I am just a fan, chapter 8
Still Tre's Point Of View
"Billie, I want to adopt her," I told him. I looked at him, he was shocked and with a tiny smile in the edge of his mouth.
"I don't know what to say, how do you think she will take it?"
"I have no idea, I hope she doesn't mind. I am heading home now. I will be round at 1 or something okay?"
"Okay, see you then Tre," Billie replied as I walk out of the house.
***
I started to wake up and looked at the clock, 10:00 pm. I tried to get back to sleep but I just couldn't. I walked down the stairs and went to the living room to watch some TV. After flicking though most of the channels, I got bored. I turned the TV off and started to think about Sara. I had no idea what to say to her. I got out a pen and paper and scribbled what I was going to say to her. I read it out loud, "Sara your mum is dead, come live with me."
I stopped and threw it in the bin. I had went though god only knows how many pieces of paper, I finally got the right one. I read it, "Sara, I don't know how to say this, BUT your mum she is...well...she's gone and not coming back. But I thought about things and I was wondering if you would like to live with me?"
I was happy at what I wrote, and looked at the wall then at the clock. It read 12:30. I wasn't surprised. I tried to get the right thing into my mind. I went into the kitchen and got some cheese and some bread, I put it together and what did I get? A cheese sandwich. I laughed at myself and started to eat it.
I had finished my lunch and got out to my car. I looked at my wrist expecting to see a watch, but who was I kidding? I don't wear a watch. Who did I think I was, Mike? I started the car and headed to Billie's. I stopped at the red light, I was stuck there for 10 minutes. I knew it was past 1 so as soon as it changed colour I raced off down the road. I finally got there and parked the car. I headed to the door and was about to knock, but just went in. Sara looked towards the door to see whom it was, she smiled and jumped into my arms.
"What took you so long Tre?" She smiled as I put her down.
"Lets just say I don't like traffic lights," I told her. She laughed and pulled me into the kitchen
"Ollie says she wants to talk with you in private," She told me and skipped out. I closed the door behind her.
"Billie told me about her mum and you wanting to adopt her. I was just wondering if you are okay with it and no one forced you into it?" She asked me. I was in shock, I didn't think Ollie would say that to me, but I just told her the truth.
"No one pushed me. I love Sara and I want to be the one to tell her, I want her to be MY daughter." She nodded. I smiled and walk out.
"Have you had lunch?" I asked Sara she shook her head. "Hey Billie, Sara and me are going back to mine so that we can talk, could you please come?" He smiled and got up.
"Are you sure?" He said. I nodded and he smiled. We told Ollie that we were going and walked out of the house, and then someone shouted Sara's name. We all turned around and Billie (little) was standing there.
"Sara?" He said. She smiled and Billie hugged her.
"Come back later okay, I need to tell you something," He said, pulling Sara off of him. She smiled and nodded. Then she did something none of us expected, she gave him a kiss on his cheek. He smiled and went back to the house as we all got into the car. After 20 minutes of driving we finally got back.
"We are here," I said
"Oh My God you live here?" Sara said as she got out of the car.
"Yup, this is all mine."
"Wow!" I let her look around. She started to run around in little circles in the garden. Billie and I laughed and joined in.
Stop and tell her.
I can't she is just a little girl.
She needs to know.
"Sara come on in, it is not much bigger but I have cookies!" I shouted at her as she came running towards me. We all sat in the living room.
"Sara... " I asked
"Yup," she replied
"Do you want to know why the policeman was at Billie's?"
"Oh yeah, please."
"Well he was there to tell you that... "
"That... "
"Your Mum and sister Ashley...are...well...gone." I looked at her face she was tearing up.
"But where am I going to live? Why...why did this happen to me, out of all the people in the world it had to be ME!" She started to cry. "First my dad, then my mum...and Ashley, my sister whom I could have lived with, the one I looked up at, the one that taught me never to give up no matter what happened, and she is gone out of my life... " She started to get quieter and quieter. "Gone...gone, never coming fucking back."
She started to run, I managed to catch her.
"Sara, I know this is hard and I know I don't really know you, but would you like to live with me?" I don't know if I said the right thing or not.
She pulled herself out of my grasp and shouted, "I AM JUST A FAN, NO MORE, NO LESS! I CAN'T LIVE WITH YOU, SOMETHING BAD WILL HAPPEN TO YOU AS WELL! I DON'T WANT TO BE HURT BY DEATH AGAIN." She ran out of the house and into the woods. I knew she needed time alone, but I just wanted her there beside me. I was about to start running after her when Billie grabbed me.
"No, you have to leave her. She will come back, I know she will."
"But what if she does something to herself, what if she hurts herself? I need to help her."
"I know she won't, she doesn't believe in that stuff," He told me.
I nodded and got the phone and dialed Mike's mobile number.
"Hallo."
"Hey, it's Tre."
"Oh right, hi man, how did she take it?"
"Not too good, she ran."
"Billie did the same when his dad died."
"So that's why he told me not to go after her."
"Yeah I guess, I know where she will go."
"Where? I need to make her understand."
"Billie JR's, he has always been there for her so I think that is were she will go."
"You're right, I am going over there to wait for her."
"No."
"Why not."
"She might come back to your house or to her own, tell Billie to go round to Billie's and I will go to her house. She will go to one of them and you can just stay there okay."
"Okay, I hope you are right."
"If I ain't then we will have to search for her."
"Right, okay. Call me if she comes around okay."
"I will. Bye."
"Bye." I told Billie the plan, he was all go for it. Everything was going to be okay. Well I hope.
Sara's POV
I ran...I ran away. I wasn't supposed to turn back, I wasn't supposed to say yes. So I went to the one place that made me calm, and that was by the river. Only Billie knows I go there. I went there after my dad died. I have NO family at all...not a thing left, just the necklace my dad gave me and the memories of my life. I thought about what Ashley would say, she would say, everything happens for a reason and if that didn't happen then there would be no excitement or tears in your life. Everyone needs to cry, everyone need to laugh and everyone needs to be hurt. I just sat there, not caring what would happen again, but knowing I can relate to the saying my sister used to use, pain doesn't hurt when it is all you ever felt, it was as true as true can be.
I sat there for hours, not doing anything, just sitting there thinking of what was my family. Then I thought about Tre, Mike and Billie and what would happen if I just said one word to Tre, YES. After I had calmed down I took off my shoes and socks and dipped my feet in the freezing water.
"You will catch a cold with your feet in there," Someone said. I turned around and saw my best friend. "I knew you would be here." I started to cry again, then he bent down beside me and lifted my head. He looked in my eyes and I looked in his, the eyes that were always there. I hugged him tightly. "Billie Joe told me about your Mum and Sister," He said and hugged me back. "I know it must be hard but we can get through this, we always do." I nodded and stood up. I slowly put my socks and shoes on; we walked back to Tre's in silence.
"Sara, oh my god. I am sorry," Tre said, running out and giving me a huge hug.
"No don't be, I am the one who should be saying sorry after all you did, you just tried to help me and all I did was throw it back in your face," I said as he pulled me away from me. "I thought about everything and I was wondering if I could change my mind?"
"Of course you can."
"Then I say that I would love to stay with you," I said and hugged him again. "Lets go and get my stuff." He nodded and we walked to the car and drove to my old house.
"Billie, I want to adopt her," I told him. I looked at him, he was shocked and with a tiny smile in the edge of his mouth.
"I don't know what to say, how do you think she will take it?"
"I have no idea, I hope she doesn't mind. I am heading home now. I will be round at 1 or something okay?"
"Okay, see you then Tre," Billie replied as I walk out of the house.
***
I started to wake up and looked at the clock, 10:00 pm. I tried to get back to sleep but I just couldn't. I walked down the stairs and went to the living room to watch some TV. After flicking though most of the channels, I got bored. I turned the TV off and started to think about Sara. I had no idea what to say to her. I got out a pen and paper and scribbled what I was going to say to her. I read it out loud, "Sara your mum is dead, come live with me."
I stopped and threw it in the bin. I had went though god only knows how many pieces of paper, I finally got the right one. I read it, "Sara, I don't know how to say this, BUT your mum she is...well...she's gone and not coming back. But I thought about things and I was wondering if you would like to live with me?"
I was happy at what I wrote, and looked at the wall then at the clock. It read 12:30. I wasn't surprised. I tried to get the right thing into my mind. I went into the kitchen and got some cheese and some bread, I put it together and what did I get? A cheese sandwich. I laughed at myself and started to eat it.
I had finished my lunch and got out to my car. I looked at my wrist expecting to see a watch, but who was I kidding? I don't wear a watch. Who did I think I was, Mike? I started the car and headed to Billie's. I stopped at the red light, I was stuck there for 10 minutes. I knew it was past 1 so as soon as it changed colour I raced off down the road. I finally got there and parked the car. I headed to the door and was about to knock, but just went in. Sara looked towards the door to see whom it was, she smiled and jumped into my arms.
"What took you so long Tre?" She smiled as I put her down.
"Lets just say I don't like traffic lights," I told her. She laughed and pulled me into the kitchen
"Ollie says she wants to talk with you in private," She told me and skipped out. I closed the door behind her.
"Billie told me about her mum and you wanting to adopt her. I was just wondering if you are okay with it and no one forced you into it?" She asked me. I was in shock, I didn't think Ollie would say that to me, but I just told her the truth.
"No one pushed me. I love Sara and I want to be the one to tell her, I want her to be MY daughter." She nodded. I smiled and walk out.
"Have you had lunch?" I asked Sara she shook her head. "Hey Billie, Sara and me are going back to mine so that we can talk, could you please come?" He smiled and got up.
"Are you sure?" He said. I nodded and he smiled. We told Ollie that we were going and walked out of the house, and then someone shouted Sara's name. We all turned around and Billie (little) was standing there.
"Sara?" He said. She smiled and Billie hugged her.
"Come back later okay, I need to tell you something," He said, pulling Sara off of him. She smiled and nodded. Then she did something none of us expected, she gave him a kiss on his cheek. He smiled and went back to the house as we all got into the car. After 20 minutes of driving we finally got back.
"We are here," I said
"Oh My God you live here?" Sara said as she got out of the car.
"Yup, this is all mine."
"Wow!" I let her look around. She started to run around in little circles in the garden. Billie and I laughed and joined in.
Stop and tell her.
I can't she is just a little girl.
She needs to know.
"Sara come on in, it is not much bigger but I have cookies!" I shouted at her as she came running towards me. We all sat in the living room.
"Sara... " I asked
"Yup," she replied
"Do you want to know why the policeman was at Billie's?"
"Oh yeah, please."
"Well he was there to tell you that... "
"That... "
"Your Mum and sister Ashley...are...well...gone." I looked at her face she was tearing up.
"But where am I going to live? Why...why did this happen to me, out of all the people in the world it had to be ME!" She started to cry. "First my dad, then my mum...and Ashley, my sister whom I could have lived with, the one I looked up at, the one that taught me never to give up no matter what happened, and she is gone out of my life... " She started to get quieter and quieter. "Gone...gone, never coming fucking back."
She started to run, I managed to catch her.
"Sara, I know this is hard and I know I don't really know you, but would you like to live with me?" I don't know if I said the right thing or not.
She pulled herself out of my grasp and shouted, "I AM JUST A FAN, NO MORE, NO LESS! I CAN'T LIVE WITH YOU, SOMETHING BAD WILL HAPPEN TO YOU AS WELL! I DON'T WANT TO BE HURT BY DEATH AGAIN." She ran out of the house and into the woods. I knew she needed time alone, but I just wanted her there beside me. I was about to start running after her when Billie grabbed me.
"No, you have to leave her. She will come back, I know she will."
"But what if she does something to herself, what if she hurts herself? I need to help her."
"I know she won't, she doesn't believe in that stuff," He told me.
I nodded and got the phone and dialed Mike's mobile number.
"Hallo."
"Hey, it's Tre."
"Oh right, hi man, how did she take it?"
"Not too good, she ran."
"Billie did the same when his dad died."
"So that's why he told me not to go after her."
"Yeah I guess, I know where she will go."
"Where? I need to make her understand."
"Billie JR's, he has always been there for her so I think that is were she will go."
"You're right, I am going over there to wait for her."
"No."
"Why not."
"She might come back to your house or to her own, tell Billie to go round to Billie's and I will go to her house. She will go to one of them and you can just stay there okay."
"Okay, I hope you are right."
"If I ain't then we will have to search for her."
"Right, okay. Call me if she comes around okay."
"I will. Bye."
"Bye." I told Billie the plan, he was all go for it. Everything was going to be okay. Well I hope.
Sara's POV
I ran...I ran away. I wasn't supposed to turn back, I wasn't supposed to say yes. So I went to the one place that made me calm, and that was by the river. Only Billie knows I go there. I went there after my dad died. I have NO family at all...not a thing left, just the necklace my dad gave me and the memories of my life. I thought about what Ashley would say, she would say, everything happens for a reason and if that didn't happen then there would be no excitement or tears in your life. Everyone needs to cry, everyone need to laugh and everyone needs to be hurt. I just sat there, not caring what would happen again, but knowing I can relate to the saying my sister used to use, pain doesn't hurt when it is all you ever felt, it was as true as true can be.
I sat there for hours, not doing anything, just sitting there thinking of what was my family. Then I thought about Tre, Mike and Billie and what would happen if I just said one word to Tre, YES. After I had calmed down I took off my shoes and socks and dipped my feet in the freezing water.
"You will catch a cold with your feet in there," Someone said. I turned around and saw my best friend. "I knew you would be here." I started to cry again, then he bent down beside me and lifted my head. He looked in my eyes and I looked in his, the eyes that were always there. I hugged him tightly. "Billie Joe told me about your Mum and Sister," He said and hugged me back. "I know it must be hard but we can get through this, we always do." I nodded and stood up. I slowly put my socks and shoes on; we walked back to Tre's in silence.
"Sara, oh my god. I am sorry," Tre said, running out and giving me a huge hug.
"No don't be, I am the one who should be saying sorry after all you did, you just tried to help me and all I did was throw it back in your face," I said as he pulled me away from me. "I thought about everything and I was wondering if I could change my mind?"
"Of course you can."
"Then I say that I would love to stay with you," I said and hugged him again. "Lets go and get my stuff." He nodded and we walked to the car and drove to my old house.
