here comes the anxiety
i can’t take this anymore.
everything is pissing me off and depressing me.
it seems the only thing that can make me feel any better is when i escape to my imagination,
but even that starts to turn sour after a while.
everyone is so “depressed”. it’s bullshit.
they have no idea. they’re doing it to themselves.
i feel trapped.
i don’t want to go to noosa and spend the 9 days with you two,
i want to go to the beach with everyone and actually have fun.
i don’t want to spend $600 on a holiday i already can’t wait to forget about and come home from.
i don’t want to be all alone for the rest of my life,
i just want you to talk to me, or at least tell me why you stopped.
i want you to come over again, idk what happened.
you start getting touchy feely with me and then you piss off.
make up your mind. you were the only thing keeping me sane.
i want everything to go back to normal. i want parents who don’t argue all the time,
i want friends who i don’t hate, i don’t want to be sick,
i want to be loved by someone who won’t leave me all alone when i need them most,
i want this to stop.
everything is pissing me off and depressing me.
it seems the only thing that can make me feel any better is when i escape to my imagination,
but even that starts to turn sour after a while.
everyone is so “depressed”. it’s bullshit.
they have no idea. they’re doing it to themselves.
i feel trapped.
i don’t want to go to noosa and spend the 9 days with you two,
i want to go to the beach with everyone and actually have fun.
i don’t want to spend $600 on a holiday i already can’t wait to forget about and come home from.
i don’t want to be all alone for the rest of my life,
i just want you to talk to me, or at least tell me why you stopped.
i want you to come over again, idk what happened.
you start getting touchy feely with me and then you piss off.
make up your mind. you were the only thing keeping me sane.
i want everything to go back to normal. i want parents who don’t argue all the time,
i want friends who i don’t hate, i don’t want to be sick,
i want to be loved by someone who won’t leave me all alone when i need them most,
i want this to stop.
Dude, I know the feeling.
Find an outlet.
Writing helps me. Try music, writing, drawing, anything. LOSE YOURSELF IN IT.
TO BE DELETED, August 22nd, 2010 at 07:36:55pm
I know you probably won't believe it, but I feel the same.
Sedatives help.
I wish I could do or say anything to help, but essentially, you just have to soldier on and hope for the best. Try not to let it get you down and if you ever need anyone to talk to, I'm always here.
Yay!, August 17th, 2010 at 03:41:27pm