Posting this solves nothing.

But I guess I should show my face here. It's been so long.

Although I have significantly improved as a person, I still have to grip the fact that I have been, or at least feel like I've been, abandoned by every friend I've ever made here or Mibba. Maybe I abandoned them, I don't know. But this is the last and smallest shard of glass from the broken window I've been picking up.

If you're reading this and you know you were the very best friend I ever had, then I want to know where you are. I want to know what you've been doing for the past two years. Why did you run away? You didn't even give me any notice...I forgot who you are...

So in the event of me being ditched, I soon learned to face everything I ever feared and now I realize that I shouldn't have wasted all that time complaining. I have other friends, best friends, now. But... still, I miss the others. Sorry if I ever wasted your time...but I was so unhappy and so on the edge.

I need to know how you're doing, where you live, who you are. I don't think you'll ever read this so maybe I'm wasting my time, but just in case.

If you ever wanted to know about me, whatever happened after you left, I'll tell you.

- sister had a baby, a girl named Sadie who is now one year old
- I spent my 16th birthday in Japan for a month
- we were hit and destroyed by hurricane Ike
- I got my sister's dodge ram for my birthday
- I got my driver's license in October
- dad bought a Cadillac
- stepdad has Hep
- I started college early
- my room is changing from rock posters to Eiffel tower canvases and Audrey Hepburn photos
- I got my braces off March 2008
- my sister finally met someone
- been two wrecks
- made more friends
- will be 17 next month
- waaaaaay more girly
- I FELL IN LOVE IN DECEMBER (with someone else...)
- yes, the above is correct
- I'm going to prom in a few days

I don't know what else to say. I have no idea what I did to you to make you ignore me for two years, but I just want to know how you're doing. I try to IM you but I think you changed it or just don't want to be friends with me anymore.

I don't know why I did this, but maybe one day one of you will read this and think "hey she's getting older! Maybe I should see how she's doing"
Posted on May 5th, 2009 at 10:48pm


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