I think I might be going mad...
and I've realised something: I am probably the least likeable person alive.
I noticed this when I looked at the GSB awards thing. The list of...things, yeah?
I don't make blogs unless I really need to, my idea of debating is "piss off" "no, you piss off". I'm not a moderator or a newbie. I'm too confused for profiles or topics, the only things I've ever been addicted to are...OK, never mind. I'm about as entertaining as a wet sock, I'm not helpful and don't know how to be. People wouldn't say I was individual, because they don't know how I think.
Which leads me to the reason why I think I'm going insane and why I'm so unpopular, both in real life and online; no one else seems to understand my way of thinking. I honestly don't know why.
I seriously think that I have some sort of personality disorder. Or something.
Actually, maybe I'm just a horrible person.
When I read interviews, or listen to music or watch TV, I look for anything I have in common with the person/people...well, you know what I mean.
And I must say, I haven't found very many. When I find...say, a musician who reminds me even a tiny bit of me, then they become...sort of an idol to me, or a strange obsession. I can never explain it, but...yeah.
I was watching something on TV a few days ago - a reality TV show called Castaway. And one of the people on it, I think that all the others thought that he was just there to cause trouble and upset people. And I thought, "that's a bit like what I try to do on GSB, sometimes". And it is.
I don't know what the point of this blog is, it's just...
I don't know.
I don't like me very much.
I noticed this when I looked at the GSB awards thing. The list of...things, yeah?
I don't make blogs unless I really need to, my idea of debating is "piss off" "no, you piss off". I'm not a moderator or a newbie. I'm too confused for profiles or topics, the only things I've ever been addicted to are...OK, never mind. I'm about as entertaining as a wet sock, I'm not helpful and don't know how to be. People wouldn't say I was individual, because they don't know how I think.
Which leads me to the reason why I think I'm going insane and why I'm so unpopular, both in real life and online; no one else seems to understand my way of thinking. I honestly don't know why.
I seriously think that I have some sort of personality disorder. Or something.
Actually, maybe I'm just a horrible person.
When I read interviews, or listen to music or watch TV, I look for anything I have in common with the person/people...well, you know what I mean.
And I must say, I haven't found very many. When I find...say, a musician who reminds me even a tiny bit of me, then they become...sort of an idol to me, or a strange obsession. I can never explain it, but...yeah.
I was watching something on TV a few days ago - a reality TV show called Castaway. And one of the people on it, I think that all the others thought that he was just there to cause trouble and upset people. And I thought, "that's a bit like what I try to do on GSB, sometimes". And it is.
I don't know what the point of this blog is, it's just...
I don't know.
I don't like me very much.
I'm not asking for votes, I don't even go on the message boards so you know...
But...yeah I dunno what I'm talking about now.
Vicious.., April 16th, 2007 at 10:39:48am
Thats not true.
a wet sock can be very entertaining.
it depends on what you do with it.
waiting_a_long_time, April 15th, 2007 at 10:52:46pm
Well I'm sure your friends on here would've voted you for something. [:
If I was your friend, I probably would've voted best blogger because this blog was really good.
Skippy., April 15th, 2007 at 10:15:17pm
I know where you're coming from, you seem like a lovely person to me really.
Not many people like themselves but that's just part of growing up and accepting change and who you are.
About trying to find people that are a bit like you, maybe it's a good thing you have a unique personality.
I don't know.
lili, April 15th, 2007 at 07:36:26pm