We've Made It So Far, chapter 6
The next few months went by slowly. Billie was going through constant physical therapy because of his leg and it had only made him work harder on his next album. He had spent all the rest of his free time with Joey, Jakob, and I. I think he had finally realized after he had almost lost all of us that he can 't afford to regret not being with us as much as possible. He even mentioned for his next tour to start it on the day the boys got out of school so they could go with us until school starts. He was so excited just to be with us and we were just as excited to be with him. Joey was different though. He was quiet and he hadn't spoken much since we had left the hospital. It scared me a little bit because he hadn't gotten into any more trouble and hadn't upset his brother. Billie and I decided to talk to him. He was sitting on his bed not doing anything just...sitting there.
"Joey?"
"Yeah?"
"Is everything all right?" Billie asked. He nodded. I spoke next.
"Are you sure? You haven't been acting like yourself lately. Is anything wrong?"
Joey's P.O.V.
How could I make them understand. They can't get the fact that it hurts so much. I almost lost him. My dad, I almost lost him! I was brought back to our conversation.
"Joey?" My dad looked hurt and a little bit afraid.
"I'm fine." They both nodded in unison and walked away. I'm scared. I don't know why I'm being like this. I didn't lose him, so why am I like this? I bite my lip and start sobbing when I'm sure they can't hear me. I feel betrayed by everyone and I don't know why. I don't know anything. I put my hands behind my head and bite down harder so I don't make any noise.
"Joey?" I look up and see Jakob staring at me wide-eyed.
"J-Joe what's wrong?" I stand up and pull him into the room and shut the door.
"Jake you have to make a promise. You cannot tell anyone what you just saw okay?"
"But... "
"No! You can't Jake! If you love me you won't."
"Fine only 'cause you're my brother." He looked at his feet about and his eyes were filled with tears. Damn! Why did I have to do this to Jakey? It happened to me but it can't happen to him too. I pulled him in close "Don't worry. Everything will be okay... I promise." He hugged me.
"If something happens though I gotta tell Mommy and Daddy."
"Okay only if something really bad happens." He lifted his head and I smiled at him.
Billie's P.O.V.
I didn't think I would hurt anyone after I lived. I would always be there but Joey...There's something really wrong, something terrible. It reminds me of...me. After my dad died. I look at Adie who is asleep and peaceful. No more bad dreams, no more nightmares. I'll always be here. No, how can I say that? I won't always be here. I shouldn't make those promises because I always wind up lying. I hate liars, there's no point to it. Yet I always lie, accidentally of course but...
My thoughts are interrupted by a scream.
"Joey?"
"Yeah?"
"Is everything all right?" Billie asked. He nodded. I spoke next.
"Are you sure? You haven't been acting like yourself lately. Is anything wrong?"
Joey's P.O.V.
How could I make them understand. They can't get the fact that it hurts so much. I almost lost him. My dad, I almost lost him! I was brought back to our conversation.
"Joey?" My dad looked hurt and a little bit afraid.
"I'm fine." They both nodded in unison and walked away. I'm scared. I don't know why I'm being like this. I didn't lose him, so why am I like this? I bite my lip and start sobbing when I'm sure they can't hear me. I feel betrayed by everyone and I don't know why. I don't know anything. I put my hands behind my head and bite down harder so I don't make any noise.
"Joey?" I look up and see Jakob staring at me wide-eyed.
"J-Joe what's wrong?" I stand up and pull him into the room and shut the door.
"Jake you have to make a promise. You cannot tell anyone what you just saw okay?"
"But... "
"No! You can't Jake! If you love me you won't."
"Fine only 'cause you're my brother." He looked at his feet about and his eyes were filled with tears. Damn! Why did I have to do this to Jakey? It happened to me but it can't happen to him too. I pulled him in close "Don't worry. Everything will be okay... I promise." He hugged me.
"If something happens though I gotta tell Mommy and Daddy."
"Okay only if something really bad happens." He lifted his head and I smiled at him.
Billie's P.O.V.
I didn't think I would hurt anyone after I lived. I would always be there but Joey...There's something really wrong, something terrible. It reminds me of...me. After my dad died. I look at Adie who is asleep and peaceful. No more bad dreams, no more nightmares. I'll always be here. No, how can I say that? I won't always be here. I shouldn't make those promises because I always wind up lying. I hate liars, there's no point to it. Yet I always lie, accidentally of course but...
My thoughts are interrupted by a scream.
