Wicked Wishes: until the end. (2nd ending.), chapter 2
The Phone Rang around 6:30. Billie answered it. When he hung up the phone he looked at me.
"She's gone isn't she?" I asked.
Billie didn't say anything. Jakob, who was sitting next to me coloring, looked up.
"Who's gone?"
"Billie," I said. I wanted an answer from him.
"It was your mom. She said Chadd went about half an hour ago. Riot I'm so sorry."
I nodded and got up from the table. I felt like I was going to be sick. And I was. A second later I was hunched over barfing all over the tile floor.
"Riot!" Adie said pulling me over to the sink. I leaned over the counter with my head in the sink. I coughed and puked again. I looked up at Billie. "Fuck." I muttered. I wiped my face off and stood up. I looked at the mess I had made. "Ill get it." I said walking over to the closet to get the mop.
"No Riot, I've got it," Adie said.
"Sorry."
"It's ok."
"Maybe you should go up stairs and lie down," Billie said putting his hand on my shoulder.
"No," I pushed him off and took a step back.
"I can't. I'm going, I need to leave," I walked out the door.
I walked until I didn't feel like walking anymore. I ended up stopping in front of the bus shelter where I first met Chadd. I sat there for a long time. I half hoped she would come walking past again.
* * *
The Funeral was going to be the following Saturday.
I was sitting at the computer desk in my room while Billie and Adie rushed around the house trying to get ready.
"What the hell are you doing!? We are going to be late!" Billie yelled. "Get dressed!"
I looked at him. He was wearing a suit that looked like the one he wore at the Grammy's.
"I'm not going."
"Riot you have..." He stopped. "She would want you to come."
"Well I want her here!" I yelled.
"You know she can't be Riot."
"Well then I can't be there!" Billie grabbed the hood of my sweatshirt and pulled me off the chair and into the hallway.
"Billie!" Adie yelled at him, she was crying.
"Fine! He doesn't have to go!" Billie said angrily letting go of my hood. I should have locked my knees so I wouldn't have fallen. But I didn't. A second later I was on the floor. I crawled back into my room. Billie shut the door behind me.
"Is Riot going to be ok?" I heard Joey ask.
"Yes he's going to be fine," Adie said. "Come on get your brother. We have to get you to your grandmas." Adie told him.
* * *
While they were gone I tried to sleep, but it was impossible. I got up and walked into Billie and Adie's bathroom. I knew that Billie had sleeping pills. Strong ones.
I tried to open the medicine cabinet but it was locked. I figured I could pick the lock.
I saw one of Adie's bobby pins on the sink. I grabbed it and picked the lock. When it opened I went through it throwing everything that wasn't what I was looking for onto the floor. All I wanted was to be able to sleep without being interrupted my Chadd. When I found the pills I dumped about 8 or 10 into my hand and quickly swallowed them. Then I sat down on the bathroom floor and grabbed Billies razor.
I just didn't give a shit anymore.
I went to walk out of the room but didn't make it. I collapsed on Billie and Adie's bed.
"She's gone isn't she?" I asked.
Billie didn't say anything. Jakob, who was sitting next to me coloring, looked up.
"Who's gone?"
"Billie," I said. I wanted an answer from him.
"It was your mom. She said Chadd went about half an hour ago. Riot I'm so sorry."
I nodded and got up from the table. I felt like I was going to be sick. And I was. A second later I was hunched over barfing all over the tile floor.
"Riot!" Adie said pulling me over to the sink. I leaned over the counter with my head in the sink. I coughed and puked again. I looked up at Billie. "Fuck." I muttered. I wiped my face off and stood up. I looked at the mess I had made. "Ill get it." I said walking over to the closet to get the mop.
"No Riot, I've got it," Adie said.
"Sorry."
"It's ok."
"Maybe you should go up stairs and lie down," Billie said putting his hand on my shoulder.
"No," I pushed him off and took a step back.
"I can't. I'm going, I need to leave," I walked out the door.
I walked until I didn't feel like walking anymore. I ended up stopping in front of the bus shelter where I first met Chadd. I sat there for a long time. I half hoped she would come walking past again.
* * *
The Funeral was going to be the following Saturday.
I was sitting at the computer desk in my room while Billie and Adie rushed around the house trying to get ready.
"What the hell are you doing!? We are going to be late!" Billie yelled. "Get dressed!"
I looked at him. He was wearing a suit that looked like the one he wore at the Grammy's.
"I'm not going."
"Riot you have..." He stopped. "She would want you to come."
"Well I want her here!" I yelled.
"You know she can't be Riot."
"Well then I can't be there!" Billie grabbed the hood of my sweatshirt and pulled me off the chair and into the hallway.
"Billie!" Adie yelled at him, she was crying.
"Fine! He doesn't have to go!" Billie said angrily letting go of my hood. I should have locked my knees so I wouldn't have fallen. But I didn't. A second later I was on the floor. I crawled back into my room. Billie shut the door behind me.
"Is Riot going to be ok?" I heard Joey ask.
"Yes he's going to be fine," Adie said. "Come on get your brother. We have to get you to your grandmas." Adie told him.
* * *
While they were gone I tried to sleep, but it was impossible. I got up and walked into Billie and Adie's bathroom. I knew that Billie had sleeping pills. Strong ones.
I tried to open the medicine cabinet but it was locked. I figured I could pick the lock.
I saw one of Adie's bobby pins on the sink. I grabbed it and picked the lock. When it opened I went through it throwing everything that wasn't what I was looking for onto the floor. All I wanted was to be able to sleep without being interrupted my Chadd. When I found the pills I dumped about 8 or 10 into my hand and quickly swallowed them. Then I sat down on the bathroom floor and grabbed Billies razor.
I just didn't give a shit anymore.
I went to walk out of the room but didn't make it. I collapsed on Billie and Adie's bed.
