Your fathers rage and your mothers love, chapter 2
Jake ran into the room.
"Leave her alone" Jake screamed hitting Billie's back.
Billie eased his grip he had on me, his eyes went back to there beautiful green, as he turned round to Jake.
"Whoa calm down buddy" Billie said turning to Jake and kneeling down so he was at eye level with Jake.
Billie raised his arms to put them on Jakes shoulder, but Jake took a step back. I knew Jake was scared so I went down and knelt behind him.
"It's ok Jake I'm here," I said pulling Jake in for a huge.
My youngest son buried his head into my neck and cried. I glared at Billie Joe over Jake's shoulder. Billie Joe's eyes were once more filled with sorrow.
"Sssh it's ok Jake Mummy's here" I said softly running my hand through his black hair.
I rocked him slowly.
"Why were you and Daddy fighting?" Jake managed to say through his tears.
"That's all it was Jake, it was just a stupid a fight" I hushed in his ear.
"But Daddy was gonna hurt you" Jake tried to whisper, which was impossible as he was crying.
Billie Joe caught the words and I could tell by his face and posture that he was really hurt.
"No Daddy would never hurt me, you or Joey" I said firmly to offer some form of comfort.
Billie Joe leaned forward and placed his hand on Jake's shoulder, we both felt Jake wince.
"I would never hurt you" Billie muttered taking his hand off Jake's shoulder.
"It's going to be ok" I reassured Jake as I picked him up.
"Now lets get you back to bed mister, you have school in the morning" I said trying to avoided the subject of Billie Joe's and my 'fight'.
I walked out the room clucking Jake tight and made my way down the corridor to Jakes room. Leaving Billie Joe still kneeling on the floor with his head hung in shame. We entered Jakes room and I placed him back in bed and pulled the covers up to his chin.
"What were you and Daddy fighting about?" Jake inquired sleepily.
"Just grown up stuff, that you don't need to worry about" I said softly bending down and giving Jake a kiss on the forehead.
"I thought Daddy was going to hit you" Jake uttered in a sleepy daze.
"He would never hurt me, you or Joey" I repeated the lie for the second time through a smile.
I walked to the door and watched Jake fall asleep before heading back to mine and Billie Joe's room. Billie was sitting on the bed with his head in his hands.
"80 I've really fucked up!" He muttered angrily.
I made my way over to the bed timidly and sat down next to Billie Joe.
"I'm so sorry" Billie said with his head still buried in his hands.
"Billie you really scared Jake tonight, he really thought you were going to hit me." I scolded.
"That's the thing 80 I think I would have hit you if Jake didn't come in." Billie cried braking down in tears.
"I don't intend to hurt you, I lose my temper and something inside me snaps and I just lose it." Billie whimpered lifting his head to face me.
His eyeliner had run down his face and it gave the illusion of crying black tears. I cupped his face and wiped his tears away with my thumbs.
"Maybe you need to spend some time away from us, till you can figure out how to control this," I said kind of choked.
"No! I've just come off of tour; I never get to see you guys anymore. I can't bare to go away from you again!" Billie whimpered.
"Billie I can't have you round the boys if you are going to be like this! You need to promise me that you will keep this under control, if not the next time it happens you are going to have to go find help!" I cried through silent tears, it was breaking my heart to say this to Billie.
Billie Joe nodded.
"I really will try 80!" Billie vowed.
Billie pulled me into a hug and began to kiss me. Gently parting my lips with his tongue. We slowly fell into the bed Billie Joe on top of me. He slowly began to kiss my neck. I gave a weak smile. Billie pulled my top over my head, after which I slowly unbuttoned his shirt. Billie moved onto undoing my jeans while not braking from our kiss. I ran my hands through his messy hair and along his back, where I began to undo his black jeans...
The familiar humming sound that started in my dreams grew louder till I realised it was the alarm. I stuck my arm out of the warm bed and hit the alarm. Billie still had his arms wrapped around me. I slide out of his grip and out of the bed, making my way over to the bathroom. I got washed and dress before I went to wake Billie Joe and the boys.
"Billie its morning honey!" I smiled sweetly, while softly shaking him awake.
Billie Joe curved a smile on his lips.
"Morning beautiful." He responded.
"Are we alone?" Billie questioned wiggling is eyebrows.
I giggled and kissed him parting his lips with mine and slipping his tongue into my mouth. I pulled away abruptly.
"No" I smirked
"Tease" Billie pouted like a big kid as I made my way out of the room to wake Jake.
I went into Jakes room and waked him sleep peacefully for a moment. I walked over to his bed on sat on the edge.
"Jakey." I said softly running my hand through his hair.
Jake opened his eyes slowly.
"Morning sunshine" I sighed as Jake beamed at me.
"Mum do I have to go school today?" Jake whined pulling puppy dog eyes he had learned from Billie.
"Of course you have to go to school" I said cheerfully ruffling his hair.
"Come on then go get washed, I will lay your cloths out on the bed" I told Jake pulling the covers off him and watched him make his way over to the bathroom.
I made my way over to Jake's wardrobe and pulled out a black pair of jeans, along with a white shirt that had a black star on the chest where a pocket is usually found. I then turned to the door and picked up a pair of worn black cons. I laid the cloths on the bed and went in search of underwear and socks. Jake stumbled out of the bathroom as, I reached the draw.
"Catch" I called to him as I threw him his underwear and socks.
This took Jake by surprise and he almost missed catching them.
"Good catch" I announced as I left the room to awake Joey.
I knew it would be more a challenge to awaken my older son. But when I entered his bedroom I was surprise to see that his bed was empty. I approached his bathroom door and gave a little knock.
"Joey honey are you ok?" I asked as, Joey would never get up with out a fight.
"No" I heard a nerves voice reply back.
"What's wrong Joey?" I asked concerned.
"Erm... I would rather talk to Dad" I heard his reply from the other side of the door.
"Oh... ok I will go get him for you one minute." I responded knowing what he would rather talk to Billie Joe about.
I ran down the corridor to mine and Billie Joe's room. Billie Joe was still lying in bed half asleep.
"Billie" I said approaching the bed
"Hmmm... " Billie responded.
"You need to go and have 'THE TALK' with Joey" I informed Billie.
Once I mentioned 'THE TALK' Billie Joe's eyes shot open.
"What now?" he asked petrified
"Well I think Joey has kinda 'became a man' over night," I half giggled at Billie Joe's expression.
"Oh... ." Was the only thing Billie Joe could manage to say.
"I don't know who is more scared you or Joey" I giggled, Billie Joes exchanged me an unsettled look.
"Come on then, Joeys locked in his bathroom petrified" I informed Billie pulling him from then bed.
I walked Billie Joe to Joey's room.
"Well I best leave you two alone. Good luck" I grinned at Billie Joes kissing him on the cheek and making my way down to the kitchen.
As I began to make pancakes Jake entered the room.
"What you making mum?" Jake questioned sniffing the air and sitting down at the breakfast bar.
"Pancakes" I replied.
I glared quickly at the clock and sighed to myself again, as it looked like we were going to be late again. I began to stack the pancakes on a plate and placed them on the breakfast bar for Jake. We were really getting pushed for time. Twenty minutes later Joey and Billie walked through the door and sat at the breakfast bar either side of Jake.
"80 Joey's not feeling himself, so I think it's best he stays home today," Billie said running his hand through his hair.
"That's not fair, I'm gonna be really late for school and I didn't sleep a lot last night" Jake sulked.
I felt a little guilty for what happen last night.
"Fine you can both have the day off!" I sighed rolling my eyes.
Jake gave a little cheer, while Joey and Billie Joe seemed oddly quite.
I started to make a new stack of pancakes as they had all been devoured.
"Mike and Tre are coming over today so we can start some new material," Billie announced rubbing his temples.
Just then a knock sounded at the door. The boys all continued to sit at the breakfast bar.
"Fine I'll get it!" I huffed angrily.
I did a million and one things in this house and not one of them could be bothered to get the door. I trudged over to the door and open it.
"Hi 80"Tre boomed in his loud happy voice.
"Hi Tre" I smiled
"And what are you going here at this ungodly hour in the morning?" I asked
"I've come to play drums silly" Tre joked tapping a rhyme on my head lightly with his drumsticks.
"I can see that" I giggled closing the door.
"You want some breakfast then?" I questioned as we turned to make your way back to the kitchen but the doorbell beckoned me back to the door, Tre continued on his way.
I open the door for the second time.
"Hey 80" Mike said stepping through the door and kissing me on the forehead.
"Hi Mikey" I replied happily.
"Come on through to the kitchen, you want some breakfast?" I asked entering the kitchen. To see than Tre had gobbled down all the pancakes.
"80 are you going to finish these?" Tre asked pointing to my plate of pancakes that I had only taken a bit out off.
"Tre" Billie scolded.
"No its ok I don't feel hungry" I answered Tre's question.
"I guess I will make some more then" I sighed.
"80 you sure know the way to a man's heart" Tre grinned with his mouth full of food.
I made some more pancakes as well as coffee and went to sit down in the seat next to Billie Joe.
"What's up buddy you have hardly said a word" Mike asked Joey.
Joey just looked glumly at his plate. Not wanting to answer Mikes question.
"Oh last night Joey became a m... " Billie started to rely for Joey.
Joey cringed as Billie was about to revel Joeys what happen to him.
"Joey became sick" I butted in placing my hand on Joey's head.
"Well I think you temperature has come down" I said trying to back up my story.
Mike raised and eyebrow as he knew something was up.
"Oh I'm sorry to heard that buddy" Mike told Joey.
"I don't feel like eating... can I be excused" Joey asked me.
"Yeah sure." I told him a bit concerned.
As soon as Joey had left the room and we heard his bedroom door close. Mike asked.
"So what's really up with Joey?"
Before I had time to answer Billie had already filled Mike in on what happened.
"Joey became a man"
I hit Billie Joe on the arm lightly.
"What I would have told them sooner or later" Billie sated sipping on his coffee.
"It's not your place to tell" I huffed placing my head in my hands.
"What does that mean?" Jake piped up.
We all turned and looked at him. Tre have choked on the pancake he was eating.
"Do you want to fill him in Billie?" I said after alone pause.
"Oh no I'm not giving 'THE TALK' twice in one day" Billie replied.
"Leave her alone" Jake screamed hitting Billie's back.
Billie eased his grip he had on me, his eyes went back to there beautiful green, as he turned round to Jake.
"Whoa calm down buddy" Billie said turning to Jake and kneeling down so he was at eye level with Jake.
Billie raised his arms to put them on Jakes shoulder, but Jake took a step back. I knew Jake was scared so I went down and knelt behind him.
"It's ok Jake I'm here," I said pulling Jake in for a huge.
My youngest son buried his head into my neck and cried. I glared at Billie Joe over Jake's shoulder. Billie Joe's eyes were once more filled with sorrow.
"Sssh it's ok Jake Mummy's here" I said softly running my hand through his black hair.
I rocked him slowly.
"Why were you and Daddy fighting?" Jake managed to say through his tears.
"That's all it was Jake, it was just a stupid a fight" I hushed in his ear.
"But Daddy was gonna hurt you" Jake tried to whisper, which was impossible as he was crying.
Billie Joe caught the words and I could tell by his face and posture that he was really hurt.
"No Daddy would never hurt me, you or Joey" I said firmly to offer some form of comfort.
Billie Joe leaned forward and placed his hand on Jake's shoulder, we both felt Jake wince.
"I would never hurt you" Billie muttered taking his hand off Jake's shoulder.
"It's going to be ok" I reassured Jake as I picked him up.
"Now lets get you back to bed mister, you have school in the morning" I said trying to avoided the subject of Billie Joe's and my 'fight'.
I walked out the room clucking Jake tight and made my way down the corridor to Jakes room. Leaving Billie Joe still kneeling on the floor with his head hung in shame. We entered Jakes room and I placed him back in bed and pulled the covers up to his chin.
"What were you and Daddy fighting about?" Jake inquired sleepily.
"Just grown up stuff, that you don't need to worry about" I said softly bending down and giving Jake a kiss on the forehead.
"I thought Daddy was going to hit you" Jake uttered in a sleepy daze.
"He would never hurt me, you or Joey" I repeated the lie for the second time through a smile.
I walked to the door and watched Jake fall asleep before heading back to mine and Billie Joe's room. Billie was sitting on the bed with his head in his hands.
"80 I've really fucked up!" He muttered angrily.
I made my way over to the bed timidly and sat down next to Billie Joe.
"I'm so sorry" Billie said with his head still buried in his hands.
"Billie you really scared Jake tonight, he really thought you were going to hit me." I scolded.
"That's the thing 80 I think I would have hit you if Jake didn't come in." Billie cried braking down in tears.
"I don't intend to hurt you, I lose my temper and something inside me snaps and I just lose it." Billie whimpered lifting his head to face me.
His eyeliner had run down his face and it gave the illusion of crying black tears. I cupped his face and wiped his tears away with my thumbs.
"Maybe you need to spend some time away from us, till you can figure out how to control this," I said kind of choked.
"No! I've just come off of tour; I never get to see you guys anymore. I can't bare to go away from you again!" Billie whimpered.
"Billie I can't have you round the boys if you are going to be like this! You need to promise me that you will keep this under control, if not the next time it happens you are going to have to go find help!" I cried through silent tears, it was breaking my heart to say this to Billie.
Billie Joe nodded.
"I really will try 80!" Billie vowed.
Billie pulled me into a hug and began to kiss me. Gently parting my lips with his tongue. We slowly fell into the bed Billie Joe on top of me. He slowly began to kiss my neck. I gave a weak smile. Billie pulled my top over my head, after which I slowly unbuttoned his shirt. Billie moved onto undoing my jeans while not braking from our kiss. I ran my hands through his messy hair and along his back, where I began to undo his black jeans...
The familiar humming sound that started in my dreams grew louder till I realised it was the alarm. I stuck my arm out of the warm bed and hit the alarm. Billie still had his arms wrapped around me. I slide out of his grip and out of the bed, making my way over to the bathroom. I got washed and dress before I went to wake Billie Joe and the boys.
"Billie its morning honey!" I smiled sweetly, while softly shaking him awake.
Billie Joe curved a smile on his lips.
"Morning beautiful." He responded.
"Are we alone?" Billie questioned wiggling is eyebrows.
I giggled and kissed him parting his lips with mine and slipping his tongue into my mouth. I pulled away abruptly.
"No" I smirked
"Tease" Billie pouted like a big kid as I made my way out of the room to wake Jake.
I went into Jakes room and waked him sleep peacefully for a moment. I walked over to his bed on sat on the edge.
"Jakey." I said softly running my hand through his hair.
Jake opened his eyes slowly.
"Morning sunshine" I sighed as Jake beamed at me.
"Mum do I have to go school today?" Jake whined pulling puppy dog eyes he had learned from Billie.
"Of course you have to go to school" I said cheerfully ruffling his hair.
"Come on then go get washed, I will lay your cloths out on the bed" I told Jake pulling the covers off him and watched him make his way over to the bathroom.
I made my way over to Jake's wardrobe and pulled out a black pair of jeans, along with a white shirt that had a black star on the chest where a pocket is usually found. I then turned to the door and picked up a pair of worn black cons. I laid the cloths on the bed and went in search of underwear and socks. Jake stumbled out of the bathroom as, I reached the draw.
"Catch" I called to him as I threw him his underwear and socks.
This took Jake by surprise and he almost missed catching them.
"Good catch" I announced as I left the room to awake Joey.
I knew it would be more a challenge to awaken my older son. But when I entered his bedroom I was surprise to see that his bed was empty. I approached his bathroom door and gave a little knock.
"Joey honey are you ok?" I asked as, Joey would never get up with out a fight.
"No" I heard a nerves voice reply back.
"What's wrong Joey?" I asked concerned.
"Erm... I would rather talk to Dad" I heard his reply from the other side of the door.
"Oh... ok I will go get him for you one minute." I responded knowing what he would rather talk to Billie Joe about.
I ran down the corridor to mine and Billie Joe's room. Billie Joe was still lying in bed half asleep.
"Billie" I said approaching the bed
"Hmmm... " Billie responded.
"You need to go and have 'THE TALK' with Joey" I informed Billie.
Once I mentioned 'THE TALK' Billie Joe's eyes shot open.
"What now?" he asked petrified
"Well I think Joey has kinda 'became a man' over night," I half giggled at Billie Joe's expression.
"Oh... ." Was the only thing Billie Joe could manage to say.
"I don't know who is more scared you or Joey" I giggled, Billie Joes exchanged me an unsettled look.
"Come on then, Joeys locked in his bathroom petrified" I informed Billie pulling him from then bed.
I walked Billie Joe to Joey's room.
"Well I best leave you two alone. Good luck" I grinned at Billie Joes kissing him on the cheek and making my way down to the kitchen.
As I began to make pancakes Jake entered the room.
"What you making mum?" Jake questioned sniffing the air and sitting down at the breakfast bar.
"Pancakes" I replied.
I glared quickly at the clock and sighed to myself again, as it looked like we were going to be late again. I began to stack the pancakes on a plate and placed them on the breakfast bar for Jake. We were really getting pushed for time. Twenty minutes later Joey and Billie walked through the door and sat at the breakfast bar either side of Jake.
"80 Joey's not feeling himself, so I think it's best he stays home today," Billie said running his hand through his hair.
"That's not fair, I'm gonna be really late for school and I didn't sleep a lot last night" Jake sulked.
I felt a little guilty for what happen last night.
"Fine you can both have the day off!" I sighed rolling my eyes.
Jake gave a little cheer, while Joey and Billie Joe seemed oddly quite.
I started to make a new stack of pancakes as they had all been devoured.
"Mike and Tre are coming over today so we can start some new material," Billie announced rubbing his temples.
Just then a knock sounded at the door. The boys all continued to sit at the breakfast bar.
"Fine I'll get it!" I huffed angrily.
I did a million and one things in this house and not one of them could be bothered to get the door. I trudged over to the door and open it.
"Hi 80"Tre boomed in his loud happy voice.
"Hi Tre" I smiled
"And what are you going here at this ungodly hour in the morning?" I asked
"I've come to play drums silly" Tre joked tapping a rhyme on my head lightly with his drumsticks.
"I can see that" I giggled closing the door.
"You want some breakfast then?" I questioned as we turned to make your way back to the kitchen but the doorbell beckoned me back to the door, Tre continued on his way.
I open the door for the second time.
"Hey 80" Mike said stepping through the door and kissing me on the forehead.
"Hi Mikey" I replied happily.
"Come on through to the kitchen, you want some breakfast?" I asked entering the kitchen. To see than Tre had gobbled down all the pancakes.
"80 are you going to finish these?" Tre asked pointing to my plate of pancakes that I had only taken a bit out off.
"Tre" Billie scolded.
"No its ok I don't feel hungry" I answered Tre's question.
"I guess I will make some more then" I sighed.
"80 you sure know the way to a man's heart" Tre grinned with his mouth full of food.
I made some more pancakes as well as coffee and went to sit down in the seat next to Billie Joe.
"What's up buddy you have hardly said a word" Mike asked Joey.
Joey just looked glumly at his plate. Not wanting to answer Mikes question.
"Oh last night Joey became a m... " Billie started to rely for Joey.
Joey cringed as Billie was about to revel Joeys what happen to him.
"Joey became sick" I butted in placing my hand on Joey's head.
"Well I think you temperature has come down" I said trying to back up my story.
Mike raised and eyebrow as he knew something was up.
"Oh I'm sorry to heard that buddy" Mike told Joey.
"I don't feel like eating... can I be excused" Joey asked me.
"Yeah sure." I told him a bit concerned.
As soon as Joey had left the room and we heard his bedroom door close. Mike asked.
"So what's really up with Joey?"
Before I had time to answer Billie had already filled Mike in on what happened.
"Joey became a man"
I hit Billie Joe on the arm lightly.
"What I would have told them sooner or later" Billie sated sipping on his coffee.
"It's not your place to tell" I huffed placing my head in my hands.
"What does that mean?" Jake piped up.
We all turned and looked at him. Tre have choked on the pancake he was eating.
"Do you want to fill him in Billie?" I said after alone pause.
"Oh no I'm not giving 'THE TALK' twice in one day" Billie replied.
