We broke up :(
Now I finally have the courage to talk about this. Nick and I broke up.
I've been feeling it since weeks, to be exact since beginning of September. He seemed so different towards me, weird. I lacked affection, he seemed like he didnt enjoy talking to me that much anymore. Something changed.
Now after all these months being with him it is so hard to move on. He was my everything. I gave everything to him. I loved him more than anything...I still do, but now I have to learn to live without him, at least without him as my boyfriend. I have to face the fact that other girls will be close to him.
I always hoped we could be together forever. The time we had was so great, so perfect. Maybe too perfect? I don't know. I wanna go back in time and experience it again. But I can't. I have to move on with my life.
And even if for now it hurts more than anything, one day I hope I can get over it. For now the pain is just too real, my feelings for him still so strong. It feels as if I have forgotten how to live without him. Who will I think of when I fall asleep? It's little things that always remind me of him.
And sometimes the tears won't stop falling, and my heart is calling for him. I had to put all his things in a box so they don't remind me of our love. His shirt that I smelled and hugged every night, the keychain from him that I used, the candle, the mammoth that I always cuddled, and more stuff.
I don't blame him that it's over. Maybe it wasn't meant to happen. I'm happy we are still friends.
And one day someone will find me, someone who I can give my love again. Someone who I can be with forever. That is my dream. That is what I believe in: True Love. He is somewhere out there, I just have to find him. And I will.
I've been feeling it since weeks, to be exact since beginning of September. He seemed so different towards me, weird. I lacked affection, he seemed like he didnt enjoy talking to me that much anymore. Something changed.
Now after all these months being with him it is so hard to move on. He was my everything. I gave everything to him. I loved him more than anything...I still do, but now I have to learn to live without him, at least without him as my boyfriend. I have to face the fact that other girls will be close to him.
I always hoped we could be together forever. The time we had was so great, so perfect. Maybe too perfect? I don't know. I wanna go back in time and experience it again. But I can't. I have to move on with my life.
And even if for now it hurts more than anything, one day I hope I can get over it. For now the pain is just too real, my feelings for him still so strong. It feels as if I have forgotten how to live without him. Who will I think of when I fall asleep? It's little things that always remind me of him.
And sometimes the tears won't stop falling, and my heart is calling for him. I had to put all his things in a box so they don't remind me of our love. His shirt that I smelled and hugged every night, the keychain from him that I used, the candle, the mammoth that I always cuddled, and more stuff.
I don't blame him that it's over. Maybe it wasn't meant to happen. I'm happy we are still friends.
And one day someone will find me, someone who I can give my love again. Someone who I can be with forever. That is my dream. That is what I believe in: True Love. He is somewhere out there, I just have to find him. And I will.
thank you guys *hugs all*
thanks for being here for me
Love, October 21st, 2007 at 01:17:32pm
Susi, things will get better for you hun. Have faith and patience.
*hugs tight*
<3
Grandma, October 21st, 2007 at 02:54:46am
I have to admit I'm kid off shocked, you guys always seemed so happy and stuff. I'm really sorry that you have to go through with it, and even though it might not seem like it right now, things will get better. Do things to get your mind off him, have fun, and never doubt that there are people here for you who cares about you <3
Mr. Teatime, October 21st, 2007 at 01:09:04am
okay. i don't know what to say. except i know how you feel. but there is a perfect person for you out there. you'll find him. *hugs*
get famous, October 20th, 2007 at 11:15:58pm
oh man, i'm so sorry. :[
now i feel bad for what i said, omg.
i hope all goes well, you'll find the perfect person.
jesse rulez d00d., October 20th, 2007 at 04:17:28pm
wow, I definitely wasn't expecting this.
Stay strong baby, I love you.
newagecarny, October 20th, 2007 at 03:55:19pm
I am really sorry. And really shocked.
You two were meant to be.
You were so happy and...I thought you were made for each other.
:hug:
brompton cocktail., October 20th, 2007 at 01:21:23pm
Fühl dich gaaaaaaaaanz dolle gedrückt !!!!!!!!!!!!! :)
soudain, October 20th, 2007 at 10:59:22am
=[ Aw.. I'm really sorry. You guys seemed really happy together.. That really sucks, but I'm glad you're trying your best to stay on the bright side and trying to move on. It's difficult to do that.. You've got a good attitude. I hope you find that someone. =] *hugs*
threeam., October 20th, 2007 at 07:57:41am
I almost peed my pants when I saw this blog...I can't believe that! *hugshugshugs* I'm so sorry =[ <3
lishaaaaa, October 20th, 2007 at 02:01:31am
wow im shocked, you two sounded so happy. but no worries you'll find the right guy soon, i know it. my bfs been kinda quiet lately, acting like he has no emotion at all. i know he loves me and everything, hes told me, but hes just not very emotional he says. And sometimes it seems like hes hiding something from me. *sigh* i just hope things work out between us, we seem so right for each other.
The Evil Alchemist, October 20th, 2007 at 01:17:37am