Not All Roses Are Red, chapter 3

I woke up and felt arms around my waist, I turned over to see Billie Joe sleeping. The first thing that popped into my head was that we had, had sex, and I guess I was right...

I didn't want to be right, but I somehow always am. I got out of the arms that belonged to my lost love, got dressed and went downstairs and made breakfast, no one was up yet.

As I was making breakfast, I started thinking of some other stuff to write.


[/i]She had always liked him
But never truly knew why
He never talked to her
His friends had made her cry


She smiled at him in the hall
He just turned his head
He did not care about her
Is what he always said


But she kept her chin up
And she loved him still
Because she knew what was inside
A hole that she could fill


His friends soon caught word
Of her feelings toward him
They found it hysterical
But her love did not dim


She knew that she was better
Than what they thought she was
But still her heart was his
For reasons she knew not of


She slowly became more forlorn
Slipping deep into a hole
He was still ignoring her
Breaking her delicate soul


But her love did not falter
She always thought of him
But all the rumors about her
Put her closer to the brim


On the final day
His friends played a trick
Told her that he loved her
Just to watch her tick


Sadly she believed them
And she was overjoyed
Little did she know
That it was all a ploy


She went up to him
To make sure that he knew
That she knew how he felt
And that she loved him too


He did not understand
So all he did was stare
Telling her repeatedly
That he really did not care


She was finally over the edge
She knew it could not be true
I thought they said he loved her
But deep inside she knew


She could not comprehend
How to go on living her life
So she went in to the kitchen
Pulled out the sharpest knife


She screamed into the air
This is not how it should be
She screamed all the things
That she wished that he would see


She spoke of her love
She cried of her pain
She whispered of what happened
How it could never be the same


And with her last strength
She scribbled her final note
She explained everything
And this is what she wrote:


Take the shining knife,
And cut open my wrists
Watch the blood flow out
It could've ended with a kiss


Take the bloody knife
Write words into my skin
Tell me that you hate me
Make the pain begin
Open up the sore


Take the knife and hold it up
So that everyone can see
That this is the pain
You were always causing me


She watched the blood pour out
Collapsing on the floor
Little did she know
That he was at the door


He did not get an answer
As he screamed her name
He told her he was sorry
What he said was really lame


He did not want to give up
He wanted her to know
That he really did like her
Just did not let it show


He did not care about his friends
They were not his anymore
So please, wont you please
Just open the damn door


He walked to the window
Saw her lying there
He pounded on the glass
Crying in despair


He broke through the glass
And knelt down on the floor
Looking at the girl
He had always adored


Desperately calling for help
She was still alive
He tried to bandage wounds
Please God let her survive


He held her so close
As the ambulance drew near
I really do love you
He whispered in her ear.


Please dont give up
I'll try to help you through
We will make it work
You know I love you too.[/i]

I don't think it was really about Billie and I, but it could have been. As I was finishing I saw the first Green Day boy come out, which happened to be Tre.

"Hey Tre?"

"Yeah?"

"I was thinking of dying my hair, back to blonde...What do you think?"

"My Blondie would be back!"

"Do you want breakfast?"

"Yeah, and some pills?"

"Don't worry I can do that!" I got Tre his pills and breakfast. Soon the rest of Green Day came down stairs. I think Billie know what happened too, he wouldn't look at me or even talk to me. I was a little hurt by his actions, I guess he thought I took it the wrong way and wanted to get back together with him. I do not, he has a family now, and I don't want to be a homewrecking bitch.

As the guys were gonna go, I pulled on Billie's jacket.

"I want to know why you aren't talking to me. Is it because you think now that I want something from you, because if you do I can tell you right now that you're wrong, I may be a little mad at Adrienne for taking you away from me once, but I would never ever take you away from her. You guys are such a happy couple with a family, I do not want to be the cause of the break-up, because I am not a homewrecking bitch, okay?" I asked.

"Yeah, okay thank you for understanding..." He mumbled and then left.

I had a lot of things to do. So first I took a shower, got dresses in new clothes and went out to the car.

I went to the store and got hair dye, blonde, of course. And had my best friend Elisha color my hair, I then went to my record company to interview a new band, by the time I was done with all of this it was around three, and I was kinda hungry so I went out to get something to eat.

As I was walking into The Cafe, what an orginal name, I bumped into someone.

"I am so fucking sorry!" He said, he looked up at me, and I saw the most beautiful brown eyes, they were almost black.

"Oh, it is okay, I wasn't watching where I was going!" I told him back smiling and looking into his eyes, he was looking back into mine.

"It was my fault, trust me, by the way my name is Brandon," He said sticking his hand out.

I took his hand and shook it, he was also smiling and looking into my eyes, "I'm Hannah, but you can call me Hanny," I felt kinda bad because that was Billie Joe's nickname for me, but I really liked this guy, even though I haven't really got to meet him.

"I kinda want to get to know you, do you want to get some coffee, and take a walk?" He asked.

"Actually, I would like that."

We ordered our coffee, and started walking. We ended up back at my house, and we were sitting on my couch and talking when my phone rang.

"Just a second, I need to get that," We may have only known each other for an hour, but he was really nice, had a great personality and on top of that he was fine.


"Hello?"

"Yeah, it's Tre and the guys and I were wondering if you wanted to come to my get together?"

"Yeah, I would like that. Can I bring a friend of mine?"

"Yeah the more the merrier!" he said.

"Thanks we will be there soon!" Je had already given me his address I told Brandon, and told him not to freak out, that we were going to Tre Cool's house, I had found out that he was a big Green Day fan.

"So, how do you know them?" He asked me.

"I used to date Billie Joe, I am going to take a guess because I looked at their 'timelines,' but you know the girl that Billie Joe hooked up with when he lost contact with Adrienne?" He nodded, "That was me."

"Okay," He said, as we pulled up into the driveway.

I knocked on the door, Billie Joe answered...