Cause I'm Thinkin Of A Brand New Hope, One I've Never Known....., chapter 5
It didn't really hit me that Billie was......well, like my boyfriend, I guess. I didn't know what to call him. But everyone knew about it, now. I didn't really mind, neither did he.
The next few weeks were the best of my life. Shooting the video was amazing, it was still hard to believe, and I got to spend more and more time with Billie. The filming was being carried on more though, we wouldn't be done for a few months. I had no idea it would take THAT long. I mean, I've watched all of Green Days Making The Videos (dont mock. I like to see art in progress.) and mostly they took a few days. But Sam said he was going all out for this one, and I could tell. The scenes went from me in my bedroom (fake bedroom, duh) to me sitting on the edge of rooftops (they were gonna get a stunt girl to do that but I really wanted to) and to me walking in the rain, miming the words. Tre kept making me laugh at that bit, because, you know how on Boulevard Of Broken Dreams, they walked along on the things, oh what are they called, the- conveyer belts! Yeah, them, well I had to walk on that with the background of things behind me, and Tre kept doing what he did then, posing on it as it came outta the wall. That scene took days to film but I eventually got it.
There was a million other scenes too, me in school, swearing at teachers. We got to go to MY school to do that, and I got to swear at MY teachers! Awesome or what? And it was cool cause Meeka got to be an extra. There was a load of other extras too, for me to hang about and smoke with and drink and basically do things. And Jimmy, JOS, that John Pucci who was in the JOS video, is in this one too! Because I'm playing Whatsername, I'm as you know, the girl he finds and.....well, we kinda hang out haha you get what I'm on about. I have to kiss him. Yes. be jealous. I get to kiss Saint Jimmy! And he makes everyone call him Saint Jimmy too, for a laugh. He's a cool guy, he's really fun.
"Right, we'll have it in the rain I think," Sam said when we were about to shoot the kiss.
"You're big on rain for this video, huh?" Tony, some camera guy laughed.
"Shut the fuck up and shoot this badass crap!" Sam yelled. Everyone moved into place and the music came on. We had to do it to the music, so we know whre to come in. Although She's A Rebel is probably one of their shortest songs on American Idiot, I was pretty sure it was taking the longest to film.
"And......Action!" Sam yelled.
"She's a rebel, vigilante........"
I walked around the corner to where Jimmy was and he was pouting in that sexy way he did. I walked over in time to the music and looked into his eyes. He looked up, then down, as the fake rain started to fall and lightening flashed. We leaned in and-
"Wait! I gotta take this call!" Billie yelled. Sam groaned and nodded.
"Get a move on," He said and I sighed. Jimmy rolled his eyes.
"His cell wasn't even ringing!" Jimmy muttered. I smiled at him and he grinned back.
"Ok, take it from there.....action!" Sam yelled a few minutes later.
Once again, I did the scene, and walked over to Jimmy. He was doing the pouting thing again as I walked over. We looked at each other and leaned in again. This time, though, we kissed. After a few seconds we broke apart as there was another flash of lightening. Sam clapped and so did everyone else. Except Billie.....
"Now THAT was hott!" Tre yelled and Mike laughed. I glanced at Sam and he nodded.
"I think thats enough scenes today. Nice fucking work people, thats a wrap! See you guys tomorrow, and don't be fucking late, aright?!"
He gave me a quick like he always did, and I hugged Mike and Tre too. Everyone else started packing up and leaving, and I could just see Billie walking out the door.
"Hey! Billie! BILLIE!" I yelled. I ran after him, saying bye to the crew as I went. He was walking quickly, and I knew for a fact he could hear me but he was ignoring me. What-?
"Billie!" I finally caught up with him and grabbed his arm. He pulled out of my grasp and kept walking.
"I have to get home," He grunted. I stood in front of him.
"What did I do?" I said loudly.
"Nothing! I gotta get fucking home!" He yelled. I stared at him as he shoved past me, walking away. As soon as he turned the corner I felt tears in my eyes. Why was he ignoring me? What did I do? I didn't......why was he being like this?
I was too confused to do anything but go home. My sister was there. Even though she was a preppy bitch, and even though I hated her most of the time, she was my sister, and I had told her all about me and Billie. So, naturally, I told her about Billie ignoring me. She sat me down on the sofa (the 'rents were out, by the way) and grabbed a tub of ben and jerrys. She got a spoon and handed me one. We had a long talk about him, and what happened at the shoot. I told her we didn't shoot much, just a few scenes with Jimmy. She asked what and I told her.
"I kissed Jimmy-"
"Hold up, doll!" She said. "You kissed another guy?"
"Yeah I- oh! No, it was for the video!" I explained. She rolled her eyes.
"Doll, it doesn't matter. Billie Joe is clearly smitten with you and......."
"And?" I said desperatley.
"He's jelous."
I stared at her.
"No. He's not like that. He's the most awesome guy I've ever met and-"
"So how would you feel if he kissed another girl? Even if it was just acting?" She said pointedly.
"What should I do?" I asked quietly.
"You should go see him, doll," She said. I nodded, and ran for my coat. Once I had grabbed it I went back to see Lisa.
"Lisa?" I said.
Lisa looked up. "Yeah?"
"Thanks," I said and she smiled.
"No problem, doll."
I turned away then stopped.
"Lisa?" I said again.
"Yeah, doll?"
"Stop calling me doll."
***
The walk to Billie's was nerve racking. I was kinda angry, he was jelous of Jimmy, who he'd known long before he'd known me.
I knocked on his door and a few seconds later Billie opened it. He saw me and sniffed.
"Hi," I said slowly.
"Hi."
"Can I come in?" I asked.
"No."
"Why?" I said, getting angry.
"I'm busy, sorry," He said and closed the door.
"FUCK YOU THEN!" I yelled. He pulled it open again and stepped forward.
"Fuck me?!?! Why don't you go fuck Jimmy, like you obviously want to!" He yelled accusingly.
"You make me sick! Your fucking jealous-"
"I am NOT jealous, what is there to be jealous of?"
"Me!" I yelled.
"You? Why would I be jealous of a dirty, hard necked slut?" He spat. I stared at him then slapped him in the face. He grabbed his cheek and stared right back at me.
"You're not who I thought you were, Billie," I said.
The next few weeks were the best of my life. Shooting the video was amazing, it was still hard to believe, and I got to spend more and more time with Billie. The filming was being carried on more though, we wouldn't be done for a few months. I had no idea it would take THAT long. I mean, I've watched all of Green Days Making The Videos (dont mock. I like to see art in progress.) and mostly they took a few days. But Sam said he was going all out for this one, and I could tell. The scenes went from me in my bedroom (fake bedroom, duh) to me sitting on the edge of rooftops (they were gonna get a stunt girl to do that but I really wanted to) and to me walking in the rain, miming the words. Tre kept making me laugh at that bit, because, you know how on Boulevard Of Broken Dreams, they walked along on the things, oh what are they called, the- conveyer belts! Yeah, them, well I had to walk on that with the background of things behind me, and Tre kept doing what he did then, posing on it as it came outta the wall. That scene took days to film but I eventually got it.
There was a million other scenes too, me in school, swearing at teachers. We got to go to MY school to do that, and I got to swear at MY teachers! Awesome or what? And it was cool cause Meeka got to be an extra. There was a load of other extras too, for me to hang about and smoke with and drink and basically do things. And Jimmy, JOS, that John Pucci who was in the JOS video, is in this one too! Because I'm playing Whatsername, I'm as you know, the girl he finds and.....well, we kinda hang out haha you get what I'm on about. I have to kiss him. Yes. be jealous. I get to kiss Saint Jimmy! And he makes everyone call him Saint Jimmy too, for a laugh. He's a cool guy, he's really fun.
"Right, we'll have it in the rain I think," Sam said when we were about to shoot the kiss.
"You're big on rain for this video, huh?" Tony, some camera guy laughed.
"Shut the fuck up and shoot this badass crap!" Sam yelled. Everyone moved into place and the music came on. We had to do it to the music, so we know whre to come in. Although She's A Rebel is probably one of their shortest songs on American Idiot, I was pretty sure it was taking the longest to film.
"And......Action!" Sam yelled.
"She's a rebel, vigilante........"
I walked around the corner to where Jimmy was and he was pouting in that sexy way he did. I walked over in time to the music and looked into his eyes. He looked up, then down, as the fake rain started to fall and lightening flashed. We leaned in and-
"Wait! I gotta take this call!" Billie yelled. Sam groaned and nodded.
"Get a move on," He said and I sighed. Jimmy rolled his eyes.
"His cell wasn't even ringing!" Jimmy muttered. I smiled at him and he grinned back.
"Ok, take it from there.....action!" Sam yelled a few minutes later.
Once again, I did the scene, and walked over to Jimmy. He was doing the pouting thing again as I walked over. We looked at each other and leaned in again. This time, though, we kissed. After a few seconds we broke apart as there was another flash of lightening. Sam clapped and so did everyone else. Except Billie.....
"Now THAT was hott!" Tre yelled and Mike laughed. I glanced at Sam and he nodded.
"I think thats enough scenes today. Nice fucking work people, thats a wrap! See you guys tomorrow, and don't be fucking late, aright?!"
He gave me a quick like he always did, and I hugged Mike and Tre too. Everyone else started packing up and leaving, and I could just see Billie walking out the door.
"Hey! Billie! BILLIE!" I yelled. I ran after him, saying bye to the crew as I went. He was walking quickly, and I knew for a fact he could hear me but he was ignoring me. What-?
"Billie!" I finally caught up with him and grabbed his arm. He pulled out of my grasp and kept walking.
"I have to get home," He grunted. I stood in front of him.
"What did I do?" I said loudly.
"Nothing! I gotta get fucking home!" He yelled. I stared at him as he shoved past me, walking away. As soon as he turned the corner I felt tears in my eyes. Why was he ignoring me? What did I do? I didn't......why was he being like this?
I was too confused to do anything but go home. My sister was there. Even though she was a preppy bitch, and even though I hated her most of the time, she was my sister, and I had told her all about me and Billie. So, naturally, I told her about Billie ignoring me. She sat me down on the sofa (the 'rents were out, by the way) and grabbed a tub of ben and jerrys. She got a spoon and handed me one. We had a long talk about him, and what happened at the shoot. I told her we didn't shoot much, just a few scenes with Jimmy. She asked what and I told her.
"I kissed Jimmy-"
"Hold up, doll!" She said. "You kissed another guy?"
"Yeah I- oh! No, it was for the video!" I explained. She rolled her eyes.
"Doll, it doesn't matter. Billie Joe is clearly smitten with you and......."
"And?" I said desperatley.
"He's jelous."
I stared at her.
"No. He's not like that. He's the most awesome guy I've ever met and-"
"So how would you feel if he kissed another girl? Even if it was just acting?" She said pointedly.
"What should I do?" I asked quietly.
"You should go see him, doll," She said. I nodded, and ran for my coat. Once I had grabbed it I went back to see Lisa.
"Lisa?" I said.
Lisa looked up. "Yeah?"
"Thanks," I said and she smiled.
"No problem, doll."
I turned away then stopped.
"Lisa?" I said again.
"Yeah, doll?"
"Stop calling me doll."
***
The walk to Billie's was nerve racking. I was kinda angry, he was jelous of Jimmy, who he'd known long before he'd known me.
I knocked on his door and a few seconds later Billie opened it. He saw me and sniffed.
"Hi," I said slowly.
"Hi."
"Can I come in?" I asked.
"No."
"Why?" I said, getting angry.
"I'm busy, sorry," He said and closed the door.
"FUCK YOU THEN!" I yelled. He pulled it open again and stepped forward.
"Fuck me?!?! Why don't you go fuck Jimmy, like you obviously want to!" He yelled accusingly.
"You make me sick! Your fucking jealous-"
"I am NOT jealous, what is there to be jealous of?"
"Me!" I yelled.
"You? Why would I be jealous of a dirty, hard necked slut?" He spat. I stared at him then slapped him in the face. He grabbed his cheek and stared right back at me.
"You're not who I thought you were, Billie," I said.
