Wake Me Up When September Ends, chapter 1
*B = Billie Joe's pov : *A = Adrienne's pov : *T = Toni's pov)
*B
Adrienne's a good wife. She gave me two great children, and she takes good care of them. And me. She knows all my spots, gets me off when I need her to. But she's not young anymore. She's grown up, just like me, and frankly that gets boring. But Toni, god she's fucking beautiful, and willing, and such an innocent. If she was my daughter, I'd go to hell. I'd go to hell so fast my head would spin. I kept her armband from that night, and I wear it every day. I can't get over how she affects me.
Which is why I'm bringing her up here. I put up with Adi for a few days but I missed Toni. And I needed her. More than I could ever explain. She was such a tease and it drove me nuts. Adi did anything I said, and that got boring too. I needed the adrenaline I got when I was with Toni. However, I have no idea how we'd be able to do anything with the wife hovering over us like God. I was so tempted to make an excuse for her to go home, but that would arouse suspicion that she doesn't have. I simply explained I had met Toni and she had become somewhat like a little sister to me. Right. A little sister I'd soon be fucking on our bed.
Her flight would be landing in twent minutes. When I told Adi around a half hour ago, she had immediately offered to pick her. I allowed her to, not thinking it'd be a bad idea. But when the two finally got back, Toni looked so mad I thought she was going to explode and Adi simply muttered she was going out. She just left and I was alone with the girl I'd been wanting for weeks. And I couldn't fucking move. I just watched her, amazed at how young she looked. I was going to hug her, but spoke instead.
"Hi.. How was your flight?"
"Wanna fuck?"
"Uh.. Sure."
It was so rushed this time. All she did was yank my pants down, and me hers, and I screwed her hard against the wall. I wanted it to be like the first time, gentle and shy, but she wouldn't even let me touch her shirt. I reached for it and she smacked my hands away, simply stating she didn't wanna bother. But the look in her eyes told me different. She was hiding something. I wanted to ask, but I was a little too preoccupied to really care at that point. I had to have her and I did. And it was over so quick I was almost disappointed, especially when she just redressed like nothing had happened and went to sleep on the couch. I watched her for the longest, wondering what she had done to her arm although I was sure I knew, and what had happened between her and Adi. The first night I saw her, and we made love, she had asked afterward about all the bites and scratches Toni had left. I just told her I was goofing off with the guys like always. She knew about the time I branded Chris. Things got crazy on tour, I told her. She believed me and I held her that night like I always did.
*A
That little tramp. How dare she believe she can steal what I've worked so hard to get. Not to mention she still has three years before she can legally be with him. A lot could happen in three years. He could tire of her, and maybe come back to me. God, I wish he would. He's everything to me, and I don't want to lose him to a child. But I will. I know I will. Because she is so beautiful, it makes me want to puke. When we got in the car to go back to the hotel, she immediately starting checking her appearance in the mirror. That I could not handle and I said something.
"Gotta make yourself look good for him, huh?"
"What?"
"I know what happened between you two."
"You've got it all wrong Adri--"
"Bullshit! Bull-fucking-shit! You are not going to come in and wreck everything I have. The rock and roll wife lifestyle is mine. All mine. You're just some pathetic child from Tennessee that happened to fuck him the right way. He'll be done with you in a week. Touch him before then, and I'll make sure you suffer."
I watched her reaction and it almost scared me the way she was smiling. She pulled out a small, sparkly tube and coated her lips, then looked right at me, sending a chill down my spine.
"Listen here you fugly bitch, you cannot tell me what to do. And I will touch him again. And fuck him. And make him scream like you wish you could. So shut up and drive."
I couldn't believe she had said that to me. I was her "boyfriend's" wife for god's sake. I wanted to retort, but I found myself obeying her and switching on the radio to kill the silence. No matter he was obsessed with her.
*T
I'm on the couch, pretending to be asleep, and he's fricking watching me. It's unnerving, feeling his eyes on me so closely, almost like he's watching to make sure I'm still breathing. When I smacked his hands away from my shirt, I knew it stunned him. He looked at me for just a milisecond before getting back to the matter at hand. I couldn't stand him watching me and I couldn't sleep so I spoke.
"Adrienne knows."
"Wha.. How?!"
"I dunno. She threatened me and I told her to leave me the hell alone."
"Oh.. Question."
"Shoot."
"What's wrong with your arms? What did you fucking do?"
So I showed him. I rolled up my sleeves and showed him. I'd never seen anyone's eyes get so big, so fast. He was instantly by my side, consoling me in the way only he could.
"Toni.. what the.. I.. I really care about you-- "
"Stoppit. Stoppit. Stoppit!"
I jumped up, shaking my head and hugging my arms close around me.
"You don't care! She's right! I'm just your side fuck and soon I won't even be that! I'm nothing to you and I never will be! So don't lie to me Billie! Don't try to make me feel better about all this, because I won't. The best thing for you to do is for you to go out, get drunk, and find some other little girl to fuck over because I don't wanna be it anymore! I just wanna be normal again and I can't be normal with you! God, you're a thirty-two year old man! Can't you find someone else to bang? You're attractive enough, definitely!"
I didn't expect what was coming next. He jumped up and punched me so hard against the cheek that I fell back on my ass. I just stared at him for what seemed like an eternity before jumping up and heading for the door. Before I went out, I stopped and glanced back at him.
"No wonder she's a bitch."
And then I was gone, deciding that wandering the streets of a huge, unknown town was much better than staying with Mr.Abusive. It was cold, and gray, and overly depressing and when I came across a phone booth I couldn't have been happier. I stepped inside, thanking Adi silently for chucking that change at me. I looked in the phone book located conviently inside and flipped right to the Wilson's, praying there would only be a few. I was in luck. There was one. I dialed it and waited patiently, gasping when someone answered.
"Um, is Leo home?"
"This he. Who's this?"
"It's Toni. Look, I'm in England. I came up here for Billie Joe, but something happened and.. well.. could you come get me? Please?"
"Of course! Where are you?"
"No clue. The only thing I know is that I'm beside a cafe called 'The Star'. Know it?"
"Yes! Be there so quick. Be outside. Love you."
Before I had a chance to answer he hung up and I went to wait, tapping my hands idly on my thighs. A car pulled up sooner than I expected and all I saw was a blur of blonde before Leo was hugging me so tightly I couldn't breathe. When he pulled back and looked at me, I supposed the bruise on my cheek was showing quite well because he scowled and touched it. I pulled back and he bit his lip, leading me back to the car.
"Sorry.. I had to.. Don't worry Toni-Chan.."
He paused and I smiled at the old nickname.
"You're in good hands."
If only I had had known what a lie that was.
*B
Adrienne's a good wife. She gave me two great children, and she takes good care of them. And me. She knows all my spots, gets me off when I need her to. But she's not young anymore. She's grown up, just like me, and frankly that gets boring. But Toni, god she's fucking beautiful, and willing, and such an innocent. If she was my daughter, I'd go to hell. I'd go to hell so fast my head would spin. I kept her armband from that night, and I wear it every day. I can't get over how she affects me.
Which is why I'm bringing her up here. I put up with Adi for a few days but I missed Toni. And I needed her. More than I could ever explain. She was such a tease and it drove me nuts. Adi did anything I said, and that got boring too. I needed the adrenaline I got when I was with Toni. However, I have no idea how we'd be able to do anything with the wife hovering over us like God. I was so tempted to make an excuse for her to go home, but that would arouse suspicion that she doesn't have. I simply explained I had met Toni and she had become somewhat like a little sister to me. Right. A little sister I'd soon be fucking on our bed.
Her flight would be landing in twent minutes. When I told Adi around a half hour ago, she had immediately offered to pick her. I allowed her to, not thinking it'd be a bad idea. But when the two finally got back, Toni looked so mad I thought she was going to explode and Adi simply muttered she was going out. She just left and I was alone with the girl I'd been wanting for weeks. And I couldn't fucking move. I just watched her, amazed at how young she looked. I was going to hug her, but spoke instead.
"Hi.. How was your flight?"
"Wanna fuck?"
"Uh.. Sure."
It was so rushed this time. All she did was yank my pants down, and me hers, and I screwed her hard against the wall. I wanted it to be like the first time, gentle and shy, but she wouldn't even let me touch her shirt. I reached for it and she smacked my hands away, simply stating she didn't wanna bother. But the look in her eyes told me different. She was hiding something. I wanted to ask, but I was a little too preoccupied to really care at that point. I had to have her and I did. And it was over so quick I was almost disappointed, especially when she just redressed like nothing had happened and went to sleep on the couch. I watched her for the longest, wondering what she had done to her arm although I was sure I knew, and what had happened between her and Adi. The first night I saw her, and we made love, she had asked afterward about all the bites and scratches Toni had left. I just told her I was goofing off with the guys like always. She knew about the time I branded Chris. Things got crazy on tour, I told her. She believed me and I held her that night like I always did.
*A
That little tramp. How dare she believe she can steal what I've worked so hard to get. Not to mention she still has three years before she can legally be with him. A lot could happen in three years. He could tire of her, and maybe come back to me. God, I wish he would. He's everything to me, and I don't want to lose him to a child. But I will. I know I will. Because she is so beautiful, it makes me want to puke. When we got in the car to go back to the hotel, she immediately starting checking her appearance in the mirror. That I could not handle and I said something.
"Gotta make yourself look good for him, huh?"
"What?"
"I know what happened between you two."
"You've got it all wrong Adri--"
"Bullshit! Bull-fucking-shit! You are not going to come in and wreck everything I have. The rock and roll wife lifestyle is mine. All mine. You're just some pathetic child from Tennessee that happened to fuck him the right way. He'll be done with you in a week. Touch him before then, and I'll make sure you suffer."
I watched her reaction and it almost scared me the way she was smiling. She pulled out a small, sparkly tube and coated her lips, then looked right at me, sending a chill down my spine.
"Listen here you fugly bitch, you cannot tell me what to do. And I will touch him again. And fuck him. And make him scream like you wish you could. So shut up and drive."
I couldn't believe she had said that to me. I was her "boyfriend's" wife for god's sake. I wanted to retort, but I found myself obeying her and switching on the radio to kill the silence. No matter he was obsessed with her.
*T
I'm on the couch, pretending to be asleep, and he's fricking watching me. It's unnerving, feeling his eyes on me so closely, almost like he's watching to make sure I'm still breathing. When I smacked his hands away from my shirt, I knew it stunned him. He looked at me for just a milisecond before getting back to the matter at hand. I couldn't stand him watching me and I couldn't sleep so I spoke.
"Adrienne knows."
"Wha.. How?!"
"I dunno. She threatened me and I told her to leave me the hell alone."
"Oh.. Question."
"Shoot."
"What's wrong with your arms? What did you fucking do?"
So I showed him. I rolled up my sleeves and showed him. I'd never seen anyone's eyes get so big, so fast. He was instantly by my side, consoling me in the way only he could.
"Toni.. what the.. I.. I really care about you-- "
"Stoppit. Stoppit. Stoppit!"
I jumped up, shaking my head and hugging my arms close around me.
"You don't care! She's right! I'm just your side fuck and soon I won't even be that! I'm nothing to you and I never will be! So don't lie to me Billie! Don't try to make me feel better about all this, because I won't. The best thing for you to do is for you to go out, get drunk, and find some other little girl to fuck over because I don't wanna be it anymore! I just wanna be normal again and I can't be normal with you! God, you're a thirty-two year old man! Can't you find someone else to bang? You're attractive enough, definitely!"
I didn't expect what was coming next. He jumped up and punched me so hard against the cheek that I fell back on my ass. I just stared at him for what seemed like an eternity before jumping up and heading for the door. Before I went out, I stopped and glanced back at him.
"No wonder she's a bitch."
And then I was gone, deciding that wandering the streets of a huge, unknown town was much better than staying with Mr.Abusive. It was cold, and gray, and overly depressing and when I came across a phone booth I couldn't have been happier. I stepped inside, thanking Adi silently for chucking that change at me. I looked in the phone book located conviently inside and flipped right to the Wilson's, praying there would only be a few. I was in luck. There was one. I dialed it and waited patiently, gasping when someone answered.
"Um, is Leo home?"
"This he. Who's this?"
"It's Toni. Look, I'm in England. I came up here for Billie Joe, but something happened and.. well.. could you come get me? Please?"
"Of course! Where are you?"
"No clue. The only thing I know is that I'm beside a cafe called 'The Star'. Know it?"
"Yes! Be there so quick. Be outside. Love you."
Before I had a chance to answer he hung up and I went to wait, tapping my hands idly on my thighs. A car pulled up sooner than I expected and all I saw was a blur of blonde before Leo was hugging me so tightly I couldn't breathe. When he pulled back and looked at me, I supposed the bruise on my cheek was showing quite well because he scowled and touched it. I pulled back and he bit his lip, leading me back to the car.
"Sorry.. I had to.. Don't worry Toni-Chan.."
He paused and I smiled at the old nickname.
"You're in good hands."
If only I had had known what a lie that was.
