I Never Expected This, But Now Its All I Want., chapter 1
This is the worst day of my life.
Today is the day where I am going to tell him. I have to pull myself together and tell him that I am pregnant with his child.
Now...you might be wondering why telling "him" that I am pregnant and he is the father is so bad...but see...the father of my baby is Billie Joe Armstrong.
Now you're probably thinking "THAT LUCKY BITCH! WHY IS SHE SO DEPRESSED ABOUT HAVING THEE FUCKING BILLIE JOE ARMSTRONG'S CHILD?"
Well an answer to that question is... It was a mistake. It wasn't meant to happen. I mean for Christ sakes...he's still with Adrienne and telling him is going to wreck his whole life with her.
I guess I should tell you how it happened.
*FLASHBACK*
"Billie, I have had (hiccup) waaaaay too much to (hiccup) drink!" I slurred, leaning on Billie Joe for support.
"I knowsss me three's!" He also slurred, putting his arm around me.
We were at Tre's birthday bash and Billie and I had, like I said, waaaaay to much to drink. You see, I have been best friends with Billie, Tre and Mike for about 4 years now. I ran into Billie at my local grocery store and knocked all of his groceries out of his hands. I helped him pick them up and suddenly realizing who he was, fainted. He brought me back to his place where I woke up with Tre poking me in my stomach with a stick.
Ever since that night...I've been best friends with all three of them. I've never really got along with Adrienne though. Actually, I really hate her. Most probably because she is married to my idol. (who I have the biggest crush on and he doesn't know.)Anyway I have tried to be friends with her but lets just say...we're not meant to be friends.
"Billie. I don't feel so goooood" I whined. Its true...I felt like I was going to puke all over tre's kitchen.
"Okay I will takes you up to the...Um...The...Uh...BEDROOM!" he shouted, making people look our way.
He grabbed my hand and very slowly we made our way upstairs. He took me into the guest room and sat me down on the bed. I sprawled out on the bed while Billie Joe sat besides me and stared at me for what seemed like ages. After a while I got kinda annoyed with the staring thing and sat up.
"Take a picture it lasts longer," I said poking my tongue out at him.
"Sorry," He said while turning away, blushing. "You just look really pretty tonight"
"Wow, you've had more to drink than I thought," I laughed, looking into his eyes.
"No I mean it Samantha, you actually look really stunning tonight," he said, putting his hand on my hand.
"Thanks, you look really hot tonight too," I replied. Oh shit did I just say that?
Ahh crap I'm such a... But my thoughts were cut of by Billie pressing his soft lips againsed mine. I knew it was wrong, but I put my arm around the back of his neck and pulled him closer so he was lying on top of me completely. The kiss deepened and I felt his tongue begging for entrance into my mouth. I couldn't resist and let his tongue explore my mouth. We continued this for quite a while until something made me remember that he has a wife and this would wreck his whole future with her. I pushed him away and sat up quickly. "Billie we can't do this, you have a fucking wife!" I said with disappointment in my voice.
"I know ,I know," he replied hanging his head low. "But she doesn't have to know does she?"
"Billie," I said, looking him in the eye. It was funny; I didn't even feel drunk at all. (Well maybe a little) "As much as I want this, we just can't."
He smiled. "So you want this ey?" He said moving closer to me.
"Yes I do but its just wro..." Once again I was cut of by Billie pressing his lips againsed mine.
This time he pinned me down by holding my arms down with his so I couldn't get away (even though I wasn't planning to) and kissed me hard. He let go of my arms so he could take my top off. Once he had succeeded, he undid the buttons to my jeans and pulled them off so i was left in my bra and undies. He kissed my neck over and over while I undid the buttons to his jeans and pulled them off. He took his own shirt off and the rest of mine and his own clothing. Then we did it. The thing that I had wanted ever since I meet him...hell even before I met him. After we just laid there and fell to sleep, in each others arms. The next morning I woke up, fully naked with no sight of him or evidence that he was ever here except a note on the bed side table saying
"Dear Samantha.
I have no recollection of what we did last night, but it's pretty obvious that we had slept together. I am sorry if I made you do something last night that you didn't want to do but I think it is best if we don't tell anyone. Hope your headache is better than mine...love you heaps (as a friend),
Billie"
*END OF FLASHBACK*
We sort of drifted apart after that night. I mean, I don't blame him for not wanting to see me again as the guilt would be over bearing.
So hear I am, standing at the doorway of his apartment, about to tell him that he has a child. Okay Sam just do it just knock on the door just knock and it will be fine everything will be okay...aarrgghh I'm such a loser just knock on the door you psycho. "Sam, just knock on the door will you?" Tre laughed as he held my hand. Tre was the only person I told that I had slept with Billie and he had been so supportive when I found out that I was pregnant with Billie's baby but he said that enough is enough and I have to tell him today otherwise he would. Billie and
Adrienne where staying in a hotel as their house was getting painted or some shit like that.
"Hey, your not the one who's about to wreck Billie Joe's life are you? No so shut up," I replied slightly pissed off.
"Sam, you're not going to ruin his life. I mean... It might make it a challenge for him and Adrienne for a while but you won't ruin his life, trust me," he said while hugging me.
"Thanks Tre, for everything," I replied, hugging him back.
"Eyy no prob," he said with a smile.
Okay I'm doing it....now! I knocked on the door and waited about ten seconds until Adrienne opened the door. "Oh hey Tre...and Sam," she said, looking pissed off that I was here.
"Hey Adrienne, is Billie home?" Tre asked while looking inside.
"BILLIE, TRE AND SAM WANT TO SEE YOU!" She shouted.
A couple of seconds later Billie arrived at the front door. "Uhh...Hey guys," he said scratching his head. "Watcha doing here?" he asked, obviously confused.
"Umm Billie, I have to talk to you about something," I replied. I was scared shitless but I knew I had to tell him. "Well, remember that night at Tre's party?" I asked, avoiding his eyes.
"Umm...Sam... maybe we should talk about this in private," He said, looking at Tre.
"Tre knows," I said quietly.
"WHAT? WHY DID YOU TELL HIM? I THOUGHT WE WERE SUPPOSED TO KEEP IT A SECRET?" he yelled.
I shut my eyes, counted to five in my head and took a deep breath. "Because I couldn't keep it up inside," I whispered.
"Billie, look I'm not going to say anything, I mean I disagree that what you guys did but I am not going to judge." Tre said, pulling me into a hug.
"Okay Sam, tell me, what do you have to say about that night?" Billie Joe said, sill pissed off.
"I uh...Just...Um needed to tell you," I said, taking a deep breath "that I am... Pregnant...with your child." I finished nearly in tears.
Billie just stood their, staring at me with his mouth open. I thought he was going to slam the door in our faces but he turned around and shouted, "ADIE, I'LL BE BACK SOON," and shut the door behind him. He came out and leaned againsed the door. "No this cant happen," He said looking up at me and Tre. "This will ruin everything, no no no no!" he said getting angry. "You have to get rid of it" He said, looking at me.
"Billie...I know this isn't want you want... its not what I want either...but I cant do that." I said, tears streaming down my cheeks.
"YOU HAVE TO SAM!" he yelled. "I didn't want a child, I didn't want what we did AND I DONT WANT YOU!" he screamed.
I couldn't take any more so I ran. I ran down the steps from his house. As I was running I could hear Tre yelling out my name and Billie saying "Shit, Sam I'm sorry," over again. I was about half way down the stairs (he lived on the top floor of the hotel) when my foot got caught behind my other foot and I fell. I remember hitting the first few steps but then every thing just went black.
Today is the day where I am going to tell him. I have to pull myself together and tell him that I am pregnant with his child.
Now...you might be wondering why telling "him" that I am pregnant and he is the father is so bad...but see...the father of my baby is Billie Joe Armstrong.
Now you're probably thinking "THAT LUCKY BITCH! WHY IS SHE SO DEPRESSED ABOUT HAVING THEE FUCKING BILLIE JOE ARMSTRONG'S CHILD?"
Well an answer to that question is... It was a mistake. It wasn't meant to happen. I mean for Christ sakes...he's still with Adrienne and telling him is going to wreck his whole life with her.
I guess I should tell you how it happened.
*FLASHBACK*
"Billie, I have had (hiccup) waaaaay too much to (hiccup) drink!" I slurred, leaning on Billie Joe for support.
"I knowsss me three's!" He also slurred, putting his arm around me.
We were at Tre's birthday bash and Billie and I had, like I said, waaaaay to much to drink. You see, I have been best friends with Billie, Tre and Mike for about 4 years now. I ran into Billie at my local grocery store and knocked all of his groceries out of his hands. I helped him pick them up and suddenly realizing who he was, fainted. He brought me back to his place where I woke up with Tre poking me in my stomach with a stick.
Ever since that night...I've been best friends with all three of them. I've never really got along with Adrienne though. Actually, I really hate her. Most probably because she is married to my idol. (who I have the biggest crush on and he doesn't know.)Anyway I have tried to be friends with her but lets just say...we're not meant to be friends.
"Billie. I don't feel so goooood" I whined. Its true...I felt like I was going to puke all over tre's kitchen.
"Okay I will takes you up to the...Um...The...Uh...BEDROOM!" he shouted, making people look our way.
He grabbed my hand and very slowly we made our way upstairs. He took me into the guest room and sat me down on the bed. I sprawled out on the bed while Billie Joe sat besides me and stared at me for what seemed like ages. After a while I got kinda annoyed with the staring thing and sat up.
"Take a picture it lasts longer," I said poking my tongue out at him.
"Sorry," He said while turning away, blushing. "You just look really pretty tonight"
"Wow, you've had more to drink than I thought," I laughed, looking into his eyes.
"No I mean it Samantha, you actually look really stunning tonight," he said, putting his hand on my hand.
"Thanks, you look really hot tonight too," I replied. Oh shit did I just say that?
Ahh crap I'm such a... But my thoughts were cut of by Billie pressing his soft lips againsed mine. I knew it was wrong, but I put my arm around the back of his neck and pulled him closer so he was lying on top of me completely. The kiss deepened and I felt his tongue begging for entrance into my mouth. I couldn't resist and let his tongue explore my mouth. We continued this for quite a while until something made me remember that he has a wife and this would wreck his whole future with her. I pushed him away and sat up quickly. "Billie we can't do this, you have a fucking wife!" I said with disappointment in my voice.
"I know ,I know," he replied hanging his head low. "But she doesn't have to know does she?"
"Billie," I said, looking him in the eye. It was funny; I didn't even feel drunk at all. (Well maybe a little) "As much as I want this, we just can't."
He smiled. "So you want this ey?" He said moving closer to me.
"Yes I do but its just wro..." Once again I was cut of by Billie pressing his lips againsed mine.
This time he pinned me down by holding my arms down with his so I couldn't get away (even though I wasn't planning to) and kissed me hard. He let go of my arms so he could take my top off. Once he had succeeded, he undid the buttons to my jeans and pulled them off so i was left in my bra and undies. He kissed my neck over and over while I undid the buttons to his jeans and pulled them off. He took his own shirt off and the rest of mine and his own clothing. Then we did it. The thing that I had wanted ever since I meet him...hell even before I met him. After we just laid there and fell to sleep, in each others arms. The next morning I woke up, fully naked with no sight of him or evidence that he was ever here except a note on the bed side table saying
"Dear Samantha.
I have no recollection of what we did last night, but it's pretty obvious that we had slept together. I am sorry if I made you do something last night that you didn't want to do but I think it is best if we don't tell anyone. Hope your headache is better than mine...love you heaps (as a friend),
Billie"
*END OF FLASHBACK*
We sort of drifted apart after that night. I mean, I don't blame him for not wanting to see me again as the guilt would be over bearing.
So hear I am, standing at the doorway of his apartment, about to tell him that he has a child. Okay Sam just do it just knock on the door just knock and it will be fine everything will be okay...aarrgghh I'm such a loser just knock on the door you psycho. "Sam, just knock on the door will you?" Tre laughed as he held my hand. Tre was the only person I told that I had slept with Billie and he had been so supportive when I found out that I was pregnant with Billie's baby but he said that enough is enough and I have to tell him today otherwise he would. Billie and
Adrienne where staying in a hotel as their house was getting painted or some shit like that.
"Hey, your not the one who's about to wreck Billie Joe's life are you? No so shut up," I replied slightly pissed off.
"Sam, you're not going to ruin his life. I mean... It might make it a challenge for him and Adrienne for a while but you won't ruin his life, trust me," he said while hugging me.
"Thanks Tre, for everything," I replied, hugging him back.
"Eyy no prob," he said with a smile.
Okay I'm doing it....now! I knocked on the door and waited about ten seconds until Adrienne opened the door. "Oh hey Tre...and Sam," she said, looking pissed off that I was here.
"Hey Adrienne, is Billie home?" Tre asked while looking inside.
"BILLIE, TRE AND SAM WANT TO SEE YOU!" She shouted.
A couple of seconds later Billie arrived at the front door. "Uhh...Hey guys," he said scratching his head. "Watcha doing here?" he asked, obviously confused.
"Umm Billie, I have to talk to you about something," I replied. I was scared shitless but I knew I had to tell him. "Well, remember that night at Tre's party?" I asked, avoiding his eyes.
"Umm...Sam... maybe we should talk about this in private," He said, looking at Tre.
"Tre knows," I said quietly.
"WHAT? WHY DID YOU TELL HIM? I THOUGHT WE WERE SUPPOSED TO KEEP IT A SECRET?" he yelled.
I shut my eyes, counted to five in my head and took a deep breath. "Because I couldn't keep it up inside," I whispered.
"Billie, look I'm not going to say anything, I mean I disagree that what you guys did but I am not going to judge." Tre said, pulling me into a hug.
"Okay Sam, tell me, what do you have to say about that night?" Billie Joe said, sill pissed off.
"I uh...Just...Um needed to tell you," I said, taking a deep breath "that I am... Pregnant...with your child." I finished nearly in tears.
Billie just stood their, staring at me with his mouth open. I thought he was going to slam the door in our faces but he turned around and shouted, "ADIE, I'LL BE BACK SOON," and shut the door behind him. He came out and leaned againsed the door. "No this cant happen," He said looking up at me and Tre. "This will ruin everything, no no no no!" he said getting angry. "You have to get rid of it" He said, looking at me.
"Billie...I know this isn't want you want... its not what I want either...but I cant do that." I said, tears streaming down my cheeks.
"YOU HAVE TO SAM!" he yelled. "I didn't want a child, I didn't want what we did AND I DONT WANT YOU!" he screamed.
I couldn't take any more so I ran. I ran down the steps from his house. As I was running I could hear Tre yelling out my name and Billie saying "Shit, Sam I'm sorry," over again. I was about half way down the stairs (he lived on the top floor of the hotel) when my foot got caught behind my other foot and I fell. I remember hitting the first few steps but then every thing just went black.
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