Can Our Love Survive?, chapter 1
"Billieee Joooe, can we please go home. You can keep drinking when we get there," I whined. I hate parties, I mean I don't hate them per se, it's just watching Billie Joe drink beer after beer, and shot after shot, then the party starts to suck.
I'm Jenniffer Margera, Jenn for short. My older brother is the professional skateboarder Bam Margera. I just turned 17 and my boyfriend Billie Joe Armstrong just turned 22. I live with Billie Joe in Berkeley, California.
Billie was starting to get drunk. No, I'm sorry he was already there. He couldn't stand up straight, he kept slurring his words and the funniest thing of all, Billie was trying to get with Tre Cool.
Tre Cool was Billie's best friend, besides Mike Dirnt. Tre was the drummer for a band called Green Day, and Mike was the bass guitarist, where Billie was the vocalist and guitarist.
I walked over to Billie and dragged him to the car.
"Jenn, let me go back in. I'll dwive myself home later, owkay," he whined at me. I just buckled him in the car, listening to him bitch all the way there.
As soon as we got home Billie's kids Jakob, who's 4 and Joey, who's 7, came running down the stairs. They got scared and started to freak out, not knowing what was wrong with their dad.
"Jenn, what's wrong with our daddy,"cried Joey.
"Nothing, baby. Guys why don't you go upstairs and I'll put you to bed. Where's your mom?" I asked Joey. Adrienne, also know as Adie, Billie Joe's ex- wife hung out with her kids when Billie went to get trashed, which was about every weekend.
"She's in the kitchen, she's been their for about an hour," Joey could barely even get his words out, he was crying so hard. He took Jake, who had no idea what was going on, by the hand and led him upstairs to his room.
I sighed. I hated seeing the kids cry. I walked passed the living room, where Billie Joe was passed out on the couch, to the kitchen. Adie was sitting at the kitchen table.
"Adie, we're home," I said, sitting across from her.
She got up, said good night to the boys, and left.
The next morning Tre and his girlfriend, Destinee Martinez, came over. Billie Joe who had a crazy ass hangover, didn't wanna get out of bed.
"Hey baby, time to get the fuck outta bed. Tre's here," I said, standing in the doorway.
"Tell Tre to go the fuck away. I have a headache and could you please stop yelling," he moaned.
I shook my head and jumped into bed beside him. "If you get up, I got a surprise for you, that is only if you get up," I told him, as I ran my hand down his leg.
"Why can't I have my surprise now," Billie laughed, but not to much because of his headache, laying on top of me.
"Billie boy where the fuck are you?" Tre screamed up the stairs. Tre and Destinee finally found us in our room, with Billie's hand up my shirt, and my face in his neck.
Tre stopped and froze in the doorway, with the little grin he always gets.
"What's that look about, Mr. Cool," I asked him, knowing it couldn't be something good.
"Nothing, it's just you guys look so cute together," he laughed as I threw a pillow at him.
" Daddy, can you tell Joey to shut his big fat face up," Jake said. He looked around at me, his dad, and Tre. "What's going on in here.
"Nothing, little man, no bitchin' today, I've got a headache, so don't fight with Joey okay," Billie said rubbing his head.
"Daddy, said no fighting Joey, so that mean you've gotta be nice to me for the first time in your life," Jake screamed as he left the room.
"No screaming either guys, daddy can't take it right now," Billie Joe said as normal as possible without hurting his head anymore than it already hurt. He laid back down in bed and looked at me with that look says 'I'm waiting.'
"No, Mr. Armstrong, I said you'd get your surprise if if you got out of bed" I said teasing him.
Billie Joe deciding that he wanted to get something, got out of bed and followed Tre downstairs, into the living room. Lighting up a cigarette, he sat down on the couch.
'Knock, knock'
"Baby answer the door," Billie said to me, cause I was standing in the doorway.
"Yes your highness," I walked to the front door, and shrieked. "What the fuck are you doing here, you fucking bitch," I said screaming at Adie.
"I wanted to see my kids, and I want my husband back, you two timing bitch," Adie got all up in my face, the pulsing into it.
"Why all the screaming, I thought I said no screaming," Billie Joe said nursing his headache. " Adie what are you doing here, it's not your turn with the boys, last night was your turn remember."
"I decided that I want my kids and my husband back, I'm so sick of being by myself all the time," Adie said giving Billie Joe a sad look. "So, come back to me please, I miss you.
I looked at Billie calming down a little bit, because I knew Billie wouldn't leave me for Adie, I looked at him for a look of reconciliation, but it never came.
"Yeah, but why come now and tell me that,"Billie asked her.
"Yeah, but Billie, you must still have feelings for me, like I do you. Tell me after all this time of being apart, you still don't have feelings for me," Adie shot back at him. She looked at him, and he consented that he would be with her again.
I looked at him in shock. I couldn't speak, my throat closed and tears rolled down my face. Finally my voice came back to me. "After everything we've been through together you're just going to throw it all away for this psycho bitch? I knew this wasn't gonna last, I knew it was just a matter of time for her to beg you to take her back," I screamed in his face, not giving a god damn fuck how the fuck he was feeling, and stormed out of the room.
*Three hours later*
"Jenn come out of the damn bedroom, Billie left hours ago. Please come out," Tre yelled. As he pounded on the door.
I opened the door, my eyes all blood shot and puffy from crying for three straight hours, and looked at Tre. "Tre, I just wanna be left alone right now," I said, as more tears came pouring down my face.
"Baby, come on, you can't stay in BJ's room forever, let's get out of the house for a little while I'm so bored," Tre moaned at me.
I lost my temper and screamed at him until I had nothing else left to say. "God damn it, Tre. My god damn boyfriend just left me for his fucking exwife. So why the fuck is it always about you, every god damn day. I don't fucking care if you're fucking bored, I just wanna be by my fucking self right now," I screamed in Tre's face. He just looked at me shocked at the fact I just bitched him out for the first time ever. He walked back downstairs, and I thought I heard the front door slam shut.
Actually deciding that Tre was right, I decided to back up all my stuff. I walked from room to room looking for all my belongings. I stopped by the night stand in my bedroom, and looked at the picture placed there, of me, Billie, and the boys.
*Flashback*
Sitting in the car with my brother Bam Margera, on our way to his friends house for a retarded party.
"Bam, just let me out of the car already. You know how much I hate your friends," I complained at him the whole way there.
"Jenn, shut the fuck up already, you're going to hang out with my friends," he bitched at me time and time again.
I sat back and looked out the window, at the stupid scenery, when we pulled up in front of a house. I got out of the car, and looked around the yard. Must have a couple kids, I thought. There were bikes in the yard and a swing set, along with every other toy possible.
"Bam, dude you actually made, and who is this chick," Billie said pointing at me. Billie got this weird look every time he looked at me, and Bam seemed to notice.
"This is my kid sister Jenn, she didn't wanna come, but I dragged her here," Bam said chuckling at Billie Joe, for the weird looks he was giving me. Bam walked away as he spotted Mike and Tre.
"So how does it feel to be a skater's sister," Billie asked obviously trying to start up a conversation.
"It's great," I said sarcastically, trying to ignore him and find my brother. I walked away from Billie and found Bam talking to Mike and Tre still, I stood next to them, bored by their conversation.
"Bam, this place is boring as hell, can't you just take me home, I could of had a better time at home," I whined at him.
"Jenn, no you can have a awesome time with my friends, go hang out with one of them," Bam yelled at me.
"Hey Jenn, did you bring something to swim in," Billie asked from behind me and scared the fucking shit out of me.
"No, I didn't bring anything with me, Bam never said to bring anything," I said kind of awkwardly.
"Okay you can borrow, some of my shorts and t-shirt," he said. I followed him back in the house, and up to room, were grabbed some clothes for me.
I came out of the bathroom 10 minutes later, and as I was walking through the kitchen Billie Joe's crazy ass wife flipped the fuck out, for that fact I was wearing Billie's clothes. "Why the fuck are you wearing my husband's damn clothes," his crazy damn wife screamed at me.
I ignored her and walked over to Billie Joe, who was by this time with Mike and Tre. "So, ya wanna go swimming," Billie said eyeing me. He looked me up and down.
"Maybe later, I just don't feel like it," I said giving him a weird look. I turned around and spotted my brother talking to some preppy ass chick, you pretended to know who he was. Since I didn't feel like getting bitched out for ruining a what would be a date for him, turned back around and noticed Mike was over at the grill cooking, and Tre changed into something to swim in, left me alone with Billie.
I couldn't help but laugh as Tre walked out of the house, he was wearing yellow spandex shorts, a purple tight t-shirt, green knee high socks, and a blue sweat band. "What the fuck are you wearing, you fucking retard," Billie couldn't help but laugh at him. He fell on the ground trying hard to breath, but couldn't for laughing.
"At least my initial aren't BJ. Hey Jenn Billie Joe wants a blow job, get it. Ha Ha, I'm so funny. I could be a comedian," Tre said kicking Billie in the ass, then walking off since Mike said the food was ready.
After me and Billie got our food we walked out front and sat on the porch. "Ya know I like you a lot. I don't care if you're Bam's little sister," he said through a mouth full of food.
"Yeah, but aren't you married to Adie, and have some kids," I said, trying not to look him in the eyes. He moving closer to me.
"I won't lie to you I am married, with a couple of kids. But Jenn I like you a lot, so please go out with me. It wouldn't be the first time that I've cheated on Adie, so it wouldn't matter that much," he said pleading with me. He had that look like he meant every word he was saying. I looked into those beautiful green eyes, and melted. They're just gorgeous, I couldn't say no to him.
"Yeah I'll go out with you, just don't tell my brother about it, he'll kill me and you," I said feeling guilty for Billie cheating on his wife.
*End Flashback*
I threw the picture on the ground and watched the glass shatter. I walked out of the room and into the kitchen where Mike and his girlfriend Tarah. "Are you ready yet," Mike asked me as I dropped all my bags on the floor.
"Yeah let's get the fuck out of here, I can't take it much longer," I said as I walked out the front door and felt tears slide my face.
I got out of the car 20 minutes later and looked around the yard at Mike's house, guess this is were I'm gonna stay from now on.
I'm Jenniffer Margera, Jenn for short. My older brother is the professional skateboarder Bam Margera. I just turned 17 and my boyfriend Billie Joe Armstrong just turned 22. I live with Billie Joe in Berkeley, California.
Billie was starting to get drunk. No, I'm sorry he was already there. He couldn't stand up straight, he kept slurring his words and the funniest thing of all, Billie was trying to get with Tre Cool.
Tre Cool was Billie's best friend, besides Mike Dirnt. Tre was the drummer for a band called Green Day, and Mike was the bass guitarist, where Billie was the vocalist and guitarist.
I walked over to Billie and dragged him to the car.
"Jenn, let me go back in. I'll dwive myself home later, owkay," he whined at me. I just buckled him in the car, listening to him bitch all the way there.
As soon as we got home Billie's kids Jakob, who's 4 and Joey, who's 7, came running down the stairs. They got scared and started to freak out, not knowing what was wrong with their dad.
"Jenn, what's wrong with our daddy,"cried Joey.
"Nothing, baby. Guys why don't you go upstairs and I'll put you to bed. Where's your mom?" I asked Joey. Adrienne, also know as Adie, Billie Joe's ex- wife hung out with her kids when Billie went to get trashed, which was about every weekend.
"She's in the kitchen, she's been their for about an hour," Joey could barely even get his words out, he was crying so hard. He took Jake, who had no idea what was going on, by the hand and led him upstairs to his room.
I sighed. I hated seeing the kids cry. I walked passed the living room, where Billie Joe was passed out on the couch, to the kitchen. Adie was sitting at the kitchen table.
"Adie, we're home," I said, sitting across from her.
She got up, said good night to the boys, and left.
The next morning Tre and his girlfriend, Destinee Martinez, came over. Billie Joe who had a crazy ass hangover, didn't wanna get out of bed.
"Hey baby, time to get the fuck outta bed. Tre's here," I said, standing in the doorway.
"Tell Tre to go the fuck away. I have a headache and could you please stop yelling," he moaned.
I shook my head and jumped into bed beside him. "If you get up, I got a surprise for you, that is only if you get up," I told him, as I ran my hand down his leg.
"Why can't I have my surprise now," Billie laughed, but not to much because of his headache, laying on top of me.
"Billie boy where the fuck are you?" Tre screamed up the stairs. Tre and Destinee finally found us in our room, with Billie's hand up my shirt, and my face in his neck.
Tre stopped and froze in the doorway, with the little grin he always gets.
"What's that look about, Mr. Cool," I asked him, knowing it couldn't be something good.
"Nothing, it's just you guys look so cute together," he laughed as I threw a pillow at him.
" Daddy, can you tell Joey to shut his big fat face up," Jake said. He looked around at me, his dad, and Tre. "What's going on in here.
"Nothing, little man, no bitchin' today, I've got a headache, so don't fight with Joey okay," Billie said rubbing his head.
"Daddy, said no fighting Joey, so that mean you've gotta be nice to me for the first time in your life," Jake screamed as he left the room.
"No screaming either guys, daddy can't take it right now," Billie Joe said as normal as possible without hurting his head anymore than it already hurt. He laid back down in bed and looked at me with that look says 'I'm waiting.'
"No, Mr. Armstrong, I said you'd get your surprise if if you got out of bed" I said teasing him.
Billie Joe deciding that he wanted to get something, got out of bed and followed Tre downstairs, into the living room. Lighting up a cigarette, he sat down on the couch.
'Knock, knock'
"Baby answer the door," Billie said to me, cause I was standing in the doorway.
"Yes your highness," I walked to the front door, and shrieked. "What the fuck are you doing here, you fucking bitch," I said screaming at Adie.
"I wanted to see my kids, and I want my husband back, you two timing bitch," Adie got all up in my face, the pulsing into it.
"Why all the screaming, I thought I said no screaming," Billie Joe said nursing his headache. " Adie what are you doing here, it's not your turn with the boys, last night was your turn remember."
"I decided that I want my kids and my husband back, I'm so sick of being by myself all the time," Adie said giving Billie Joe a sad look. "So, come back to me please, I miss you.
I looked at Billie calming down a little bit, because I knew Billie wouldn't leave me for Adie, I looked at him for a look of reconciliation, but it never came.
"Yeah, but why come now and tell me that,"Billie asked her.
"Yeah, but Billie, you must still have feelings for me, like I do you. Tell me after all this time of being apart, you still don't have feelings for me," Adie shot back at him. She looked at him, and he consented that he would be with her again.
I looked at him in shock. I couldn't speak, my throat closed and tears rolled down my face. Finally my voice came back to me. "After everything we've been through together you're just going to throw it all away for this psycho bitch? I knew this wasn't gonna last, I knew it was just a matter of time for her to beg you to take her back," I screamed in his face, not giving a god damn fuck how the fuck he was feeling, and stormed out of the room.
*Three hours later*
"Jenn come out of the damn bedroom, Billie left hours ago. Please come out," Tre yelled. As he pounded on the door.
I opened the door, my eyes all blood shot and puffy from crying for three straight hours, and looked at Tre. "Tre, I just wanna be left alone right now," I said, as more tears came pouring down my face.
"Baby, come on, you can't stay in BJ's room forever, let's get out of the house for a little while I'm so bored," Tre moaned at me.
I lost my temper and screamed at him until I had nothing else left to say. "God damn it, Tre. My god damn boyfriend just left me for his fucking exwife. So why the fuck is it always about you, every god damn day. I don't fucking care if you're fucking bored, I just wanna be by my fucking self right now," I screamed in Tre's face. He just looked at me shocked at the fact I just bitched him out for the first time ever. He walked back downstairs, and I thought I heard the front door slam shut.
Actually deciding that Tre was right, I decided to back up all my stuff. I walked from room to room looking for all my belongings. I stopped by the night stand in my bedroom, and looked at the picture placed there, of me, Billie, and the boys.
*Flashback*
Sitting in the car with my brother Bam Margera, on our way to his friends house for a retarded party.
"Bam, just let me out of the car already. You know how much I hate your friends," I complained at him the whole way there.
"Jenn, shut the fuck up already, you're going to hang out with my friends," he bitched at me time and time again.
I sat back and looked out the window, at the stupid scenery, when we pulled up in front of a house. I got out of the car, and looked around the yard. Must have a couple kids, I thought. There were bikes in the yard and a swing set, along with every other toy possible.
"Bam, dude you actually made, and who is this chick," Billie said pointing at me. Billie got this weird look every time he looked at me, and Bam seemed to notice.
"This is my kid sister Jenn, she didn't wanna come, but I dragged her here," Bam said chuckling at Billie Joe, for the weird looks he was giving me. Bam walked away as he spotted Mike and Tre.
"So how does it feel to be a skater's sister," Billie asked obviously trying to start up a conversation.
"It's great," I said sarcastically, trying to ignore him and find my brother. I walked away from Billie and found Bam talking to Mike and Tre still, I stood next to them, bored by their conversation.
"Bam, this place is boring as hell, can't you just take me home, I could of had a better time at home," I whined at him.
"Jenn, no you can have a awesome time with my friends, go hang out with one of them," Bam yelled at me.
"Hey Jenn, did you bring something to swim in," Billie asked from behind me and scared the fucking shit out of me.
"No, I didn't bring anything with me, Bam never said to bring anything," I said kind of awkwardly.
"Okay you can borrow, some of my shorts and t-shirt," he said. I followed him back in the house, and up to room, were grabbed some clothes for me.
I came out of the bathroom 10 minutes later, and as I was walking through the kitchen Billie Joe's crazy ass wife flipped the fuck out, for that fact I was wearing Billie's clothes. "Why the fuck are you wearing my husband's damn clothes," his crazy damn wife screamed at me.
I ignored her and walked over to Billie Joe, who was by this time with Mike and Tre. "So, ya wanna go swimming," Billie said eyeing me. He looked me up and down.
"Maybe later, I just don't feel like it," I said giving him a weird look. I turned around and spotted my brother talking to some preppy ass chick, you pretended to know who he was. Since I didn't feel like getting bitched out for ruining a what would be a date for him, turned back around and noticed Mike was over at the grill cooking, and Tre changed into something to swim in, left me alone with Billie.
I couldn't help but laugh as Tre walked out of the house, he was wearing yellow spandex shorts, a purple tight t-shirt, green knee high socks, and a blue sweat band. "What the fuck are you wearing, you fucking retard," Billie couldn't help but laugh at him. He fell on the ground trying hard to breath, but couldn't for laughing.
"At least my initial aren't BJ. Hey Jenn Billie Joe wants a blow job, get it. Ha Ha, I'm so funny. I could be a comedian," Tre said kicking Billie in the ass, then walking off since Mike said the food was ready.
After me and Billie got our food we walked out front and sat on the porch. "Ya know I like you a lot. I don't care if you're Bam's little sister," he said through a mouth full of food.
"Yeah, but aren't you married to Adie, and have some kids," I said, trying not to look him in the eyes. He moving closer to me.
"I won't lie to you I am married, with a couple of kids. But Jenn I like you a lot, so please go out with me. It wouldn't be the first time that I've cheated on Adie, so it wouldn't matter that much," he said pleading with me. He had that look like he meant every word he was saying. I looked into those beautiful green eyes, and melted. They're just gorgeous, I couldn't say no to him.
"Yeah I'll go out with you, just don't tell my brother about it, he'll kill me and you," I said feeling guilty for Billie cheating on his wife.
*End Flashback*
I threw the picture on the ground and watched the glass shatter. I walked out of the room and into the kitchen where Mike and his girlfriend Tarah. "Are you ready yet," Mike asked me as I dropped all my bags on the floor.
"Yeah let's get the fuck out of here, I can't take it much longer," I said as I walked out the front door and felt tears slide my face.
I got out of the car 20 minutes later and looked around the yard at Mike's house, guess this is were I'm gonna stay from now on.
