You're A Blur In My Dead Past, chapter 18

I sat in my silent apartment after Mike left and I was astounded with myself. Why had it been so easy to break up with him? I didn't understand it. Afterall, Mike had been the one I was in love with before he left, hell, I was even in love with him while he was gone. My heart ached for him when he got back. How come I didn't love him anymore? Was it Billie?
I sighed and closed my eyes, shutting myself off from the world.

Before I knew it, it was morning and the sun-less morning was upon me. I sat up and rubbed my eyes from their sleepyness. Myla was sitting on the floor, chewing on a pop-tart and flipping through a magazine of mine.
"Hey kiddo. You ready to go home?" I asked her.
She pouted. "I don't want to"
"Well to bad, because I don't want you" I teased her. "And besides, I know for a fact your mom went crazy when you didn't go home yesterday"
"I know. I heard you and Mike talking last night. It's my fault you two broke up, I'm sorry"
"Oh, it's not your fault, the strings of our relationship were just being pulled to much and they snapped last night."
She sighed. "Alright, let's go"
"Just let me shower and we'll go, k?"

Myla turned the handle to the front door of her house and stepped in. I was waiting for the rush of screaming from her mother, but it was quiet.
"Mom?" she yelled.
"Myla? Is that you?"
"Yeah"
Gwen appeared in the hallway.
"I'm sorry for not calling last night Gwen, it was irresponsible of me"
"Oh don't worry Megan, I was just glad to hear that she was safe"
I forced a smile.
"Mike's upstairs if you want to go see him"
"Um, no, it's ok. I have to go"
"Nonsense, he has to be woken up for school anyways. Just head on up" she replied, gently pushing me towards the stairs.
"No! Gwen. We broke up last night."
Her face fell. "Oh my. I'm sorry. What happened?"
"It was a stupid fight."
"I'm sorry to hear that dear, Mike was really in love with you"
I felt a surge of hot tears swell to my eyes.
"Oh, Megan! I didn't mean to make you cry. I'm so sorry"
I wiped the fallen tears away and smiled. "It's ok. I have to go anyways."

I turned around and walked back out into the cold September air.
"Mags! Wait up! I've got awesome news!" Billie yelled.
I wiped away some more tears before I turned to face him. The smile on his face faded.
"What's wrong? Why are you crying?"
"M-Mike and I broke up last night."
He hugged me and I buried my face into the crook of his neck and wept. My emotions were all bubbling to the surface at this moment.
"I'm being stupid. Sorry" I said, drying my eyes and smiling. "What's your awesome news?"
The immense smile appeared on his face again. "We got signed! We have a record contract!"
I screamed with excitement "That's so cool Billie! I knew you could do it!"
"I know. We're gonna start recording the album in 6 months, so we have some time to write songs. Our producer figures it'll take us about 8 months to get the album done and then we'll be on tour promoting it! Isn't it awesome? I can't wait!"
I smiled so hard my cheeks became sore. "I'm so proud of you. Everyone is!"
"Come out with us later to celebrate!"
"I don't know Billie, I just broke up with Mike, I would feel weird around him."
"Oh, right. You and I will have to celebrate some other time, just the two of us!"
"I can't wait."

I stopped by Billie's house the next night and found out that Bianca and Tre would be staying to celebrate with us.
"Is Mike stopping by later, BJ?" Tre asked him.
He glanced at me and shook his head. "No, he's not."
I lowered my head and picked at the loose string on my jeans.
"I'm going to get something to drink" I said, standing up and heading towards the kitchen.
Bianca followed me into the kitchen worriedly and looked at me, as if trying to read my mind.
I looked up and met her gaze, the tears began to sting my eyes.
"I knew something was wrong. Is it Mike?" she asked.
I nodded wordlessly. "We broke up"
"Oh, Mags, I'm sorry. What happened?"
I sniffed and wiped away the tears. "We got into a ridiculous fight. He accused me of kidnapping Myla because she came to my place late the other night and I didn't bother calling Gwen to say where she was. I told Mike to get out and that we were over. It happened so fast"
She patted my hand sympathetically. "He accused YOU of kidnapping Myla, you? The one who found her that night she was raped? There's something not right in his mind"
"FUCK TRE! STOP FUCKING HITTING ME!" we heard Billie yell. I grabbed my water bottle and flew down the stairs, Bianca right on my heels.

Tre was kneeling over Billie, who was lying on the floor, curled up in the fetal position. Tre had his fist clenched and it was hanging over Billie. I noticed that Billie's lip was cut and was bleeding. Bianca ran to Tre and hauled him of a scared Billie.
"I told you to stay away from her Billie Joe!" He yelled, fighting from Bianca's grip.
I hurried down to Billie Joe and pushed his hair off his forehead and wiped the blood off his lip with the sleeve of my sweater.
"Tre! What the fuck is your problem?" Bianca yelled at him, punching his shoulder repeatedly.
Billie glared at his best friend from across the room.
"I told you to stay away from her Billie. She's with Mike. But do you listen to me? No, you don't. You go ahead and figure its alright to kiss her!"
My head snapped back to Billie and I glared at him. "You told him?" I hissed.
I turned back to look at Tre, who was staring at me intently. My cheeks heated up and I noticed Bianca's gaping mouth.
Tre escaped from her grips and he lunged for Billie again. I stepped in front of him and shoved him back onto the couch. "Don't touch him" I said, rather harshly.
"But Mags! He kissed you, he had no right to, he knows you're with Mike!"
I blushed again. "We broke up" I mumbled.
"Ooh. Oh damn." He said.
"You owe me an apology jackass" Billie finally spoke up behind me.
"Sorry man. I didn't know"
Billie simply grunted and licked the fresh wound on his lip, wincing.
"God Tre. You can be so clueless sometimes. I need to lock you in a room or something" Bianca joked, pulling him up. "Come on, let's go"
Tre looked back sympathetically at Billie before he left.

I turned back to look at Billie who had plopped down on the couch, touching the cut. I pulled a bag of frozen peas out of the basement freezer and sat down next to him. He lied down, placing his head on my lap and sighed. I held the peas to his lip and leant my head back.
"Why'd you tell him BJ?"
"I don't know, it just sorta slipped out"
I snorted with laughter. "Slipped out?"
He nodded, smiling. "Worst excuse ever, I know, but it's true"
"Billie?" I asked, after a few minutes of silence.
"Mm?" he grunted, eyes closed.
"How long have you felt this way about me?"
His eyes opened and his green eyes were sparkling. "Since the first day of high school. Remember that day?"
I nodded, remembering the fateful day. "First day of high school, we were late getting there and we got caught in the rain. We had to spend the whole day in wet clothes" I laughed.
I saw Billie's cheeks turn a slight shade of red. I lifted one of my eyebrows in an inquisitive mode.
"What?" I asked.
He muffled a laugh and looked away. I removed the ice from his mouth and stared at him.
"What are you laughing at?" I asked him again.
"You were wearing a white shirt." He laughed.
It was my turn to blush. "That's when you fell in love with me? When my shirt became see through and you saw my bra? BJ! You're such a perv!" I said, muffling my own giggles and slapping his stomach playfully.
"Ever wonder why I ran to the bathroom before class?" He started laughing harder.
"I don- OH! Eww, Billie too much information." I covered my face with my hands and shook my head.

When I calmed down and removed my hands from my face, I almost jumped when I saw Billie's face not two inches from my own, staring deep into my eyes. His hand cupped my cheek and he pressed his lips against mine with force.