready our performance is soon"
"Alright" She said "I'll talk to ya in a bit"
I nodded my head sadly, "Good luck!" I said.
"Thanks I absolutely need it."
I sat cringing in my seat I saw Brittney at the corner of my eye grab my hand. I clutched it lightly. Her grip became tighter around my hand it was painful.
"You know you are mine now." She whispered "And I have waited for years for you to love me! I don't mean to be a bitch but it was her mistake to fucking dump you for my goofball cousin!"
I looked down. She never made me feel better. She sometimes made me feel even worse about myself. Not that she was rude or anything. She was just so protective and said the wrong thing at the wrong time. I wonder how Nikki felt at the moment.
Nikki's POV:
I was tuning my bass sadly. I really wanted Mike back. To be quite honest Tré was the first guy I dated since Mike. It was that I knew Mike was the one. I did go to his two weddings but it wasn't the same. Now when I finally find him he is dating some trailer trash.
"Ugh Nikki." My friend Mara said while stroking my hair "It's ok, I know you like Mike but you have the drummer you always wanted."
I smiled slightly despite the fact they always so good to me since we all joined track in ninth grade I still felt sad.
"Oh Nikki stop it." Carly said. (she sometimes got really annoyed with everything) "Get over it he is dating a manly looking woman and he missed out!"
Suddenly Rachel the talkative one turned around.
"Actually you shouldn't be threatened she is probably a dominatrix anyway!" She said
Ali laughed, "Or a rapist."
I sighed, "I don't care she has Mike"
Suddenly Tré walked backstage. "Hey baby and hey ladies"
"Hi Tré" we said in unison.
"Nikki could I talk to you for a minute?"
I nodded my head and walked aside with him. He wrapped an arm around my shoulder. "She dosen't like me." I said.
"Who Brittney don't worry about her. Maybe Mike will come to realize she is ugly on the inside. But tonight worry about knocking them dead."
Tré always made me feel better.
"I love you."
He slowly kissed me. I shivered in delight.
"Knock 'em dead kid."
I walked over to the mic well it was my turn to sing the song tonight. I heard a loud thunderous applause. I looked around looking if I could catch Mike's eye. But Ali said.
"One Two One two three Four"
I started to play my bass and slowly and carefully I started to sing the song I wrote for him.
Hello nice to see you again
Do you remember me
I was your ex girlfriend
You know the kinky one
I have searched
Far and wide
To finally stare once again
In your eyes
I miss you babe
Yes I miss you babe
Do you even hear me
Call your name
Just stare in your eyes
And tell you this
Forever you will be
My one and only guy.
Remember times
You showed me your band
Yes I could say
I was your biggest fan
Oh baby listen
We were such good friends
But I didn't want
Such a good thing to end
I have searched
Far and wide
To finally stare once again
In your eyes
I miss you babe
Yes I miss you babe
Do you even hear me
Call your name
Just stare in your eyes
And tell you this
Forever you will be
My one and only guy
We did an instrumental break. I finally saw Mike staring at me with sad eyes. He did love me. But he seemed so scared. Finally the music slowed down a little.
I have searched
Far and wide
To finally stare once again
In your eyes
The music went to it's normal pace and I sang at the top of my lungs:
I miss you babe
Yes I miss you babe
Do you even hear me
Call your name
Just stare in your eyes
And tell you this
Forever you will be
My one and only guy
The music finally stopped I turned my head to the side and shed a tear during the thunderous applause. I looked down and slowly whispered, "I miss you Mike."
