What is this understanding of which you speak?

I always feel like I'm the family fuck-up, the town idiot, the class clown without an audience... You get the picture.

I'm just really depressed right now. Some of you consoled me, told me you cared, and said that it would get better. Thanks. I just wish that the last part were true. It's not going to get any better any time soon. My stepdad took my computer until next year, even though he knows I need it until school. All the popular girls are bathing in cheap perfume to try and kill me. Some kid named Andrew came up to me and said that Green Day sucks over and over again until I dumped my milk on him, and now he's sworn revenge. My friends are all converting their religions and changing their names (I'm really not kidding) even though what I really need right now is structure and the belief that things can't change anymore. Erin G went from Roman Catholic to Atheist to Jew to Goatanist (don't ask) to Satanist to Jew to Satanist, all in one day! Erin R is now Flynn, and she converted from Catholic to Baptist. Now I'm just confused.

My name has even been changed! It went from Skylar to Lola to Skylar to Happy Pill to Skylar to Estela to Panic! all in the past few months! I'm so confused.

And to top it all off all four of my parents are mad at me, everyone is going out of their way to piss me off, and nobody understands. My parents still haven't gotten me tested for mental disorders, and they know it could destroy me. It really could destroy me if I need help and I don't get it.

So now I'm confused and misunderstood and it's making me really depressed. I need your help.

Thanks.