"It Was A Secret That Killed Us.", chapter 3
Lewis and I finished up. I lifted my back from the sofa and kissed Lewis on the lips, he was trying to catch his breath. He smiled at me and we went upstairs to our bedroom. He pushed open the door and flopped on the bed dragging me down with him.
I fell on top, giggling. Well fake giggling. Just as I got up the phone started to ring on my bedside table. Like you do, I walked over to it picking up the receiver "Hello?" I asked to the person the other end. There was a sigh.
"Hey it's Mike." My heart jumped, shit. I looked over to Lewis who was looking at me smiling. I smiled back.
"What's up?" I asked him, worrying. There was another sigh and in the background there were cries, cries coming from Tré. My face dropped and I felt cold.
"Tilly uh... She's just passed away. You can come to the hospital, we have only just been called."
Tears formed in my eyes and I said "Okay." and hung up the phone. I sat on the edge of the bed feeling the tears drip on my naked legs. Lewis put his arms around me.
"What's going on?" He asked concerned. Sensing something worrying from what I was giving off. "Cassie... What's going on?" This time more demanding. I turned my head to him wiping away the tears.
"Tilly died from the stab wound. We can go up the hospital if we want. But we can stay here and go later on." I said my voice jumping. Lewis's face also dropped and he closed his eyes, pulling me into one of his comforting embraces. His hugs always seem to get deeper, as if you losing yourself in his arms.
"We will go. Now." He whispered into my ear pushing himself away from me to get some clothes on. I did the same, pulling out a top and pyjama bottoms. I slipped on Lewis's DC's and he wore his converse. His DC's where the closest thing to my feet. I pulled on my Misfits hoodie and shot down the stairs, Lewis following.
I picked up the car keys which laid on the coffee table and pulled the front door open running to the car, I pushed the key in the door hole. It didn't go in. fuck... wrong key! I changed the key and pushed in the correct key, unlocking the doors with speed. I hopped in slamming the door shut, Lewis did the same, amazed by my speed.
I put the key in the ignition, pushed the hand brake down and set off. Driving faster then the speed limits would allow. I raced the other cars next to me, rushing for my fucking life. "Cassie... slow down!" Lewis said looking at me. I ignored him, careful of the curbs and lampposts.
"I've been driving since I was 10... I now what I'm doing. Now get the fuck off my case!" I said proving confidence in my actions. It's true, I have been driving since I was 10. Just not on the road. I noticed the hospital in the far distance. The traffic light switched to red. Cars zooming past, time to play!
Lewis glared at me, wide eyed. "Don't do it! Don't the other cars are going to far. Your gonna get us killed!" he moaned, again I ignored and flashed through the red lights, cars slamming on their breaks, banging their fists on the horn. I blocked it out, focusing on the cars driving past. Searching for a space I could swerve into. My eyes flickered over the road. Brilliant!
I curved into a nice fitting space fuming for the entrance of the hospital car park. We finally entered and I slowed down parking in the nearest space. I pulled the handbrake up and ripped the key from the ignition. I kicked the door open as did Lewis. I started to run towards the doors. I was on fire, on a roll with no control.
My lover ran beside me "You are one fucking rebel!" he huffed trying to keep up with me.
I ran to reception "W-where's Tilly Hilden?" I wheezed, my breath losing pace.
"Brown wing, room 396" Said the woman seated at a desk. I nodded my head noting thanks in my mind, it didn't come out of my mouth. I looked up at the signs, my eyes flickering over the colours. It came to Brown Wing, I turned the corner and walked down the long hall. The floor was so white it hurt my eyes. I heard Lewis's footsteps behind me.
He soon walked beside me, taking my hand in his and walked the same slow nervous pace and I were. My mind seemed lost. I looked at the room numbers 387, 389, 391, 393, 395. I looked on the other side. Just a wall. Must be round the other corner. I peeked round, Tré sat there on the chair outside, head buried in his hands crying his heart out. Billie Joe and Mike stood about him. Comforting him for his loss.
Lewis and I walked over to them, sad looks put upon our faces. "Hey." I said, they all looked up and saw up. My eyes immediately went over to Tré, he looked so shocked I crouched in front of him. Touching his leg rubbing it slightly for comfort "I'm sorry." I said in hushed whisper. My blue eyes met his once lively happy eyes to now turned upset and angered.
He stared at me for a second before saying "Can everyone leave me and Cassie alone for a while please. Everyone turned there sight to me.
So I took the chair next to Tré while everyone took to their feet and left us to chat. "What you wanna talk about?" I asked him.
"I miss her, she's gone and I just wanna hold her. Hear her heartbeat, hear her breathe. I want to look into her eyes and kiss her lips and have her kiss me back. I want to be able to make love to her, take her in my arms and just make her feel right. Tilly is my life, my heart. But she's gone." He sniffed whipping the tears from his cheeks.
"I know sweetie. I understand that. It's happened to me as well. You know how hard it was for me to get back to how I was. 3 Months to get over the face that... they are never coming back. But they are still there. I love Josh so fucking much, I still do. But I have lived on from that. I'm not saying you have to forget about her right away or ever in that case. Just take your time to take in everything." I advised.
"I before I met with you guys you know what me and Tilly did?" I shook my head.
"We kissed. Our tongues clashed. We fell over on her bed and we began to take off our clothes. She rolled over and pulled out a condom and we had sex. And you know what happened while we made love?" Tré said, becoming angry. I shook my head again.
"I took her virginity... she was a virgin last night." he looked at me and then down at his feet. My mouth dropped. And I pulled Tré into a hug. Squeezing him a little.
A nurse came over "I would advise you take some rest. Mr. Wright, please would you go home." Tré nodded and got off the seat walking away. From the room Tilly was still being checked over.
I walked behind him, I grabbed his arm "I am always here when you just need a shoulder to cry on."
I fell on top, giggling. Well fake giggling. Just as I got up the phone started to ring on my bedside table. Like you do, I walked over to it picking up the receiver "Hello?" I asked to the person the other end. There was a sigh.
"Hey it's Mike." My heart jumped, shit. I looked over to Lewis who was looking at me smiling. I smiled back.
"What's up?" I asked him, worrying. There was another sigh and in the background there were cries, cries coming from Tré. My face dropped and I felt cold.
"Tilly uh... She's just passed away. You can come to the hospital, we have only just been called."
Tears formed in my eyes and I said "Okay." and hung up the phone. I sat on the edge of the bed feeling the tears drip on my naked legs. Lewis put his arms around me.
"What's going on?" He asked concerned. Sensing something worrying from what I was giving off. "Cassie... What's going on?" This time more demanding. I turned my head to him wiping away the tears.
"Tilly died from the stab wound. We can go up the hospital if we want. But we can stay here and go later on." I said my voice jumping. Lewis's face also dropped and he closed his eyes, pulling me into one of his comforting embraces. His hugs always seem to get deeper, as if you losing yourself in his arms.
"We will go. Now." He whispered into my ear pushing himself away from me to get some clothes on. I did the same, pulling out a top and pyjama bottoms. I slipped on Lewis's DC's and he wore his converse. His DC's where the closest thing to my feet. I pulled on my Misfits hoodie and shot down the stairs, Lewis following.
I picked up the car keys which laid on the coffee table and pulled the front door open running to the car, I pushed the key in the door hole. It didn't go in. fuck... wrong key! I changed the key and pushed in the correct key, unlocking the doors with speed. I hopped in slamming the door shut, Lewis did the same, amazed by my speed.
I put the key in the ignition, pushed the hand brake down and set off. Driving faster then the speed limits would allow. I raced the other cars next to me, rushing for my fucking life. "Cassie... slow down!" Lewis said looking at me. I ignored him, careful of the curbs and lampposts.
"I've been driving since I was 10... I now what I'm doing. Now get the fuck off my case!" I said proving confidence in my actions. It's true, I have been driving since I was 10. Just not on the road. I noticed the hospital in the far distance. The traffic light switched to red. Cars zooming past, time to play!
Lewis glared at me, wide eyed. "Don't do it! Don't the other cars are going to far. Your gonna get us killed!" he moaned, again I ignored and flashed through the red lights, cars slamming on their breaks, banging their fists on the horn. I blocked it out, focusing on the cars driving past. Searching for a space I could swerve into. My eyes flickered over the road. Brilliant!
I curved into a nice fitting space fuming for the entrance of the hospital car park. We finally entered and I slowed down parking in the nearest space. I pulled the handbrake up and ripped the key from the ignition. I kicked the door open as did Lewis. I started to run towards the doors. I was on fire, on a roll with no control.
My lover ran beside me "You are one fucking rebel!" he huffed trying to keep up with me.
I ran to reception "W-where's Tilly Hilden?" I wheezed, my breath losing pace.
"Brown wing, room 396" Said the woman seated at a desk. I nodded my head noting thanks in my mind, it didn't come out of my mouth. I looked up at the signs, my eyes flickering over the colours. It came to Brown Wing, I turned the corner and walked down the long hall. The floor was so white it hurt my eyes. I heard Lewis's footsteps behind me.
He soon walked beside me, taking my hand in his and walked the same slow nervous pace and I were. My mind seemed lost. I looked at the room numbers 387, 389, 391, 393, 395. I looked on the other side. Just a wall. Must be round the other corner. I peeked round, Tré sat there on the chair outside, head buried in his hands crying his heart out. Billie Joe and Mike stood about him. Comforting him for his loss.
Lewis and I walked over to them, sad looks put upon our faces. "Hey." I said, they all looked up and saw up. My eyes immediately went over to Tré, he looked so shocked I crouched in front of him. Touching his leg rubbing it slightly for comfort "I'm sorry." I said in hushed whisper. My blue eyes met his once lively happy eyes to now turned upset and angered.
He stared at me for a second before saying "Can everyone leave me and Cassie alone for a while please. Everyone turned there sight to me.
So I took the chair next to Tré while everyone took to their feet and left us to chat. "What you wanna talk about?" I asked him.
"I miss her, she's gone and I just wanna hold her. Hear her heartbeat, hear her breathe. I want to look into her eyes and kiss her lips and have her kiss me back. I want to be able to make love to her, take her in my arms and just make her feel right. Tilly is my life, my heart. But she's gone." He sniffed whipping the tears from his cheeks.
"I know sweetie. I understand that. It's happened to me as well. You know how hard it was for me to get back to how I was. 3 Months to get over the face that... they are never coming back. But they are still there. I love Josh so fucking much, I still do. But I have lived on from that. I'm not saying you have to forget about her right away or ever in that case. Just take your time to take in everything." I advised.
"I before I met with you guys you know what me and Tilly did?" I shook my head.
"We kissed. Our tongues clashed. We fell over on her bed and we began to take off our clothes. She rolled over and pulled out a condom and we had sex. And you know what happened while we made love?" Tré said, becoming angry. I shook my head again.
"I took her virginity... she was a virgin last night." he looked at me and then down at his feet. My mouth dropped. And I pulled Tré into a hug. Squeezing him a little.
A nurse came over "I would advise you take some rest. Mr. Wright, please would you go home." Tré nodded and got off the seat walking away. From the room Tilly was still being checked over.
I walked behind him, I grabbed his arm "I am always here when you just need a shoulder to cry on."
