This life...
Nothing is exciting and groundbreaking happens anymore. Music is just...in a really bad state. I'd much rather live in the 70s or 80s. I mean, it was so much more exciting. You know, things were breaking out, new inventions. It's crazy, because I have so much stuff that kids back then would consider for the wealthy.
I know it's not bad to have lots of nice things, and a well held together family, but then it all seems like there's nothing to look forward to. I hate how people think if you have money, you automatically have to be happy. Like...if you were rich you'd be some spoiled bastard because you might be unhappy.
I don't care if we don't have any money. It doesn't make a person happy...completely.
I could be the happiest person in the world and go home smelling to high Heaven. I just want to LIVE. Cooped up in some sheltered lifestyle is not what I want. I was alot happier when we had nothing. We were so poor. We had nothing. The first three years I lived here, I had to sleep on a single, twin sized mattress on the floor. We...really had literally nothing. Now, it's so different. We have so much more. I'm the youngest, and all my sisters have moved out and started families. So most people think I'm an only child...my sisters grew up in an entirely different decade than I am.
Like...it's one of my life goals to go on a road trip, everywhere. I'd go anywhere under any conditions. Nothing else matters...it's just about doing it. I wouldn't care if I didn't have a place to stay, or the car broke down, or anything. I admire people who are so happy and they have nothing.
I know my parents want the best for me, but sometimes I just want to live a wild life. No rules. Anything goes. I guess I've always been, or wanted to be, one of those "free" people. I just need some release. I want my younger years to be...crazy, happy, totally out of control. And then, when I decide to, I'd stop...grow up, improve with age. Become one those wise old people. Those are two very different sides to me. One is wild, and the other...too deep keep going.
I want to have one hell of a story to tell.
I know it's not bad to have lots of nice things, and a well held together family, but then it all seems like there's nothing to look forward to. I hate how people think if you have money, you automatically have to be happy. Like...if you were rich you'd be some spoiled bastard because you might be unhappy.
I don't care if we don't have any money. It doesn't make a person happy...completely.
I could be the happiest person in the world and go home smelling to high Heaven. I just want to LIVE. Cooped up in some sheltered lifestyle is not what I want. I was alot happier when we had nothing. We were so poor. We had nothing. The first three years I lived here, I had to sleep on a single, twin sized mattress on the floor. We...really had literally nothing. Now, it's so different. We have so much more. I'm the youngest, and all my sisters have moved out and started families. So most people think I'm an only child...my sisters grew up in an entirely different decade than I am.
Like...it's one of my life goals to go on a road trip, everywhere. I'd go anywhere under any conditions. Nothing else matters...it's just about doing it. I wouldn't care if I didn't have a place to stay, or the car broke down, or anything. I admire people who are so happy and they have nothing.
I know my parents want the best for me, but sometimes I just want to live a wild life. No rules. Anything goes. I guess I've always been, or wanted to be, one of those "free" people. I just need some release. I want my younger years to be...crazy, happy, totally out of control. And then, when I decide to, I'd stop...grow up, improve with age. Become one those wise old people. Those are two very different sides to me. One is wild, and the other...too deep keep going.
I want to have one hell of a story to tell.
I agree with you. My family never had much money but we made it on what we had. My half-brother just bought a new house, a new car, etc. He married into a rich family and I'm happy for him but I wouldn't want that for that myself. He has nice things but now that he has them, there are bills to pay and there's always something else to buy. I would love to travel one day. Just to get out of the city and go somewhere quiet like a farm or something. No noise, no traffic, no pollution.
whyamIstillhere?, August 11th, 2007 at 02:22:46pm
I know what you mean.
And lately I've been feeling the same way, too. Especially with the whole music thing. I'm noticing half the stuff I listen to nowadays all sounds the same. Bands such as Fall Out Boy. I mean, I don't hate them or anything, but lately it's just been sounding so similar.
I miss being a kid. Doing all that simple stuff. Now its just they demand to be entertained immediately. Not do it themself.
I'm like you. I want to be free and crazy. Live life to the fullest. We only get one shot, right? And yes, I want a hell of a story to tell.
The Brightside., August 10th, 2007 at 08:42:07am
I loved my childhood. Now that I look back on it it was just so loveable. I didn't have a computer. I didn't have a Nintendo until I was 9, and even then I didn't spend my life on it.
My childhood was filled with playing the kids in the street. Riding bikes. Playing at the park next door. Nearly every weekend I would ride my bike to my friends house up the street and stay the night.
Now it's different. Now children play their computers and PlayStations all day. I don't see any children outside in the streets playing anymore.
I see where you're coming from though. Money can't buy happiness. I want to go on a road trip too one day. I'm old enough to go now. I want to go around Australia. That'd be cool.
vonny, August 10th, 2007 at 07:23:29am