The Basket Case Mind Of A Deranged Woman, chapter 5
Falling In the Clouds
That night, I couldn’t sleep. I kept on thinking that I might be here for the rest of my life! And I thought that if I was here the rest of my life, the things that they would take away from me. My life, my intelligence, the beautiful children that I planned on having since I was nine, the handsome husband that would always be there (not that I was thinking that I could find love after Derek, just these are examples.) How would you feel if you weren’t allowed to have that?
I crawled over to Billie Joe’s bed and woke him up.
“Billie I need to talk to you. I couldn’t sleep and was wondering about something...� he sat up and directed his attention towards me.
“What is it?� he asked, half awake.
“I was just pondering the thought that I might be stuck here forever. That I shall never get out of this place.�
“Yes you will. You’re not crazy. You will get out.�
“But Billie, I’m worried. What IF we ARE stuck here forever?�
“Trust me, you will. I admire you Piper. You are so brave as to come here against your will when you aren’t even crazy. And you are smart, beautiful, and everything good.�
I didn’t know what he meant...until he leaned in and kissed me. He pulled away slowly (no, he did not get “any tongue�) and he looked into my eyes. I kissed him back. But wait, what was I thinking? How could I do this to Derek? But I didn’t want to think about Derek right then. I kept on kissing Billie Joe like he was the pillow I practiced on when I was five (hey, we all know that you’ve done it too.) It felt like love. It felt like this was meant to be.
Seconds before I could stop him, he climbed on top of me and kissed me more. He took off my white tank top that I was wearing and threw it on the ground. He started to unbutton his shirt, and threw that on the ground as well. His kisses became messy, sloppy kisses with a hint of love in every BITE! :)
He began unbuttoning his pants and threw them off somewhere. He was now in only his underwear and nothing else. He kissed my neck and made his way down to my tummy (who who!!! it tickled!) He unbuttoned my pants and pulled them down. He came back up to where my mouth is, and slowed down. He gave me a long kiss, looked up into my eyes, and put his arms around my stomach. He began kissing where my sternum is (the breast bone to those who don’t pay attention in health to the hot teacher!) He licked my stomach and held me closer to him. I could feel his bare skin on mine. I could feel every bite when he bit my stomach and clutched my skin with his teeth. Was this right? Was he the one that I was supposed to love, not Derek?
I was so unfamiliar with this that it was almost uncomfortable. Just before I had those thoughts, I was fine. Just fine with all of this. I didn’t even think about Derek. And now I’m ashamed of myself for giving in.
Billie Joe looked up. “You okay?� he asked.
“I’m fine. Why?�
“You seem tense.� he said, licking his lips and making a motion in his mouth that looked like he was chewing gum.
“I’m fine, really.�
“Do you want me to stop?�
“Billie, I told you that I was fine...�
“Alright, just making sure.�
We giggled and Billie Joe continued kissing my neck.
When I was finally drifting asleep, I felt myself being picked up gently and carried over to my bed. I snapped out of my trance, and caught Billie Joe’s arm before he could go and lay down again. “Stay with me here.� I had said. And so...he laid down next to me and held me in his arms the whole night.
The next morning I woke up when this bell rang. Well, at least it was supposed to be morning. It was around 2am and the loud ringing penetrated through the whole building. Billie Joe picked me up and hid me in the closet. I tried asking him what was going on but he shh-ed me and we sat there in the closet.
“The alarm means that one of the psycho killers got out and were spotted in the building.� he whispered. The door swung open and a tall, black guard walked in. Billie Joe opened the door and helped me up. The alarm stopped ringing and the lights flicked on.
“It’s okay, it was just a false alarm. Everyone was accounted for in their cells. No need to worry, just go back to sleep.� and with a sigh of relief, we crawled back into bed when the guard left. We stayed up all morning talking.
Okay, about last night. Nothing happened. All it was was just a bunch of kissing and licking. (Sorry to have ruined your hopes and dreams, but....) There wouldn’t be any protection if we did actually have sex. But now I knew that Billie Joe loved me.
That night, I couldn’t sleep. I kept on thinking that I might be here for the rest of my life! And I thought that if I was here the rest of my life, the things that they would take away from me. My life, my intelligence, the beautiful children that I planned on having since I was nine, the handsome husband that would always be there (not that I was thinking that I could find love after Derek, just these are examples.) How would you feel if you weren’t allowed to have that?
I crawled over to Billie Joe’s bed and woke him up.
“Billie I need to talk to you. I couldn’t sleep and was wondering about something...� he sat up and directed his attention towards me.
“What is it?� he asked, half awake.
“I was just pondering the thought that I might be stuck here forever. That I shall never get out of this place.�
“Yes you will. You’re not crazy. You will get out.�
“But Billie, I’m worried. What IF we ARE stuck here forever?�
“Trust me, you will. I admire you Piper. You are so brave as to come here against your will when you aren’t even crazy. And you are smart, beautiful, and everything good.�
I didn’t know what he meant...until he leaned in and kissed me. He pulled away slowly (no, he did not get “any tongue�) and he looked into my eyes. I kissed him back. But wait, what was I thinking? How could I do this to Derek? But I didn’t want to think about Derek right then. I kept on kissing Billie Joe like he was the pillow I practiced on when I was five (hey, we all know that you’ve done it too.) It felt like love. It felt like this was meant to be.
Seconds before I could stop him, he climbed on top of me and kissed me more. He took off my white tank top that I was wearing and threw it on the ground. He started to unbutton his shirt, and threw that on the ground as well. His kisses became messy, sloppy kisses with a hint of love in every BITE! :)
He began unbuttoning his pants and threw them off somewhere. He was now in only his underwear and nothing else. He kissed my neck and made his way down to my tummy (who who!!! it tickled!) He unbuttoned my pants and pulled them down. He came back up to where my mouth is, and slowed down. He gave me a long kiss, looked up into my eyes, and put his arms around my stomach. He began kissing where my sternum is (the breast bone to those who don’t pay attention in health to the hot teacher!) He licked my stomach and held me closer to him. I could feel his bare skin on mine. I could feel every bite when he bit my stomach and clutched my skin with his teeth. Was this right? Was he the one that I was supposed to love, not Derek?
I was so unfamiliar with this that it was almost uncomfortable. Just before I had those thoughts, I was fine. Just fine with all of this. I didn’t even think about Derek. And now I’m ashamed of myself for giving in.
Billie Joe looked up. “You okay?� he asked.
“I’m fine. Why?�
“You seem tense.� he said, licking his lips and making a motion in his mouth that looked like he was chewing gum.
“I’m fine, really.�
“Do you want me to stop?�
“Billie, I told you that I was fine...�
“Alright, just making sure.�
We giggled and Billie Joe continued kissing my neck.
When I was finally drifting asleep, I felt myself being picked up gently and carried over to my bed. I snapped out of my trance, and caught Billie Joe’s arm before he could go and lay down again. “Stay with me here.� I had said. And so...he laid down next to me and held me in his arms the whole night.
The next morning I woke up when this bell rang. Well, at least it was supposed to be morning. It was around 2am and the loud ringing penetrated through the whole building. Billie Joe picked me up and hid me in the closet. I tried asking him what was going on but he shh-ed me and we sat there in the closet.
“The alarm means that one of the psycho killers got out and were spotted in the building.� he whispered. The door swung open and a tall, black guard walked in. Billie Joe opened the door and helped me up. The alarm stopped ringing and the lights flicked on.
“It’s okay, it was just a false alarm. Everyone was accounted for in their cells. No need to worry, just go back to sleep.� and with a sigh of relief, we crawled back into bed when the guard left. We stayed up all morning talking.
Okay, about last night. Nothing happened. All it was was just a bunch of kissing and licking. (Sorry to have ruined your hopes and dreams, but....) There wouldn’t be any protection if we did actually have sex. But now I knew that Billie Joe loved me.
