Now What's Gonna Happen? (sequel to What the Hell...?), chapter 5

"We'll get through this. We aren't going to let anything happen to you. I promise."
"That's not it," I cried. "I love you guys too much. I'm risking your lives just by being here."
"We'll work this out, Kay," Mike said. "We'll protect you guys."
"Dammit, Mike! It's not me I'm worried about!" I yelled, standing up. "It's you guys! You could get killed because of me! I DON'T WANT TO LOSE MY FAMILY AGAIN!" They all went silent, and the only noise in the room was my sobbing.
"Kay, please," Billie Joe sighed, sitting me down. "This is why you need to talk to us. We don't know what goes on inside your head. Nobody here can tell what you're thinking."
"Kay," Crystal said, kneeling in front of me. "Please, we can help. You never came to anyone for help, and maybe you never will, but you can't do this alone. Whether you like it or not, we're here for you, for a reason. You AREN'T alone in this world. We're in this together. All of us."
"I know, Crystal, I know, but," I said, "I don't want to lose my family again."
"You won't," Billie Joe said. Everyone nodded, even Tre and Laury.
"How can you promise that?" I hissed. "My parents said the same thing the DAY THEY DIED. They said they wouldn't die till they were old people. And look what happened to them. Who knows the same thing won't happen to you?"

BILLIE JOE'S POV
I wish she wouldn't hurt like this. And make so much sense at the same time. I looked her in the eye, and I saw nearly every emotion: sadness, bravery, fear, hatred, kindness, you name it, you could see it in her eyes.
"Kay, please," I said, kneeling next to Crystal and taking Kay's hand. "We can protect ourselves. We took this upon ourselves when we adopted you. Jake has the same imagination. He said you might act like this. So did that wrinkly old fag at the adoption agency." Finally, she laughed. I smiled a little. "See? It's not completely hopeless. We've survived so far, and nothing's going to take you away from us. I can promise that."
She looked right down into my eyes and jumped on to me.
"I'm so sorry," she cried. I just held her. "But I'm so scared. I don't want to lose you guys. You're my family."
"Calm down, Kay, everything's going to be alright. No one's going to hurt you anymore."



Kay finally settled down and we all got some sleep.
"Billie?" Adie asked.
"Yeah?"
"Should we take to her to a psychiatrist or therapist? She might need it, especially after what all's happened. And now with Jimmie, too."
"That might be a good idea, but let's talk to her about it tomorrow. Too much has already gone on tonight."
"Good point. Goodnight."
"Night."

NEXT MORNING; KAY'S POV
Jeez, last night was a terror. What time is it? What the hell? It's only 8? Okay, this is unusual. Oh well. Might as well get up. I went down the hall to see if anyone else was up. I peeked into Jake's and Joey's rooms, they're both asleep. I very quietly looked in the guest room where Crystal was staying, and no one was there. Then I looked in Billie's and Adie's room and saw Billie was up, which is unusual as well.
"You're up too?" I said, opening the door a little and sticking my head in.
"Yeah, and that's really weird," Billie replied, scratching his head. "Would you mind cooking something?"
"Sure. Just let me get dressed in case Mike or Tre burst in the door unexpectedly."

I went back into my room and went to my closet. I picked my black jeans with black rhinestones on them, and a shirt that said 'Dark Angel', which is exactly how I felt today. I walked back out to Billie's room and poked my head in. "What do you want to eat?"
"Mmm...pancakes," Billie answered, after thinking for a minute. I went downstairs to get my materials and saw Mike, Nick, and Tre standing there, looking upset.
"Okay, something is definitely going on," I said, and they looked over to me. Mike motioned for me to go outside and Nick came out right behind me. "No..." I shook my head harshly. "No, this isn't happening. I'm dreaming. This is a nightmare." Nick grabbed me and just held on to me while I stood shaking. "Who am I kidding? My LIFE is an effing nightmare in a living hell."

BILLIE JOE'S POV
Mike came up running. "Billie, you better come here," he panted. Worried, I ran out behind him.
"What's wrong?" I asked. Mike shook his head. We stopped right before we hit the patio and I stopped dead in my tracks. "Crystal..." I quickly looked over to Kay, and she was clinging to Nick. Oh god, not now. "Kay..." She saw me standing there and grabbed hold of me. "Kay, oh god, Kay... "

KAY'S POV
Why does this always happen to me? It's not fair.
"W-why? Wh-what did I-did I ever do... what did I ever do to deserve this?" I stammered.
"Shh, it's okay," Billie Joe muttered, running his hand through my hair.
"No, it's not, dammit!"
"I know, I know, believe me, I know. I'm trying to calm you down."
I was silent for a minute, tears streaming down my face. I let Billie go, and went up to my room. Estelle came in a few moments later.
"Kay... ?" she whispered. "Oh my god, Kay! STOP!!!"

ESTELLE'S POV
"Kay, what are you doing!? PUT THAT DOWN!" I ran over and tried to pull her arm down, but she's a lot stronger than me. "DADDY!! BILLIE!! HELP!!"

MIKE'S POV
"DADDY! BILLIE! HELP!" I heard Estelle scream. I went running, Billie Joe right on my heels.
"What's wrong, Stella!?" I yelled, running into Kay's room, where Stella was trying to pull Kay's arm down away from her head. "KAY! PUT THAT GUN DOWN!" I lunged, and managed to punch the BB gun out of Kay's grasp. "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU THINKING!?"
Kay went into hysterics. "Kay, please, what's going on?" Billie Joe said, putting his hands on Kay's shoulders.
"What's happening?" Adrienne said, running in.
"Dad?" Jake said, coming in right after, followed by Joey, Tre, and Nick. "What's wrong?"

KAY'S POV
I couldn't say anything, I was crying hysterically, and I couldn't stop.
"Kay, please, talk to me, baby," Billie Joe said. "Tell me what's going on."
"Isn't it obvious!?" Mike yelled, which only made me cry harder. "She was holding a GUN to her head, Bill! A GUN!"
"WHAT!?" Adrienne cried, white as a ghost. "Oh my god, Kay, sweetie, why?" She came down to my level. I didn't stop crying. I just hugged myself and continued crying. "It's okay, everything will be alright."
"No. It's not okay. Nothing will ever be alright again," I muttered, crying and shaking my head. "I'm psychotic. I'm becoming suicidal, if you never noticed before. I honestly think I'm going mental."
"You're not, Kay, stop thinking that," Billie Joe said. Tre had now come down to my level, too.
"If anyone here's psychotic, it's me, Kay, not you," Tre said, trying to get me to smile.
"I have issues, Tre, not like yours," I said, shutting my eyes. "You're just hyper. I honestly think I'm not mentally sane." I pulled something out of my back pocket and stared hard at the box.
"Kay? What's that?" Adie said, worry in her voice. I opened it, unscathed it, and shoved it through my left wrist... I don't remember anything after that.

BILLIE JOE'S POV
"KAY!" I cried, catching her as she collapsed. "KAY! ANSWER ME!"
"A dagger... " I heard Adie mutter. "She has a dagger... "
"I DON'T CARE! CALL AN AMBULANCE! NOW!" I screamed at the top of my lungs. Mike ran to Kay's phone and called an ambulance, telling them everything that had happened.
"They'll be here in five," Mike said, hanging up the phone.

I lifted Kay up and went outside to wait. They actually got there in two minutes, and me, Adie, and Estelle went in the back with her. The rest took Mike's truck. Estelle was clinging to Kay's hand that didn't have a dagger in it, sobbing, and me and Adie were holding each other, tears streaming down our faces. We were at the hospital a minute later, and they ran full speed with Kay. I ran alongside until they reached the operation room. Her face was paste white, and mine probably was too. I was praying she wouldn't die from blood loss. I also didn't think she'd ever be able to play guitar again. That would tear her apart.
"Billie, come over here," Mike said, grabbing my shoulder and steering me to the waiting room. "You need to fill out some papers for Kay, and then we wait."

An hour or two later, one of the doctors came out. "Mr. and Mrs. Armstrong?"
"Yes?" I yelped, jumping up.
"Kay's going to be fine, but..." the doctor sighed.
"But what?"
"She'll never be able to use her left hand again. She shattered her bones when the dagger went through her wrist."
"Oh god," I said, collapsing on the bench and putting my hands over my face. "That's horrible... "
"It could have been much worse. Kay could've cut her artery clean in half and we'd have had to amputate her hand from the wrist down because of blood loss. Thank god she missed."
"Her dream...it's shattered..." I muttered. Adie hugged me, knowing how close I was to Kay and how much this was crushing me. "She's going to be devastated."
"You can go in and see her," the doctor said. "She just woke up."
I slowly walked in. Kay had her head down. "Kay?" She didn't look up. "Kay? Are you alright?"

KAY'S POV
I stayed silent, and continued staring at my left wrist.
"Kay? Please say or do something," Billie Joe said. I looked up, but I showed no emotion. I was devastated. "Do you...know?"
"Yeah. There goes my life," I muttered, looking back down. I began to shake and cry again. Billie tried to hug me, but I just shook my head. "Please...can I just be alone?"

He nodded and walked out of the room, but not before sadly looking back. I sat and cried, remembering the promises I'd made to my family when they were still alive. Then I went and destroyed them. It's my entire fault.
"It's my fault," I said, rather loudly. "It's ALL my fault. Because of me my family was killed. It was my fault my dreams are shattered. What do I even have left in life?"

BILLIE JOE'S POV
"It's my fault," I heard Kay cry. "It's all my fault. Because of me my family was killed. It was my fault my dreams are shattered. What do I even have left in life?" God, it killed me to see her like this.
"Adie..." I said, sitting back down. "What are we going to do? Kay's going to wind up depressed and might try to kill herself again... "
"Billie Joe Armstrong, stop thinking that," Adie said, moving his head to face hers. "Kay'll pull through. She's stronger than that."
"I hope you're right. This girl's going to kill us all if she keeps this up." I saw someone move into Kay's room, and it didn't look like a nurse or doctor. I got up and went to see who it was. "Hey! What're you doing!?" I yelled, tackling the guy to the ground.
"Dammit, dude!" he yelled. "Ain't I allowed to see my cousin!?"
"Say what?"
"I'm her cousin David!"
"Stop...yelling...PLEASE. I'm hurting enough," Kay muttered, stirring slightly.

KAY'S POV
"Jeez, why the racket?" I asked, opening my eyes against the bright light.
"This guy says he's your cousin," Billie Joe said, standing up. "David. Ring a bell?"
"Crystal and Sarah's brother?" I said. I hadn't seen him seen I was an infant.
"Yep," David said. "Long time no see, Catherine."
"Do not, DO NOT call me that," I glared. "My name's Kay, not Catherine."
"You know your full name. I shouldn't need to say it," David smirked.
"What's your full name?" Billie Joe asked.
"You never told him?" David said, his eyebrows going up. "Wow. I knew you hated your full name, but this is taking it to the extreme a bit."
"Whatever," I sighed. "My full name happens to be Catherine Marie Humphries. Happy now?"
"Why would you hate that name?" Billie asked. "It's cute."
"I HATE it, so don't ever, EVER, call me that. PLEASE," I pleaded.
"Sure thing, CATHERINE," Billie laughed. I glared at him. "I'm kidding, I'm kidding, relax."
"Scarily enough, you haven't changed since you were a baby. You always looked so serious. Same as your mother," David laughed.
I went eerily quiet. I don't like people comparing me to my mom, especially after she died.
"Did I say something wrong?" David asked. Billie Joe sighed and took him out of the room, I'm guessing to tell him why. And I was depressed, so I started to sing. I always sang when I was depressed. It always helped.

"Prison gates won't open up for me
On these hands and knees I'm crawling
Oh, I reach for you

Well I'm terrified of these four walls
These iron bars can't hold my soul in
All I need is you
Come please I'm calling
And oh I scream for you
Hurry I'm falling
I'm falling

Show me what it's like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I'll show you what I can be
And say it for me
Say it to me
And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth savin' me

Heaven's gates won't open up for me
With these broken wings I'm falling
And all I see is you

These city walls ain't got no love for me
I'm on the ledge of the eighteenth story
And oh I scream for you
Come please I'm calling
And all I need from you
Hurry I'm falling
I'm falling

Show me what it's like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I'll show you what I can be
And say it for me
Say it to me
And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth savin' me
Hurry I'm falling

Yeah, yeah-hey

And all I need is you
Come please I'm calling
And oh I scream for you
Hurry I'm falling
I'm falling
I'm falling

Show me what it's like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I'll show you what I can be
And say it for me
Say it to me
And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth savin' me
Hurry I'm falling

And say it for me
Say it to me
And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth savin' me."