Wicked Wishes: until the end. (2nd ending.), chapter 9
On my 19th birthday I didn't do anything but hang around the house smoking and drinking.
80 yelled at Billie Joe, saying I shouldn't be smoking or drinking. Then she said something like "what if I got drunk."
To tell you the truth I was already piss drunk.
Just not angry drunk.
But I guess that didn't matter because Billie still took the beer away. I got up to go down stairs to mess around with the guitars and see if I could get them to make a decent sound when I couldn't even see straight.
There was a knock on the door.
I opened it, what I saw was a more preppy, jock version of me. It took me a second to release who it was.
"Holy Shit! Ryan?" I yelled trying to steady myself because I was falling over.
"Hey bro," he said looking me over. "You look like a piece of Shit."
I laughed.
"Thanks for the complement. Now what the fuck do you want? You sure as hell aren't here to wish me a happy birthday." I put my hand on the door frame. I was starting to see two Ryans.
"Sarah!" he yelled. Sarah came and stood next to him. She had an engagement ring on her finger.
"Are you going to let us in?"
"What? Oh, what the hell."
All of us were setting in the living room.
"I heard about Chadd," Ryan said. "Sorry."
"Yeah," I said taking a puff of my cigarette.
"You're smoking," Sarah said. "You were never into that when I was with you. Chadd got you into that didn't she? She was never your type James."
"HOW DARE YOU!" I yelled. Never mess with me when I'm drunk.
"Number one, Never fucking EVER talk about Chadd like that. Number 2 I was never WITH you Sarah! You just declared your self my girlfriend after I slept with you! I didn't say anything because I knew you would give it up to me anytime if you thought I was your boyfriend! And trust me, you did. But I was with so many other girls behind your back. Sarah, you weren't my type. Chadd was fucking perfect for me."
I glared at Sarah.
"I'm going to go say hi to 80," she said getting up.
"You're drunk. You don't know what you're saying."
Ryan said after she had left the room.
"You're fucking crazy, if you think I'm going to sit there and let her talk about Chadd like that. And you being with her, I just have to say better you then me. She's your problem now Ryan. And you still never told me why you were here."
"Oh yeah. Its mom. She wants to see you."
"Then why didn't she get off her lazy hypocrite ass and get down here?"
Ryan sighed.
"I don't know. I'm just telling you."
After they left I ended up passing out on the couch.
***
When I woke up I walked down to the basement to mess around with the instruments.
I was down there for maybe half an hour before 80 said Bailey was over. She came downstairs and sat next to me on the couch. She smiled at me.
"Hi," I said putting my bass away. "How are you?"
"Good," she said, still smiling.
"What?" I asked.
"Nothing."
She moved over closer to me. "Heard it was your birthday," I nodded.
"Happy birthday then," her smile widened.
"Uhh...thanks I guess." I was starting to feel uncomfortable.
She moved even closer to me. Until she was practically on top of me. I was sitting slightly sideways on the couch, sitting on my left leg. She brought her legs up and kneeled on the couch. She put her hand on my knee and leaned over me. She ruffled my hair and kissed my cheek. I wanted more then anything to back up. But I sitting on the edge of the couch right next to the arm rest and had no where else to go. I wanted to pull away but she had her goddamn chest pressed against mine and I couldn't move. I opened my mouth to say something but before I could even get a word out she had her tongue in my mouth.
"Ba...Baily..." I stuttered pushing her off. "C'mon. Please. I thought we talked about this the other night." She went to run her hands across my chest but I grabbed her wrists before she could.
She kissed my neck because I wouldn't let her touch my chest.
"What are you doing? Please Bailey!"
"C'mon Riot! Chadds been gone for awhile now.
I think it's been long enough. Don't you?"
"No. No I don't."
"Well I do," she said, kissing my face all over.
I wanted more then any thing to push her off but damn was she strong.
I hadn't noticed Bayzer was standing in the corner of the room. Bailey finally stopped and looked over at Bayzer. I got my chance and pushed Baily off me and stood up as fast as I could. Bayzer was just looking at us.
"Bayzer!" I said.
"Wha-What are you doing?" she asked me.
I looked at Bailey. "Nothing!" I said frantically.
Bayzer turned around and ran up the stairs.
"No! Wait!" I yelled after her. "It's not what you think!" I ran up the steps.
She turned around and looked at me.
"I come over here to wish you happy birthday and see you necking with some girl."
"It wasn't like that!" I pleaded with her.
"NO! Forget it! You didn't respect Chadd when she was Alive...So why should I expect you to do it now?"
"Come on Bayzer!" I grabbed her hand before she could walk away.
She watched me.
"Let...LET GO OF ME! I shouldn't be mad at you Riot, but I can't help it! I just think it's to soon to be with someone!"
"I'M NOT WITH HER!" I yelled at Bayzer. I don't think she would ever understand what happened.
She wouldn't listen to it anymore. She left.
I walked back downstairs. Bailey was still standing there.
"I think you should go," I said to her looking at my feet. She got up and left.
I had cheated on Chadd before, I know that. But now that she was gone I didn't want to be with anyone else at all.
80 yelled at Billie Joe, saying I shouldn't be smoking or drinking. Then she said something like "what if I got drunk."
To tell you the truth I was already piss drunk.
Just not angry drunk.
But I guess that didn't matter because Billie still took the beer away. I got up to go down stairs to mess around with the guitars and see if I could get them to make a decent sound when I couldn't even see straight.
There was a knock on the door.
I opened it, what I saw was a more preppy, jock version of me. It took me a second to release who it was.
"Holy Shit! Ryan?" I yelled trying to steady myself because I was falling over.
"Hey bro," he said looking me over. "You look like a piece of Shit."
I laughed.
"Thanks for the complement. Now what the fuck do you want? You sure as hell aren't here to wish me a happy birthday." I put my hand on the door frame. I was starting to see two Ryans.
"Sarah!" he yelled. Sarah came and stood next to him. She had an engagement ring on her finger.
"Are you going to let us in?"
"What? Oh, what the hell."
All of us were setting in the living room.
"I heard about Chadd," Ryan said. "Sorry."
"Yeah," I said taking a puff of my cigarette.
"You're smoking," Sarah said. "You were never into that when I was with you. Chadd got you into that didn't she? She was never your type James."
"HOW DARE YOU!" I yelled. Never mess with me when I'm drunk.
"Number one, Never fucking EVER talk about Chadd like that. Number 2 I was never WITH you Sarah! You just declared your self my girlfriend after I slept with you! I didn't say anything because I knew you would give it up to me anytime if you thought I was your boyfriend! And trust me, you did. But I was with so many other girls behind your back. Sarah, you weren't my type. Chadd was fucking perfect for me."
I glared at Sarah.
"I'm going to go say hi to 80," she said getting up.
"You're drunk. You don't know what you're saying."
Ryan said after she had left the room.
"You're fucking crazy, if you think I'm going to sit there and let her talk about Chadd like that. And you being with her, I just have to say better you then me. She's your problem now Ryan. And you still never told me why you were here."
"Oh yeah. Its mom. She wants to see you."
"Then why didn't she get off her lazy hypocrite ass and get down here?"
Ryan sighed.
"I don't know. I'm just telling you."
After they left I ended up passing out on the couch.
***
When I woke up I walked down to the basement to mess around with the instruments.
I was down there for maybe half an hour before 80 said Bailey was over. She came downstairs and sat next to me on the couch. She smiled at me.
"Hi," I said putting my bass away. "How are you?"
"Good," she said, still smiling.
"What?" I asked.
"Nothing."
She moved over closer to me. "Heard it was your birthday," I nodded.
"Happy birthday then," her smile widened.
"Uhh...thanks I guess." I was starting to feel uncomfortable.
She moved even closer to me. Until she was practically on top of me. I was sitting slightly sideways on the couch, sitting on my left leg. She brought her legs up and kneeled on the couch. She put her hand on my knee and leaned over me. She ruffled my hair and kissed my cheek. I wanted more then anything to back up. But I sitting on the edge of the couch right next to the arm rest and had no where else to go. I wanted to pull away but she had her goddamn chest pressed against mine and I couldn't move. I opened my mouth to say something but before I could even get a word out she had her tongue in my mouth.
"Ba...Baily..." I stuttered pushing her off. "C'mon. Please. I thought we talked about this the other night." She went to run her hands across my chest but I grabbed her wrists before she could.
She kissed my neck because I wouldn't let her touch my chest.
"What are you doing? Please Bailey!"
"C'mon Riot! Chadds been gone for awhile now.
I think it's been long enough. Don't you?"
"No. No I don't."
"Well I do," she said, kissing my face all over.
I wanted more then any thing to push her off but damn was she strong.
I hadn't noticed Bayzer was standing in the corner of the room. Bailey finally stopped and looked over at Bayzer. I got my chance and pushed Baily off me and stood up as fast as I could. Bayzer was just looking at us.
"Bayzer!" I said.
"Wha-What are you doing?" she asked me.
I looked at Bailey. "Nothing!" I said frantically.
Bayzer turned around and ran up the stairs.
"No! Wait!" I yelled after her. "It's not what you think!" I ran up the steps.
She turned around and looked at me.
"I come over here to wish you happy birthday and see you necking with some girl."
"It wasn't like that!" I pleaded with her.
"NO! Forget it! You didn't respect Chadd when she was Alive...So why should I expect you to do it now?"
"Come on Bayzer!" I grabbed her hand before she could walk away.
She watched me.
"Let...LET GO OF ME! I shouldn't be mad at you Riot, but I can't help it! I just think it's to soon to be with someone!"
"I'M NOT WITH HER!" I yelled at Bayzer. I don't think she would ever understand what happened.
She wouldn't listen to it anymore. She left.
I walked back downstairs. Bailey was still standing there.
"I think you should go," I said to her looking at my feet. She got up and left.
I had cheated on Chadd before, I know that. But now that she was gone I didn't want to be with anyone else at all.
