I feel so out of place. I mean, I feel out of style at school, and I can't stop feeling so down for no apparent reason. I just can't explain it. Next to nothing makes me laugh. It feels like the world has hardened me and I feel like wearing black and sitting around listening to sad music. I feel like going goth when I get in to High School, but then I might loose my friends. My mom asked me once if I would ever dress all in black and I said, 'What if I do?' then she said the just not like my grandmom see. I took that as a little go ahead, but I'm still confussed, What should I do, and where should I go from here?