Sorrows and regrets.
Dear GSB,
I just have a lot of regrets -- plus, I feel like I'm a mistake that should have never happened -- like I wasn't meant to be here. I also feel as though I'm not welcomed anywhere, even by my best friend or fiancé -- as if I have nothing and I am nothing to anyone. And I feel like the only place I really matter is here online. My parents just want me to do the things they think are important, and then when I want to be left alone to do what I want, my mom or dad insists on doing something else with me! I don’t want to die, but I’m starting to feel like death might be my only way out from the hell called “my life.”
Yours sincerely,
Sarah
I just have a lot of regrets -- plus, I feel like I'm a mistake that should have never happened -- like I wasn't meant to be here. I also feel as though I'm not welcomed anywhere, even by my best friend or fiancé -- as if I have nothing and I am nothing to anyone. And I feel like the only place I really matter is here online. My parents just want me to do the things they think are important, and then when I want to be left alone to do what I want, my mom or dad insists on doing something else with me! I don’t want to die, but I’m starting to feel like death might be my only way out from the hell called “my life.”
Yours sincerely,
Sarah
I agree with the first comment. I always felt like that most of my life until I saw a few other people think about the same things and I wanted to help them because I care about them. Then I saw it from their point of view, they cared about me and didn't want me to go either.
Death is never a nice way out of something. If you die then you won't get to find out if things get better for you in the future. Just keep thinking positively, if you keep telling yourself it will get better it's more likely to get better.
Ensiferum, October 7th, 2011 at 05:01:27pm
Just read your blog. I am really sorry. I had that problem in the 10th grade. I thought suicide was my only option, but I got through. One of the things that helped was the song "Baker Street" and my family. Hopefully you'll be better soon.
Gerry, October 7th, 2011 at 03:02:21pm
Hey now I know things seem bad but death no matter how nice it may seem is after all a permanent answer to something that if you work your way through it is only temporary. I understand how you feel though but you are here and you know what you're not a mistake and you have every right to be happy. For me I just had to calm down and realize the world is amazing and I could be happy I would just have to try to find things that I liked and hold onto them. Anyway hope I don't sound to preachy and if you want to talk I'm here K? Hope you feel better somehow :3
Shoelace-Necktie, October 7th, 2011 at 01:21:10am