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Me? Uhmmm.. I'm Jullienne & I hate my name. I'd rather be called.. Jojo or Joey.
Green day is the best band for me. Well, next to My Chemical Romance.
I love being alone in my room especially when it's dark & sometimes, too many people freaks me out. I talk to myself[I'm crazy] & I love pain. There are lots of times I tried to slit my wrist just to feel the pain but, I can't. I'm afraid of death & life scares me. That's all. & At first, yeah I'm always saying I'm emo but now.. I hate it. I don't hate those emos but what pisses me off is those people labeling themselves. I admit I labeled myself but, now I realized it's fxcking gross. Labeling is a big no-no for me..

The "sad" or "in pain" part of me..
I'm Jullienne, a 13 year old girl who doesn't like what's going on w/ her life. She trusts the one above more than anyone. She's afraid of death & life as well. She loves pressing those keys in the keyboard. She just loves the sound it makes. She has her own world, always imagining things. She wishes to be the one w/ she loves but it's too impossible. She doesn't have real friends, Oh! Yes, she has! Only 1 real friend. Others? They're all fake. She wanted a band since.. 12.. Wanted to learn how to play lead/rhythm/bass guitar & drums. She talks to herself 'cause she doesn't have anybody. Wait.. she has the computer. At least it makes her less lonely. She's not alone but feels lonely.. Cries herself to sleep. Longing for the persons she left in that place.. Needs help, desperately. Yep, that's me.

And let's see.. I'm miserable, yes but not too miserable that I would actually kill myself..

I believe in God.(Don't laugh!) Really! Maybe 'cause I grew up in a family and country that has a great faith and really believes in Him. At first, I really think He's just a myth but in time.. There's something that made my beliefs.. 'change'. I just can't explain. Sometimes, I became angry with those who laughs at me or thinks I'm too old-fashioned to believe in one God in such a young age but.. I can't blame them. That's what they believe and this is what I believe. We all have our opinions. It just.. hurts.: :

Music.. what is it for me? Music is so damn important to me that I couldn't imagine life without it. It's so.. I can't explain. It's the reason I became different, a lot stronger and though I'm miserable, hehe, I still have a good outlook in life and music is the reason why.

And another thing.. when I see someone that has the same nationality[w/ me] and that person is too proud of herself/himself 'cause.. example,he/she speaks fluently in English or he/she is so damn good English speaker.. he/she doesn't want to talk to someone that has the same nationality 'cause he/she thinks he/she is too high, he/she is too great that he/she thinks ''I'm too good to talk to her, better talk with someone else like American/European.'' And I hate that attitude. That's why I'm thinking..
What's happening to us?
You know what I mean? Ugh!

And wait! Another thing about me is.. [I hate this attitude of mine] I always want to be treated as the 'sweetheart' or as the youngest sibling. It's because I want the attention given to the younger ones. That's the reason I still don't want to be teenager. (Am I different?) 'sigh' It really feels good when someone will call me 'hun' or 'sweetie' or 'sweetheart' or anything that makes me feel the youngest in the family/community. But.. I don't know.

Uhmm, some bands/singers I like
*Green day!
C'mon.. there's no need to explain why I love this band!

*My Chemical Romance
Why? Because this is the band that really get me into music. This band is the reason I love music and.. I found myself and who I want to be because of this band.

*Fall out boy
'Cause.. they're awesome. Maybe they're one of the bands I consider 'new kids on the block' but I have to admit they're good

*Panic! At the disco
The same description with Fall out boy BUT.. I like them more. I actually think that they're the new Smashing Pumpkins BUT [there's that 'but again] I'm not saying that they're really like the Pumpkins.. I have great respect for that band I mean.. I consider them as legend so.. I think I have no right to compare P!ATD to Pumpkins BUT.. P!ATD is great.

*Korn
'Cause this band is awesome. Davis is awesome and Monkey.. is a very amazing Bassist. Their songs are like.. um.. pumps my blood

*Slipknot
Wait! I like Slipknot more than the band above but.. Korn's good. Anyway.. Slipknot is already a Living Legend[for me] in terms of 'hardcore rock/metal'. Amazing.. amazing band.

*Mudvayne
Same with Slipknot but it's less popular BUT.. this band is so damn great.

*Snow Patrol
I just fell in love with this band 'cause of "signal fire".. I love that song!

*Guns and roses
Do I have to explain? Let's see 'cause this band is awesome, cool, amazing,incredible and I love Axl Rose.

*Cranberries
I don't know if this band is famous to you but.. even though they're already.. you know, 'disbanded'.. I still like them

*Linkin Park
No need for explanations

*Blink 182
Love the songs, love the vocalist and they're like Green day.. the difference is.. they're the same with Cranberries

*Matchbox 20
'Cause I like Rob Thomas. And the songs are great

*Incubus
Now, the only reason I loOoOoOvE this band 'cause listen to the voice of the vocalist.. it's amazing!

*Good Charlotte
I still don't know GC that much but.. all I know is 'river is f*cking awesome.

*Evanescence
'Cause Amy Lee.. she's a girl and she makes me so proud.. Dunno, I don't know many girls who sings/plays in a rock band. And not to mention she's pretty

I think that's all..

And the singers.. Elton John o_O and Avril.

This is the 7 deadly sins for me
Seven Deadly Sins

1. Spelling any of the Gods of Green Day's names wrong.
Billie- *not* Billy
Dirnt- *not* Dirk
Tre- *not* Tree
(spelling mistakes don't count)

2. Seeing Billie's initials, BJ, and thinking Blow Job.
(very bad, very very bad!!!)

3. Getting the Gods mixed up.

4. Turing the stereo off during a Green Day song.

5. Changing any words in a Green Day song that the God Billie Joe, Mike or Tre has written.

6. Saying, "I don't like Green Day all that much." or anything like that.

7. Calling the Green Day Gods fags or letting anyone else.(in other words-disrespecting Green Day)

*I didn't mean to but, I've done 2!!! Forgive me!

The 10 Commandments
Ten Commandments:

1. Turn up the radio as loud as possible when Green Day is played

2. Sing along to the radio when Green Day is played

3. Own at least 4 out of the 6 available Green Day CDs in most record stores

4. Go to a Green Day website everyday

5. Listen to at least one Green Day CD everyday

6. Have at least one poster of Green Day on your wall

7. Have a Green Day quote(God's or song) in your email signature

8. Own at least one Green Day shirt and patch

9. When Green Day comes to/or around your town, see them at all costs!

10. Go To Green Day church once a week

Other commandments I follow..
The Ten Commandments of a Chemical Romance

1.Thou shall not put a gun to thy lover's head.

2.Thou shall be willing to die for love.

3.Thou shall seek revenge on those who wrong you.

4.Thou shall be a demolition lover.

5.Thou shall unleash the bats.

6.Thou shall protect thy lover from everything. (even vampires)

7.Thou shall respect the lords , Gerard , Frank , Mikey , Bob , Ray

8.Thou shall sing the holy hymns of the chemical romance.

9.Thou shall see beauty in bloody love.

10.Thou shall rock hard.

The Ten Commandments of the Black Parade

1.Thou shalt except death as it comes

2.Thou shalt sing and march without question

3.Thou shalt face fear and regret

4.thou shalt let go of thy dreams

5.Thou shalt give blood

6.Thou shalt fear thy sins

7.Thou shalt protect thy brothers in arms

8.Thou shalt darken thy clothes

9.Thou shalt not walk this world alone

10.THOU SHALT CARRY ON!!!