My Only Refuge: The Life I Have and the Life I Want. Well, Here It Is!, chapter 1
"Coz I wanna beeee anarchyyyyy," sang Johnny Rotten. Mara's radio alarm clock pulled her viscously out of her sleep. It was one of her favorite songs. Mara lay in bed, closed her eyes and listened to the song. When the song was over she woke back up to reality and got out of bed. She didn't feel like going to school today, but she knew that if she wagged again she would get suspended and her parents would take her guitar off her. Mara slipped on her sex pistols hoodie, ripped blue jeans, black converses, put on some heavy black eyeliner and grabbed her board. Her poor skateboard had seen better days (as did most of Mara's belongings). It was very dilapidated and covered in peeling operation ivy stickers. She thought it was about time she got a new one.
Mara sleepily made herself some coffee. "Aaah, sweet coffee where would I be without you?" she asked. If it was legal to marry a beverage, Mara would marry coffee.
Mara skated to the bus stop. As she turned the corner, she ran into a group of poseurs. God, how she hated them. They had no idea. Those teenies could burn in hell for all Mara cared.
"Oh look it's the loser!" said one of the teeny girls.
"Great insult!" said Mara, "probably the most intelligent thing you have ever said. Would you like a trophy?"
"God, why don't you get a boyfriend? Oh yeah coz you're UGLY!" said the bitch.
"If I had a dog with a face like yours I would shave its ass and make it walk backwards," said Mara.
Then one of the jocks came up to Mara. "Get out of here you emo scum. No one wants you here!"
"More of a reason to stay then!" Mara shoved the jock and he fell on his ass. She was surprised at her strength! The jock jumped up and Mara kicked him in the nuts. He stacked it and the teenies crowded around him. Then the bus came.
Mara was very pleased with herself. She had started her day on a terrific note, kicking the crap out of a jock! She sat in the back of the school bus and started writing a random song. She was always writing songs. A few stops later, 2 guys got on the bus. One was tall with brown hair, and the other was the hottest guy Mara had ever seen in her life. He had longish auburn hair and was wearing an operation ivy t-shirt. The tall guy shouted 'HELLOOO PINOLE VALLEY HIGH SCHOOLERERS!"
Then the hot guy shouted "SAY HELLO TO YOUR NEW SCHOOL BUDDIES, AND WORST NIGHTMARES!" they ran to the back of the bus and sat next to Mara.
"And hello awesome girl! This is Mike, and I'm Billie Joe!"
Mara smiled said "hey I'm Mara."
"We're new at this school, as you might have realized," said Billie Joe, "and it seems that it is a shithole! So many teenies... "
"Ugh, tell me about it!" said Mara, "but there is an upside to having a school full of poseurs; they're fun to bash!"
"Yes!" said Mike, "that is why we got kicked out of our old school! We kept using the jocks as punching bags... "
Billie Joe punched mike in the arm. "Ah, shut up! You wish, Mike!" he said with a laugh.
"Actually, I gave a jock serious groinage injury this morning... " said Mara. Billie Joe gave her a high five. The conversation continued this way until they got to school.
The three friends got off the bus and headed straight to the oval. "What have you got first?" Mike asked Mara.
"Ugh! Math!"
"Yep, definitely wagging."
That day Mara skated home. She was in an awesome mood. She had the coolest friends on the planet! And Billie was totally sexy...
Mara practically drooled just thinking about his sexy hair and green eyes. When she got home she started playing her guitar. It was a red fender Stratocaster and it took 3 years of pocket money and busking (with her old guitar) to raise enough money to buy it. Mara was so proud if her guitar. She even named it; Christie. Mara started writing out the chords to one of her songs. The song was about depression.
I slit my wrists
To bleed away
The pain that lingers in a cloud above my head
I walk past the graveyard
Green with envy
Oh how I wish I was dead
Mara stopped playing for a moment. She looked at the ugly scars on her wrists and she remembered sitting in the bathroom at the Gilman, slicing her wrists and hoping she would bleed to death...
Mara couldn't sing anymore. Then she heard the phone ring, so she put down her guitar and went to answer it.
"Hello?" she grunted.
"Hey is Kathy around?" said a male voice. Oh great, her mom was with another guy.
"Yes hang on... MOM!" she yelled. Mara went into her mother's bedroom and found her lying on the bed holding a half empty bottle of vodka. She was fast asleep. Mara threw a pillow at her mom and said "Get off your ass and answer the phone."
"Fuck off you good-for-nothing little whore!" screamed her mom and she hurtled and empty alcohol bottle at Mara and it missed Mara's head by just inches. That was the final straw. Mara grabbed a bag and shoved some spare clothes, eyeliner and other essential stuff into it. She took her board and stormed out the front door, slamming it as hard as she could.
"COME BACK HERE YOU LITTLE BITCH! COME BACK OR I WILL FUCKING KILL YOU!"
Mara sleepily made herself some coffee. "Aaah, sweet coffee where would I be without you?" she asked. If it was legal to marry a beverage, Mara would marry coffee.
Mara skated to the bus stop. As she turned the corner, she ran into a group of poseurs. God, how she hated them. They had no idea. Those teenies could burn in hell for all Mara cared.
"Oh look it's the loser!" said one of the teeny girls.
"Great insult!" said Mara, "probably the most intelligent thing you have ever said. Would you like a trophy?"
"God, why don't you get a boyfriend? Oh yeah coz you're UGLY!" said the bitch.
"If I had a dog with a face like yours I would shave its ass and make it walk backwards," said Mara.
Then one of the jocks came up to Mara. "Get out of here you emo scum. No one wants you here!"
"More of a reason to stay then!" Mara shoved the jock and he fell on his ass. She was surprised at her strength! The jock jumped up and Mara kicked him in the nuts. He stacked it and the teenies crowded around him. Then the bus came.
Mara was very pleased with herself. She had started her day on a terrific note, kicking the crap out of a jock! She sat in the back of the school bus and started writing a random song. She was always writing songs. A few stops later, 2 guys got on the bus. One was tall with brown hair, and the other was the hottest guy Mara had ever seen in her life. He had longish auburn hair and was wearing an operation ivy t-shirt. The tall guy shouted 'HELLOOO PINOLE VALLEY HIGH SCHOOLERERS!"
Then the hot guy shouted "SAY HELLO TO YOUR NEW SCHOOL BUDDIES, AND WORST NIGHTMARES!" they ran to the back of the bus and sat next to Mara.
"And hello awesome girl! This is Mike, and I'm Billie Joe!"
Mara smiled said "hey I'm Mara."
"We're new at this school, as you might have realized," said Billie Joe, "and it seems that it is a shithole! So many teenies... "
"Ugh, tell me about it!" said Mara, "but there is an upside to having a school full of poseurs; they're fun to bash!"
"Yes!" said Mike, "that is why we got kicked out of our old school! We kept using the jocks as punching bags... "
Billie Joe punched mike in the arm. "Ah, shut up! You wish, Mike!" he said with a laugh.
"Actually, I gave a jock serious groinage injury this morning... " said Mara. Billie Joe gave her a high five. The conversation continued this way until they got to school.
The three friends got off the bus and headed straight to the oval. "What have you got first?" Mike asked Mara.
"Ugh! Math!"
"Yep, definitely wagging."
That day Mara skated home. She was in an awesome mood. She had the coolest friends on the planet! And Billie was totally sexy...
Mara practically drooled just thinking about his sexy hair and green eyes. When she got home she started playing her guitar. It was a red fender Stratocaster and it took 3 years of pocket money and busking (with her old guitar) to raise enough money to buy it. Mara was so proud if her guitar. She even named it; Christie. Mara started writing out the chords to one of her songs. The song was about depression.
I slit my wrists
To bleed away
The pain that lingers in a cloud above my head
I walk past the graveyard
Green with envy
Oh how I wish I was dead
Mara stopped playing for a moment. She looked at the ugly scars on her wrists and she remembered sitting in the bathroom at the Gilman, slicing her wrists and hoping she would bleed to death...
Mara couldn't sing anymore. Then she heard the phone ring, so she put down her guitar and went to answer it.
"Hello?" she grunted.
"Hey is Kathy around?" said a male voice. Oh great, her mom was with another guy.
"Yes hang on... MOM!" she yelled. Mara went into her mother's bedroom and found her lying on the bed holding a half empty bottle of vodka. She was fast asleep. Mara threw a pillow at her mom and said "Get off your ass and answer the phone."
"Fuck off you good-for-nothing little whore!" screamed her mom and she hurtled and empty alcohol bottle at Mara and it missed Mara's head by just inches. That was the final straw. Mara grabbed a bag and shoved some spare clothes, eyeliner and other essential stuff into it. She took her board and stormed out the front door, slamming it as hard as she could.
"COME BACK HERE YOU LITTLE BITCH! COME BACK OR I WILL FUCKING KILL YOU!"
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