Dilemma...
I'll try and keep this simple because even I'm confused by this lol 
Anywayyy:
If you were around here about 4-8 months ago, you probably witnessed me going on about someone called Tommy.
Long story short he was on TV, I thought he was gorgeous, I added his Myspace and we got talking.
...to be perfectly honest I really fell for him. It was like all my dreams coming true...being friends with someone "famous"
And I was, after a lot of messages and promoting him, I was on his top myspace friends, we spoke often, and I started to really fancy him.
The trouble was, at one gig, he kissed my friend.
Ok, it hurt because I really liked him and I knew he knew that, but it wasn't like we were going out so I didn't go completely mental.
It made me realise though he wasn't as amazing as I thought he was, and all the things in my head were never going to happen. After a few more myspace messages I decided to see if he really wanted to be a friend of mine. I promised myself not to message him or text him or email him until he emailed me.
...but he never did.
4 months on, he still hasn't tried to contact me. It just shows that when I wasn't running round after him he didn't care.
Anyway, my dilemma is, recently, I've been having dreams about him and thinking about him a lot. I've started listening to his music again and visiting his myspace.
I keep telling myself I'm not weak enough to give in and message him but I've been doing stupid things like bribing people I know to send him comments on the chance he might see me on their profile and talk to me again.
...and as well as him I miss his Mum too, she was lovely, but messaging her would be bringing back the contact with him again.
Ugh. idk, I just want to know he cares that I exist, at the moment I feel like he wouldn't care if I got run over by an army truck
Am I doing more damage than good by listening to his music again? Should I just message him? I've never felt like this before I and I don't know what to do
Anywayyy:
If you were around here about 4-8 months ago, you probably witnessed me going on about someone called Tommy.
Long story short he was on TV, I thought he was gorgeous, I added his Myspace and we got talking.
...to be perfectly honest I really fell for him. It was like all my dreams coming true...being friends with someone "famous"
And I was, after a lot of messages and promoting him, I was on his top myspace friends, we spoke often, and I started to really fancy him.
The trouble was, at one gig, he kissed my friend.
Ok, it hurt because I really liked him and I knew he knew that, but it wasn't like we were going out so I didn't go completely mental.
It made me realise though he wasn't as amazing as I thought he was, and all the things in my head were never going to happen. After a few more myspace messages I decided to see if he really wanted to be a friend of mine. I promised myself not to message him or text him or email him until he emailed me.
...but he never did.
4 months on, he still hasn't tried to contact me. It just shows that when I wasn't running round after him he didn't care.
Anyway, my dilemma is, recently, I've been having dreams about him and thinking about him a lot. I've started listening to his music again and visiting his myspace.
I keep telling myself I'm not weak enough to give in and message him but I've been doing stupid things like bribing people I know to send him comments on the chance he might see me on their profile and talk to me again.
...and as well as him I miss his Mum too, she was lovely, but messaging her would be bringing back the contact with him again.
Ugh. idk, I just want to know he cares that I exist, at the moment I feel like he wouldn't care if I got run over by an army truck
Am I doing more damage than good by listening to his music again? Should I just message him? I've never felt like this before I and I don't know what to do
If you really miss and care about him, message me. Not talking to him is only going to make you more upset. Tell him how you feel, maybe.
Skippy., August 6th, 2008 at 02:20:07am
i would say that you should message him. you know casually like "Hey Tommy, Long time to type. How are you?"
if he doesnt know who you are, forget him. if he remembers you, and seems happy to talk to you, go ahead and talk...
you arent weak, and i know where you are coming from with this.
you never know, he might be doind the same thing you are, maybe he feels bad about kissing your friend and is scared to contact you. maybe he thinks you are mad at him still.... you never know. but its always good to make the first move, at least then you are a bit more in control of things you know?
hope this helps.... tell me how it goes!
Pretty Rave Girl, August 4th, 2008 at 03:13:50pm