Bam and Me, chapter 5
The game just wasn't the same for me after that kiss, my eyes kept wandering over to where Bam was and I swear it was the same for him. I couldn't stop thinking about how much I wanted him! It was like an obsession and I had to have it.
"Guys, I'm tired, I'm going to bed," I said and got up.
"Oh yeah I bet you are, going to go and masturbate over Bam now eh?" Raab laughed, I flicked Raab in the ear.
"No, I'm going to sleep like normal people do, goodnight" I waved goodbye to everyone and climbed the stairs where my room was. Bam's house was my home away from home and I had my own room here seeing as I stayed over so much. I stripped off to my bra and knickers and got into bed and flicked off the light. I could hear the boys laughing and junk downstairs but it wasn't enough to annoy me. I heard footsteps outside my door and it opened.
"Who is it?" I asked, I could only see a silhouette.
"Bam," Bam's voice came from the dark outline.
"Hey, what's up," I asked and lay back down on my pillow.
"Other than my hard on? Nothing, I just thought you'd like some company," he said and sat on my bed.
"Hahaha, that was pretty funny, you weren't that turned on were you?" I asked, he shrugged.
"Maybe, you're a good looking girl and when a good looking girl licks you like that you can't help feeling a little randy"
"A good looking girl? Well you need your eyes tested" I grinned and sat up in my bed, making sure Bam couldn't see my bra.
"You are, well I think you are anyway...so what do you have on under that sheet?" he asked cheekily and moved closer.
"Not alot really, a bra and knickers"
"Ooo, can I see?" Bam asked and tried to peek under the sheets.
"No!" I laughed.
"Come on, give me three good reasons why not."
"Ok 1. Your my best friend, 2. We are both drunk, and 3. I don't think I could control myself."
"Fair enough," Bam said. There was an awkward silence.
"Why don't you think you could control yourself if you showed me what your wearing under there?" Bam asked.
"Well it's not that it's just I don't want anything to get too out of control and ruin our friendship."
Bam crawled over the bed and lent over me, his legs either side of me. He lent down and kissed me.
"It wont" he whispered and kissed me again, slipping his tongue in this time. I started to undo his belt buckle and he tugged his pants and boxers off and I pulled his top off as he unhooked my bra and slipped my knickers off. It was the most amazing sex I have ever experienced, it was as if Bam and I had been doing it our whole lives and knew just what turned each other on.
The next morning I woke up as the sunlight poured into my room and warmed my face. I felt an arm creep over my midriff and found Bam sleeping peacfully next to me, I looked under the sheets and realised neither of us were wearing anything. Everything we had done last night suddenly came back to me and I got up and put some clothes on. Ryan was out on the deck and trying to get a tan.
"Soooo, how'd it go with Bam last night?" he asked. I sat down and started crying.
"Oh no Ryan! I've ruined everything!" I sobbed.
"Aw no you haven't"
"Yes I have! You can't have sex with your best friend and expect it to be all normal after!"
Ryan put a hand on my shoulder, "Bam isn't like that, you've known him for longer than any of us"
"Yea but thats what makes it worse!" I cried.
"Woah, what with you darling?" April asked.
"Nothing Mrs. M, she's just a little unsure," Ryan said for me.
"Well nothing doesn't make you cry like that," April said.
"It's not important Ape" I sniffed, getting myself together and drying my eyes. I went to the bathroom and cleaned up my face, reapplied eyeliner and went back out and tried to forget my little episode. Bam was outside when I got there and he smiled at me when I appeared.
"Hey babe, hows your head? Got a hangover?" he asked, I shook my head.
"I think we need to talk," I said.
"Yea I think we do too," he agreed and we went back to my room. I closed my door and I was about to tell him that I don't think we should speak of this ever again because I didn't want to ruin our lives.
"I love you Stella Keidis," Bam said when I turned around.
"What?"
"I love you," he repeated.
"Uhh, are you sure? You might think you do after last night but."
"No, I've loved you for my whole life, when I met you at kindergarten when we were 3 I said to myself that I was going to marry you someday and have a life with you, everytime I made fun of you or hurt you when we were younger was only because I liked you" he told me. I was dumbstruck, I mean, I love him too but I'm not sure if I'm ready to say it yet.
"I don't know what to say Bam," I finally said.
"Say you love me too and that we can be together, please," he pleaded and moved towards me. I wanted to say yes but something was telling me no.
"I-I-I-I can't I'm sorry," I said quickly and ran out of his house, got in my car and sped off home.
"Guys, I'm tired, I'm going to bed," I said and got up.
"Oh yeah I bet you are, going to go and masturbate over Bam now eh?" Raab laughed, I flicked Raab in the ear.
"No, I'm going to sleep like normal people do, goodnight" I waved goodbye to everyone and climbed the stairs where my room was. Bam's house was my home away from home and I had my own room here seeing as I stayed over so much. I stripped off to my bra and knickers and got into bed and flicked off the light. I could hear the boys laughing and junk downstairs but it wasn't enough to annoy me. I heard footsteps outside my door and it opened.
"Who is it?" I asked, I could only see a silhouette.
"Bam," Bam's voice came from the dark outline.
"Hey, what's up," I asked and lay back down on my pillow.
"Other than my hard on? Nothing, I just thought you'd like some company," he said and sat on my bed.
"Hahaha, that was pretty funny, you weren't that turned on were you?" I asked, he shrugged.
"Maybe, you're a good looking girl and when a good looking girl licks you like that you can't help feeling a little randy"
"A good looking girl? Well you need your eyes tested" I grinned and sat up in my bed, making sure Bam couldn't see my bra.
"You are, well I think you are anyway...so what do you have on under that sheet?" he asked cheekily and moved closer.
"Not alot really, a bra and knickers"
"Ooo, can I see?" Bam asked and tried to peek under the sheets.
"No!" I laughed.
"Come on, give me three good reasons why not."
"Ok 1. Your my best friend, 2. We are both drunk, and 3. I don't think I could control myself."
"Fair enough," Bam said. There was an awkward silence.
"Why don't you think you could control yourself if you showed me what your wearing under there?" Bam asked.
"Well it's not that it's just I don't want anything to get too out of control and ruin our friendship."
Bam crawled over the bed and lent over me, his legs either side of me. He lent down and kissed me.
"It wont" he whispered and kissed me again, slipping his tongue in this time. I started to undo his belt buckle and he tugged his pants and boxers off and I pulled his top off as he unhooked my bra and slipped my knickers off. It was the most amazing sex I have ever experienced, it was as if Bam and I had been doing it our whole lives and knew just what turned each other on.
The next morning I woke up as the sunlight poured into my room and warmed my face. I felt an arm creep over my midriff and found Bam sleeping peacfully next to me, I looked under the sheets and realised neither of us were wearing anything. Everything we had done last night suddenly came back to me and I got up and put some clothes on. Ryan was out on the deck and trying to get a tan.
"Soooo, how'd it go with Bam last night?" he asked. I sat down and started crying.
"Oh no Ryan! I've ruined everything!" I sobbed.
"Aw no you haven't"
"Yes I have! You can't have sex with your best friend and expect it to be all normal after!"
Ryan put a hand on my shoulder, "Bam isn't like that, you've known him for longer than any of us"
"Yea but thats what makes it worse!" I cried.
"Woah, what with you darling?" April asked.
"Nothing Mrs. M, she's just a little unsure," Ryan said for me.
"Well nothing doesn't make you cry like that," April said.
"It's not important Ape" I sniffed, getting myself together and drying my eyes. I went to the bathroom and cleaned up my face, reapplied eyeliner and went back out and tried to forget my little episode. Bam was outside when I got there and he smiled at me when I appeared.
"Hey babe, hows your head? Got a hangover?" he asked, I shook my head.
"I think we need to talk," I said.
"Yea I think we do too," he agreed and we went back to my room. I closed my door and I was about to tell him that I don't think we should speak of this ever again because I didn't want to ruin our lives.
"I love you Stella Keidis," Bam said when I turned around.
"What?"
"I love you," he repeated.
"Uhh, are you sure? You might think you do after last night but."
"No, I've loved you for my whole life, when I met you at kindergarten when we were 3 I said to myself that I was going to marry you someday and have a life with you, everytime I made fun of you or hurt you when we were younger was only because I liked you" he told me. I was dumbstruck, I mean, I love him too but I'm not sure if I'm ready to say it yet.
"I don't know what to say Bam," I finally said.
"Say you love me too and that we can be together, please," he pleaded and moved towards me. I wanted to say yes but something was telling me no.
"I-I-I-I can't I'm sorry," I said quickly and ran out of his house, got in my car and sped off home.
