Sorrow, chapter 5
I woke up I was still in Mike's room but now there was something wrapped around my arms. I looked up and thought. What is this? I couldn't remember nothing. But then Mike and Billie Joe came in. I remembered everything. I got up while they started coming close to me, I ran. I past them and out the bedroom door.
I ran down the stairs and I was almost at the front door but it was locked I turned around and I met a pair of eyes looking furious. I couldn't look at him. I tryed to run past him but I couldn't he grabbed my wrist, where I cut myself, tightly. His nails cutting deeply into my cuts. I yelled out in pain but it didn't work.
I looked back at him his eyes full of hate. I couldn't bear to stay here no more I needed to leave, I needed to leave this town for good. I finally looked up at him tears falling from my green and blue eyes falling onto the wooden floor. His eyes changed he let go of my arm and I ran. I ran for my life. I couldn't be here I needed to leave. I ran down the block I ended up back at my house. I walked in and no one was there. Thank god. I didn't want to talk to any one, least of all my mother. I walked into the living room and I found a note.
Dear Sheena,
You are wrothless and a waste of my time. I don't need you. Remember when your father died well that was me in the car. I wanted to kill both of you so I could have all the money, but you had to live. Haha your father was a jackass and a wrothless piece of shit just like you. Did you know I wasn't suposed to have you. I wanted to kill you because your father had to get me knocked up and I never wanted you. But your damn father said everything was going to be fine and we can live as a happy family. Well he was wrong. Look okay. I left you to rot in hell. I hope you end up in hell with your damn father.
-Mary(mom)
I can't believe it! That fucking bitch killed my father! I felt hot new tears form. I ran up to my room and I packed everything I needed. I packed all my shit. I got my money enough for me to get out of this damn state!
I left hell and started walking down the street to the bus stop. I ran into someone and I looked up and I saw a pair of icy blue eyes.
"I'm so sorry, really I am," I said to the guy in front of me.
"Oh, it's ok. I'm Ryan by the way," Ryan said to me.
"Hi Ryan, I'm Sheena," I said to him looking into his awesome blue eyes. Now I got to stop.
"Hi. what's the rush?" he said looking around. I told him everything I couldn't believe I opened up to some guy I just met like for 5 minutes.
"Wow, that really sucks," Ryan said looking at my eyes. I looked back and we both blushed.
"Urmm, do you have a place to stay?" he asked looking down all nervous. It made me laugh a little.
"No I don't," I said looking upset.
"Well you can stay with me if you want, and don't worry I'm not going to kidnap you or rape you I'm not like that," he said taking my hand and walking me down the block I guess he lived on.
"Umm sure," I said. I looked into his eyes again I felt his lips touch mine so softly.
"I'm so sorry," he said pulling away and turning his head the other way.
"It's fine," I said. While we were walking I felt his hand grab mine and we held hands to his house.
Billie Joe's Pov-
I can't believe I did that to Sheena. But I was so mad at the fact that she wanted to die. Didn't she care about me and Mike? I can't believe I hurt like that. I ran to her house and the door was open I ran to her room praying she was there and that she was alright. I opened the door but no one was in there. I ran down the block. I saw her but she was with someone else. Someone I never saw before. I saw them kiss. I felt my heart rip. Tears fell from my eyes. I love her but I lost her. I saw them old hands and walk to I guess the guys house.
I walked back home. Feeling like shit. Uhhh tomorrow is school.Greattttt.
-Sheena's Pov-
Well when we got to Ryan's house I learned alot about him. Well he's younger then me like Billie Joe and Mike. I'm 1 year older then all 3 of them. Well I found out that Ryan lost both his parents in a fire. He now goes to our school and hes in alot of my classes! Yay!!!
"Sheena?" Ryan called me while I was reading something.
"Yeah?" I said looking at Ryan while he sat down next to me. I felt his hand touch my cheek and kissed me. I forgot everything. Billie, Mike, me cutting, my mom's letter, everything. Right then and there I knew I will love Ryan forever. He pulled away and we both smiled at eachother.
"Urmm Sheena I don't know how to say this but umm will you go out with me?" Ryan asked looking at me in the eyes.
"Yes! I would love too!" I said kissing Ryan right on the lips.
"Well we have to head to bed Sheena we got school tomorrow," Ryan said with a smile on his face.
"Yeah I know," I said walking up the stairs to the extra bedroom.
"Night Sheena," Ryan said kissing me on the lips.
"Night Ryan," I said kissing him with a smile on my face.
-Next Day At School-
-Billie Joe's Pov-
I saw her walk into school with that kid again with them holding hands. God I wish that was me and her smiling at eachother laughing together. He's so damn lucking to have her I thought. She came up to both me and Mike. Well I found out his name it's Ryan. He and Sheena are now going out. I felt like I had no heart. Well this Ryan dude wasn't so bad. He was really nice. Hmm maybe he can the play the gutair that would be great! He can be our back up for Green Day. So I asked him.
"Hey Ryan do you play gutair?" I asked.
"Yeah, why?"
"Well I was wondering maybe you can be our back up person."
"Wow I would love too," Ryan said with this huge smile on his face.
"Great! come to my house after school and Mike and I will see how good you are," I said.
"Ok, hey can Sheena come too?"
"Yeah it's fine," I said walking off to class because the bell just rang. Great first period and Sheena's in my class. Math class. I hate math. I walked into the room right when the late bell rang I took my seat which is right behind Sheena.
I didn't do the work on the board instead I wrote a song.
Now I rest my head from
Such an endless dreary time
A time of hopes and happiness
That had you on my mind
Those days are gone and now it seems
As if I'll get some rest
But now and then I'll see you again
And it puts my heart to the test
So when are all my troubles going to end?
I'm understanding now that
We are only friends
To this day I'm asking why
I still think about you
As the days go on I wonder
(Will this ever end?)
I find it hard to keep control
When you're with your boyrfriend
I do not mind if all I am is
Just a friend to you
But all I want to know right now
Is if you think about me too... ?
So when are all my troubles going to end?
I'm understanding now that
We are only friends
To this day I'm asking why
I still think about you
So when are all my troubles going to end?
I'm understanding now that
We are only friends
To this day I'm asking why
I still think about you
I think I'm going to call it Papter Lanterns. Yeah it's about Sheena. Hey maybe I can play it today when Ryan comes over with Sheena. The bell rang for 2nd period. I past Sheena and walked out.
I ran down the stairs and I was almost at the front door but it was locked I turned around and I met a pair of eyes looking furious. I couldn't look at him. I tryed to run past him but I couldn't he grabbed my wrist, where I cut myself, tightly. His nails cutting deeply into my cuts. I yelled out in pain but it didn't work.
I looked back at him his eyes full of hate. I couldn't bear to stay here no more I needed to leave, I needed to leave this town for good. I finally looked up at him tears falling from my green and blue eyes falling onto the wooden floor. His eyes changed he let go of my arm and I ran. I ran for my life. I couldn't be here I needed to leave. I ran down the block I ended up back at my house. I walked in and no one was there. Thank god. I didn't want to talk to any one, least of all my mother. I walked into the living room and I found a note.
Dear Sheena,
You are wrothless and a waste of my time. I don't need you. Remember when your father died well that was me in the car. I wanted to kill both of you so I could have all the money, but you had to live. Haha your father was a jackass and a wrothless piece of shit just like you. Did you know I wasn't suposed to have you. I wanted to kill you because your father had to get me knocked up and I never wanted you. But your damn father said everything was going to be fine and we can live as a happy family. Well he was wrong. Look okay. I left you to rot in hell. I hope you end up in hell with your damn father.
-Mary(mom)
I can't believe it! That fucking bitch killed my father! I felt hot new tears form. I ran up to my room and I packed everything I needed. I packed all my shit. I got my money enough for me to get out of this damn state!
I left hell and started walking down the street to the bus stop. I ran into someone and I looked up and I saw a pair of icy blue eyes.
"I'm so sorry, really I am," I said to the guy in front of me.
"Oh, it's ok. I'm Ryan by the way," Ryan said to me.
"Hi Ryan, I'm Sheena," I said to him looking into his awesome blue eyes. Now I got to stop.
"Hi. what's the rush?" he said looking around. I told him everything I couldn't believe I opened up to some guy I just met like for 5 minutes.
"Wow, that really sucks," Ryan said looking at my eyes. I looked back and we both blushed.
"Urmm, do you have a place to stay?" he asked looking down all nervous. It made me laugh a little.
"No I don't," I said looking upset.
"Well you can stay with me if you want, and don't worry I'm not going to kidnap you or rape you I'm not like that," he said taking my hand and walking me down the block I guess he lived on.
"Umm sure," I said. I looked into his eyes again I felt his lips touch mine so softly.
"I'm so sorry," he said pulling away and turning his head the other way.
"It's fine," I said. While we were walking I felt his hand grab mine and we held hands to his house.
Billie Joe's Pov-
I can't believe I did that to Sheena. But I was so mad at the fact that she wanted to die. Didn't she care about me and Mike? I can't believe I hurt like that. I ran to her house and the door was open I ran to her room praying she was there and that she was alright. I opened the door but no one was in there. I ran down the block. I saw her but she was with someone else. Someone I never saw before. I saw them kiss. I felt my heart rip. Tears fell from my eyes. I love her but I lost her. I saw them old hands and walk to I guess the guys house.
I walked back home. Feeling like shit. Uhhh tomorrow is school.Greattttt.
-Sheena's Pov-
Well when we got to Ryan's house I learned alot about him. Well he's younger then me like Billie Joe and Mike. I'm 1 year older then all 3 of them. Well I found out that Ryan lost both his parents in a fire. He now goes to our school and hes in alot of my classes! Yay!!!
"Sheena?" Ryan called me while I was reading something.
"Yeah?" I said looking at Ryan while he sat down next to me. I felt his hand touch my cheek and kissed me. I forgot everything. Billie, Mike, me cutting, my mom's letter, everything. Right then and there I knew I will love Ryan forever. He pulled away and we both smiled at eachother.
"Urmm Sheena I don't know how to say this but umm will you go out with me?" Ryan asked looking at me in the eyes.
"Yes! I would love too!" I said kissing Ryan right on the lips.
"Well we have to head to bed Sheena we got school tomorrow," Ryan said with a smile on his face.
"Yeah I know," I said walking up the stairs to the extra bedroom.
"Night Sheena," Ryan said kissing me on the lips.
"Night Ryan," I said kissing him with a smile on my face.
-Next Day At School-
-Billie Joe's Pov-
I saw her walk into school with that kid again with them holding hands. God I wish that was me and her smiling at eachother laughing together. He's so damn lucking to have her I thought. She came up to both me and Mike. Well I found out his name it's Ryan. He and Sheena are now going out. I felt like I had no heart. Well this Ryan dude wasn't so bad. He was really nice. Hmm maybe he can the play the gutair that would be great! He can be our back up for Green Day. So I asked him.
"Hey Ryan do you play gutair?" I asked.
"Yeah, why?"
"Well I was wondering maybe you can be our back up person."
"Wow I would love too," Ryan said with this huge smile on his face.
"Great! come to my house after school and Mike and I will see how good you are," I said.
"Ok, hey can Sheena come too?"
"Yeah it's fine," I said walking off to class because the bell just rang. Great first period and Sheena's in my class. Math class. I hate math. I walked into the room right when the late bell rang I took my seat which is right behind Sheena.
I didn't do the work on the board instead I wrote a song.
Now I rest my head from
Such an endless dreary time
A time of hopes and happiness
That had you on my mind
Those days are gone and now it seems
As if I'll get some rest
But now and then I'll see you again
And it puts my heart to the test
So when are all my troubles going to end?
I'm understanding now that
We are only friends
To this day I'm asking why
I still think about you
As the days go on I wonder
(Will this ever end?)
I find it hard to keep control
When you're with your boyrfriend
I do not mind if all I am is
Just a friend to you
But all I want to know right now
Is if you think about me too... ?
So when are all my troubles going to end?
I'm understanding now that
We are only friends
To this day I'm asking why
I still think about you
So when are all my troubles going to end?
I'm understanding now that
We are only friends
To this day I'm asking why
I still think about you
I think I'm going to call it Papter Lanterns. Yeah it's about Sheena. Hey maybe I can play it today when Ryan comes over with Sheena. The bell rang for 2nd period. I past Sheena and walked out.
