friendship is more than mutual.
i graduated, i'm going to college. inevitably, i've been thinking of high school friends. i've come to realize people i thought of as friends may not have felt the same towards me...and that makes me a bit sad. i felt like giving up, just not having friends, or waiting till college and just starting over. but i realized tonight how happy these friends make me, whether or not they love me as much as i love them...
my brother was having a pretty big co-ed birthday party, a first for him. good right? not really. the girls he invited are preps, loud and annoying. the boys- the gamers, "losers", "weird kids". like me. like my brother used to be. so we were all in the living room, trying to watch a movie. the girls were insanely loud, you pretty much couldn't hear a thing. the boys there- storm, ian, joe, erik, chris, tyler. storm is my boyfriend, ian is his best friend, joe and erik are also pretty much his best friends. and they've become mine too, really. i knew joe before i met storm, i met ian through my brother, erik is one of storm's close friends and hes become my friend too. i've known chris and tyler for pretty much every year out of the six years i've lived in this town, but they aren't part of our crowd. so storm, ian, joe, erik, and me, the losers, the kids that those preppy girls make fun of- we were miserably sitting on a secluded area of the living room. my brother didn't even talk to us. hes been friends with these guys wayy longer than those girls...but hes a boy, so of course he'll just pay attention to those girls...
well anyway, i digressed from my point. we eventually went to a different room, bringing my small tv from my room and an xbox 360.we did our thing- sat and played halo 3 and dead rising. video games are what we do...and i'm not ashamed to admit this. we were having a lot of fun...this is when i realized that these boys make me happier than anyone- so why shouldn't i call them my best friends? i know they care about me, just maybe not as much as i care about them. they might see me as storm's girlfriend who just happens to be a little cooler than most girlfriends since shes just like them. strange little gamer geek. it used to bother me. i used to think they didn't even think that. but these are the really amazing points about these amazing boys...
ian- ian makes friends with EVERYONE. hes is crazy, the most outgoing person i have EVER met. he even had the balls to talk casually to our mean principal who warmed up to him even though ian was always in trouble. i know i'm not one of his best friends, but we joke with each other and since i mean the world to storm, his best friend, he respects me a bit more.
joe- i used to have this big crush on him before i met storm. i used to hang out with him a bunch. since then we've grown apart a little, but we have been talking a lot recently. he's a great friend, one of the nicest people i've ever met. i have some really great memories of him before storm and from now. hes been a good friend for over two years now.
erik- erik is the one person i used to really worry about liking me. he is one of the rudest people, but i think it is due to his extreme lack of social skills. he is really backwards. we used to never get along. he'd call me names, say he hated me. i'd tell him i hated him while being extremely hurt because i've never been mean to him first. hes really quiet and if he doesn't like someone, he tells them. but now, we are pretty good friends, amazingly. he hardly ever makes fun of me. he even offers me his video games to borrow. he owns TONS of video games, and one time i borrowed probably 15 or 20 of them at once. he now smiles at me, something he doesn't normally do. he talks to me all the time...its so amazing. he probably doesn't consider me a best friend, but he has to consider me a good friend or he wouldn't open up to me. he is always eager to help me with video games (even though i LOVE playing them, i'm not always great at figuring out how to do them...lol). today he actually gave me the controller while he was playing halo 3. he actually let me play halo 3 with the other guys. then, he sat down with me for probably 15-25 minutes helping me with dead rising, showing me secret tricks and things he unlocked, helping me find a controller that wasn't broken...he makes me smile, something that people usually wouldn't say about him...
so these boys mean so much to me. why not call them best friends? they make me happy. i am a really weird girl. i can't get along with girls, i never could. i don't have a best girl friend, really i don't have any girl friends. just acquaintances. i used to think very badly about myself for this...but is it wrong to be friends with these guys that i just really love? i don't think it is. i think if you love a person (as a friend, duh), it doesn't matter how good of a friend they think you are...i would call them my best friends now.
random note-
i had such a great time with them tonight. laughing, making crazy taco dip with ian, actually playing the coveted multiplayer halo 3, and learning to be awesome at dead rising. i even actually enjoyed watching them. i witnessed a really priceless moment- we were listening to system of a down, a band these boys really love. every single one of them, even quiet mean erik, sang to the songs. it was really sweet. i can't believe how cute it was to see them all sing together...=]
they just make me happy, is that so wrong?
my brother was having a pretty big co-ed birthday party, a first for him. good right? not really. the girls he invited are preps, loud and annoying. the boys- the gamers, "losers", "weird kids". like me. like my brother used to be. so we were all in the living room, trying to watch a movie. the girls were insanely loud, you pretty much couldn't hear a thing. the boys there- storm, ian, joe, erik, chris, tyler. storm is my boyfriend, ian is his best friend, joe and erik are also pretty much his best friends. and they've become mine too, really. i knew joe before i met storm, i met ian through my brother, erik is one of storm's close friends and hes become my friend too. i've known chris and tyler for pretty much every year out of the six years i've lived in this town, but they aren't part of our crowd. so storm, ian, joe, erik, and me, the losers, the kids that those preppy girls make fun of- we were miserably sitting on a secluded area of the living room. my brother didn't even talk to us. hes been friends with these guys wayy longer than those girls...but hes a boy, so of course he'll just pay attention to those girls...
well anyway, i digressed from my point. we eventually went to a different room, bringing my small tv from my room and an xbox 360.we did our thing- sat and played halo 3 and dead rising. video games are what we do...and i'm not ashamed to admit this. we were having a lot of fun...this is when i realized that these boys make me happier than anyone- so why shouldn't i call them my best friends? i know they care about me, just maybe not as much as i care about them. they might see me as storm's girlfriend who just happens to be a little cooler than most girlfriends since shes just like them. strange little gamer geek. it used to bother me. i used to think they didn't even think that. but these are the really amazing points about these amazing boys...
ian- ian makes friends with EVERYONE. hes is crazy, the most outgoing person i have EVER met. he even had the balls to talk casually to our mean principal who warmed up to him even though ian was always in trouble. i know i'm not one of his best friends, but we joke with each other and since i mean the world to storm, his best friend, he respects me a bit more.
joe- i used to have this big crush on him before i met storm. i used to hang out with him a bunch. since then we've grown apart a little, but we have been talking a lot recently. he's a great friend, one of the nicest people i've ever met. i have some really great memories of him before storm and from now. hes been a good friend for over two years now.
erik- erik is the one person i used to really worry about liking me. he is one of the rudest people, but i think it is due to his extreme lack of social skills. he is really backwards. we used to never get along. he'd call me names, say he hated me. i'd tell him i hated him while being extremely hurt because i've never been mean to him first. hes really quiet and if he doesn't like someone, he tells them. but now, we are pretty good friends, amazingly. he hardly ever makes fun of me. he even offers me his video games to borrow. he owns TONS of video games, and one time i borrowed probably 15 or 20 of them at once. he now smiles at me, something he doesn't normally do. he talks to me all the time...its so amazing. he probably doesn't consider me a best friend, but he has to consider me a good friend or he wouldn't open up to me. he is always eager to help me with video games (even though i LOVE playing them, i'm not always great at figuring out how to do them...lol). today he actually gave me the controller while he was playing halo 3. he actually let me play halo 3 with the other guys. then, he sat down with me for probably 15-25 minutes helping me with dead rising, showing me secret tricks and things he unlocked, helping me find a controller that wasn't broken...he makes me smile, something that people usually wouldn't say about him...
so these boys mean so much to me. why not call them best friends? they make me happy. i am a really weird girl. i can't get along with girls, i never could. i don't have a best girl friend, really i don't have any girl friends. just acquaintances. i used to think very badly about myself for this...but is it wrong to be friends with these guys that i just really love? i don't think it is. i think if you love a person (as a friend, duh), it doesn't matter how good of a friend they think you are...i would call them my best friends now.
random note-
i had such a great time with them tonight. laughing, making crazy taco dip with ian, actually playing the coveted multiplayer halo 3, and learning to be awesome at dead rising. i even actually enjoyed watching them. i witnessed a really priceless moment- we were listening to system of a down, a band these boys really love. every single one of them, even quiet mean erik, sang to the songs. it was really sweet. i can't believe how cute it was to see them all sing together...=]
they just make me happy, is that so wrong?
This blog is so cute :D
I think you can call anyone who makes you happy your friend. Older, younger, boy, girl, preppy, nerd, doesn't matter. I used to be in a band with three boys who were three years older than me. That one and a half year was pretty much the best time of my life. I still see them sometimes and I will always love them (:
Lissie!, August 3rd, 2008 at 04:19:37am
Boys are cool. They tend to be a lot less dramatic which is why I stick to them as well.
Addison Dewitt, August 3rd, 2008 at 03:26:12am
:) It's good to be happy.
But I don't think you should judge the girls, you never know, if you had a chat with them you might find you get along well. You don't have to be similar to people to be good friends.
Skippy., August 3rd, 2008 at 02:40:55am