Alice In Wonderland, chapter 6
I opened my eyes and found myself lying on my bed in my room. How the hell did I get there? I dunno. I scratched my head sleepily as I got up and dragging my feet behind me I managed to get myself downstairs. I yawned then opened the fridge door and got out ingredients to make two cheese toasties. When I closed the door and turned around I found my mum standing there. How long has she been there for, just watching me? She didn't say anything.
"Yes?" I asked her pushing past her to the table. I dropped the stuff then turned around to look at her. She gave me a look as if to say I should know what she was talking about. "What?" I repeated more irritated now, as she wouldn't tell me. She crossed her arms.
"Your telling me you don't remember?"
"Remember what?"
"I'm not surprised actually because of the state you were in."
I was interested now.
"What state? What are you talking about?"
She flung her arms up in the air like you do in charades when the person doesn't get it.
"You got dragged in by two of your classmates at 5 o'clock in the morning who told me you had smoked a little bit too much of marijuana! Your hair was a mess, you had been crying and vomiting! Thinking about it now I'm not so surprised you don't remember!" she screamed at me. "What is the matter with you?"
I felt tears build up and a lump had gotten stuck in my throat.
She continued shouting at me.
"What would have happened if it had been the police dragging you back home, hey? Your not responsible enough Alice! I can't trust you anymore. Your brother would never have done anything like this he..."
I interrupted her in rage and confusion.
"I'm not my brother mum! Why do you always have to bring him up? What's your fucking problem? It's not my fault you're too fucking depressed to keep track of me. I wouldn't have done it if you had at least cared about me when Pete and me were younger! He was the only one you ever cared about. Never me. I'm upset he's not here either but your gonna have to accept it. He's never going to come back and no can replace him. Not even me!"
"I'm not asking you to replace him! I'm asking you to be more responsible!"
We were both crying by now. I sat down on the chair to steady myself. I put my head in my hands and sobbed quietly. My mum wiped her tears then bent down to my level and whispered to me.
"I'm sorry sweetie. I shouldn't have snapped at you like that. Just know I love you. The reason I got so upset is because I was worried about you. And i love just as much as I love Pete. I always have."
She pushed my chin up to look at me.
"All right?"
I nodded then put my arms around her neck and hugged her tight.
"Now since when did you know how to cook?" she asked me jokingly. I laughed wiping my tears.
"Sorry mum."
She smiled at me.
"It's all right. Just promise me you'll never do it again."
"Okay."
"Yes?" I asked her pushing past her to the table. I dropped the stuff then turned around to look at her. She gave me a look as if to say I should know what she was talking about. "What?" I repeated more irritated now, as she wouldn't tell me. She crossed her arms.
"Your telling me you don't remember?"
"Remember what?"
"I'm not surprised actually because of the state you were in."
I was interested now.
"What state? What are you talking about?"
She flung her arms up in the air like you do in charades when the person doesn't get it.
"You got dragged in by two of your classmates at 5 o'clock in the morning who told me you had smoked a little bit too much of marijuana! Your hair was a mess, you had been crying and vomiting! Thinking about it now I'm not so surprised you don't remember!" she screamed at me. "What is the matter with you?"
I felt tears build up and a lump had gotten stuck in my throat.
She continued shouting at me.
"What would have happened if it had been the police dragging you back home, hey? Your not responsible enough Alice! I can't trust you anymore. Your brother would never have done anything like this he..."
I interrupted her in rage and confusion.
"I'm not my brother mum! Why do you always have to bring him up? What's your fucking problem? It's not my fault you're too fucking depressed to keep track of me. I wouldn't have done it if you had at least cared about me when Pete and me were younger! He was the only one you ever cared about. Never me. I'm upset he's not here either but your gonna have to accept it. He's never going to come back and no can replace him. Not even me!"
"I'm not asking you to replace him! I'm asking you to be more responsible!"
We were both crying by now. I sat down on the chair to steady myself. I put my head in my hands and sobbed quietly. My mum wiped her tears then bent down to my level and whispered to me.
"I'm sorry sweetie. I shouldn't have snapped at you like that. Just know I love you. The reason I got so upset is because I was worried about you. And i love just as much as I love Pete. I always have."
She pushed my chin up to look at me.
"All right?"
I nodded then put my arms around her neck and hugged her tight.
"Now since when did you know how to cook?" she asked me jokingly. I laughed wiping my tears.
"Sorry mum."
She smiled at me.
"It's all right. Just promise me you'll never do it again."
"Okay."
