Doughnut Sprinkles, chapter 4
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As I went to the door Mike grabbed my arm.
"Where are you going dressed like that" He asked with disgust In his voice.
"I"m going shopping, so let go" I said as I jerked my arm away from him and walked out the door.
"Well if you get raped don't come crying to me!" I heard him yell. yeah like that has not happened I thought as I walked the long walk to the mall, getting odd looks from passerby's on the way but I really didn't care all that much. I was really depressed. I still could not believe that Jason did not believe me. I finally reached the mall and the first place I went to was Hot Topic. I bought shirts, cool looking dresses, baggy pants, plaid miniskirts, belts, wrist bands, boots, shoe's, and some jewelry. Then I walked to the tattoo parlor. For my age I look nineteen, but I'm really sixteen. I walked over to the guy behind the counter.
"How may I be of service to you?" The guy behind the counter said.
"I would like a three tattoo's and my nose pierced." he nodded and brought me to a chair.
***
I finally got my tattoo's and my nose pierced. I got some weird/cool design on my lower back, red and black stars all down my arms ( just like Billie's except cooler), and a black cross on the side of my neck.
I then decided to got to the hair salon to get my hair dyed bright red. I looked at my clock and it said 2:30 pm. So I decided to go home.
***
I walked inside my house and saw everybody, except Jason and Joey, in the livingroom.
"So decide on a new look , I see," dad said slightly amused.
"Wow you've decided to get you head out of Claudia's and everybody else's ass to notice your daughter, I feel so loved." I said sarcastically.
"Shut up you little bitch, YOU CANT TALK TO ME, MY WIFE, OR MY FRIENDS LIKE THAT. I'M YOUR FUCKING DAD. NOW GO TO YOUR FUCKING ROOM!" my dad screamed.
"YOU ARE NOT MY DAD! YOU HAVE TO EARN THAT TITLE BY ACTING LIKE A DAD! To me you are the person who helped my mom make me, which means you are my father not dad. Now I am going to my fucking ROOM to get away from you, Frank." I turned around and walked up the stairs as I was walking up the stairs I heard Billie say something about Jason having a new girlfriend. Which made me start to cry. I ran up the stairs crying really hard. I ran into my bathroom and walked over to my medicine cabinet where I saw my all time favorite friend. The razor. I got it out and brought it to my already scared arms and cut deep. Deeper than I have ever cut before. I got a rag and put it on my arm to clean up the blood. It was soon cleaned and I hid the rag so no one will see it. I soon went downstairs and saw two people I didn't want to see.
"Here's your card back Frank, I'm going to go to the fucking park if any of you fucking care." I said walking out of the door.
Tre's POV
"Guys something's really wrong with her and I don't know what. Does she look skinnier to you? She looks more pale than she did last night. I am scared that she is going to do something really stupid. Why do I have to have a screwed up child." I said putting my head in my hands.
"Off the subject of that kid I call my daughter, Jason how's the new girlfriend?" I asked in my purvey way.
"Umm actually not good. We broke up." He said in I-really-didn't-like-her much look on his face.
"Oh they'll be more."
END OF TRE'S POV
Justace's POV
I finally got to the park. I saw a big tree in the middle of the park, so I decided to go and sit; to clear my head of all the things that happened in the past month. I saw this group of teenagers being stupid and probably getting high. One of the girls saw me and walked over to me. She sat next to me.
"You look like you had a bad day."she said
"I have actually had a bad life."
"Well I got something to take all your troubles away. Do you want some?" she said as she handed took out a white pill.
"What is it?"
"E" I looked at it. I hesitated before taking it with the girls beer. She got up and left me there. About fifteen minutes I started to feel the affect of the drug I just took. I felt so lifty. Then out of nowhere I started laughing uncontrollably. I tried to get up a couple of times but failed. I tried one more time and got up. I started walking back to my house, but I got lost a couple of times. Soon it was dark. WOW! It's so amazing how the sun just disappears. Look there's little specks in the bluish black sky! I just kept walking down the street, that I think is the street to my house. Then I saw a familiar black BMW coming my way. Then it stopped all of a sudden.
"Justace get in NOW!" I heard that voice somewhere. I started to laugh for some reason.
"Justace get over here." I heard that girlish man voice somewhere, but where I have no idea. I then heard the car door open and slam shut. I was still laughing uncontrollably.
"Justace why are your eyes blood shot? Are you....are you high?" he asked.
"I don't know am I" I started laughing more. Then all of a sudden I stopped laughing because my head started to hurt really bad, like someone was taking a hammer and beating my head with it. I felt like I was going to pass out.
"Billie?" I said before everything went black.
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I woke up with a major headache. When I got up I immediately fell back down on my bed. I guess I got up to quickly. I waited a few minutes and then got up. I was on my way downstairs when I was stopped by Frank.
"What the hell were you thinking Justace Lee? HUH? What did you take?" he asked angrily. I just rolled my eye and walked past him, but he grabbed my arm tightly.
"ANSWER ME!"
"WHY DO YOU CARE FRANK? You never cared about me before." I said crying. I
quickly wiped them away. I then walked past him and went to the kitchen to get some aspirin and a glass of water. I walked over to the table with my glass of water and sat down. Right when I sat down I heard footsteps. I looked up and saw Jason at the doorway, staring at me. I looked down, because I don't want to deal with him right now. After a couple of minutes I looked back at him and he was still staring at me. "What," I asked kind of annoyed at him staring at me.
"Why?" was all he could say.
"Why what" I retorted.
"Never mind" he said and left. I sighed.
"See no one cares about you. When you went to the park Tre got worried for like 2 seconds and then he changed the subject about Jason's girlfriend. No one loves you they only ask you questions because there are so nosy. So like the next time I rape you no one would even care." Joey said out of nowhere. He started chuckling.
"GO AWAY YOU STUPID FUCK!! You nothing but a rapist and abuser."
I said with rage in hate. He walked away, but before he left he turned around and said "oh and by the way you were good, if I say so for myself." he gave me a smile and then left. OH my God I can not believe he just said that. I started to cry. I quickly wiped away my tears because I did not want to cry. I'm sick of fucking crying. I got up and put my glass away and then walk up stairs to my bathroom. I grabbed my razor from my medicine kit. I looked at it for a few minutes. Just staring at it. Wondering if this little piece of metal can end my life forever. I brought the razor to my wrist and cut deeply multiple times. Blood was gushing out of my wrist. Then I started to feel lightheaded. Then everything went black.
Jason's POV
I have to go to apologize to Justace. I heard what Joey said and I cant believe that I did not believe her. I walked upstairs and ran to Justace's room. I knocked on the door but no one answered.
"Justace?" nothing. I opened the door, but she was not in there. I then walked to the bathroom and saw something I did not want to see. I saw Justace on the floor in a puddle of her own blood. I ran over to her.
"Justace, please wke up. I love you, please wake up. Oh my God. TRE!!!!" I was crying .
didn't want her to leave I love her so much.
"TRE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
"What?" he said walking in the bathroom. He stood there frozen.
"Wha-"
"Call an ambulance" I said cutting him off. He didn't move/
"TRE!" he snapped out of his daze and ran to call an ambiance. I looked around the bathroom to try to fine some towels. I saw one and got it but it already had blood on it.
"Oh God, Justace." I put ut on her arm and held pressure on her wrists.
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry" I said crying. Why did she do this? Why? I started to cry even more harder. I rocked her back and forth. Then I heard sirens. I picked up Justace's limp body and ran down stairs. The paramedics came in and put Justace on the rolling bed thingy and put her in the back. Me and Tre got in the back with justace and we were off to the hospital. Me holding her good hand all the way.
Justace POV
I woke up with my right arm feeling heavy.
"She's awake!" I heard some one yell. Which hurt my head. I lifted my head up to see everyone except Joey in the room.
"Oh Justace how are you feeling?" Adie asked.
"Why do any of you care. You never cared before. You people are such hypocrites. I don't know what ya'll just didn't let me die. It would be more peaseful in hell than here." I said looking down at my bandaged arm. I was also crying. No one said anything because they knew she was telling the truth. They knew that they've been neglecting, well neglecting isn't the word, not evan considering her existence, and thats what made them feel bad.
"Jason.......hold me, please?" he walked over to me and sat down on the next to me nd held me close.
"Justace, I love you." Jason whispered.
"I love you too," I whispered back.
"Do you believe me about Joey?" I whispered. He nodded.
"You need to tell them."
"I can't, I just can't"
"Yes you can, tell them." he whispered to me. I nodded and lift my tear stained face and faced everyone.
"I got something to tell all of you." everyone averted there attention to me.
"When ya'll were out that one night and left Joey and me alone. He....he....raped me." I said putting my face back into Jason's chest. Everyone looked at Jason to see if it was true. he nodded. I heard Adie start crying and the doors open and slam shut. I looked up and saw only Adie, Brittany, and Jake. I sat my head ack on Jason's chest and let his the soothing sound of Jason's heartbeat put me to a comfortable sleep.
A very enraged Tre's POV
MY FUCKING DAUGHTER WAS RAPED AND BY FUCKING JOSEPH ARMSTRONG! I knew he hated her, but not this bad. What she did say about us was true. She was trying to kill herself because of me and everybody else, but mostly me. My thoughts were interrupted by us stopping in front of Billie's house. I quickly got out of the car and ran into his house. I ran up the stairs and burst through Joeys room.
"YOU SICK FUCK! WHY DID YOU DO THAT TO HER!!" I yelled as I punched him, which resulted him falling on the floor. I got on top of him and punched him continuously.
"She almost died because of you" I said still punching him until Mike came in and got me off of him.
"Oh Tre that's where your wrong. Sure I take some responsibility in her suicidal antics, but she nearly killed herself because of you more than any of us." He said getting up. He walked in front of me.
"Your daughter was good to" he said in my ear. I struggled to get out of Mike's grasp. He obviously did not hear him because if he did he would have let me go immediately. I then saw Billie come in with two cops and said,
"I'm sorry......Joseph."
"Where are you going dressed like that" He asked with disgust In his voice.
"I"m going shopping, so let go" I said as I jerked my arm away from him and walked out the door.
"Well if you get raped don't come crying to me!" I heard him yell. yeah like that has not happened I thought as I walked the long walk to the mall, getting odd looks from passerby's on the way but I really didn't care all that much. I was really depressed. I still could not believe that Jason did not believe me. I finally reached the mall and the first place I went to was Hot Topic. I bought shirts, cool looking dresses, baggy pants, plaid miniskirts, belts, wrist bands, boots, shoe's, and some jewelry. Then I walked to the tattoo parlor. For my age I look nineteen, but I'm really sixteen. I walked over to the guy behind the counter.
"How may I be of service to you?" The guy behind the counter said.
"I would like a three tattoo's and my nose pierced." he nodded and brought me to a chair.
***
I finally got my tattoo's and my nose pierced. I got some weird/cool design on my lower back, red and black stars all down my arms ( just like Billie's except cooler), and a black cross on the side of my neck.
I then decided to got to the hair salon to get my hair dyed bright red. I looked at my clock and it said 2:30 pm. So I decided to go home.
***
I walked inside my house and saw everybody, except Jason and Joey, in the livingroom.
"So decide on a new look , I see," dad said slightly amused.
"Wow you've decided to get you head out of Claudia's and everybody else's ass to notice your daughter, I feel so loved." I said sarcastically.
"Shut up you little bitch, YOU CANT TALK TO ME, MY WIFE, OR MY FRIENDS LIKE THAT. I'M YOUR FUCKING DAD. NOW GO TO YOUR FUCKING ROOM!" my dad screamed.
"YOU ARE NOT MY DAD! YOU HAVE TO EARN THAT TITLE BY ACTING LIKE A DAD! To me you are the person who helped my mom make me, which means you are my father not dad. Now I am going to my fucking ROOM to get away from you, Frank." I turned around and walked up the stairs as I was walking up the stairs I heard Billie say something about Jason having a new girlfriend. Which made me start to cry. I ran up the stairs crying really hard. I ran into my bathroom and walked over to my medicine cabinet where I saw my all time favorite friend. The razor. I got it out and brought it to my already scared arms and cut deep. Deeper than I have ever cut before. I got a rag and put it on my arm to clean up the blood. It was soon cleaned and I hid the rag so no one will see it. I soon went downstairs and saw two people I didn't want to see.
"Here's your card back Frank, I'm going to go to the fucking park if any of you fucking care." I said walking out of the door.
Tre's POV
"Guys something's really wrong with her and I don't know what. Does she look skinnier to you? She looks more pale than she did last night. I am scared that she is going to do something really stupid. Why do I have to have a screwed up child." I said putting my head in my hands.
"Off the subject of that kid I call my daughter, Jason how's the new girlfriend?" I asked in my purvey way.
"Umm actually not good. We broke up." He said in I-really-didn't-like-her much look on his face.
"Oh they'll be more."
END OF TRE'S POV
Justace's POV
I finally got to the park. I saw a big tree in the middle of the park, so I decided to go and sit; to clear my head of all the things that happened in the past month. I saw this group of teenagers being stupid and probably getting high. One of the girls saw me and walked over to me. She sat next to me.
"You look like you had a bad day."she said
"I have actually had a bad life."
"Well I got something to take all your troubles away. Do you want some?" she said as she handed took out a white pill.
"What is it?"
"E" I looked at it. I hesitated before taking it with the girls beer. She got up and left me there. About fifteen minutes I started to feel the affect of the drug I just took. I felt so lifty. Then out of nowhere I started laughing uncontrollably. I tried to get up a couple of times but failed. I tried one more time and got up. I started walking back to my house, but I got lost a couple of times. Soon it was dark. WOW! It's so amazing how the sun just disappears. Look there's little specks in the bluish black sky! I just kept walking down the street, that I think is the street to my house. Then I saw a familiar black BMW coming my way. Then it stopped all of a sudden.
"Justace get in NOW!" I heard that voice somewhere. I started to laugh for some reason.
"Justace get over here." I heard that girlish man voice somewhere, but where I have no idea. I then heard the car door open and slam shut. I was still laughing uncontrollably.
"Justace why are your eyes blood shot? Are you....are you high?" he asked.
"I don't know am I" I started laughing more. Then all of a sudden I stopped laughing because my head started to hurt really bad, like someone was taking a hammer and beating my head with it. I felt like I was going to pass out.
"Billie?" I said before everything went black.
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I woke up with a major headache. When I got up I immediately fell back down on my bed. I guess I got up to quickly. I waited a few minutes and then got up. I was on my way downstairs when I was stopped by Frank.
"What the hell were you thinking Justace Lee? HUH? What did you take?" he asked angrily. I just rolled my eye and walked past him, but he grabbed my arm tightly.
"ANSWER ME!"
"WHY DO YOU CARE FRANK? You never cared about me before." I said crying. I
quickly wiped them away. I then walked past him and went to the kitchen to get some aspirin and a glass of water. I walked over to the table with my glass of water and sat down. Right when I sat down I heard footsteps. I looked up and saw Jason at the doorway, staring at me. I looked down, because I don't want to deal with him right now. After a couple of minutes I looked back at him and he was still staring at me. "What," I asked kind of annoyed at him staring at me.
"Why?" was all he could say.
"Why what" I retorted.
"Never mind" he said and left. I sighed.
"See no one cares about you. When you went to the park Tre got worried for like 2 seconds and then he changed the subject about Jason's girlfriend. No one loves you they only ask you questions because there are so nosy. So like the next time I rape you no one would even care." Joey said out of nowhere. He started chuckling.
"GO AWAY YOU STUPID FUCK!! You nothing but a rapist and abuser."
I said with rage in hate. He walked away, but before he left he turned around and said "oh and by the way you were good, if I say so for myself." he gave me a smile and then left. OH my God I can not believe he just said that. I started to cry. I quickly wiped away my tears because I did not want to cry. I'm sick of fucking crying. I got up and put my glass away and then walk up stairs to my bathroom. I grabbed my razor from my medicine kit. I looked at it for a few minutes. Just staring at it. Wondering if this little piece of metal can end my life forever. I brought the razor to my wrist and cut deeply multiple times. Blood was gushing out of my wrist. Then I started to feel lightheaded. Then everything went black.
Jason's POV
I have to go to apologize to Justace. I heard what Joey said and I cant believe that I did not believe her. I walked upstairs and ran to Justace's room. I knocked on the door but no one answered.
"Justace?" nothing. I opened the door, but she was not in there. I then walked to the bathroom and saw something I did not want to see. I saw Justace on the floor in a puddle of her own blood. I ran over to her.
"Justace, please wke up. I love you, please wake up. Oh my God. TRE!!!!" I was crying .
didn't want her to leave I love her so much.
"TRE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
"What?" he said walking in the bathroom. He stood there frozen.
"Wha-"
"Call an ambulance" I said cutting him off. He didn't move/
"TRE!" he snapped out of his daze and ran to call an ambiance. I looked around the bathroom to try to fine some towels. I saw one and got it but it already had blood on it.
"Oh God, Justace." I put ut on her arm and held pressure on her wrists.
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry" I said crying. Why did she do this? Why? I started to cry even more harder. I rocked her back and forth. Then I heard sirens. I picked up Justace's limp body and ran down stairs. The paramedics came in and put Justace on the rolling bed thingy and put her in the back. Me and Tre got in the back with justace and we were off to the hospital. Me holding her good hand all the way.
Justace POV
I woke up with my right arm feeling heavy.
"She's awake!" I heard some one yell. Which hurt my head. I lifted my head up to see everyone except Joey in the room.
"Oh Justace how are you feeling?" Adie asked.
"Why do any of you care. You never cared before. You people are such hypocrites. I don't know what ya'll just didn't let me die. It would be more peaseful in hell than here." I said looking down at my bandaged arm. I was also crying. No one said anything because they knew she was telling the truth. They knew that they've been neglecting, well neglecting isn't the word, not evan considering her existence, and thats what made them feel bad.
"Jason.......hold me, please?" he walked over to me and sat down on the next to me nd held me close.
"Justace, I love you." Jason whispered.
"I love you too," I whispered back.
"Do you believe me about Joey?" I whispered. He nodded.
"You need to tell them."
"I can't, I just can't"
"Yes you can, tell them." he whispered to me. I nodded and lift my tear stained face and faced everyone.
"I got something to tell all of you." everyone averted there attention to me.
"When ya'll were out that one night and left Joey and me alone. He....he....raped me." I said putting my face back into Jason's chest. Everyone looked at Jason to see if it was true. he nodded. I heard Adie start crying and the doors open and slam shut. I looked up and saw only Adie, Brittany, and Jake. I sat my head ack on Jason's chest and let his the soothing sound of Jason's heartbeat put me to a comfortable sleep.
A very enraged Tre's POV
MY FUCKING DAUGHTER WAS RAPED AND BY FUCKING JOSEPH ARMSTRONG! I knew he hated her, but not this bad. What she did say about us was true. She was trying to kill herself because of me and everybody else, but mostly me. My thoughts were interrupted by us stopping in front of Billie's house. I quickly got out of the car and ran into his house. I ran up the stairs and burst through Joeys room.
"YOU SICK FUCK! WHY DID YOU DO THAT TO HER!!" I yelled as I punched him, which resulted him falling on the floor. I got on top of him and punched him continuously.
"She almost died because of you" I said still punching him until Mike came in and got me off of him.
"Oh Tre that's where your wrong. Sure I take some responsibility in her suicidal antics, but she nearly killed herself because of you more than any of us." He said getting up. He walked in front of me.
"Your daughter was good to" he said in my ear. I struggled to get out of Mike's grasp. He obviously did not hear him because if he did he would have let me go immediately. I then saw Billie come in with two cops and said,
"I'm sorry......Joseph."
