Thing's We Believe (edited), chapter 4

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THREE WEEKS LATER...

It had been finally three weeks, I had no idea what was going on, I was put in a coma from Billie hitting me I didn't want to think that it was that bad when I woke up.

"Bree," I heard Tre' say as I slowly opened my eyes to see him sitting at my side.
"Morning," I said trying to pretend that nothing had happened.
"How are you?" He asked.
"Good, where's Billie?" I asked.
"He's, um, I don't know," Tre' said to me as he held my hand. "I haven't spoken to him since what had happened, I'm sorry," Tre' said sounding ashamed of himself and what he had done.

ONE WEEK LATER...

I was staying at Tre's now, I haven't talked to Billie since and I miss him so much. I wish none of it happened, I wish I wasn't I love with him still then It wouldn't be so hard to let go, he's the only guy I have ever loved like I love him.

"I really need to talk to Billie," I said to Tre' as I drank my coffee, not that I even like coffee.
"Do you want me to take you around there?' Tre' asked.
"That would be great," I replied and walked into the bathroom.

The car ride there was so quite neither of us said a word to each other.

We finally arrived at Billie's place. "You want me to come in?' Tre' asked me and place his hand on my lap.
"I need to do this myself," I said and looked up at the roof.

I helped myself out of the car and walked to the front door. I took a deep breath at the door and rang the doorbell.

Billie came to the door he couldn't even look at me. "What do you want?" he asked rudely.
"I wanna talk to you," I said and smiled at him.
"Did you ever think that I DIDN'T want to talk to you, I mean why would I?" he said.
"Please just let me explain, Please," I begged him.
"Fine come in," He said and showed me inside.

I waled in the kitchen and a young girl was sitting at the table, she looked at least 18, 19 years of age.
"Why, isn't it nice to finally meet you, Billie has told me heaps about you," the girl said in a full American voice.
"I'm Breanna," I replied shaking her hand
"Ellie," She answered smiling at me.
"Do you think we can talk alone?" I asked Billie.
"Yeah sure my room," he replied.

I followed him into the bedroom. He sat down on the bed and continued drinking his beer. "So, what do you want?" he asked looking around you room.
"Please you gotta understand that I didn't mean to do what I did," I pleaded and sat down on the bed next to him.
"Yeah well you did so nothing can change that," he said and ran his finger around his beer. "Yeah and I'm sorry for hitting you too," he said as tears formed in his eyes.

"I miss you, you know that," he continued.
"I miss you too, but nothing can change what has happened am I right?" I added.
"So who's the girl out there anyway?" I asked.
"You'll never believe this," he said wiping the tears from his eyes.
"What?" I asked.
"She's my therapist, she comes around ever now and then to talk about what happened," he replied. "She's been around ever day for the last month, that's how bad it is, Bree I can't do this anymore, I'm missing something when you're not here with me," he said still wiping the tears from his eyes.
"Billie I know its hard but nothing will change what happened," I said.
"Please give me another chance" he begged.
"I can't..." I said and looked at him "I'm sorry as much I want to I can't," I replied and walked out of the house.

"What'd he say?" Tre' asked.
"It doesn't matter..." I replied wiping tears from my eyes as I got into the car.

We finally got back to Tre's place, By then I wanted to go home so bad and see Cameron, I miss him so much and I miss Billie too, I don't what I'm going to do now with out him.

I sat on the couch and stared into the blackness of the TV screen. "Are you ok?" Tre' asked me and sat next to me.
"Fine," I replied and looked at him.
"You know that I'm always here to talk if you need anyone," Tre' said to me.
"No I need something else." I replied and turned and kissed Tre'.

Oh my god what was I doing. I just kissed Tre' again fuck what the hell is wrong with me?

Tre' kissed me back. My hands roamed up and down his leg. And so did his. He laid me down on the couch and pushed him self up against me.

As much as I wanted to I didn't at the same time. But I did anyway.

I really don't think that you wanna know what happened I think you take a guess for yourself.

Afterwards I didn't know what to say, I was so scared that I screwed up again. I didn't what anything to happen, I didn't even what to say anything afterwards. I couldn't speak.

To avoid screwing it up and not saying anything I ran into the bathroom.

I slid myself down the door as I began to cry of what was the biggest mistake of my life, well one of them.

"Breanna," Tre' said and knocked on the door. "Breanna, are you ok?" he continued.
"Please just go away," I asked as I continued to cry.
"Come on, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to I swear. If you didn't want to you should have said something," he said putting it back on me.
"Just go away, Please," I yelled.

I knew he could hear me crying. I tried my hardest not to though, but I could stop.

LATER THAT NIGHT...

I finally came out of the bathroom and walked into the bed room where Tre' was. I sat on the bed next to him.

"Are you ok?' he asked and turned him self around to face me.
"Yeah, But I have to go out so I'll be back later ok?" I said and smiled at him.
"It's the middle of the night where the fuck are you gonna go?" he asked rudely.
"I'm going out, I'll be back later" I said and walked out of the room.

I walked outside and looked around and stared at the sky for a while.

I didn't know where I was going or what I was going to do. All I knew what the I wasn't coming back, hopefully.

I went to run across the road but didn't make it...