Changes.
I remember being five years old and watching the older kids play games wishing to be just like them: free. I remember the feeling of joy as I played with my best friends in the playground at school: skipping, singing and playing games like red rover. I remember how the only way I could get to sleep was if my mother or her mother stroked my hair, soothing me to sleep with fairytales and stories of a world so far away from mine. I would fall asleep as I listened and dreamt of what they told me, of freedom, love and happiness.
And now, the early hours of the morning are drawing near as I toss and turn The soothing sounds of my stereo do nothing for me as I try to block out the ringing of my phone. I can't sleep, not now or tomorrow. The thoughts in my head are no longer of what will be in my lunchbox tomorrow for school or what games we'll play during break but whether or not my choices are right, whether you're worth it, i'm worth it or anything is. I struggle now, to drift into seamless sleep and to block the thoughts that terrorise me night after night. I dream whilst I'm awake. This change is permanent, something I can't take back but wish to, every night and every day.
And now, the early hours of the morning are drawing near as I toss and turn The soothing sounds of my stereo do nothing for me as I try to block out the ringing of my phone. I can't sleep, not now or tomorrow. The thoughts in my head are no longer of what will be in my lunchbox tomorrow for school or what games we'll play during break but whether or not my choices are right, whether you're worth it, i'm worth it or anything is. I struggle now, to drift into seamless sleep and to block the thoughts that terrorise me night after night. I dream whilst I'm awake. This change is permanent, something I can't take back but wish to, every night and every day.
again
im sounding like a broken record
but your writing abilities are amazing
and thats so true everything you said
but its funny you know
i never relised til just now.
paper heart., December 14th, 2008 at 01:18:34pm
this is really well written
and i think a lot of people can a lot
Miley Cyrus, November 9th, 2008 at 02:13:59pm
I felt more free when I was younger.
Skippy., November 8th, 2008 at 10:04:45pm