So, My birthday is coming up.
Hey,
This is my first ever blog, so don't expect to much.
Okay, so. This is just gonna be like, random things that happen in a teenage life, possibly mine.
So on the 28th of may I turn 15. This comes with negatives and positives, the positives being;
- closer to getting my licence
- being allowed out without a curfew
- not having my parents check up on me a whole lot
then there the negatives;
- having to get a job
- 'growing up' and becoming more of an individual.
I'm actually looking foward to it, I'm 15 have only had 2 boyfriends but ironically still haven't had my first kiss, and im not afraid to admit it. Go on laugh, it won't make you feel any bigger than me. I really like this guy, i won't say his name, bcause i don;t want to, anyway, he's 18, and i met him through a friend. Now, i don't know him a whole lot, but still, that doesn't give me a reason not to like him. One night i told some people and it got to him [it's surprising how fast things get around] and he kept on saying i was nothing more than a 'top chick' to him and because of the age difference he would never consider anything more. Now today, him and another guy friend met up with two, let's say, preps from my school, who i happen to hate alot. When they got back, they kept going on about how hot they were and etc. Now that really pissed me off.
Nowadays, do you have to be a size 0, and eat practically nothing, and sell yourself to the locality of people to become popular, or in this case, the fantasy of teenage boys dreams? Why is it so hard, to get a boyfriend who doesn't care what you look like, but cares for who you are a whole person, some looks, some personality, and whatever you can like about the person. If he ends up dating one of them, i will end up very angry, hurt and pissed off. Just because i'm not a size 0, or sell myself does that make me less inclined to have a boyfriend who loves me for me?
So, people who have 'been there done that' with being 15, how the hell did you get through it and what the hell is your secret? .. My parents are pushing me to get a job, and believe me, I've tried, so very, very hard, they want me to be everything and do everything their way. It's like, i can never be myself around my parents, I'm always a different person to them than to who i am to my friends. My parents are laid back and all, but i still can't find the guts to be myself. Me and my mum are really close, but there are alot of things i can't bring myself to tell her.
According to my mum, all of this 'punk/emo' stuff is just a phase, cause everyone else is going through it. my;
- music taste
- my clothing style
- attitude.
Now let's see, actually, not every teenager is going through this, because not every teenager listens to punk/metal etc, not every teen is dressing like, well, let's face it, dressing like a freak, and mum, my attitude, it's part of me, everyone has one, it's probabaly just not as bad as you think mine is. I won't get out of this phase, it just happens to be who i am. and NO, not even you will change it.
Now, in school, im getting all good marks, they aren't perfect A's. but there's A,B and C's in there. nothing lower, nothing higher. i study in school, i do all my work, yeah i may slack off occasionally, but i always hand in every piece of work even if it is crappily done.
I do think i have changed, not a whole lot, but i have changed. im sure you would too, if you were dragged away from your whole family, with only a few months notice. one day i found out we were moving to another state, the next month we were packed up. and because of a stupid arse family rift, i never got to say good-bye to them, and i regret it. I just wish my family would follow their own advice, and instead of lecturing me, get off their bums and apologise to each other, don't break the family up over one stupid incident, which half of us dont even know about.
Sometimes, family is all you need, and when you don't have it, your pretty much screwed. and ive told mum this, but as usual, it's just, 'teenage hormones' or 'dont do as i do, do as i say.'
no.
Anyways, i'll try to have a really good birthday. =]
This is my first ever blog, so don't expect to much.
Okay, so. This is just gonna be like, random things that happen in a teenage life, possibly mine.
So on the 28th of may I turn 15. This comes with negatives and positives, the positives being;
- closer to getting my licence
- being allowed out without a curfew
- not having my parents check up on me a whole lot
then there the negatives;
- having to get a job
- 'growing up' and becoming more of an individual.
I'm actually looking foward to it, I'm 15 have only had 2 boyfriends but ironically still haven't had my first kiss, and im not afraid to admit it. Go on laugh, it won't make you feel any bigger than me. I really like this guy, i won't say his name, bcause i don;t want to, anyway, he's 18, and i met him through a friend. Now, i don't know him a whole lot, but still, that doesn't give me a reason not to like him. One night i told some people and it got to him [it's surprising how fast things get around] and he kept on saying i was nothing more than a 'top chick' to him and because of the age difference he would never consider anything more. Now today, him and another guy friend met up with two, let's say, preps from my school, who i happen to hate alot. When they got back, they kept going on about how hot they were and etc. Now that really pissed me off.
Nowadays, do you have to be a size 0, and eat practically nothing, and sell yourself to the locality of people to become popular, or in this case, the fantasy of teenage boys dreams? Why is it so hard, to get a boyfriend who doesn't care what you look like, but cares for who you are a whole person, some looks, some personality, and whatever you can like about the person. If he ends up dating one of them, i will end up very angry, hurt and pissed off. Just because i'm not a size 0, or sell myself does that make me less inclined to have a boyfriend who loves me for me?
So, people who have 'been there done that' with being 15, how the hell did you get through it and what the hell is your secret? .. My parents are pushing me to get a job, and believe me, I've tried, so very, very hard, they want me to be everything and do everything their way. It's like, i can never be myself around my parents, I'm always a different person to them than to who i am to my friends. My parents are laid back and all, but i still can't find the guts to be myself. Me and my mum are really close, but there are alot of things i can't bring myself to tell her.
According to my mum, all of this 'punk/emo' stuff is just a phase, cause everyone else is going through it. my;
- music taste
- my clothing style
- attitude.
Now let's see, actually, not every teenager is going through this, because not every teenager listens to punk/metal etc, not every teen is dressing like, well, let's face it, dressing like a freak, and mum, my attitude, it's part of me, everyone has one, it's probabaly just not as bad as you think mine is. I won't get out of this phase, it just happens to be who i am. and NO, not even you will change it.
Now, in school, im getting all good marks, they aren't perfect A's. but there's A,B and C's in there. nothing lower, nothing higher. i study in school, i do all my work, yeah i may slack off occasionally, but i always hand in every piece of work even if it is crappily done.
I do think i have changed, not a whole lot, but i have changed. im sure you would too, if you were dragged away from your whole family, with only a few months notice. one day i found out we were moving to another state, the next month we were packed up. and because of a stupid arse family rift, i never got to say good-bye to them, and i regret it. I just wish my family would follow their own advice, and instead of lecturing me, get off their bums and apologise to each other, don't break the family up over one stupid incident, which half of us dont even know about.
Sometimes, family is all you need, and when you don't have it, your pretty much screwed. and ive told mum this, but as usual, it's just, 'teenage hormones' or 'dont do as i do, do as i say.'
no.
Anyways, i'll try to have a really good birthday. =]
''- having to get a job''
psh, think of the moooonnneeeeeyyyyyyyyyyyy :D
paper shoes, May 31st, 2007 at 09:56:39am
hope u have a great bday!!
PenguinPunk, May 27th, 2007 at 02:10:14pm
lawl. thanks guys ...
yeah ... i hate how i always fall for teh wrong guys ... i had one person ... where the feeling was mutual ... but i missed out ... x[ oh well. xD
thanks, i will have a great birthday. =]
Tre Cool Junkeh, May 27th, 2007 at 04:25:57am
i hope you have a good birthday, you also will be able to see MA 15+ movies without having to get someone else to buy tickets and go to a huge hassle about it. XD. But dont worry, what your going through isnt a phase. My parents though two years back when i started listening to Green Day was a phase, oh how wrong they were. XD.
Vegemite, May 26th, 2007 at 11:28:36pm
yeah i hope you have a good birthday too, im 16 next month and man am i looking forward to it. being 15 for me has been great, rough and hard but thats to do with my father and some of my so called friends now worst enemies!! for guys who want girlfriends like that and cant see what a knid person you are just tell them to f*ck off, its not about your looks that count its who you are, i never thought i would date my boyfriend because of how he seemed in college but once i met him out of college hes a great guy i now will get to know someone before i judge . anyway you will find the perfect someone it took me ages but hey that guys out thre somewhere for you, not all guys are totally f*cking scumbags, i know sorta what you mean about the family stuff ive had that with my dad .youre mum will see who you are and i hope she excepts that and is proud of you.have a great birthday
redgreendayfan, May 26th, 2007 at 12:35:05pm
My mom thinks the whole punk/emo thing I am is just a phase, too...Well, you know, it really pisses me off, but you should just ignore it...As time goes by, your mom will understand that it's not a phase..!
And, for those boys....As Skippy said, f*ck THEM! Let them have those anorexic sl*ts, they really don't know that they will lose...Cause they will lose you...I don't really know you much, but you are a great person!!!
<3
Nicole...
brompton cocktail., May 26th, 2007 at 12:32:02pm
Well I hope you have a good Birthday. =D
& as for those guys who like skinny hoes. [[: f*ck them, they can have anorexic girlfriends.
Your mum will realise it's not a phase, & she'll just have to accept the way you are.
Skippy., May 26th, 2007 at 08:50:02am