Another Fivtive Romance, chapter 2
Already at the first day at my new school I saw Tom or Tommy, as his real name is, and I can just say you this, he was the most gorgeous guy I had met in quite some time. I remember him walking into the classroom in his black hat, studded belt, pin-striped shirt, black pants and converse. I just knew right then that he was going to have a big impact in my life. It wasn't until Halloween when he had all this red eye-make up on that I realised how much he looked like Gerard Way. It was really spooky. They had the same messy, black hair and intense eyes. The biggest different was that Tom was thinner and wore tattoos. Unfortunately I would later find out they shared another thing, not as positive, the high alcohol intake.
That Halloween party was the first time I had the guts to speak to him. It came out that he also liked the My Chemical Romance when I put on Helena on the CD-player to get his attention.
"I love this song," he yelled to get heard over the loud music playing in the stereo.
I saw my chance and came up to talk to him, actually he was sitting on a chair and I was standing on my knees next to him screaming into his ear so that he could hear what I said.
"Have you seen them live?" I asked surprised when he said he had seen them down in Germany last summer.
"They were the best on that festival live and especially Thank You For The Venom."
I knew that song really well because it was one of my own personal favourites. We talked a lot that night and my friend Cathy, pushed me into my big mistake, I really, really regret this. I'll try to write this as real as I can.
"Ohh, he's so gorgeous" I once again told my friend Cathy, looking at Tom talking to a girl, dressed up as a devil (I think her name was Malin).
"But why don't you just go and tell him that! Just grab the guy by the ass and tell him."
I laughed at Cathy's statement; it wasn't the first time she had said that this evening. Cathy was happy that she had met Jesus that evening, it was not his real name but everyone called him that after the Halloween party.
Then Tom stopped talking to Malin and I saw my chance. I walked up to him.
"You wanna grab some fresh air?" I asked nervously.
"Sure" he said and followed me outside the apartment where the party was held.
My heart was trembling just like my hands and he lit a cigarette to match with the beer in his other hand. After somewhat time it just came out. I was looking intensively onto the small stones on the ground, blurred by my alcoholic vision.
"This isn't easy for me to say but I have to anyways."
I did a small pause still with my eyes directed towards the pavement before I quickly continued.
"Already at the first day at this school I noticed you. You are definitely my type and I like you." I had moved my attention up to his face. He looked a bit shocked and now afterwards I know that he listened to what I had to say with a big intensity.
"You are my type too," He said stumbling over the words, but he had more confidence when he the said:
"But I already have a girlfriend"
He was smiling at me and I could feel the alcohol wear off and me sinking in back behind my serious mask without emotions. I slowly nodded.
"Hey, we can still be friends" he said.
"Give me a hug."
I will never forget that feeling of being close to him, feeling his male perfume, some sweet flavour. Then he hugged me one more time, longer then the first. We promised to be friends but I got home early that evening. Feeling somewhat empty inside. I think it was the hug that made me fall for him seriously.
I didn't see him for a couple of days after that...
That Halloween party was the first time I had the guts to speak to him. It came out that he also liked the My Chemical Romance when I put on Helena on the CD-player to get his attention.
"I love this song," he yelled to get heard over the loud music playing in the stereo.
I saw my chance and came up to talk to him, actually he was sitting on a chair and I was standing on my knees next to him screaming into his ear so that he could hear what I said.
"Have you seen them live?" I asked surprised when he said he had seen them down in Germany last summer.
"They were the best on that festival live and especially Thank You For The Venom."
I knew that song really well because it was one of my own personal favourites. We talked a lot that night and my friend Cathy, pushed me into my big mistake, I really, really regret this. I'll try to write this as real as I can.
"Ohh, he's so gorgeous" I once again told my friend Cathy, looking at Tom talking to a girl, dressed up as a devil (I think her name was Malin).
"But why don't you just go and tell him that! Just grab the guy by the ass and tell him."
I laughed at Cathy's statement; it wasn't the first time she had said that this evening. Cathy was happy that she had met Jesus that evening, it was not his real name but everyone called him that after the Halloween party.
Then Tom stopped talking to Malin and I saw my chance. I walked up to him.
"You wanna grab some fresh air?" I asked nervously.
"Sure" he said and followed me outside the apartment where the party was held.
My heart was trembling just like my hands and he lit a cigarette to match with the beer in his other hand. After somewhat time it just came out. I was looking intensively onto the small stones on the ground, blurred by my alcoholic vision.
"This isn't easy for me to say but I have to anyways."
I did a small pause still with my eyes directed towards the pavement before I quickly continued.
"Already at the first day at this school I noticed you. You are definitely my type and I like you." I had moved my attention up to his face. He looked a bit shocked and now afterwards I know that he listened to what I had to say with a big intensity.
"You are my type too," He said stumbling over the words, but he had more confidence when he the said:
"But I already have a girlfriend"
He was smiling at me and I could feel the alcohol wear off and me sinking in back behind my serious mask without emotions. I slowly nodded.
"Hey, we can still be friends" he said.
"Give me a hug."
I will never forget that feeling of being close to him, feeling his male perfume, some sweet flavour. Then he hugged me one more time, longer then the first. We promised to be friends but I got home early that evening. Feeling somewhat empty inside. I think it was the hug that made me fall for him seriously.
I didn't see him for a couple of days after that...
