Westbound Sign, chapter 1
Boxed up all of her favourite things.
"Look, Mom, I'm going!" I threw more of my shit into a bag. "I love him, Mom, I really do!"
She threw me a look.
Sold the rest in a rainy yard sale.
"And I can't keep all this shit," I glared at a plastic duck.
"But, darling, you've had that since you were three!" She looked lovingly at it.
"I didn't use it then, I'm not gonna now," I told her.
Big plans and leaving friends and a west bound sign.
A car honked from outside.
"Bye, Mom." I went outside.
"Darling..." She followed me.
Weighed out her choices on a scale.
"Mom." I turned around towards her. "If I stay here, I'll always be here."
She sighed. "Goodbye, Adie." She gave me a hug and a kiss.
Prevailing nothing made sense.
I was confused, I'll admit to that. I wanted to go, to get a life. But I'd miss my friends and my family.
Just transportation and a blank decision...she's taking off.
"Billie, I'm driving," I told him. He grinned and let me have the wheel. I turned the keys and sped out of town.
No time, No copping out. She's burning daylight and petrol.
The darkness of night bled into the day's light.
"Are you okay?" I knew Billie was worried I didn't want to go with him.
"Yeah." I smiled at him.
Blacked out the rear view mirror, heading westwards on.
I glanced at the rear view mirror, turning west towards my new life.
Strung out on confusion road.
I had the urge to just turn around, go back. And I really wanted to go forward. I was torn apart, but when I looked at Billie, he gave me the strength to keep going.
And ten minute nervous break downs,
"Billie." I looked nervous. "I miss them already. And what if- what if-"
"You can call them and visit them. What if- nothing." He smiled. "Wanna let me take the wheel?"
I nodded and we switched.
Xanex a beer for thought.
Billie checked in a bag, one hand on the wheel.
"Here." He handed me a beer, "Drink up."
And she is determined...
I looked at the road ahead, calmed myself down. I was with Billie, that's what mattered.
She's taking off...
The car sped down, towards Oaklands.
"I love you," Billie said suddenly.
"I love you too." A slow smile crept across my face.
Is it salvation? Or an escape from discontent?
I glanced at Billie. I hoped we didn't have big fights. I hope he doesn't get wasted and mean...like Dad does.
Will she find her name in the Californian cement?
I had applied for a job and I really hoped I'd get it. Oaklands was my new home and I wanted to do well.
Punching out the grind that punched her too many times...Is tragedy 2000 miles away?
As we got farther, I began to worry more. Would I make friends? Would people like me? Would Billie get sick of me?
'Oh God' I thought.
She's taking off...
'Stop it. Stop this insane worrying!' I thought.
I wanted to be with Billie. I wanted that more then anything. So no turning back.
"Look, Mom, I'm going!" I threw more of my shit into a bag. "I love him, Mom, I really do!"
She threw me a look.
Sold the rest in a rainy yard sale.
"And I can't keep all this shit," I glared at a plastic duck.
"But, darling, you've had that since you were three!" She looked lovingly at it.
"I didn't use it then, I'm not gonna now," I told her.
Big plans and leaving friends and a west bound sign.
A car honked from outside.
"Bye, Mom." I went outside.
"Darling..." She followed me.
Weighed out her choices on a scale.
"Mom." I turned around towards her. "If I stay here, I'll always be here."
She sighed. "Goodbye, Adie." She gave me a hug and a kiss.
Prevailing nothing made sense.
I was confused, I'll admit to that. I wanted to go, to get a life. But I'd miss my friends and my family.
Just transportation and a blank decision...she's taking off.
"Billie, I'm driving," I told him. He grinned and let me have the wheel. I turned the keys and sped out of town.
No time, No copping out. She's burning daylight and petrol.
The darkness of night bled into the day's light.
"Are you okay?" I knew Billie was worried I didn't want to go with him.
"Yeah." I smiled at him.
Blacked out the rear view mirror, heading westwards on.
I glanced at the rear view mirror, turning west towards my new life.
Strung out on confusion road.
I had the urge to just turn around, go back. And I really wanted to go forward. I was torn apart, but when I looked at Billie, he gave me the strength to keep going.
And ten minute nervous break downs,
"Billie." I looked nervous. "I miss them already. And what if- what if-"
"You can call them and visit them. What if- nothing." He smiled. "Wanna let me take the wheel?"
I nodded and we switched.
Xanex a beer for thought.
Billie checked in a bag, one hand on the wheel.
"Here." He handed me a beer, "Drink up."
And she is determined...
I looked at the road ahead, calmed myself down. I was with Billie, that's what mattered.
She's taking off...
The car sped down, towards Oaklands.
"I love you," Billie said suddenly.
"I love you too." A slow smile crept across my face.
Is it salvation? Or an escape from discontent?
I glanced at Billie. I hoped we didn't have big fights. I hope he doesn't get wasted and mean...like Dad does.
Will she find her name in the Californian cement?
I had applied for a job and I really hoped I'd get it. Oaklands was my new home and I wanted to do well.
Punching out the grind that punched her too many times...Is tragedy 2000 miles away?
As we got farther, I began to worry more. Would I make friends? Would people like me? Would Billie get sick of me?
'Oh God' I thought.
She's taking off...
'Stop it. Stop this insane worrying!' I thought.
I wanted to be with Billie. I wanted that more then anything. So no turning back.
