Slap In The Face, chapter 7
"Fuck FUCK FUCK" I screamed.
Sarah held her head and groaned, "shut up, girl with a hangover here"
"Sorry, but oh bloody hell, they are never going to forgive me" I said.
"I'm so damn mad at myself, I shouldn't have told them like this" I sighed.
"Listen, go and clean yourself up, and go and try to smooth things over with them, I'll finish packing it's no biggie there's not that much left to do anyways" she said.
"Really, you'd do that?" I asked
"Of course you dumb ass, we're best friends" she replied as I ran out the door.
I blew a kiss "love ya, thanks"
I jumped into my car and sped over to the guys house, I banged on the door and heard a muffled "Go away"
"Come on guys let me in" I whined. The door opened and an angry Tre and Mike looked at me with their arms crossed "we're only letting you in because BJ's not here and we want to hear what you have to say for yourself" said Mike.
I started to cry "I I mm sooo sorry, I should have told you so soo sooner, but I didn't know how and I love you guys so much pleaaaase don't hate me" I blubbered.
"Dammit you always know how to get us" said Tre pulling me into a hug
"Yeah I guess I kinda understand," said Mike joining in, "we are going to miss you so much"
"Not as much as I'm going to miss you, but I'm only in LA, we will see each other all the time" I said.
"It won't be the same" whined Tre in a baby voice.
I chuckled "You're only upset because your losing your free of charge merch girl Frankie" they laughed.
"Where's Billie Joe?" I finally asked.
I found him up on Christie Road, kicking a can, walking down the street. I drove up beside him
"Hey sexy need a ride" I joked
He glared at me and kept walking, I parked the car and ran up to him and took him by the arm.
"Come on BJ we need to talk" I said.
"What is there to talk about Lydia, you're going to LA and didn't bother to tell me."
"Well that's not true I did tell you" I argued
"Yeah at the last minute, what, can't you trust me?" he said
"I trust you with my life Billie, you know that, the honest truth is that I didn't know how to tell you, It was too hard"
I sadly beginning to tear up. He looked at me and wiped away a tear.
"Don't cry, I get it, I just..."
He faltered I took his hand.
"You just what?" I asked softly.
"Don't know what life will be like without you, we haven't been apart for 6 years" he replied "I love you, Dia"
My heart began to race. He loved me, I was about to tell him how I felt when he said, "You're my best friend" those were definitely not the words I was looking for.
I sighed and hugged him "We will still see each other all the time, I promise, you will never not have me in your life, but I need to do this"
I said to him, he nodded and pulled me close. How untrue those words would eventually become in the future but at that moment I truly believed my life would never be Billie Joeless. How wrong I was.
Sarah held her head and groaned, "shut up, girl with a hangover here"
"Sorry, but oh bloody hell, they are never going to forgive me" I said.
"I'm so damn mad at myself, I shouldn't have told them like this" I sighed.
"Listen, go and clean yourself up, and go and try to smooth things over with them, I'll finish packing it's no biggie there's not that much left to do anyways" she said.
"Really, you'd do that?" I asked
"Of course you dumb ass, we're best friends" she replied as I ran out the door.
I blew a kiss "love ya, thanks"
I jumped into my car and sped over to the guys house, I banged on the door and heard a muffled "Go away"
"Come on guys let me in" I whined. The door opened and an angry Tre and Mike looked at me with their arms crossed "we're only letting you in because BJ's not here and we want to hear what you have to say for yourself" said Mike.
I started to cry "I I mm sooo sorry, I should have told you so soo sooner, but I didn't know how and I love you guys so much pleaaaase don't hate me" I blubbered.
"Dammit you always know how to get us" said Tre pulling me into a hug
"Yeah I guess I kinda understand," said Mike joining in, "we are going to miss you so much"
"Not as much as I'm going to miss you, but I'm only in LA, we will see each other all the time" I said.
"It won't be the same" whined Tre in a baby voice.
I chuckled "You're only upset because your losing your free of charge merch girl Frankie" they laughed.
"Where's Billie Joe?" I finally asked.
I found him up on Christie Road, kicking a can, walking down the street. I drove up beside him
"Hey sexy need a ride" I joked
He glared at me and kept walking, I parked the car and ran up to him and took him by the arm.
"Come on BJ we need to talk" I said.
"What is there to talk about Lydia, you're going to LA and didn't bother to tell me."
"Well that's not true I did tell you" I argued
"Yeah at the last minute, what, can't you trust me?" he said
"I trust you with my life Billie, you know that, the honest truth is that I didn't know how to tell you, It was too hard"
I sadly beginning to tear up. He looked at me and wiped away a tear.
"Don't cry, I get it, I just..."
He faltered I took his hand.
"You just what?" I asked softly.
"Don't know what life will be like without you, we haven't been apart for 6 years" he replied "I love you, Dia"
My heart began to race. He loved me, I was about to tell him how I felt when he said, "You're my best friend" those were definitely not the words I was looking for.
I sighed and hugged him "We will still see each other all the time, I promise, you will never not have me in your life, but I need to do this"
I said to him, he nodded and pulled me close. How untrue those words would eventually become in the future but at that moment I truly believed my life would never be Billie Joeless. How wrong I was.
