Running away...the best thing I ever did., chapter 6
Recap
He kissed me softly on the lips his hands slid down and rested on the small of my back. I knew then that I was going to be alright, as long as I was with Tré, I would survive.
End recap
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A few days later, I was feeling a lot better, even though I was devastated about the baby; I knew that things could only get better. Tré and I decided that we would have a small funeral for the unborn baby. We spent hours deciding what should go on the grave stone but we eventually decided.
We never knew you
But you filled our hearts
With joy
We'll love you always baby
On the day of the funeral, we only had me, Tré, Billie Joe, Adrienne and Mike there. I was shaking all the way through the service, holding Tré's hand all the way through. After the funeral, we went back to Mike's for a bit. Billie, Tré and Mike talked in the kitchen and Adie and I were in the living room.
"How are you holding up?" asked Adie.
"Um, I'm still a bit confused about everything," I replied, "Tré's been great though, I couldn't have done it without him, but I think he was a little freaked when he found me with a razor in my hand though."
"You didn't!"
"No," I shook my head, "Tré stopped me, but I don't think I was going to anyway."
Adie nodded.
"You ever need someone to talk to; you just come to me, O.K?"
"Thanks Adie," I said smiling weakly.
"No problem, now, lets go make sure the others don't get too drunk," she said grinning.
I nodded and followed her out of the living room.
We went into the kitchen and found Mike, Billie and Tré all sitting down, a beer in hand, talking quietly.
Tré stood up when he saw me and came over and gave me a brief hug.
"You alright?" he asked.
I nodded, uncertainly.
"Do you want to go home?"
I nodded again; I just wanted to be alone with Tré right now.
"O.K, guys, we're gonna split," said Tré putting down his beer, "Thanks for, you know, everything... "
We said bye and went back home.
We got in the house and I practically collapsed on the couch.
Tré sat beside me and I cuddled up to him, happy to have someone there for me. We stayed like that for what seemed like hours, just happy to be together.
I fell asleep after a while and I guess Tré had taken me upstairs, because when I woke up I was in bed. I looked at my alarm clock, 10am.
I got out of bed and had a shower and got changed. I looked at my reflection in the mirror, I was very pale. I went downstairs and found Tré in the kitchen.
"Hey," I murmured picking up a piece of toast and sitting down.
"Hey Lucy, sleep well?"
I shrugged.
"I thought that maybe today, we could go catch a movie or something," said Tré.
I shrugged again.
"O.K, why don't we go out for lunch?"
Another shrug.
"What do you want to do?" asked Tré, "And don't shrug."
"I don't know," I whispered.
Tré came over to me and gave me a hug.
"Do you just want to stay at home?" he asked quietly.
I nodded and wrapped my arms round him.
"O.K.," he said, kissing my head.
"Sorry," I mumbled.
"Don't be sorry about anything," he replied, "Don't worry, things can only get better."
He kissed me softly on the lips his hands slid down and rested on the small of my back. I knew then that I was going to be alright, as long as I was with Tré, I would survive.
End recap
***
A few days later, I was feeling a lot better, even though I was devastated about the baby; I knew that things could only get better. Tré and I decided that we would have a small funeral for the unborn baby. We spent hours deciding what should go on the grave stone but we eventually decided.
We never knew you
But you filled our hearts
With joy
We'll love you always baby
On the day of the funeral, we only had me, Tré, Billie Joe, Adrienne and Mike there. I was shaking all the way through the service, holding Tré's hand all the way through. After the funeral, we went back to Mike's for a bit. Billie, Tré and Mike talked in the kitchen and Adie and I were in the living room.
"How are you holding up?" asked Adie.
"Um, I'm still a bit confused about everything," I replied, "Tré's been great though, I couldn't have done it without him, but I think he was a little freaked when he found me with a razor in my hand though."
"You didn't!"
"No," I shook my head, "Tré stopped me, but I don't think I was going to anyway."
Adie nodded.
"You ever need someone to talk to; you just come to me, O.K?"
"Thanks Adie," I said smiling weakly.
"No problem, now, lets go make sure the others don't get too drunk," she said grinning.
I nodded and followed her out of the living room.
We went into the kitchen and found Mike, Billie and Tré all sitting down, a beer in hand, talking quietly.
Tré stood up when he saw me and came over and gave me a brief hug.
"You alright?" he asked.
I nodded, uncertainly.
"Do you want to go home?"
I nodded again; I just wanted to be alone with Tré right now.
"O.K, guys, we're gonna split," said Tré putting down his beer, "Thanks for, you know, everything... "
We said bye and went back home.
We got in the house and I practically collapsed on the couch.
Tré sat beside me and I cuddled up to him, happy to have someone there for me. We stayed like that for what seemed like hours, just happy to be together.
I fell asleep after a while and I guess Tré had taken me upstairs, because when I woke up I was in bed. I looked at my alarm clock, 10am.
I got out of bed and had a shower and got changed. I looked at my reflection in the mirror, I was very pale. I went downstairs and found Tré in the kitchen.
"Hey," I murmured picking up a piece of toast and sitting down.
"Hey Lucy, sleep well?"
I shrugged.
"I thought that maybe today, we could go catch a movie or something," said Tré.
I shrugged again.
"O.K, why don't we go out for lunch?"
Another shrug.
"What do you want to do?" asked Tré, "And don't shrug."
"I don't know," I whispered.
Tré came over to me and gave me a hug.
"Do you just want to stay at home?" he asked quietly.
I nodded and wrapped my arms round him.
"O.K.," he said, kissing my head.
"Sorry," I mumbled.
"Don't be sorry about anything," he replied, "Don't worry, things can only get better."
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