A Jagged Gorgeous Winter...<3
I think my life is finally just how it should be. The entire situation with the guy who was dating a friend but liked me...well thank God it is all over...Amber is no longer my friend, but I have the most wonderful boyfriend anyone could ask for. I am going to marry him someday, I can feel it. It started out perfectly forbidden but ended in the best decision I have ever made in my life. I am sad to hurt a friend, but this is how it should be. He was unhappy with her, with me he is a different person. A happy, wonderful person.
My life has changed so quickly in a matter of a couple weeks. Everything is moving so fast, but it is exciting and wonderful. I am in love, without a doubt. When I am with him I feel whole, when I am not I STILL feel whole because part of him is always with me. This is the deepest feeling I have ever felt. He makes me feel so beautiful, perfect. I hope that I make him feel perfect. He is truly perfect to me. Its insane how he is everything I always wanted, everything I always wished for from appearance to personality. I never thought it was possible to have everything I have always wanted. Its like he was built for me. I feel like I am living in a dream. I thought I loved Storm but what I felt for him is nothing like what I feel for John. I have never been able to see myself living past the day I was in, but I see myself with John forever. I can imagine a future now. I want to live forever if only to spend my life with him. This may sound silly to some, but I believe in all that fairy tale soulmate meant to be stuff that I thought was bullshit. I only hope that this feeling will last past the happy first year or two that we will surely share. I hope 5 years from now, 10 years from now, 20 years from now we will still be in love like this. I am so happy.
My life has changed so quickly in a matter of a couple weeks. Everything is moving so fast, but it is exciting and wonderful. I am in love, without a doubt. When I am with him I feel whole, when I am not I STILL feel whole because part of him is always with me. This is the deepest feeling I have ever felt. He makes me feel so beautiful, perfect. I hope that I make him feel perfect. He is truly perfect to me. Its insane how he is everything I always wanted, everything I always wished for from appearance to personality. I never thought it was possible to have everything I have always wanted. Its like he was built for me. I feel like I am living in a dream. I thought I loved Storm but what I felt for him is nothing like what I feel for John. I have never been able to see myself living past the day I was in, but I see myself with John forever. I can imagine a future now. I want to live forever if only to spend my life with him. This may sound silly to some, but I believe in all that fairy tale soulmate meant to be stuff that I thought was bullshit. I only hope that this feeling will last past the happy first year or two that we will surely share. I hope 5 years from now, 10 years from now, 20 years from now we will still be in love like this. I am so happy.
That's so awesme, I'm so happy for you.
Perfect love is rare. =]
I hope everything works out for you in the future. =]
waiting_a_long_time, January 10th, 2010 at 08:13:56am
Oh, well, any way you do it, I don't think it'll be that easy, but it really is a good idea to do it as soon as you can. And if she intends to hurt him more, just try to get him to stay away from her / ignore her for a while. Things will calm down eventually.
Skippy., January 8th, 2010 at 07:25:50am
I haven't yet. I don't know what to say. She keeps trying to hurt John and I am afraid something I say will give her more ammo, not to mention she won't even try to understand or accept the apology. I will apologize though...I just don't know how just yet.
suburban.zombie, January 7th, 2010 at 06:39:52pm
I'm glad thats all sorted then (:
I also hope you've tried apologising to your friend too though.
Skippy., January 7th, 2010 at 07:13:37am