Two long years without one of my best friends.
Tomorrow, two years ago, I lost one of my best friends to suicide. It’s been two whole years since I’ve seen Darragh, two whole years since I’ve spoken to him.
It’s been two whole years and it still hurts as much as it did the moment I found out. I’ll remember that moment for the rest of my life, and it’ll still hurt as much twenty years from now.
Darragh was one of those people that had a few enemies but many, many friends. He was so loveable that people from all different ‘social groups’ loved him. He was smart, kind and one of the funniest people I’ll ever know. I don’t remember much from when I first met Darragh but I do know I liked him straight away. Sure, sometimes I’d tell him that he was annoying me most of the time, because he was like that, but he was still such a good friend to me.
We had private jokes with each other, we’d make up bands together and we’d even have silly arguments that never lasted long.
Darragh was always too loud, which we’d give out to him for, but he never listened. He’d often get us in trouble or thrown out of public places for being loud but that was just Darragh, the Darragh we knew and loved.
I think about him every single day, and I miss him more as days go on. The day he passed away and the few days after were the worst days of my life. I know that I never want to go through something like that again. Can you imagine the pain of losing one of your best friends to suicide at the age of 14? I was numb. That’s the only way to explain it. I do know though that if I hadn’t of had my friends to go through that with, I wouldn’t have got through it. I remember just clinging to them for days after, feeling numb with so many thoughts going through my head. None of us know why he did it. Why he felt that he had to do something like that.
It was the most unexpected thing ever. From what we knew, Darragh was happy. He always was. Maybe he had just had enough.
So tomorrow evening I have an anniversary mass for him. I’m dreading it. Seeing his poor family who are still heartbroken, as we all are. Heartbroken is the only way to describe how I’m still feeling two years later.
I know I’ll always remember Darragh Glavin as the happy teenager who changed my life. I’ll miss and love him always and forever until one day when I know we’ll meet again.
Fucking hell
It hurts so much to even write this all down.
Rest In Peace Glavo x
It’s been two whole years and it still hurts as much as it did the moment I found out. I’ll remember that moment for the rest of my life, and it’ll still hurt as much twenty years from now.
Darragh was one of those people that had a few enemies but many, many friends. He was so loveable that people from all different ‘social groups’ loved him. He was smart, kind and one of the funniest people I’ll ever know. I don’t remember much from when I first met Darragh but I do know I liked him straight away. Sure, sometimes I’d tell him that he was annoying me most of the time, because he was like that, but he was still such a good friend to me.
We had private jokes with each other, we’d make up bands together and we’d even have silly arguments that never lasted long.
Darragh was always too loud, which we’d give out to him for, but he never listened. He’d often get us in trouble or thrown out of public places for being loud but that was just Darragh, the Darragh we knew and loved.
I think about him every single day, and I miss him more as days go on. The day he passed away and the few days after were the worst days of my life. I know that I never want to go through something like that again. Can you imagine the pain of losing one of your best friends to suicide at the age of 14? I was numb. That’s the only way to explain it. I do know though that if I hadn’t of had my friends to go through that with, I wouldn’t have got through it. I remember just clinging to them for days after, feeling numb with so many thoughts going through my head. None of us know why he did it. Why he felt that he had to do something like that.
It was the most unexpected thing ever. From what we knew, Darragh was happy. He always was. Maybe he had just had enough.
So tomorrow evening I have an anniversary mass for him. I’m dreading it. Seeing his poor family who are still heartbroken, as we all are. Heartbroken is the only way to describe how I’m still feeling two years later.
I know I’ll always remember Darragh Glavin as the happy teenager who changed my life. I’ll miss and love him always and forever until one day when I know we’ll meet again.
Fucking hell
It hurts so much to even write this all down.Rest In Peace Glavo x
I know how you feel I almost lost my Father to Suicide 4 years ago and it still hurts.
dmdc22, December 9th, 2008 at 10:04:14pm
I can barely begin to feel your pain. Only the good die young. Its comming up on the 1 year aniversery where this guy I barely knew killed himself. It still kills me whenever I think about it. Im so sorry.
Blarg!, December 8th, 2008 at 07:10:58pm
I really can't imagine losing a person this way. I'm sorry. =/
You're doing something good; You're remembering him.
threeam., December 8th, 2008 at 12:53:48am
I know how you feel.
Joshua Gayward., December 7th, 2008 at 07:44:51pm
Thank you both x
amistad., December 7th, 2008 at 05:53:02pm
I'm so sorry, it's one of the worst things that can ever happen to you. I lost my best friend 8 months ago, so I understand. I can't even begin to describe how it felt and the pain, and I know you've felt it too. I can't really get over it to be honest but I'm trying. It's just weird being around my other friends after what happened. The only advice I can give to make it better for tomorrow is focus on the happier times, however hard it is, just keep those in your head and it should help I hope.
Devils wear Givenchy, December 7th, 2008 at 05:51:15pm
I cannot start to imagine the pain that has caused you, and I'm terribly sorry that it had to happen that way. I've been suicidal, so I understand his point of view as well. It breaks my heart to think that he couldn't have told someone or something, but it is how it is. I wouldn't know what to do with myself if my best friend did something to herself. <3333 Hang in there, try not to think about it too hard.
Tulve, December 7th, 2008 at 05:07:34pm