I Never Expected This, But Now Its All I Want., chapter 5
I walked through the door to Tre's house and slammed it behind me. Wait... what was I doing back at Tre's house? Wasn't I running away from here in the first place? Damn.
I slid down the door and huddled up to try and get some body heat going. I didn't want to go upstairs in case I woke Tre up, and then I would get a mouth full of why I shouldn't be out in the rain at night.
I wasn't really angry at Tre for not telling me he had a girlfriend, just...I dunno...disappointed I guess? Yeah, I guess you could call it that. I mean, when he said we should tell each other everything, I thought he meant everything. Aw well, it doesn't matter really. I'll be out of his hair soon enough. I look up from my trail of thoughts to see a tired yet concerned looking Tre staring at me.
"Sam?"
"Yeah Tre, it's me,"
"Oh thank God you're home. I was so worried about you."
"Yeah, it sure seems that way doesn't it?" I askedd, pissed off. I mean, he didn't even come looking for me. I was gone a good three hours and if he was so worried about me then you would think he would at least come looking for me.
"Why are you pissed off at me?" he asked, putting his hands on his hips.
"It's just...forget it, I'm going to bed," I got up from my position and walked towards the stairs.
"This is about Jade isn't it?" I turned around and looked at him in the eye.
"No its not, but it would have been nice for you to actually tell me you had a girlfriend."
"Why are you jealous?"
I stared at him with a shocked look on my face. "I'm not jealous Tre. I just thought we were going to tell each other everything, but I guess that didn't mean anything to you." I turned around and started to walk back up the stairs when Tre had yet another comment.
"Now you're going to run upstairs and have a cry about how no one loves you or takes notice of you and then I am going to have to go up there and tell you every thing is okay!" I stopped walking but didn't turn around. I think Tre finally realised what he said as the next words that came out of his mouth were "Oh shit Sam that came out wrong,"
"No Tre, I don't think it did. I think you have wanted to say that for a long time but never had the guts. If you never wanted me here in the first place. all you had to do was say so. But you offered for me to stay here, so I did. If I had known I was going to ruin your life by staying here, I wouldn't have, and I'm sorry that I did." I continued to walk up the stairs until I got into the room I was staying in. I walked in and started to pack my things in the suitcase that I had brought with me from my house. I didn't even bother to close the door as he probably got the point that I was leaving, so I didn't need to try and hide it from him. I started to fold up all of my clothes that I had brought with me to his house and then all of my personal belongings. I was about to zip up my suitcase when I felt a hand on my shoulder. I turned around to be faced with possibly the saddest blue eyes on this Earth.
"Sam, you can't leave," he said, taking his hand from my shoulder and grabbing hold of my hand.
"I have to, Tre. It would make things a lot easier for everyone if I was just out of your lives completely."
"That's not true and you know it!"
"Oh yeah? Well, what you said before really makes me believe you!"
"I didn't mean to say that, okay? I don't know what came over me."
"The truth maybe?" I asked, feeling a tear roll down my cheek. Great, I didn't want him to see that he made me upset but I couldn't help it. I pulled away from the grasp that he still had on my hand and zipped up my suitcase. I picked it up and turned on my heal, making for the door, until Tre stood in front of it, blocking it from my path.
"Move Tre,"
"No."
"Yes."
"No."
"Yes."
"Not until you hear what I have to say,"
I dropped the suitcase and put my hands on my hips. "Fine," He came forward and held both of my hands.
"Sam, I don't know why I said that. I truly don't, but I didn't mean it. I would never say you could stay here if I didn't want you to." I looked up at him and saw that his eyes were filled with honesty and sorrow.
"Please Sam, I want you to live here."
"Okay I'll stay," I said, not believing him.
That night, I was laying in bed, listening to the soft snores coming from Tre's room. What if he didn't mean what he said before? What if he really does want me gone? I sat up in bed, trying to get these thoughts out of my head. But what if he was telling the truth? Aw man this sucks. I have no idea if my best friend wants me living with him or not.
After about an hour spent contemplating whether I should stay or go, I finally decided that going would be the best option. I got out of bed to see my suitcase, which yet I still haven't unpacked. I grabbed it, slowly opened my door and crept past Tre's bedroom and down the stairs. I was nearly out the front door when I thought leaving without saying goodbye would be cruel, so I wrote him a letter saying:
Dear Tre,
First of all I want to thank you for being there for me when no one else was there. You were the only person I could talk to and I am so grateful. But I have decided that I have been a great burden on you for a long time now, and staying here would just make things work. I hope you can forgive me for leaving without saying a proper goodbye, but that would make things harder. You were the closest thing I had to family Tre, I love you so much!
Love, Sam.
By the time I had finished the letter, I was in tears. I had to get out of this place.
I opened up the front door and slowly shut it behind me. I was greeted by a blast of wind in the face. I decided to call a taxi. As I was calling, I quickly remembered something and hung up the phone: Mike. I need to say goodbye to Mike. I dialled his number and waited for him to pick up.
"Yellow?" a very cheerful Mike answered the phone.
"Hey Mike. It's me, Sam."
"Hey Sam! What are you doing?"
"Um, not much. I just wanted to call you to tell you that I'm leaving,"
There was a long silence until I heard Mike take in a long breath. "You're leaving?"
"Yes, I have to,"
"But why?"
"It's a long story."
"Where are you?"
"I'm outside Tre's house. I was about to call for a taxi but I knew I had to call you first."
"Look, I'm coming to get you,"
"No Mike, you can't change my mind. I'm leaving and that's final."
"I'm not going to try and change your mind. I just want to see you before you leave okay?" I paused for a minute, thinking about his proposition.
"Alright, I'll wait for you,"
"Alright, I'll be there in five minutes," and with that, he hung up. I shut my phone and put it into my pocket. I didn't really want to have to say a proper goodbye to anyone; it would be too emotional.
5 minutes passed and soon I saw Mike's car pull up in the driveway. I saw Mike get out of the car and come over to me.
"Hey Mike."
"Hey," he said, looking down at the floor. There was an awkward silence until he blurted out, "You can't leave!"
"Why not?"
"Because you are one of my best friends, one of Tre's and Billie's best friends and if you leave, we wouldn't be able to cope!"
"Somehow I don't think that is quite true," I said, knowing it sounded bitchy.
"No, it is true," I heard a voice beside me say. I turned around only to be faced with the one and only Tre.
"Holy fuck!" I jumped in the air. He let out a slight chuckle until he turned serious again. "Sam, we don't want you to leave, it would kill us all."
I turned to look at Mike, then to look at Tre, then back to Mike. "You shouldn't make your opinion Billie's opinion as well," I said
"Well then, maybe you should ask him yourself." Mike smiled and turned towards the car. I looked over and saw Billie get out of the car. Oh fuck.
He walked over to me and grabbed hold of my hands. I was still embarrassed about what I said down at the park, so I couldn't look him in the eye. He lifted my chin so I was level eye contact with him, when he pulled me into a kiss. After a few moments he pulled away and leaned his forehead on mine. "Sam, if you leave, I don't know what I would do."
"B-but what about Adie?" I asked, confused that he just kissed me in front of his friends.
"It's okay. I found out she was cheating on me, and only then did I realise that I wasn't in love with her any more," he said, staring into my eyes.
"Is that so?" I said, smiling
"Yep, I realised I was in love with someone else,"
"I always knew you had a thing for Mike." I replied, messing up his hair.
"As much as I think Mike is a sexy beast," he said, before leaning in and whispering into my ear, "I love you."
I slid down the door and huddled up to try and get some body heat going. I didn't want to go upstairs in case I woke Tre up, and then I would get a mouth full of why I shouldn't be out in the rain at night.
I wasn't really angry at Tre for not telling me he had a girlfriend, just...I dunno...disappointed I guess? Yeah, I guess you could call it that. I mean, when he said we should tell each other everything, I thought he meant everything. Aw well, it doesn't matter really. I'll be out of his hair soon enough. I look up from my trail of thoughts to see a tired yet concerned looking Tre staring at me.
"Sam?"
"Yeah Tre, it's me,"
"Oh thank God you're home. I was so worried about you."
"Yeah, it sure seems that way doesn't it?" I askedd, pissed off. I mean, he didn't even come looking for me. I was gone a good three hours and if he was so worried about me then you would think he would at least come looking for me.
"Why are you pissed off at me?" he asked, putting his hands on his hips.
"It's just...forget it, I'm going to bed," I got up from my position and walked towards the stairs.
"This is about Jade isn't it?" I turned around and looked at him in the eye.
"No its not, but it would have been nice for you to actually tell me you had a girlfriend."
"Why are you jealous?"
I stared at him with a shocked look on my face. "I'm not jealous Tre. I just thought we were going to tell each other everything, but I guess that didn't mean anything to you." I turned around and started to walk back up the stairs when Tre had yet another comment.
"Now you're going to run upstairs and have a cry about how no one loves you or takes notice of you and then I am going to have to go up there and tell you every thing is okay!" I stopped walking but didn't turn around. I think Tre finally realised what he said as the next words that came out of his mouth were "Oh shit Sam that came out wrong,"
"No Tre, I don't think it did. I think you have wanted to say that for a long time but never had the guts. If you never wanted me here in the first place. all you had to do was say so. But you offered for me to stay here, so I did. If I had known I was going to ruin your life by staying here, I wouldn't have, and I'm sorry that I did." I continued to walk up the stairs until I got into the room I was staying in. I walked in and started to pack my things in the suitcase that I had brought with me from my house. I didn't even bother to close the door as he probably got the point that I was leaving, so I didn't need to try and hide it from him. I started to fold up all of my clothes that I had brought with me to his house and then all of my personal belongings. I was about to zip up my suitcase when I felt a hand on my shoulder. I turned around to be faced with possibly the saddest blue eyes on this Earth.
"Sam, you can't leave," he said, taking his hand from my shoulder and grabbing hold of my hand.
"I have to, Tre. It would make things a lot easier for everyone if I was just out of your lives completely."
"That's not true and you know it!"
"Oh yeah? Well, what you said before really makes me believe you!"
"I didn't mean to say that, okay? I don't know what came over me."
"The truth maybe?" I asked, feeling a tear roll down my cheek. Great, I didn't want him to see that he made me upset but I couldn't help it. I pulled away from the grasp that he still had on my hand and zipped up my suitcase. I picked it up and turned on my heal, making for the door, until Tre stood in front of it, blocking it from my path.
"Move Tre,"
"No."
"Yes."
"No."
"Yes."
"Not until you hear what I have to say,"
I dropped the suitcase and put my hands on my hips. "Fine," He came forward and held both of my hands.
"Sam, I don't know why I said that. I truly don't, but I didn't mean it. I would never say you could stay here if I didn't want you to." I looked up at him and saw that his eyes were filled with honesty and sorrow.
"Please Sam, I want you to live here."
"Okay I'll stay," I said, not believing him.
That night, I was laying in bed, listening to the soft snores coming from Tre's room. What if he didn't mean what he said before? What if he really does want me gone? I sat up in bed, trying to get these thoughts out of my head. But what if he was telling the truth? Aw man this sucks. I have no idea if my best friend wants me living with him or not.
After about an hour spent contemplating whether I should stay or go, I finally decided that going would be the best option. I got out of bed to see my suitcase, which yet I still haven't unpacked. I grabbed it, slowly opened my door and crept past Tre's bedroom and down the stairs. I was nearly out the front door when I thought leaving without saying goodbye would be cruel, so I wrote him a letter saying:
Dear Tre,
First of all I want to thank you for being there for me when no one else was there. You were the only person I could talk to and I am so grateful. But I have decided that I have been a great burden on you for a long time now, and staying here would just make things work. I hope you can forgive me for leaving without saying a proper goodbye, but that would make things harder. You were the closest thing I had to family Tre, I love you so much!
Love, Sam.
By the time I had finished the letter, I was in tears. I had to get out of this place.
I opened up the front door and slowly shut it behind me. I was greeted by a blast of wind in the face. I decided to call a taxi. As I was calling, I quickly remembered something and hung up the phone: Mike. I need to say goodbye to Mike. I dialled his number and waited for him to pick up.
"Yellow?" a very cheerful Mike answered the phone.
"Hey Mike. It's me, Sam."
"Hey Sam! What are you doing?"
"Um, not much. I just wanted to call you to tell you that I'm leaving,"
There was a long silence until I heard Mike take in a long breath. "You're leaving?"
"Yes, I have to,"
"But why?"
"It's a long story."
"Where are you?"
"I'm outside Tre's house. I was about to call for a taxi but I knew I had to call you first."
"Look, I'm coming to get you,"
"No Mike, you can't change my mind. I'm leaving and that's final."
"I'm not going to try and change your mind. I just want to see you before you leave okay?" I paused for a minute, thinking about his proposition.
"Alright, I'll wait for you,"
"Alright, I'll be there in five minutes," and with that, he hung up. I shut my phone and put it into my pocket. I didn't really want to have to say a proper goodbye to anyone; it would be too emotional.
5 minutes passed and soon I saw Mike's car pull up in the driveway. I saw Mike get out of the car and come over to me.
"Hey Mike."
"Hey," he said, looking down at the floor. There was an awkward silence until he blurted out, "You can't leave!"
"Why not?"
"Because you are one of my best friends, one of Tre's and Billie's best friends and if you leave, we wouldn't be able to cope!"
"Somehow I don't think that is quite true," I said, knowing it sounded bitchy.
"No, it is true," I heard a voice beside me say. I turned around only to be faced with the one and only Tre.
"Holy fuck!" I jumped in the air. He let out a slight chuckle until he turned serious again. "Sam, we don't want you to leave, it would kill us all."
I turned to look at Mike, then to look at Tre, then back to Mike. "You shouldn't make your opinion Billie's opinion as well," I said
"Well then, maybe you should ask him yourself." Mike smiled and turned towards the car. I looked over and saw Billie get out of the car. Oh fuck.
He walked over to me and grabbed hold of my hands. I was still embarrassed about what I said down at the park, so I couldn't look him in the eye. He lifted my chin so I was level eye contact with him, when he pulled me into a kiss. After a few moments he pulled away and leaned his forehead on mine. "Sam, if you leave, I don't know what I would do."
"B-but what about Adie?" I asked, confused that he just kissed me in front of his friends.
"It's okay. I found out she was cheating on me, and only then did I realise that I wasn't in love with her any more," he said, staring into my eyes.
"Is that so?" I said, smiling
"Yep, I realised I was in love with someone else,"
"I always knew you had a thing for Mike." I replied, messing up his hair.
"As much as I think Mike is a sexy beast," he said, before leaning in and whispering into my ear, "I love you."
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