Slap In The Face, chapter 3
This is the point where I should have pulled away... .
But I didn't
This is the point where I should have jumped out his window... ... ..
But I didn't
This is the point where I shouldn't have kissed him back... ... ...
But I did
This is the point where it should have ended... ... ... .
But it Didn't
This is the point which led to the situation im in now, the point in my life so many years later landed me here in a place I never wanted to be.
This was the point where even though, I knew it was wrong and realised that my life was about to get really complicated I still kissed back, ripped my clothes off and woke up the next morning with no virginity and my very naked best friend next to me.
And his mother unlocking the front door... ... ... ..
"Fuck Billie Get up" I whispered fiercely and pushed him off me and onto the floor
"Anna's home"
"Oh my god" he stuttered rubbing the arm he landed on
I threw my clothes on in 10 seconds flat and jumped out the window as Anna came through BJ's door
"Hey honey how was your weekend" she asked
"ahh good yeah"
"Billie Joe look at this room it's a pigsty, I thought I told you to clean it" she said
as she walked over to a pile of dirty clothes Billie spotted my heels on the floor and quickly shoved them under his bed
"Well at least your awake... " she sighed
"Yeah ma I want to get dressed and then ill come out and make you pancakes" he said
"Really.. ok sweetie ill go put the kettle on and you get dressed" she beamed
After she left I popped up from under the window sill and said "Can I have my shoes please"
"Lydia I ... .um welll"
"My shoes Billie" I said sternly
He passed them to me and said that he'd call I just walked away and headed home.
When I got inside I closed the door behind me and sat on the floor then I just as I began to cry realising that not only was I in love with my best friend, that he didn't love me and I had lost him as a friend most likely forever the door bell rang.
I answered the door with a " I'm busy come back later" and went to slam it to bad for me it was Mike who lodged his foot in the door and demanded entrance because he realised I'd been crying.
"Dia are you gonna let me in or not"
"Not" I sobbed
"Sorry I'll re phrase that let me in Lydia" he said as he pushed his way in
"Im really not in the mood micheal"
He pulled me into a hug straight away and for a good 10 minutes, I sobbed all over his shoulder.
"Are you ready to tell me about it" he asked tentatively while passing me a coffee
"Not really"
"Wait weren't you on a date with that jock last night" he asked
"what the fuck did he do, ill kill him I swear" he yelled
"settle down I the date was wonderful and he had nothing to do with it"
"well what's wrong then? Is it your dad?"
"Not this time" I replied
And before I knew it I blurted out the whole story replacing Billie's name with an old friend who left me for dead the morning after.
He sat quietly while I spoke and then said
"Im sorry it was like that for you, you deserved so much better princess, But whoever this guy is who you wont tell me his name, he's not worth your time"
I laughed bitterly and said "the thing is that he is worth more then my time, but it will never happen"
"so what did you say his name was?" he asked innocently
I laughed and told him "It doesn't matter anymore"
Mike spent the day with me and was going to stay the night but I told him to go home
"Ill be fine, pinky swear, but please don't mention this to BJ or Tre please"
"Ok I wont" he promised
We hugged and he drove away then I heard a knock at the door... ... ...
It was Billie Joe I told him to go away but he just kept knocking, so after 20 minutes I gave up and let him in.
"We have to talk" he said softly
"About what exactly" I snapped
"well you know... ... .what happened between us..what I cant believe happened" he said
"You better believe it bucky! There's blood stained sheets to prove it"
His eyes widened at my remark "You were a a Oh god"
"yeah that's right" I said softly
"I shouldn't have, I cant believe I did, I took advantage of.
"stop right there I didn't do any thing I didn't want to do."
"I really cant deal right now I think its better if you leave" I said
"I don't want to lose you dia" he blurted
"You're not going to lose me, were still friends" I said softly faltering on the last part
"Do you know what today is" he asked
"yeah its September umm I 29th I think, ohhhhhhh god BJ im sorry I ... "
"its ok, but I need you dia please don't be mad" he said his voice cracking
That night I made mistake number 2, I said it was to comfort him about his father and the 7th year he'd been gone but I think I began to think that maybe if it happened again things might change. Our lovemaking wasn't frenzied and passionate as it was the 1st time it was slow and sombre with him getting the comfort breaking my heart even more in the process.
But I didn't
This is the point where I should have jumped out his window... ... ..
But I didn't
This is the point where I shouldn't have kissed him back... ... ...
But I did
This is the point where it should have ended... ... ... .
But it Didn't
This is the point which led to the situation im in now, the point in my life so many years later landed me here in a place I never wanted to be.
This was the point where even though, I knew it was wrong and realised that my life was about to get really complicated I still kissed back, ripped my clothes off and woke up the next morning with no virginity and my very naked best friend next to me.
And his mother unlocking the front door... ... ... ..
"Fuck Billie Get up" I whispered fiercely and pushed him off me and onto the floor
"Anna's home"
"Oh my god" he stuttered rubbing the arm he landed on
I threw my clothes on in 10 seconds flat and jumped out the window as Anna came through BJ's door
"Hey honey how was your weekend" she asked
"ahh good yeah"
"Billie Joe look at this room it's a pigsty, I thought I told you to clean it" she said
as she walked over to a pile of dirty clothes Billie spotted my heels on the floor and quickly shoved them under his bed
"Well at least your awake... " she sighed
"Yeah ma I want to get dressed and then ill come out and make you pancakes" he said
"Really.. ok sweetie ill go put the kettle on and you get dressed" she beamed
After she left I popped up from under the window sill and said "Can I have my shoes please"
"Lydia I ... .um welll"
"My shoes Billie" I said sternly
He passed them to me and said that he'd call I just walked away and headed home.
When I got inside I closed the door behind me and sat on the floor then I just as I began to cry realising that not only was I in love with my best friend, that he didn't love me and I had lost him as a friend most likely forever the door bell rang.
I answered the door with a " I'm busy come back later" and went to slam it to bad for me it was Mike who lodged his foot in the door and demanded entrance because he realised I'd been crying.
"Dia are you gonna let me in or not"
"Not" I sobbed
"Sorry I'll re phrase that let me in Lydia" he said as he pushed his way in
"Im really not in the mood micheal"
He pulled me into a hug straight away and for a good 10 minutes, I sobbed all over his shoulder.
"Are you ready to tell me about it" he asked tentatively while passing me a coffee
"Not really"
"Wait weren't you on a date with that jock last night" he asked
"what the fuck did he do, ill kill him I swear" he yelled
"settle down I the date was wonderful and he had nothing to do with it"
"well what's wrong then? Is it your dad?"
"Not this time" I replied
And before I knew it I blurted out the whole story replacing Billie's name with an old friend who left me for dead the morning after.
He sat quietly while I spoke and then said
"Im sorry it was like that for you, you deserved so much better princess, But whoever this guy is who you wont tell me his name, he's not worth your time"
I laughed bitterly and said "the thing is that he is worth more then my time, but it will never happen"
"so what did you say his name was?" he asked innocently
I laughed and told him "It doesn't matter anymore"
Mike spent the day with me and was going to stay the night but I told him to go home
"Ill be fine, pinky swear, but please don't mention this to BJ or Tre please"
"Ok I wont" he promised
We hugged and he drove away then I heard a knock at the door... ... ...
It was Billie Joe I told him to go away but he just kept knocking, so after 20 minutes I gave up and let him in.
"We have to talk" he said softly
"About what exactly" I snapped
"well you know... ... .what happened between us..what I cant believe happened" he said
"You better believe it bucky! There's blood stained sheets to prove it"
His eyes widened at my remark "You were a a Oh god"
"yeah that's right" I said softly
"I shouldn't have, I cant believe I did, I took advantage of.
"stop right there I didn't do any thing I didn't want to do."
"I really cant deal right now I think its better if you leave" I said
"I don't want to lose you dia" he blurted
"You're not going to lose me, were still friends" I said softly faltering on the last part
"Do you know what today is" he asked
"yeah its September umm I 29th I think, ohhhhhhh god BJ im sorry I ... "
"its ok, but I need you dia please don't be mad" he said his voice cracking
That night I made mistake number 2, I said it was to comfort him about his father and the 7th year he'd been gone but I think I began to think that maybe if it happened again things might change. Our lovemaking wasn't frenzied and passionate as it was the 1st time it was slow and sombre with him getting the comfort breaking my heart even more in the process.
