I am just a fan, chapter 9
"So...?" Tre asked.
"Turn right here," I told him. He slowly turned. "This is it."
"Cool, want help?" He asked politely.
"Nah I got it thanks." I ran inside to my room and got the things I need the most, like posters, CDs and clothes. It took me about 20 minutes because my room is and always will be a tip. I finally got out of the house and walked to the car were Tre was waiting patiently.
"That is a small bag are you sure you have everything you need?" Tre asked me. I just nodded and said, "All I need."
"Ok then lets go," he said and started the engine to go back to his house. We turned a few corners, the only thing we could hear were the other cars and Tre's, He drove in silence and I just looked at my odd shoes and smiled, they were black (on my right) and red (on my left) converse, one of them were Billie's. We always swapped shoes I guess we forgot to change them back, ah well. We finally arrived, I sighed and stepped out of the car, I heard a phone ring, I looked at Tre and he got his phone out of his pocket.
"Hallo... fuck but.... yea I know... where and when... ok but where will she go tonight... ok fine I will bring her right over," he said and hung up the phone. He sighed and walked over to me.
"Sara you have to go to Billie's tonight," he said as he bent down to my level.
"Why though? Why cant I just stay here?" I asked really confused.
"Because since you have to be put into adoption then you have to stay with the adoption centre but Billie Joe asked if you could just stay with Billie and his mom and it was ok so you will be there for about 1 week until they are convinced that I am a suitable parent," he told me. I sighed and got back into the car.
"So what if you can't adopt me?" I asked after we both got into the car.
"I don't know yet," he said, I knew he was lying I could see it but I knew he wouldn't let anyone mean adopt me so I was ok for now.
"Fu... stupid traffic light," he said as we had stopped at the same light for about 5 minutes. I let out a little laugh. After another 5 minutes the light changed and we carried on. About 2 minutes later we arrived I sighed and got out of the car. I knocked on the door and went in.
"Finally you came back," Billie shouted down the stairs.
"Yeah stupid adoption centre?" I said and picked up my bag.
"I need to tell you something in private." Billie told me I grabbed my small bag and jumped up the stairs, and turned left to head to Billie's huge room.
"I think you should sit on the bed Sara this might take a while for me to explain." He told me again so I sat on the bed and looked up at him he looked nervous. What was he thinking he looked so cute like a little soft kind bear? "I-I don't know how to say this but... I... am... well... m-m-moving away... " I was shocked I didn't know what to do.
"When?" I asked a bit louder than I meant to.
"2 Months," he said and sniffed. I was so shocked I didn't know what to do.
"I-I-I need a walk," I said and started to walk out of his room.
"Sara!" he shouted after me.
"And don't follow me," I shouted and slammed the door shut. Why was he moving I started to cry I heard Billie Joes voice so I stared to run as fast as I could. I finally got to a place were the trees were about 50 feet from the ground I sat on the nearest rock I could find and started to cry even harder.
I think about how my life could get even worse, but the truth I couldn't, first my dad then my mum and sister and now my best friend the one that made me smile the one who I loved so much. It was only then that I realised I loved him more than I thought I really loved him ever since we met I liked him, he was just like me and he was about to leave me here with no one at all.
Just the cruel world and the trees but soon they were going to leave as well. Why did everyone I love leave me? I have to get ride of this pain, but I cant if Ashley found out then she would tell me how silly it is and there are other ways to think about things. She was right I knew she was always right.
"When the world says you are ready to go then it will take you to a better place," Someone said I knew that voice it was one of Ashley's sayings.
"Everyone has a timer when time runs out then the world takes you away," Who was saying this no one was around at all I looked up at the sky there was no clouds in sight the sun was beating down on me.
"You brighten every day of my life they way you are I never want you to change not know not ever." There it was again. Was I going mad or was someone there I just couldn't see them? I didn't know. I walked for a little while more I had no idea at all where I was. There was only one person I hoped would find me and that person was Tre I bet he could understand I know he hasn't had a really bad life like Billie or Mike but I just need someone bright.
"Sara I know what you are thinking and I know how hard it is but you need to come and talk with me," Someone said then I felt a hand on my shoulder I turned around and there stood Mike Dirnt. I just hugged his waste I couldn't reach any higher. "Billie started to shout at his mom after you left cause he knew how close you guys are and then he locked him self in his room with Jesus Of Suburbia on and it was really loud, Billie needs you and you need him but he isn't moving that far away that you can't ever see him again," Mike told me I started to cry.
"W-were I-is h-he mo-o-oving t-o?" I stuttered.
"Well I don't really no the name of the town but it is in California, you could see him on the weekends," He replied.
"But I need him on school days. I started to want to go to school just so that I could talk to my best friend he was my first friend ever and now he is starting in a new school with new people. I bet everyone in his new school will love him and want to be his best friend and then he will forget about me and in my school. I will be the kid who sits in the dark corner alone because her best friend moved school. I get it hard enough without them picking on me even more than I all ready do. They don't even know my name for fuck's sake I am the Mosher kid the one that loves Green Day. The one that hides her shame in her thin black hair," I said in two breaths I didn't shout at him I just raised my voice more than usual.
"I... I had no idea why didn't you tell anyone?" Mike asked as we both sat on a huge rock.
"I did. I told my sister but she left me as well as everyone else in my life," I said I started to cry. Mike hugged me and we just sat there hugging for hours.
"Maybe we should go now it is getting dark," Mike said to me I just nodded and we walked into the dark.
"Maybe I should have brought a flashlight ah well its not to dark," Mike said with a little smile on his face. I just walked not saying anything, I was thinking what if I go with Billie, Tre, and Mike I could just live with them, but school. What will happen then what will people say when I change my last name to Wright or Cool?They might pick on me even more. I will wait and see it is just a last name it shouldn't matter anyway.
"Turn right here," I told him. He slowly turned. "This is it."
"Cool, want help?" He asked politely.
"Nah I got it thanks." I ran inside to my room and got the things I need the most, like posters, CDs and clothes. It took me about 20 minutes because my room is and always will be a tip. I finally got out of the house and walked to the car were Tre was waiting patiently.
"That is a small bag are you sure you have everything you need?" Tre asked me. I just nodded and said, "All I need."
"Ok then lets go," he said and started the engine to go back to his house. We turned a few corners, the only thing we could hear were the other cars and Tre's, He drove in silence and I just looked at my odd shoes and smiled, they were black (on my right) and red (on my left) converse, one of them were Billie's. We always swapped shoes I guess we forgot to change them back, ah well. We finally arrived, I sighed and stepped out of the car, I heard a phone ring, I looked at Tre and he got his phone out of his pocket.
"Hallo... fuck but.... yea I know... where and when... ok but where will she go tonight... ok fine I will bring her right over," he said and hung up the phone. He sighed and walked over to me.
"Sara you have to go to Billie's tonight," he said as he bent down to my level.
"Why though? Why cant I just stay here?" I asked really confused.
"Because since you have to be put into adoption then you have to stay with the adoption centre but Billie Joe asked if you could just stay with Billie and his mom and it was ok so you will be there for about 1 week until they are convinced that I am a suitable parent," he told me. I sighed and got back into the car.
"So what if you can't adopt me?" I asked after we both got into the car.
"I don't know yet," he said, I knew he was lying I could see it but I knew he wouldn't let anyone mean adopt me so I was ok for now.
"Fu... stupid traffic light," he said as we had stopped at the same light for about 5 minutes. I let out a little laugh. After another 5 minutes the light changed and we carried on. About 2 minutes later we arrived I sighed and got out of the car. I knocked on the door and went in.
"Finally you came back," Billie shouted down the stairs.
"Yeah stupid adoption centre?" I said and picked up my bag.
"I need to tell you something in private." Billie told me I grabbed my small bag and jumped up the stairs, and turned left to head to Billie's huge room.
"I think you should sit on the bed Sara this might take a while for me to explain." He told me again so I sat on the bed and looked up at him he looked nervous. What was he thinking he looked so cute like a little soft kind bear? "I-I don't know how to say this but... I... am... well... m-m-moving away... " I was shocked I didn't know what to do.
"When?" I asked a bit louder than I meant to.
"2 Months," he said and sniffed. I was so shocked I didn't know what to do.
"I-I-I need a walk," I said and started to walk out of his room.
"Sara!" he shouted after me.
"And don't follow me," I shouted and slammed the door shut. Why was he moving I started to cry I heard Billie Joes voice so I stared to run as fast as I could. I finally got to a place were the trees were about 50 feet from the ground I sat on the nearest rock I could find and started to cry even harder.
I think about how my life could get even worse, but the truth I couldn't, first my dad then my mum and sister and now my best friend the one that made me smile the one who I loved so much. It was only then that I realised I loved him more than I thought I really loved him ever since we met I liked him, he was just like me and he was about to leave me here with no one at all.
Just the cruel world and the trees but soon they were going to leave as well. Why did everyone I love leave me? I have to get ride of this pain, but I cant if Ashley found out then she would tell me how silly it is and there are other ways to think about things. She was right I knew she was always right.
"When the world says you are ready to go then it will take you to a better place," Someone said I knew that voice it was one of Ashley's sayings.
"Everyone has a timer when time runs out then the world takes you away," Who was saying this no one was around at all I looked up at the sky there was no clouds in sight the sun was beating down on me.
"You brighten every day of my life they way you are I never want you to change not know not ever." There it was again. Was I going mad or was someone there I just couldn't see them? I didn't know. I walked for a little while more I had no idea at all where I was. There was only one person I hoped would find me and that person was Tre I bet he could understand I know he hasn't had a really bad life like Billie or Mike but I just need someone bright.
"Sara I know what you are thinking and I know how hard it is but you need to come and talk with me," Someone said then I felt a hand on my shoulder I turned around and there stood Mike Dirnt. I just hugged his waste I couldn't reach any higher. "Billie started to shout at his mom after you left cause he knew how close you guys are and then he locked him self in his room with Jesus Of Suburbia on and it was really loud, Billie needs you and you need him but he isn't moving that far away that you can't ever see him again," Mike told me I started to cry.
"W-were I-is h-he mo-o-oving t-o?" I stuttered.
"Well I don't really no the name of the town but it is in California, you could see him on the weekends," He replied.
"But I need him on school days. I started to want to go to school just so that I could talk to my best friend he was my first friend ever and now he is starting in a new school with new people. I bet everyone in his new school will love him and want to be his best friend and then he will forget about me and in my school. I will be the kid who sits in the dark corner alone because her best friend moved school. I get it hard enough without them picking on me even more than I all ready do. They don't even know my name for fuck's sake I am the Mosher kid the one that loves Green Day. The one that hides her shame in her thin black hair," I said in two breaths I didn't shout at him I just raised my voice more than usual.
"I... I had no idea why didn't you tell anyone?" Mike asked as we both sat on a huge rock.
"I did. I told my sister but she left me as well as everyone else in my life," I said I started to cry. Mike hugged me and we just sat there hugging for hours.
"Maybe we should go now it is getting dark," Mike said to me I just nodded and we walked into the dark.
"Maybe I should have brought a flashlight ah well its not to dark," Mike said with a little smile on his face. I just walked not saying anything, I was thinking what if I go with Billie, Tre, and Mike I could just live with them, but school. What will happen then what will people say when I change my last name to Wright or Cool?They might pick on me even more. I will wait and see it is just a last name it shouldn't matter anyway.
