Cut My Wrists and Black My Eyes, chapter 1
There she was again.
Cutting her wrists.
She does this all the time and I want her to stop.
"Jana!" I yelled walking into her room. She dropped the blade and stared at me wide eyed. "What the fuck do you think you're doing?!" I yelled again.
"Mike, I'm sorry!"
I ran over to her and held on to her. She started crying uncontrollably. "Sh. It's ok."
"No it's not Mike."
I sighed knowing she was going to win this battle. "Promise me you will stop this." She nodded and then got up. "Billie's looking for you." She nodded and walked out.
Ok well I guess I can tell you a bit about what is going on. I am Mike Dirnt. And to all of you reading this, it's Mr. Mike Dirnt to you. Yes, the bassist from Green Day. Jana is my little sister. Well, not biological. My mom adopted her when I was 15 and we are really close. She is only a year younger then me. I am 18.
Billie and she are going out. I'm ok with it too. Yea, Tré is in this too... I mean what kind of story is this if Tré isn't in it?
Ok well let's get started.
.:Jana's POV:.
I walked down the stairs to see Billie sitting on the couch. He looked up at me a smiled. "What did you need?" He patted the spot beside him so I sat down. "So... what did you need?"
He stood up pulling me up with him. "Uh... Jana... "
"Hmmm?"
"I don't how to put this but... "
"Yea?" I asked scared shitless.
"I love you!"
"BILLIE, YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE! YOU SCARED ME!"
"How did I do that?"
"I thought you were going to break up with me... "
"Why would I do that?!"
"I don't know... " He smiled and kissed me tenderly.
.:Tré POV:.
I walked down the long hallway with pictures of Mike, Jana, Billie and I. I smiled as I stopped at one. It was when I first met Jana. She was fucking hot, even though she was 14.
.:Flash Back:.
We were all waiting as Mike's stepmother would be arriving soon with Mike's new sis. I was sitting in the grass on his front lawn next to Billie. "What do you think she'll look like?"
"Uh... I don't know... " Billie continued to star at the sky. Mike came over and sat down beside me.
"So... the day is finally here." I nodded just as the mini van pulled up.
"SHE'S HERE!" Billie screamed like a little girl wanting the doll she ad been waiting for, for months.
I laughed as a black haired beauty stepped out of the passenger's side.
She walked over and looked at us. She was wearing eyeliner, a Misfits T-shirt, and black bagging pants. Topping off the outfit a studded belt. Mike's mom came over and we all stood.
"Guys, this is Jana. Jana this is, Mike, Billie Joe, and Tré," she said pointing to each one of us as she called our names.
"Hi."
"Hey Jana... " She looked at me and smiled. I smiled back.
.:End of Flashback:.
I sighed not knowing whether she liked me the way I liked her. "Tré... what are you doing?"
"Huh? Oh just remembering the day we met Jana."
Mike chuckled. He was the only one that knew I had a crush on her. "You still have the hots for her don't ya?" I nodded. He sighed and I continued to walk down the hall. "Tré!"
"Yeah?"
"Why don't you tell her how you feel?"
"I don't know how Mike. I just don't."
He sighed and looked back at the picture.
I walked down the stairs and saw Jana and Billie making out on the couch. My heart sank. It really sank. I was sad, confused, and angry all at once. One part of me wanted to go and rip Billie off of her and make out with her myself. But the other part of me wanted to crawl into a hole and cry.
I guess this is what feels like.
I walked back upstairs and into my room.
I laid face down on my pillow and cried myself to sleep.
.:My Dream:.
I was in a familiar place. I looked around to see I was in Jana's room.
She was lying on my chest. "Tré, I know you are sleeping but I just want you to know that I love you."
"I love you too."
She jumped and looked at me with a smile. "Really?"
"Really, really. 6 tons to be exact."
She smiled and pressed her soft pink lips to mine. "Tré, I have loved you since the day I saw you."
"Really, because I have me since the day I met me too!"
She burst out laughing. I love her laugh. "I have loved you too since the day we met."
She smiled and pressed her lips against mine. She sat up and got out of bed, walking over to the radio. She turned it on and switched it to 92.1. Grabbing my hand she pulled me up and began dancing with me. She grinded her hips against mine.
.:End Of Dream:.
I woke up in tears. I want her so fucking bad! I looked at the clock on my bedside table. 2:39 AM.
I sighed. There was a knock at the door. "Yea?"
"Tré, can I come in?"
YES!!! It was Jana!! YAY!! "Sure." I sat up as she sat on my bed. "What's up?"
"I need to ask you something about Billie."
"Ok... Go ahead."
"Does he use a girl for sex?"
"Oh my... you had sex with him?"
"No... no."
"Ok... well... I don't know."
"Tré... I don't think I love him anymore."
"What?"
"I just don't think I love Billie like I used to."
"Then who do you love?"
"Well... "
Cutting her wrists.
She does this all the time and I want her to stop.
"Jana!" I yelled walking into her room. She dropped the blade and stared at me wide eyed. "What the fuck do you think you're doing?!" I yelled again.
"Mike, I'm sorry!"
I ran over to her and held on to her. She started crying uncontrollably. "Sh. It's ok."
"No it's not Mike."
I sighed knowing she was going to win this battle. "Promise me you will stop this." She nodded and then got up. "Billie's looking for you." She nodded and walked out.
Ok well I guess I can tell you a bit about what is going on. I am Mike Dirnt. And to all of you reading this, it's Mr. Mike Dirnt to you. Yes, the bassist from Green Day. Jana is my little sister. Well, not biological. My mom adopted her when I was 15 and we are really close. She is only a year younger then me. I am 18.
Billie and she are going out. I'm ok with it too. Yea, Tré is in this too... I mean what kind of story is this if Tré isn't in it?
Ok well let's get started.
.:Jana's POV:.
I walked down the stairs to see Billie sitting on the couch. He looked up at me a smiled. "What did you need?" He patted the spot beside him so I sat down. "So... what did you need?"
He stood up pulling me up with him. "Uh... Jana... "
"Hmmm?"
"I don't how to put this but... "
"Yea?" I asked scared shitless.
"I love you!"
"BILLIE, YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE! YOU SCARED ME!"
"How did I do that?"
"I thought you were going to break up with me... "
"Why would I do that?!"
"I don't know... " He smiled and kissed me tenderly.
.:Tré POV:.
I walked down the long hallway with pictures of Mike, Jana, Billie and I. I smiled as I stopped at one. It was when I first met Jana. She was fucking hot, even though she was 14.
.:Flash Back:.
We were all waiting as Mike's stepmother would be arriving soon with Mike's new sis. I was sitting in the grass on his front lawn next to Billie. "What do you think she'll look like?"
"Uh... I don't know... " Billie continued to star at the sky. Mike came over and sat down beside me.
"So... the day is finally here." I nodded just as the mini van pulled up.
"SHE'S HERE!" Billie screamed like a little girl wanting the doll she ad been waiting for, for months.
I laughed as a black haired beauty stepped out of the passenger's side.
She walked over and looked at us. She was wearing eyeliner, a Misfits T-shirt, and black bagging pants. Topping off the outfit a studded belt. Mike's mom came over and we all stood.
"Guys, this is Jana. Jana this is, Mike, Billie Joe, and Tré," she said pointing to each one of us as she called our names.
"Hi."
"Hey Jana... " She looked at me and smiled. I smiled back.
.:End of Flashback:.
I sighed not knowing whether she liked me the way I liked her. "Tré... what are you doing?"
"Huh? Oh just remembering the day we met Jana."
Mike chuckled. He was the only one that knew I had a crush on her. "You still have the hots for her don't ya?" I nodded. He sighed and I continued to walk down the hall. "Tré!"
"Yeah?"
"Why don't you tell her how you feel?"
"I don't know how Mike. I just don't."
He sighed and looked back at the picture.
I walked down the stairs and saw Jana and Billie making out on the couch. My heart sank. It really sank. I was sad, confused, and angry all at once. One part of me wanted to go and rip Billie off of her and make out with her myself. But the other part of me wanted to crawl into a hole and cry.
I guess this is what feels like.
I walked back upstairs and into my room.
I laid face down on my pillow and cried myself to sleep.
.:My Dream:.
I was in a familiar place. I looked around to see I was in Jana's room.
She was lying on my chest. "Tré, I know you are sleeping but I just want you to know that I love you."
"I love you too."
She jumped and looked at me with a smile. "Really?"
"Really, really. 6 tons to be exact."
She smiled and pressed her soft pink lips to mine. "Tré, I have loved you since the day I saw you."
"Really, because I have me since the day I met me too!"
She burst out laughing. I love her laugh. "I have loved you too since the day we met."
She smiled and pressed her lips against mine. She sat up and got out of bed, walking over to the radio. She turned it on and switched it to 92.1. Grabbing my hand she pulled me up and began dancing with me. She grinded her hips against mine.
.:End Of Dream:.
I woke up in tears. I want her so fucking bad! I looked at the clock on my bedside table. 2:39 AM.
I sighed. There was a knock at the door. "Yea?"
"Tré, can I come in?"
YES!!! It was Jana!! YAY!! "Sure." I sat up as she sat on my bed. "What's up?"
"I need to ask you something about Billie."
"Ok... Go ahead."
"Does he use a girl for sex?"
"Oh my... you had sex with him?"
"No... no."
"Ok... well... I don't know."
"Tré... I don't think I love him anymore."
"What?"
"I just don't think I love Billie like I used to."
"Then who do you love?"
"Well... "
