"It Was A Secret That Killed Us.", chapter 5
I fell asleep during the rest of the time. When I woke up it was 8:30PM. Lewis walked in over and sat beside me "Do want me to get you anything when I go into town?"
I thought for a second. Do I ask him to pick me up a home pregnancy kit? No I think I will do it later.
I shook my head no, he bent down and kissed me goodbye. When he left I sighed and decided to get up, maybe I should ask one of the guys to come with me, as Hazel is in hospital she can't come with me. So maybe I should ask Billie Joe or Mike... I think Mike. I have known him longer.
I get up and make my way over to the bathroom, swinging the door open and running my bath for the second time. I jump in and have a quick wash. After I get out dry myself off and put on some new clothes. My jeans and a Lewis's System Of A Down top which is two sizes too big for me.
Running down the stairs the phone begins to ring, I jog over to it picking up the receiver "Hello?"
"Hey, is it okay If I come over?" came Billie Joe's voice. Well I was going to ask Mike, but Billie Joe is second to best. I agree and Billie says he will be here within the next 5 minutes... which means he will be here in the space of 40 seconds. He's always early.
I sat down and waited for a few minutes, there was a knock on the door. I got up and opened it, seeing green eyes slightly watery. I look at him weirdly, I haven't seen Billie like this in a long time. I invite him in, and he sits down on the sofa. Not a word spoke between us.
I went to sit down but he grabbed my hand and hugged my stomach. What was really wrong with him? "Billie... what's going on with you?"
"I just l-left mom's house and B-Brad had her by the throat. I couldn't help her Cass... I couldn't defend her!" Billie sniffed making the shirt I was wearing damp. I pat his back breaking from his tightening grip, I sat down next to him and hugged him assuring him everything will be fine.
I looked into the depth of his beautiful green eyes. I noticed something, something I never noticed before. It was drawing me in... closer and closer till our lips were no longer inches apart. We was about to close the gap that was closing in until I snapped back "No... " I say quickly.
Billie sighed moving away from me again. I turned away, guilty about what I would have done. My eyes were magnets to his, hard to pull away. I found them attached. Again we began to draw close together, this time faster not as slow as before. Our lips clashed together. His lips were so soft, I felt his hand rub up against my back.
I was being pushed down onto the sofa as he rolled on top of me. We knew it was wrong, a bad idea that just felt so good. He began at my shirt lifting it up, kissing down my stomach I push at his head, pushing it away from my stomach. "No, sorry we can't do this. I need to ask a favour of you," I say.
"If it's sex I will do it!" Billie Joe grins. I shook my head laughing.
"It means driving me to the chemist and I will pick something up." He looks at me oddly squinting trying to pick it all up... then it hits him. His jaw drops. He looks at my stomach and points then back at my face.
"Are you p-preg-" Billie says stunned.
"I don't know yet. And until I find out. Your not saying anything!" I say looking down at my feet, sighing "And your not to say anything about the kiss either." Billie Joe almost forgot about that if it as possible.
"Don't worry about the kiss... I wont say anything even if I got tortured over it!" Well... at least that was safe. I grab my knew skull Vans slippers and slide them on before grabbing the house keys and wondering out. I notice Billie Joe's car was know where. "I guess it will be walking... " I mutter.
We began walking. Not before long we were finally at the chemist. I hurried in there, looking over it all. Tablets, combs, shampoos, condoms. Home pregnancy kits. I nervously pick it up taking it over to the counter. The man behind the counter, very sexy. Emo hair cut, lip piercing eyeliner rimmed with a bit of pink. I raise my eyebrow at him, he does so when he looks at the pregnancy kit then me. "You look young to be a mother-to-be." I look at him.
"If you can tell I'm pregnant your amazing. But in the meantime... we'll have to wait and see... uh... " I looked at his name tag "Dan."
I paid for the item and took the bag and change from Dan "See you around sweets. Maybe next time I see you in here, there could be a bump under that shirt of yours." I smile at the thought... but it slowly fades.
"Thanks for the thing. See ya," I leave in a hurry, dragging Billie Joe with me.
We finally get back to my house. I open the door and frantically run to the bathroom opening the box pulling out the test along with the instructions. "Okay, so I pee on the stick and when it's done wait for the results I no that shit... RIGHT... if it's red... then I'm dead. If Yellow... I can leave on!" My stomach tightens and I piss on the stick.
I finish and flush the toilet. I leave it for a minute worried for the results. I shout for Billie to come with me. He reached the bathroom and I was facing the wall not looking "Look... please... for me."
"No I'm not sure I really want to," Billie Joe protested.
"PLEASE LOOK FOR ME!" I shouted. Billie Joe gave in and looked. I didn't look at his face I heard a sigh then a groan.
"Cassie... Cassie I think you should look," I turn found. My eyes widened. I stare at the colour long and hard. It's green. What the hell did green mean? I look everywhere for the instructions finding them by the door I read them over again. I say out loud "If turns another colour you must wait for the results to clear. This gives you a more chance of not being pregnant. Good luck with the results you would like to show."
After I finish reading I look up to find the test already changed a challenging colour.
The red windows hit my face with all it's force. I sat staring at it. Speechless. "Well... " I spoke "I guess that's my life fucked right?"
"No, no it might be wrong for the first time. Try another one," Billie Joe says biting his lip.
I thought for a second. Do I ask him to pick me up a home pregnancy kit? No I think I will do it later.
I shook my head no, he bent down and kissed me goodbye. When he left I sighed and decided to get up, maybe I should ask one of the guys to come with me, as Hazel is in hospital she can't come with me. So maybe I should ask Billie Joe or Mike... I think Mike. I have known him longer.
I get up and make my way over to the bathroom, swinging the door open and running my bath for the second time. I jump in and have a quick wash. After I get out dry myself off and put on some new clothes. My jeans and a Lewis's System Of A Down top which is two sizes too big for me.
Running down the stairs the phone begins to ring, I jog over to it picking up the receiver "Hello?"
"Hey, is it okay If I come over?" came Billie Joe's voice. Well I was going to ask Mike, but Billie Joe is second to best. I agree and Billie says he will be here within the next 5 minutes... which means he will be here in the space of 40 seconds. He's always early.
I sat down and waited for a few minutes, there was a knock on the door. I got up and opened it, seeing green eyes slightly watery. I look at him weirdly, I haven't seen Billie like this in a long time. I invite him in, and he sits down on the sofa. Not a word spoke between us.
I went to sit down but he grabbed my hand and hugged my stomach. What was really wrong with him? "Billie... what's going on with you?"
"I just l-left mom's house and B-Brad had her by the throat. I couldn't help her Cass... I couldn't defend her!" Billie sniffed making the shirt I was wearing damp. I pat his back breaking from his tightening grip, I sat down next to him and hugged him assuring him everything will be fine.
I looked into the depth of his beautiful green eyes. I noticed something, something I never noticed before. It was drawing me in... closer and closer till our lips were no longer inches apart. We was about to close the gap that was closing in until I snapped back "No... " I say quickly.
Billie sighed moving away from me again. I turned away, guilty about what I would have done. My eyes were magnets to his, hard to pull away. I found them attached. Again we began to draw close together, this time faster not as slow as before. Our lips clashed together. His lips were so soft, I felt his hand rub up against my back.
I was being pushed down onto the sofa as he rolled on top of me. We knew it was wrong, a bad idea that just felt so good. He began at my shirt lifting it up, kissing down my stomach I push at his head, pushing it away from my stomach. "No, sorry we can't do this. I need to ask a favour of you," I say.
"If it's sex I will do it!" Billie Joe grins. I shook my head laughing.
"It means driving me to the chemist and I will pick something up." He looks at me oddly squinting trying to pick it all up... then it hits him. His jaw drops. He looks at my stomach and points then back at my face.
"Are you p-preg-" Billie says stunned.
"I don't know yet. And until I find out. Your not saying anything!" I say looking down at my feet, sighing "And your not to say anything about the kiss either." Billie Joe almost forgot about that if it as possible.
"Don't worry about the kiss... I wont say anything even if I got tortured over it!" Well... at least that was safe. I grab my knew skull Vans slippers and slide them on before grabbing the house keys and wondering out. I notice Billie Joe's car was know where. "I guess it will be walking... " I mutter.
We began walking. Not before long we were finally at the chemist. I hurried in there, looking over it all. Tablets, combs, shampoos, condoms. Home pregnancy kits. I nervously pick it up taking it over to the counter. The man behind the counter, very sexy. Emo hair cut, lip piercing eyeliner rimmed with a bit of pink. I raise my eyebrow at him, he does so when he looks at the pregnancy kit then me. "You look young to be a mother-to-be." I look at him.
"If you can tell I'm pregnant your amazing. But in the meantime... we'll have to wait and see... uh... " I looked at his name tag "Dan."
I paid for the item and took the bag and change from Dan "See you around sweets. Maybe next time I see you in here, there could be a bump under that shirt of yours." I smile at the thought... but it slowly fades.
"Thanks for the thing. See ya," I leave in a hurry, dragging Billie Joe with me.
We finally get back to my house. I open the door and frantically run to the bathroom opening the box pulling out the test along with the instructions. "Okay, so I pee on the stick and when it's done wait for the results I no that shit... RIGHT... if it's red... then I'm dead. If Yellow... I can leave on!" My stomach tightens and I piss on the stick.
I finish and flush the toilet. I leave it for a minute worried for the results. I shout for Billie to come with me. He reached the bathroom and I was facing the wall not looking "Look... please... for me."
"No I'm not sure I really want to," Billie Joe protested.
"PLEASE LOOK FOR ME!" I shouted. Billie Joe gave in and looked. I didn't look at his face I heard a sigh then a groan.
"Cassie... Cassie I think you should look," I turn found. My eyes widened. I stare at the colour long and hard. It's green. What the hell did green mean? I look everywhere for the instructions finding them by the door I read them over again. I say out loud "If turns another colour you must wait for the results to clear. This gives you a more chance of not being pregnant. Good luck with the results you would like to show."
After I finish reading I look up to find the test already changed a challenging colour.
The red windows hit my face with all it's force. I sat staring at it. Speechless. "Well... " I spoke "I guess that's my life fucked right?"
"No, no it might be wrong for the first time. Try another one," Billie Joe says biting his lip.
